Team Xu, Please Hug II

Chapter 128 Who Doesn't Heartache?

Si Nanqing looked at Xu Yingzhi intently, this time she didn't dodge anything.

Suddenly, she stretched out a hand and stroked Xu Yingzhi's face: "I'm not cruel, I'm afraid you will worry, and I don't have to break up with you, I'm afraid of delaying you."

"I know that work is not just a job for you, it is a mission. I don't want you to delay your own life for my affairs."

"Accordingly, do you understand? It's not that I don't love you, it's that I'm afraid..."

Si Nanqing suddenly choked up, she looked away, and put down her hand, but when she was about to put it down, Xu Yingzhi grabbed it.

What Si Nanqing said was correct, although she didn't tell Xu Yingzhi everything, at least part of it was true.

But as she talked, her heart hurt so much that she couldn't continue talking, she was worried that she would tell the whole story.

She really didn't want to take those things to heart, but she couldn't help it.

She knew better than anyone else what Xu Yingzhi wanted in the future, but now she seemed unable to help him too much, and might cause him trouble.

"That's why you don't trust me so much. Do you think we can only share blessings but not adversity?" Xu Yingzhi held Si Nanqing's hand, she didn't look at herself.

Xu Yingzhi wanted Si Nanqing to continue looking at him, because when he looked at the other person and spoke, his eyes would be sincere, and lying would be recognized quickly.

But Si Nanqing just lowered her head and didn't look at Xu Yingzhi.

"You answer me." Xu Yingzhi squeezed Si Nanqing's hand and pulled her to his side.

Feel the sense of oppression brought by Xu Yingzhi.

forced to look at him.

"I've already given you the answer you want. I broke up with you, not because I don't love you, but because I'm afraid that I will delay you."

"What about now? Why are you back?" Xu Yingzhi always wanted an answer, but unexpectedly, it was this reason that she heard from her own mouth.

What Xu Yingzhi thought was that she didn't trust him.

"I came back for you. In the past two years, I didn't dare to contact you. I was worried that I couldn't wait to come back. I kept holding back, but that day..."

"I saw your photo that day, and I was suffering for a few days. I kept telling myself, don't come back, don't come back, but I couldn't help it, so I ran back secretly, thinking that I would be eager to see you when I came back. Seeing you, but I found that I still don't have the courage, I'm afraid you won't forgive me."

"I don't even dare to think that you still love me."

Si Nanqing's eyes were sincere, she looked into Xu Yingzhi's eyes, and there was herself in them.

After Si Nanqing finished speaking, she stared at Xu Yingzhi, she wanted to see his reaction from Xu Yingzhi's face.

but--

Xu Yingzhi let go of her hand.

Looking at the falling hand, for a moment, her heart also sank to the bottom of the valley.

She didn't understand what Xu Yingzhi meant.

She waited for a long time, but did not get Xu Yingzhi's answer, and he just looked at herself inquiringly.

"Should it be?"

"Can I still believe what you said?" What Xu Yingzhi gave was not an affirmative sentence, but a question sentence,
"Why not, I know you are angry, I know you are sad and you are unhappy, and so am I. It's not that I don't want to talk to you, it's just that I haven't figured out how to say it."

"Miss Si, you have a brilliant tongue. Is there anything else you don't know? Right now, to me, you are saying the same thing as those reporters." Xu Yingzhi said, taking a step back.

Si Nanqing's face immediately collapsed, and she frowned tightly.

Xu Yingzhi seemed to be getting further and further away from him.

"You can't say that about me, everything I said to you is true." Si Nanqing took a step forward, and Xu Yingzhi took another step back.

Si Nanqing stopped immediately.

"Xu Yingzhi, what do you mean?"

"It's not that you asked me what I meant. I should have asked you. You didn't tell me the truth at all. You know I'm a policeman. I can't stand people lying to me, especially the one I love."

"You don't tell me anything, you just don't trust me. Two people who love each other support each other and depend on each other when they are together, but when you encounter problems, you push me away."

"You're not doing it for my own good. You're stabbing my heart. Do you know what it feels like?"

"You didn't even dare to face me when you broke up, and you needed someone else to say those two words instead. Did you consider my feelings when you did this?"

"Now... It's been two years, and you've come back without a sound. How can you be so sure that I still have you in my heart, and that I'm still willing to continue being with you?"

"Or, you came back to meet those famous young masters, such as Bian Shu?"

"Huh..." After hearing Xu Yingzhi's words, Si Nanqing's heart was suffocated.

Well, these are all her own fault.

She let out a breath, took a few steps back, and sat down again.

"I know you're angry, and I'm trying to beg your forgiveness. I'm not here to meet some rich young master. I don't need to do that at all."

"Of course, the Si family is rich and powerful. The only daughter of the Si family, Miss, must be different from us. Although I am the young master of the Xu family, I am only the second young master."

"How can you compare with the Bian family..."

"Xu Yingzhi, you're enough..." Si Nanqing couldn't hear what Xu Yingzhi said, and this time it was her who got angry.

She got up, rushed to Xu Yingzhi, and pushed him away.

"Oh? I'm not right, or I'm too right. Are you angry?" On the one hand, Xu Yingzhi was really angry and couldn't control his temper; I understand everything.

He can be sure that Si Nanqing hides a secret in her heart, a secret that she cannot let her know.

"I'm angry? What's wrong with me? It's you who spoke out loud, Xu Yingzhi, I'm warning you, don't provoke me here, if you continue to doubt my feelings for you, then I don't want anything, especially you."

"I've made it very clear. I'm fine. I'm healthy. When I left you, I didn't want to delay you. Whether you believe it or not, I can only say so much."

"Is the past really that important? Can't we look forward?"

"Why do you insist on holding on to the past? You are not handling a case now. Are you suffering from an occupational disease?"

"I'm not your prisoner either, so don't interrogate me like this."

"It doesn't make any sense." Si Nanqing suddenly calmed down, and she shook her head.

So what if I tell you, you already think so, you have already begun to doubt my feelings for you.

Is there a future between us?

It's worse than having cancer.

At least one knew that their time was short, but they seemed to lose sight of hope.

(End of this chapter)