The real daughter, she is a Buddhist boss

Chapter 30 Lou Qiang, Are You Lonely

She can choose to invest her six-month vacation on other things to maximize her benefits, instead of staying here to waste her time.

Lou's family is now a chaotic swamp, but she is standing on the shore, watching everything in it soberly.Ups and downs, intrigues.

Hearing this, Lou Yiwen looked at her with eyes full of complicated emotions and was silent for a few moments, then suddenly asked her: "Lou Qiang, how have you been doing all these years? Are you alone, lonely?"

Lonely?

Hua Wei's palms on her knees were suddenly clenched.

The emotions that she had forgotten suddenly surfaced in her heart every night, and that strange and tingling feeling hit her again; she had never felt the emotions of normal people, and she did not understand what caused this feeling , I don’t know what to use to heal.

Now, it seems that there is finally an answer.

Seeing that she didn't answer, Lou Yiwen looked away, and said in a deep voice again: "Since your identity information is fabricated, then the past is also fake. When you saw me, your eyes were very calm, as if you were watching me. A person who has nothing to do with you. How much psychological quality do you need to be so rational and sober?"

The deep meaning in the words seems to be pressing, "Let me put it bluntly, how much despair have you experienced in these years? In your most hopeless and painful days; who is the person you most want to see? What do you miss the most? Haven't you really imagined that if you and Lou Jie's identities hadn't been swapped, would you look different now?"

—Of course I thought about it.

Before the age of seven, every dark day in the low-rent housing, she imagined this possibility.

Pretend that you have a happy family, no worries about food and clothing, and love from your parents; you can wear decent clothes and sit in the classroom to study with your classmates and teachers; you can no longer be beaten, scolded, or go hungry.The sky outside is colorful, the air is sweet; and her life can also be happy.

It was by relying on these false fantasies that she struggled to wake up from countless dark nights and lived on day after day.

Lou Yiwen's words undoubtedly awakened the memory deep in Hua Wei's heart. Although her face was calm at this time, there was still a slight ripple in her heart.

But, it's just a trace.

"People who live in fantasy are undoubtedly stupid."

She said so.

These illusions kept her alive, but also made her fall into more pain in the waking reality; she knew that she didn't have any of these, she knew that the darkness was within her reach, and it was not far away from her.

She never used these fantasies as a driving force to control her life.

"I've never had it, so why miss it?"

Only after tasting the sweetness of the cake will you recall the softness.

And her life has been in a difficult mode from the beginning; there are endless insults and beatings, the first thing she does when she opens her eyes is to look for food, and she never knows if she will see the sun tomorrow.

Miss what?Missing the stinking rat carcasses in the sewer, or the rotting mushrooms in the corner?
"You used to have all of this. In fact, you have already discovered the partiality and preference of Zeliang and his wife for Lou Jie. You just didn't say it. But these were all given to you. You, as their first A child, the proportion in their hearts is immeasurable."

(End of this chapter)