he sees your voice

Chapter 117 Happy Birthday, My Junior 1
She should be hysterical, or crying, making the promise before moving out of Lin's house or Lu's house, but she didn't.The aristocratic upbringing in her primary school did not allow her to do this, so she just looked at Lu Beichen quietly, and soon, tears fell silently.

"why?"

Lu Beichen didn't answer her question, perhaps, even he himself didn't know why.

"Do you love her?" Lin Jiayue asked directly.

Lu Beichen looked away, took a deep breath, and seemed to hear her say, everything is fake, you won't really believe it.

He believed it, although he had little experience in this area.

My heart was very disturbed.

Frowning, he whispered, "I don't know."

Lin Jiayue looked at him incredulously, what did he say?have no idea?Why is he such a man without self-sustaining power?How could she have a relationship with Gu Chu when she couldn't see her own thoughts clearly?
"You..." She wanted to scold very much, but she knew so clearly that she couldn't scold herself.

Lu Beichen sat on the bed, stroking the cold blood with his slender fingers, as if a wound had been cut, and the pain came slowly.

"Don't pin your hopes on me," he said, "I'm not worth your life."

Lin Jiayue's heart kept falling, falling into the boundless darkness.

Gu Chu lost sleep.

On such an eventful night.

She turned over, and Gu Si beside her also moved uneasily.Gu Chu didn't dare to move anymore, and lay on his back with his head tilted, staring at the shadow of the tree outside the window.After living in school, she and Gu Si rarely had time to share the same bed. Tonight, Gu Si said a lot to her, all about the past, but not about her and that Liu Jiqiang.

Afraid of disturbing her, Gu Chu got up on tiptoe and left the bedroom.

In the living room, Qiao Yunxiao was already asleep, and the thin blanket slipped to the floor.Gu Chu approached softly, covered him with the quilt, turned and entered the studio.

The window was not closed, and the white gauze curtain in the studio fluttered lightly, like the clothes on a female ghost, revealing a coldness.

She looked over those paintings again and again.

As long as the memory is not dead, the so-called dust is just a form.

Where did the former Gu Chu go?

In fact, she is also looking for it.

The most painful thing for a person is to lose herself. In the past few years, she lost her armor little by little, and finally lost herself.Then face it again, and you will feel that the original self is extremely strange.Has she lost the courage to face the past, or has she adapted to the most realistic present?
In the portrait, Lu Beishen was like the scorching sun, like pear blossoms in spring, he held her in his palm, and then she stomped him hard.In fact, ever since she established a relationship with Lu Beishen, she has always been concerned about gains and losses in that relationship, and she always has a faint feeling in her heart that this man will not belong to her forever.

She will eventually lose Beishen one day.

And so, this nightmare came.

It has been tormenting her until now.

At the age of 17, she longed to land in Beishen, like a child who didn't know much about the world, longing for the love and attention of adults.She would go to his laboratory to study, nominally to study, but actually to make trouble, always messing up some specimens, and in the end, it was Beishen who came to clean up the mess.

Finally one day, Lu Beishen pulled her out of the laboratory and asked her, "Do you know that you have caused me a lot of trouble?"

"E.g?"

"For example, you messed up my specimens, and it took me more than an hour to reorganize each time."

"Then you don't need to be in the laboratory."

"Then you don't have to come to the laboratory."

She thought for a while, then shook her head, "I don't think so."

Beishen frowned beautifully, "Why?"

"Because I can only find you in the laboratory."

"Why did you find me?" He frowned, and his tone softened a lot.

She told him seriously, "Because you kissed me."

He just laughed, walked up to her and touched her head, and said, "Wait until you are a sophomore."

She was puzzled, why wait for her to be a sophomore?

And when she was a sophomore, she finally understood what Beishen meant.

That year was her birthday.

Everyone told her that she was already an adult, an adult, and her father also told her earnestly that from now on, you will be responsible for your life.The words made her panic, as if all the people in the world who knew her were going to say goodbye to her.

In fact, what she was waiting for was Lu Beishen.

On that day, I can say to her: happy birthday.

But he didn't come.

The birthday party was held by her father with great fanfare. He booked the best restaurant in Shanghai and entertained her classmates and teachers.The Qiao family even contributed money and efforts. Mother Qiao specially ordered seven sets of banquet clothes for her from abroad, each of which was designed by a famous designer and was expensive.Although the mother talked about spending money with Qiao's mother, such beautiful clothes should match her precious daughter. In the eyes of her parents, she is the most gorgeous princess in the world.On that day, Qiao Yunxiao was handsome as a prince, but he was not her prince after all.

She always looked around, but she never saw her prince coming.

It was Ling Shuang who told her that the reason why Lu Beishen couldn't come was because he was going to participate in a race car.After hearing the words, she changed into casual clothes without saying a word. Before leaving the house, she went to her father again and said to him, "You just said that I am already an adult, so can I not have this birthday party?"

"Then what do you want?" Her father would always indulge her.

"I need to see a game," she said.

"Now?"

"Yes, now."

Her father was a man with sharp eyes. After a while, he asked her, "Is it because there is someone you want to meet in the game?"

"It's a boy I like. He wants to race a car today."

"He didn't even attend your birthday party, which is enough to show that he thinks his own affairs are more important."

"Dad, it's my choice."

Back then, she was flamboyant and willful, and her father finally condoned her flamboyance and willfulness.

All the sister groups at the birthday party were dragged to the scene by her. In addition, she spent money to hire almost a company of professional cheerleaders, the kind who could dance with youthfulness at the scene with flowers in their hands.This battle really shocked the racing scene, and a group of boys straddling heavy motorcycles all fell outside the field of vision.

Including, Lu Beishen.

However, when he found Gu Chu in the crowd, the corners of his lips rose.

Seeing that he was smiling, Gu Chu excitedly waved at him, calling for the cheerleaders to shout his name together, as if he was upholding the standards of a star.She likes the way Lu Beishen gallops on a motorcycle. It's wild and unruly, and the unyielding energy in his body is fully reflected.He is like a wolf on the prairie, moving forward bravely.

Still three games, he won three games.

The audience shouted, at that moment, Lu Beishen became a dazzling star.

When the little girl rushed forward, he was looking at her, smiling.

It wasn't until the excitement was over that she walked over bouncing around, looked at him giggly, and handed him a tissue and a bottle of water.He first took the water, unscrewed it, and when the bottle was poured, all the water was sprinkled on his head and slid down the hair on his forehead.Feeling very cool, he shook his head violently, as casually as an animal.

She screamed and dodged, stomping her feet, "You hate me, my skirt is all stained by you."

Lu Beishen stepped forward, took the tissue in her hand with a smile, and wiped it for her.She looked up at his cheeks, his hair wet with water, and the outline of his muscular chest under the T-shirt, and she blushed and turned her eyes away.He took her hand and said, "The skirt is dirty, I'll buy you another one."

She pursed her lips and smiled, "I don't want you to spend money on it."

He took out a wad of money from his pocket and stuffed them into her hand, "Is this money enough for your birthday?"

She was stunned.

He laughed.

At that moment, she suddenly understood and hugged him suddenly. The reason why Beishen participated in the racing was to earn money for her to buy presents on her birthday.This time, he didn't push her away. Even though it was in full view of everyone, and there were many classmates not far away, he let her behave, and even wrapped her tightly with his arms.

"Why are you so stupid, who wants you to work so hard." Her eyes were red.

He was always laughing, "You have to pay part of the money here to the cheerleaders, because I didn't expect you to have such a big fight."

"Those cheerleaders are paid."

"Your father's?"

"Can't you?"

He was helpless, "Is that your money?"

"My father's is mine." She said delicately.

He rubbed her head and said, "You, spoiled girl."

She enjoyed his closeness, because after the military training, he seemed to be staying away from her, and she always took the initiative to find him, and he never took the initiative to contact her.Yang raised the money in his hand, "What gift are you going to buy me?"

"The money is yours, you can buy whatever you want."

"No sincerity." Although she said so, her heart was still happy.This amount of money is actually not a small amount for him who is a part-time student. Now, he has given all of it to her.

He smiled softly, "How can you be sincere?"

She thought about it, shook her head deliberately and said she didn't know, but in fact, she was already content in her heart.She has never been short of money, and to her, any gift or money is not important.He approached her, gently wrapped her arms around her waist, his eyes were extremely bright, "Then I'm yours too, do you think this is sincere?"

She didn't react for a while.

Then, he kissed her, and he said softly in her ear, "From this moment on, you are my girlfriend, happy birthday, my first love."

His oath was the best birthday present to her that year.

Gu Chu looked at the painting in his hand, and a tear fell down his cheeks.

When Qiao Yunxiao opened the door and entered the studio, Gu Chu had already fallen asleep lying on the table.He approached and wanted to carry her back to the bedroom, but saw a corner of drawing paper protruding from under her arm, pulling it out gently, the face on the drawing paper became more and more clear.

He frowned slightly.

After looking around again, I realized that there were quite a few portraits, most of which were covered by canvases.

He stepped forward lightly and opened the canvas. The characters in the portrait had different expressions, but they were all the same person.

Lu Beishen.

Qiao Yunxiao will never forget this face.

When meeting Lu Beishen for the first time, Qiao Yunxiao was deeply disturbed.That was the time when he went to University A to look for Gu Chu. He heard cheers when he passed the basketball court. Drenched in sweat, but tall and muscular, the uninhibited look of his whole body is particularly eye-catching, especially his face, which is handsome and heroic that girls will be obsessed with.Qiao Yunxiao felt that this man was not a fuel-efficient lamp.

On the day when Gu Chu came back from military training, he drove to pick her up in person, but saw that she was very close to the kid on the basketball court. The two seemed to know each other very well when they were talking and laughing. At that moment, he felt that that man would become an inseparable As expected, this nightmare has been tormenting him and Gu Chu to this day.

For a moment he wanted to tear up the drawing papers.

Tear up that face without leaving any traces.

But, is it useful?

The drawing paper can be torn off, but what about the memories left in her mind?
Qiao Yunxiao looked down at Gu Chu with compassion in his eyes, and stroked her cheek gently.

Gu Chu, Gu Chu, what am I going to do with you?
(End of this chapter)