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There was a light rain falling outside the window, Li Mengli put her palm on the glass window and stared blankly, the skin behind her revealed a faint blue light.

"Who's there?!" A flame burst out from Fang Xiaoling's palm, illuminating the maid's figure on the sofa, "Meng Li?"

"I'm sorry, Miss Xiaoling, I scared you." Li Mengli looked at the flames reflected in the window, and sighed without turning her head, "Hey - as expected, no matter where it is, it's a superfluous existence, I'll go back to my room now .”

"Don't? I was looking for you." The [Red Lotus] flame in Fang Xiaoling's palm gradually subsided and extinguished, "No wonder you didn't open your door no matter how hard I knocked. I planned to come down and ask Mengling...

What about Mengling?Didn't she come down just now? "

"She took Xiaozhi to the basement." Li Mengli looked at the window, the fire reflected in her eyes was gradually disappearing, "She took Xiaozhi away in a hurry without even saying hello to me.

To Mengling, Xiaozhi is much more important than me..."

"How could it be? Mengling must have something very urgent." Fang Xiaoling groped the wall for a long time in the dark, "Where is the light switch in the store?"

Snapped.

Mengli pressed the light to turn on the light, and the whole cafe instantly brightened up.

"Oh, it's right by your hand, why don't you turn on the light?" Fang Xiaoling sat down beside her, "Mengli, I've noticed since I came back that you seem to have something on your mind all the time? What's the matter?"

Li Mengli shook her head slightly, and said lightly: "It's nothing, I just can't sleep, and I don't know what to do, so I just sit here."

"Hmm - I heard from Mengling before when I was on Carnival Island, is there something like an energy reactor installed in your body? It can continuously supply you with all the energy your body needs without eating or sleeping. You don't even need to breathe if you want, right?"

"Yes, eating is a waste of food, and breathing is a waste of air." Li Mengli looked out the window, "Sister Xiaoling, you said that Brother Hu has been dead for many years at the current time, right?
What kind of wife will he marry?

What will his offspring look like? "

"Mengli...you should know that Tian Hu was possessed at that time, right?" Fang Xiaoling suddenly felt that Mengli was very pitiful.

At the last second of her memory when she was resurrected, the man she liked was piercing her heart with his arm.

What a crushing memory that was.

"I know, even when I'm about to die, I also know that Brother Hu didn't do that." Li Mengli still looked at the window, "When Sister Luo Lan was possessed, I could only chat with Brother Hu through the mirror.

Later, gradually, I have a habit of thinking that the self in the mirror is the real self.

Until now, looking at my own mirror image, I feel a little dazed.

It seems that I am not me who is sitting on the sofa and talking.

The me reflected in the window is me. "

Fang Xiaoling scratched her head when she heard that, she didn't know whether she should talk about Wang Chenyu at this time.

"Mengli, actually I came to you because I wanted to talk about something, Wang Chenyu..."

"By the way!" Li Mengli interrupted her, "Why did I forget? Brother Chenyu is not as simple as a chef.

Meng Ling will not agree to my request, but Brother Chen Yu may have a way? "

"What request?"

"To be honest, I feel that I am redundant here, and I didn't want to continue living." Li Mengli said lightly, "But my sister told me a lot, and I feel that there is some truth.

So I figured it out. "

"That's right!" The stone hanging in Fang Xiaoling's heart fell again, "How could you have such an idea? As long as you are alive, there is hope for the future?"

"So I want to live in a dream, the kind of dream that I can never wake up from." Li Mengli turned her head to look at Fang Xiaoling, "Brother Chenyu can definitely do it, right?"

"This..." Fang Xiaoling was stunned for a long time. Looking at Li Mengli's serious expression, she was obviously not joking.

But what is the difference between doing so and dying?

"Why are you living in a dream? Although there is no Tianhu in Shengfuer, there are all of us here?" Fang Xiaoling comforted, "What's more, I just came back and haven't been with you for long, so you are willing to do this Have you abandoned us?"

"I can stay in the coffee shop all the time, but in the form of falling asleep." Li Mengli seemed to have made up her mind, "Sister Xiaoling, I have been thinking about it for half the night. In Mengli's dream, maybe my fate is Want me to live in a dream.

Everything that happened before seems to be paving the way for the current decision.

Mengling told me what happened to you before, and I was particularly impressed by one sentence you said: you can't cheat fate, right? "

"The premise of my words is that fate is in one's own hands."

"That's right! It's my own decision now, I want to live in a dream and never wake up again." Li Mengli suddenly grabbed Xiaoling's hands, "Sister Xiaoling, the reason why I can confess to you The reason for talking about these things is because you are not as strong and stubborn as Sister Roland, with conservative ideas.

It's not like my sister-in-law who is always heartless and optimistic, and doesn't understand me at all.

It's not like Meng Ling, every time I haven't said a few words, she puts on a look of understanding everything, says "you are normal, take your time" and leaves in a hurry...

I feel that when I talk to you, your eyes exude understanding and approval.

So... you will definitely support me, right? "

"Uh... um! After all, everyone's experience is different, we can't use our past experience to demand your decision." Fang Xiaoling thought in her heart: I let you speak, how can I have the nerve to refute you?
Forget it, anyway, my sister and Meng Ling will definitely not sit idly by.

Fang Xiaoling originally wanted to explain that she had to take the exam earlier, and was about to speak, but Li Mengli stepped forward and said, "Thank you, sister Xiaoling.

Only you are willing to take the trouble to chat with me.

Listen patiently to these despondent words. "

Just as Fang Xiaoling was about to get up, she sat back and said politely: "It's nothing, this is what I should do as a sister?

Mengli, actually I think—of course, I don't mean to persuade you.

I just proposed another possibility, that is, maybe, you can try to change yourself?
Like doing something you like?
Fulfill your dreams? "

"I once thought about going to a prestigious university to win honor for my family." Li Mengli said dejectedly, "But now, these things are meaningless..."

"What I mean is, you can think about it carefully. Is there anything you want to do in this world?" Fang Xiaoling rubbed her dry eyes, and continued, "Just like me, in St. Studying at the tower school can help me restore my identity as the Rainbow Queen and fight to the death with the tower.

This is my goal.

You can also think about it, is there anything you want to accomplish in Saint-Four? "

Li Mengli thought for a while, shook her head, and said softly: "Sister Xiaoling, don't be angry with what I said.

Mengling and I have different ideas.

In fact, up to now, I don't resent the tower so much, whether it's death, or everything before it.

I think...it doesn't matter.

There is no need to hate, and there is no need to fight for anything.

If I were a leaf, it would be meaningless no matter whether the fallen leaf returned to its roots or drifted to a distant place.

Anyway, sooner or later, everything will go into nothingness. "