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Old European buildings stand on both sides of the narrow street, and the walls are covered with vines and moss. The warm red light at dusk pours on the stone road, dragging out Li Mengli's long shadow.

"Mengli?" Li Xiaoyu ran through several intersections, and finally saw Li Mengli's figure in this narrow street, "Where are you going?"

Seeing that Li Xiaoyu was catching up, Li Mengli was still dragging her feet like a corpse, walking towards the setting sun without saying a word.

"Sister Roland called me just now and asked us to go back to eat?" Li Xiaoyu ran over her, turned to face her, and walked backwards at the same time, "You...where did you pick the flowers?"

Holding a bouquet of flowers of various colors in her hands, Li Mengli said dreamily: "In the flower beds by the roadside, they have no meaning to exist just like me."

Li Xiaoyu forced a smile and said: "Why is it meaningless? Look, they are as beautiful as you!"

"But they're not real, just like me, just a fake existence.

They are obviously not real flowers, but they are still treated like flowers.

This is a very painful thing.

Whether it's me or these flowers.

It disappeared a long time ago, didn't it?

This is a fact that no matter how advanced the level of technology is, it cannot be changed. "

Li Mengli stopped, put the tip of her nose on those petals, took a deep breath, and then smiled disappointedly, "The real Li Mengli is allergic to pollen.

But I don't have allergies. "

"Mengli, this is not your problem? These flowers are imitations created by technology, and there is no pollen at all."

"That's the problem." Li Mengli looked up at her slowly, and said, "I'm also a simulation created by technology...

Sister-in-law, don't worry about me anymore, let me get out of here.

After all, I have died.

Even if you stay in the coffee shop, it will only cause trouble for you, and it will not even increase your popularity. "

"What are you talking about? Didn't Mengling say it long ago? She resurrected you with your real body, just replacing a piece of your spine. It's a completely different concept from that kind of artificial human. You still A living human being!" Li Xiaoyu comforted, "It's like a disabled person who has a prosthetic, you can't say he's not human, can you?"

"Humans... don't need to eat and sleep?" Li Mengli squeezed the bouquet tightly in her hand, and said through gritted teeth, "It's like these flowers that don't need to be watered and fertilized are just the product of human beings' self-deception...

No point, no point in existence! "

Li Xiaoyu was silent for a while, then said calmly: "If it wasn't for the sudden disappearance of Carnival Island, Mengling originally planned to tamper with some of your memories, so that you would not remember the things that you have died.

But even if we come to Shengfuer, as long as Li Mengling wants to, we should be able to do that kind of thing at any time, right?

If she only sees you as some machine to fulfill her own fantasies, why not fix you into her ideal sister?
Mengli, it's because Mengling identified you as her biological sister that she hasn't falsified your memory for so long.

Even if she knows you are in pain.

Even every time she sees you in pain, she may feel more pain in her heart than you.

She still hasn't done that either.

Because you are a real person...

You just fell asleep for a long time and just woke up again.

Other than that, you are no different from all of us. "

"But...if everyone thinks this way, why haven't I felt it? Just now, Sister Roland didn't care about my feelings when she spoke, obviously I died once..."

"It's because everyone thinks so!" Li Xiaoyu interrupted her and said seriously, "It's because you are no different from us, so Sister Luo Lan doesn't care about your feelings!
Do normal people always need special care?

Only patients with fragile minds will be carefully taken into account at all times, right? "

Hearing this, Li Mengli looked at Li Xiaoyu pitifully, and said, "Really, Miss? Don't lie to me..."

"Okay, let's go back to eat." Li Xiaoyu patted her on the shoulder, "Even that greedy Xiaolan is waiting for you."

"Okay..." Li Mengli finally listened to the persuasion and walked back, muttering, "It's a waste to give me food. After all, I died before, so I don't need to eat now."

"Okay, okay, you, know how to be content, don't need to eat and sleep, these are the superpowers that many people envy." Li Xiaoyu took her hand and shook it vigorously, "Being happy , How lucky is it to be alive? There are so many things in the world that we haven't experienced!"

"Maybe it is..." Li Mengli looked at the pedestrians on the street ahead, seeming to be catching up with time in a hurry, "Why does everyone seem to be working so hard?"

"Of course I'm fighting for a better tomorrow!" Li Xiaoyu said with a smile, "Humans are creatures that can live on hope.

No matter how difficult things are, as long as there is a little bit of hope for the future.

You can continue to live bravely. "

"Hope?" Li Mengli thought for a while, then asked, "Auntie, what is the hope that keeps you alive?"

"That's too much, have you heard of it? There is a tree in South Africa that can eat people. As long as someone approaches, it will open its mouth to swallow people in. I have never seen it before!" Li Xiaoyu Some excitedly said, "Also, in 1965, Dunhuang found that more than a dozen Nanfu batteries produced in 1988 had rusted casings, but the trademarks were clearly visible. What happened?
Also, it is said that under the mud flats in southern Spain, there is the lost kingdom of Atlantis.

It is said that in the Grand Canyon in the northern part of the Scottish plateau, there is a huge Loch Ness monster..."

Li Mengli reacted for a while, then asked inexplicably, "What do these things have to do with you?"

"Hmm—you may think that these things are too far away from you?" Li Xiaoyu thought for a while, then continued, "Do you remember? You told me before that you heard marbles coming from upstairs in your house." sound?"

"Can not remember……"

Li Xiaoyu was not reconciled to the other party's answer, and she continued: "Then you must often realize instantly when you are doing something, that this situation, this thing, has already happened before, right?

Or have you dreamed about it before? "

Li Mengli shook her head.

"How could it be? Then when you fell asleep, it seemed that you were about to fall asleep, but you suddenly felt like you were falling, and then you woke up suddenly?"

"Sister-in-law... I can't sleep now, can you stop talking about sleeping?"

"Oh! I'm just making an analogy!" Li Xiaoyu said bluntly, "In short, this world makes me very curious.

I noticed a lot of strange things when I was a child, but except for my mother... Hehe, your grandma, no one has ever believed me except her.

So, when I met you, I was really excited!

Everyone is from the future, and it also made me understand a lot of things that I couldn't understand before.

It makes me want to live forever.

As long as I live one more day, and spend one more day with everyone, I can solve one more puzzle!Isn't that exciting? "

"What's the use... Isn't there a day of death sooner or later?" Li Mengli didn't feel excited at all, but felt even more lost. "Death is a very empty feeling. There is no heaven and hell, and the soul floats in the boundless world." In the darkness, without any thinking and consciousness, one cannot feel one's own existence at all.

I worked with that nothingness.

It's completely integrated. "

Li Xiaoyu was a little creepy when she heard that, she immediately pulled Mengli to speed up the pace of going back, and changed the subject and said: "Hurry up, I'm going to starve to death."

"You will die if you are too hungry, you will die if you are too thirsty, you will die if you are sick, and you will die if you don't breathe oxygen. People live to die, to the endless darkness, to enter a state of nothingness." Li Mengli murmured He said, "It's meaningless, whether it's fighting, success or failure, or living, everything is meaningless..."

Li Xiaoyu stopped suddenly, turned around and pressed Li Mengli's shoulder, frowned and scolded: "Li Mengli!

You listen to me!I don't care what you think or what you've been through.

Even if it's for us, even if you always have such a sad face, you still have to live for me!

Even if it's a puddle of mud, keep your breath and keep your eyes open! "

As Li Xiaoyu said, she turned Li Mengli's shoulders at an angle, allowing her to see the people sitting around the dining table through the glass of the cafe:
Roland was pouring wine into the glass.

Fang Xiaoling pointed to the new image of Xiaozhi wrapped in a women's headscarf and laughed heartily.

Li Mengling stood on tiptoe and grabbed Wang Chenyu's ear, not knowing what she was reprimanding.

Xiaolan, holding a knife and fork in her hand, saw Mengli outside the glass window, and opened her teeth and claws in surprise. Looking at her mouth shape, she knew she was saying: Dinner is ready!Let's eat!

Li Xiaoyu asked softly next to her ear: "Is all this meaningless?
Meng Li, as long as there is anyone in this world who cares about your existence.

Your life is meaningful.

If you want to leave in the future, ask yourself first.

Is there anyone else waiting for your return. "