A sickly beauty becomes a god in a horror game

Chapter 351 Chapter 351: Letters and Diaries

[Although I know this letter, it is impossible for you to receive it, but I really don't know who to talk to.

I feel pain every day now, I can't see hope, and I don't know how to hold on.

I used to be very envious of your courage, you can always let it go, but I really can't do it.

How long have we been together?Why is there always one reason or another that separates us?I'm really tired and I want to die.

But there is also Xiaocha, she is only three years old, she is so young, I am not willing to leave her alone, but I really can't bear it anymore.

I am in pain every day now. I told myself, I can’t leave Xiaocha alone, and I thought to myself, or it will be over, and the child can be handed over to her aunt. Her aunt is a person who is easy-going Also very good, definitely take good care of her, I'm really tired.

Qingyue, why did you leave without saying goodbye? 】

There were even dried tears on the paper, Bai Cha didn't know how to describe his mood for a while.

There are too few memories of my parents, and the emotions conveyed in this letter are extremely strange.

There are still fragments of memory left, only the appearance of his father almost going crazy.

At that time, my father's face was no longer handsome, only gloomy and haggard.

Opened the second letter.

All three letters appear to be written at the same time of year, supposedly Mother's birthday.

[I know why you left suddenly! !

Why is this happening? !
why don't you tell me
Why are you always on your own?I am your husband, why won't you discuss it with me? ! ! 】

This letter is extremely short, just a few sentences, the strength of the writer almost tore the paper.

Baicha opened the third seal.

【Qingyue, I'm sorry, I've really had enough.

I know that I do this, and you will be very angry when you find out, and you won't forgive me.

I really couldn't control myself, the first time I realized that I was about to strangle Xiaocha to death, I wished I could die to apologize.

I cried and apologized to her, she just looked at me like that, she said she wasn't angry, she said she hoped I wouldn't be sad, I was really broken...but I don't know why I can't control it, I think I should watch doctor.

I did go to the doctor to prescribe medicine, but it didn't help at all. Every time I got sick, I would hurt her.

Yesterday I had a dream, I dreamed that you came to pick me up, I know, I am finally going to end.

I went to find Fengrui, and I asked her to take care of Xiaocha for me, do you know what she said?"I know, I will," she said.

I asked her why she said such a thing, but she refused to say anything, but I know it must have something to do with you, you have also gone to her, right?

Fengrui promised that I would take good care of Xiaocha, and I left her 20. I don't know if it's enough...but I only have this little savings.

As for Xiaocha... She seems to have a lot of problems with her memory. Does this have something to do with you?It doesn't matter if she doesn't remember, her memory is so good, it's very painful to remember too many things and not be able to forget them.

It's my negligence as a father, I can't even fulfill the most basic responsibilities, if we can meet again... no matter whether you will forgive me or not, I don't want to continue living.

I am a coward. 】

Bai Cha slowly refolded the letter and put it in the envelope.

She opened the notebook.

This is like an essay, a notebook for writing things down. There are some fragments similar to diaries, and other things are also recorded.

But there are many places that are blank.

These blank spaces look like they should have words, and it feels like the notebook left by Yu Zhenzhen.

Most of the non-blank spaces are everyday things.

[12/21, cloudy to cloudy.

When I went to the birth checkup today, I happened to bump into a pregnant woman who was about to give birth, and there was no one to accompany me, so I couldn't find someone to sign.

Suddenly, I felt a little emotional, although Feng Wen and I were destined to take a different path from ordinary people, and this path is always full of dangers, but at least we can have the opportunity to rely on each other, and he will accompany me no matter what he does.

Pregnancy is really hard, I vomited very badly, the doctor said I was seriously malnourished, I was very worried about the baby in my stomach, I hope she can be a healthy baby.

It has been six months now, and the due date is in March. I am still looking forward to meeting the baby. I don’t know who it will look more like. I like Feng Wen’s eyes, and I hope my child’s eyes are like his, just like Fengrui, those eyes look good on a girl. 】

[2/12, sunny.

Fortunately, Xiaocha's life was saved.

I really didn't expect to be born prematurely. I always felt that my psychological quality was already very high, but I was still tortured... which led to the premature birth of the child...

The doctor said that Xiaocha needs to take good care of her in the future, and I really want to take good care of her, but... I don’t know if I can, Feng Wen said, let me not think too much, but I always think about a lot of things recently, I don’t know if it’s right Because it has just been produced.

I just couldn't ignore that dream. 】

[1/15, heavy rain.

Xiaocha is one year old this year, and I am really happy to have her here. No matter how tired I am every time, seeing her makes me feel much more at ease.

It's just that she always likes to cry, and she really feels her head is big. The little girl is a crying bag, what should she do if she is bullied in the future?I'm also timid, and can be startled by anything, alas...

But she is so smart, she seems to be much smarter than ordinary children, so she can remember which one is which one is shown to her at a young age, although she doesn't know those words, but she can sort them out and show her. Which one of the

Very good, as expected of Ji Qingyue's daughter, back then, I was also the most powerful college student in our town! 】

[Generally speaking, as long as you can let go of obsession, there is nothing to be afraid of, but the key is that it is often difficult for people to let go... Is that why there are so many things? 】

[I'm too lazy to remember the date, I've been feeling a lot of headaches lately, am I getting older?Sigh... Xiaocha has also become inexplicably silent recently, which is worrying, is she being bullied in the kindergarten? 】

[4/30, sunny.

Tsk, I was bullied in the kindergarten, I deliberately followed her today, and that little girl dared to bully my daughter, I was so pissed off!

I went directly to their teacher to discuss it, bah!That little girl's parents are still messing around!When it comes to quarreling, my wife has never lost!What virtue!
But my Chacha, you have a bad personality, why are you as limp as your father?If I had known earlier, I shouldn't have made a wish to let you look like your father. You can't even copy your personality!

How can we make the child stunned?That's a really good question. 】

[5/1, light rain.

I thought about taking the children to the amusement park during the holidays, but it turned out that it was raining, and Xiaocha couldn't get wet in the rain.

Every time I see Xiaocha getting sick, I feel very sad. If I had been more determined, I would not have been like this... Speaking of which, the time in the dream seems to be coming soon, so I am a little worried. 】

(End of this chapter)