She is cute and has a thousand layers of routines

Chapter 179 I want to hold your hand like this
Shen Nianchu froze for a moment: "What?"

Cai Jiayi asked softly: "Do you think your feelings for Chen Jiayu are really liking or love?"

Shen Nianchu replied without thinking: "Isn't it? If I didn't like Chen Jiayu, how could I be in such pain and sadness now?"

Cai Jiayi looked at her, smiled, and asked suddenly, "Student Shen, you should have heard the story of Snow White, right?"

Shen Nianchu was startled, but did not answer.

Snow White is a fairy tale that almost everyone is familiar with, so it is impossible for her not to have heard of it.

However, what is the intention of the other party asking such a sentence suddenly?

Cai Jiayi said softly: "Snow White's stepmother asked the magic mirror every day: "Magic mirror, magic mirror, tell me, who is the most beautiful woman in this world?" "When the magic mirror said that she was the most beautiful woman in the world, she would be very happy. But one day, when the magic mirror told her that the most beautiful woman in the world had become Snow White, the stepmother lost her anger. Insane, even to murder Snow White's life."

Shen Nianchu said coldly: "Do you think I'm a child? Why are you talking nonsense to me?"

"Ah, I just want to analyze it from a psychological perspective." Cai Jiayi curled her lips and said unhurriedly, "In psychology, there is a term called dependent high self-esteem. Snow White's stepmother is a typical example. She needs Her high self-esteem is dependent on the mirror's feedback, and in fact, her self-esteem is fragile."

At this moment, a large cloud moved to the top of the head, bringing a shadow, the girl's figure was shrouded in the shadow, the expression on her fair face was unrecognizable, but those eyes seemed to be able to see the depths of people's hearts.

"Student Shen, you are the same way." She said quietly.

"You are indeed excellent, but at the same time, your self-esteem is also based on your excellence. Once you lose to others, you can't stand it. You will feel that you have lost recognition and even have a feeling of being abandoned. The feeling of being hurt..."

"Like a spoiled child, Chen Jiayu is a toy that is not so rare for you. You would rather throw it aside and not play with it. But when someone wins you away, you start to think that this toy is good, and you will try your best to get rid of it." How to get it back, if you can't get it back, you will start throwing and rolling all over the floor. Actually...you don't necessarily like this toy very much, you just don't want to lose to others."

After a pause, Cai Jiayi looked at Shen Nianchu with pity, and said slowly, "Maybe, it can't be said that you don't love him at all, but obviously, what you love the most is your own wounded self-esteem."

"You...do you think you are some kind of psychologist?" Shen Nianchu came back to his senses and blurted out, "Nonsense!"

……

Chen Jiayu came out of the office of the language group, put the registration form in his trouser pocket, and then quickly left the teaching building.

Looking across the playground to the opposite stand, there are two figures of girls on it.

It's just that it's too far away to see clearly.

One should be Cai Jiayi, and the other is facing away from him, but it looks familiar.

"Forget it, whoever she is."

After walking for a while, Chen Jiayu suddenly noticed the identity of the other girl.

"Shen Nianchu? Why are they together?"

After being startled for a moment, he immediately quickened his pace, changing from walking to running.

……

Cai Jiayi blinked lightly, and said: "Oh, there is another word, the essence of pride is often low self-esteem."

"what?"

"Actually, you are a very low self-esteem and lack of love, right? Hmm... Is it because your parents are too strict?"

Shen Nianchu's black and white pupils froze slightly.

Cai Jiayi curled her lips and said slowly: "Those who care too much about winning or losing almost all have one characteristic - they were asked by their parents or caregivers to be the person they expected in childhood. What do you think they love is That excellent you will be afraid that what you are not good enough will cause you to lose their love, and you long to be loved, so you will develop a character that you can't afford to lose."

Shen Nianchu's face turned white.

She was so shocked that she subconsciously even forgot to refute Cai Jiayi's words.

She was tempted to say "you're talking nonsense", "how could I be afraid of this?"

But she couldn't speak.

Because what Cai Jiayi said was basically the truth.

Mother Luo Jin is an extremely powerful person who wants to be in control. Ever since she was a child, everything has been arranged clearly by Luo Jin. Luo Jin's standard is to be the best and perfect.

Occasionally, he failed to meet the requirements once or twice, and what he got was Luo Jin's cold face and punishment.

Over time, a deep-rooted idea formed in Shen Nianchu's subconscious mind - those who love her are only because of her excellence.

If one day she is no longer excellent, then no one will love her anymore.

Therefore, she has to do her best in everything.

"You are so proud on the surface, but in fact you lack love in your heart, you really long for love." Cai Jiayi smiled, "So, when you find out that you may lose Chen Jiayu, you will be so unwilling. Because, he used to be sincere I loved you...you started to notice his excellence, and you don't want to lose his love..."

Cai Jiayi ruthlessly uncovered the deepest secrets in her heart and exposed them to the broad daylight.

A strong sense of shame turned Shen Nianchu's face into a bleak one, and her hands tightly held onto Cai Jiayi.

"Stop, stop talking!!!"

"But, no one has taught you how to love, and you don't know what love is..."

"Didn't you hear?! I told you to stop talking!!"

"...So, your final outcome is doomed to lose him."

Shen Nianchu's pupils shrank sharply: "Shut up!"

At this time, her anger far surpassed any moment before today. The anger reached her mind as if a small explosion appeared directly. !
It wasn't until Cai Jiayi let out an exclamation and fell heavily backwards on the stands that Shen Nianchu finally realized what she had done.

The playground was empty, and Cai Jiayi's exclamation spread unobstructed in an instant. In an instant, most of the students on the playground looked towards this side in unison. After seeing clearly, someone immediately uttered a voice in surprise. .

"Isn't that Shen Nianchu and Cai Jiayi?"

"What are they doing?"

"Why did Cai Jiayi fall down, didn't she stand still?"

"Am I wrong? It seems that Shen Nianchu pushed her just now?"

Shen Nianchu stood there blankly, his face turned pale, every nerve in his body seemed to be frozen by ice water, unable to respond in any way.

How could she do such a thing?

She, who has always regarded herself as polite and gentle, would lose control to the point of pushing people?

……

Shen Nianchu couldn't believe it, and took two steps back trembling, unable to accept this fact.So much so that she couldn't react when someone strode straight past her and headed straight for Cai Jiayi.

Chen Jiayu rushed to Cai Jiayi's side in three steps at a time, half knelt down, and reached out to help her, "How are you, are you okay?"

Cai Jiayi supported his arm, and was about to use his strength to stand up, but as soon as one foot was exerted, she felt pain from the ankle, and she couldn't help but gasped: "It hurts."

Chen Jiayu looked up at Shen Nianchu.

Only then did Shen Nianchu realize that it was him, and she froze. In her impression, the young man was always gentle and calm. At this time, he was still calm, but it was completely different from the previous one. The surface of the lake is calm but warm.But the tranquility at this time is like a frozen lake in the cold winter, impervious to light, calm and indifferent.

At this time, she would rather Chen Jiayu get angry at her, yell at her and scold her, than this calm and shocking appearance.

Shen Nianchu looked at him helplessly, trying to explain that she didn't do it on purpose, but her throat seemed to be frozen and she couldn't make any sound.

She couldn't justify herself.

Because, she knew, she did.

"It's not what you think. It's because I didn't stand firm. It has nothing to do with her..." Cai Jiayi's fingers gripped Chen Jiayu's sleeve, she bit her lip, her eyebrows frowned, but she said softly, "It's nothing It’s a big deal, it’s probably just a sprained foot, you can help me to the infirmary first.”

Shen Nianchu turned his head suddenly, and looked at Cai Jiayi blankly, completely stunned by this accident.

She was lying and speaking for herself, instead of angrily accusing Chen Jiayu of pushing her by herself?

You know, this accusation is enough to push her into the bottomless abyss, and she can never turn back.

Why doesn't she do it?

why?
Chen Jiayu looked away from Shen Nianchu, half-squatted and turned her back to her, her voice softened: "Help me, I'll carry you."

Cai Jiayi smiled, and slowly leaned over his broad back, hugging his neck with both hands: "Okay, I'll thank you then."

"Are you ready?"

"Ah."

Chen Jiayu bent her hands from behind her knees, supported her firmly, and slowly stood up.

The sudden imbalance of the center of gravity caused Cai Jiayi to moan softly, and the hand that hugged Chen Jiayu's neck tightened by two points.

After confirming that the memorization was done, Chen Jiayu walked down the stands carefully step by step.

Like a puppet on a string, Shen Nianchu stood there numbly, looking at them, no expression could be discerned on his pale face, and he didn't speak for a long time.

At this moment, even she herself didn't know what she was thinking.

……

Chen Jiayu carried Cai Jiayi on her back and walked to the school's infirmary.

As his footsteps moved, her body also vibrated slightly on his back, which felt very strange.

There are quite a lot of people on the playground, and from time to time someone casts strange glances and is still talking about something.

Cai Jiayi was probably a little embarrassed, so she buried her face deeply on Chen Jiayu's shoulder. Then, a little bit of warm breath seeped in from the cloth on Chen Jiayu's shoulder, making him feel hot. Itchy.

After a while, she asked in a low voice: "Is it heavy?"

"Tsk, it's just your weight."

He didn't say what the weight was, but the implication was very clear that it wasn't enough to see.

Cai Jiayi rubbed her face against his shoulder and smiled softly.

The infirmary is located on the first floor of the administration building.

There was a female doctor on duty inside, she didn't make a fuss when she saw Chen Jiayu coming in with Cai Jiayi on her back, she just asked, "What's wrong?"

"She fell and said her foot hurt, maybe she twisted her foot." Chen Jiayu said.

The female doctor stood up and said as she walked into the inner room, "Put her on the bed inside, and I'll check it out."

Entering the inner room, there were two small beds inside. Chen Jiayu half-bent down and let Cai Jiayi sit on one of the beds.

The female doctor asked her which ankle was sprained, so she asked her to take off her shoes and socks, then held her ankle, looked carefully, stretched out her hand, pinched it, and did some checks, before she said: "It's nothing, It's just a sprained foot and a slight contusion of the soft tissue. It's not a big problem. It's fine to take some medicine first, and then fix it with an elastic bandage. However, don't use too much force for a week, let alone strenuous activities, otherwise the recovery will be slow. "

Only then did Chen Jiayu heave a sigh of relief.

After everything was processed, another ten minutes passed.

The female doctor asked Cai Jiayi to stay on the bed for a while, observe, and don't rush to move around, while she went outside.

In the examination room, at this moment, only Chen Jiayu and Cai Jiayi were left.

The light blue curtains were blown by the breeze outside, and the warm autumn sun made the whole room quiet and bright. There was a strong smell of disinfectant, but it was not unpleasant.

Cai Jiayi sat on the bed, her legs stretched out straight, her fingers curling her hair back and forth boredly, occasionally she glanced at Chen Jiayu, and then quickly retracted it.

Chen Jiayu suddenly thought of something and stood up from the chair.Said: "I'll help you buy something to eat, and I'll be right back."

"Wait a moment."

Cai Jiayi said.

Chen Jiayu stopped, turned around and asked, "What's wrong?"

She pretended to be casual and asked, "Did you forget anything?"

Chen Jiayu looked at her, and suddenly laughed: "No."

"is it?"

Chen Jiayu walked to her bed, sat down, looked at her with dark eyes, smiled, but didn't speak.

The room is very quiet, and you can almost hear each other's breathing clearly.

After about three breaths, Chen Jiayu opened his mouth.

"Cai Jiayi?"

"Huh?" She blinked, her long eyelashes curled up, and she looked at him.

Chen Jiayu looked at her, "Let's make up."

"This has already been said."

So, Chen Jiayu stretched out her hand, and then, the big palm grabbed her small hand, feeling the delicateness of her skin, and at the same time, let the temperature of her palm pass through.

"I want to hold your hand like this." The boy said softly, "Is that okay?"

"..."

Cai Jiayi was stunned for a while, lowered her little head, looked at his big hand covering her hand, her eyelashes trembled a few times, and then asked.

"Is this a confession?"

"Ah."

"What do you mean?"

Chen Jiayu looked at her, and said word by word, clearly: "It's because I like you."

"Won't you regret it again?"

"...as long as you promise."

"it is good."

The girl rolled her eyes and said softly, "I agree."

(End of this chapter)