Roaming in the dark

Chapter 720 You are inflated

"You swell."

"What do you mean?" Sheng Chuncheng asked.

Yanyan said: "When there is no swelling, when you get something, you feel that you don't deserve it. You will cling to it and cherish it very much. After swelling, you feel calm and feel that everything is right. You deserve it. Not only that, but if you think you should have something better, people become greedy, wanting this and wanting that, and this kind of greed is the most terrifying.

"I'm not scaring you, Sheng Chuncheng. If you are really like this, if you are not vigilant, you may be unlucky because of it. I have seen too many greedy guys after swelling like this. Some of these people are now in prison, and some He died for no reason, and there are others who live like beggars. They used to have assets worth hundreds of millions, but now you ask him to borrow 200 yuan, but he can't even borrow it.

"I don't want you to become like this, you know? Of course, if you really become like this, I will still give you two hundred."

Sheng Chuncheng fell silent after listening to Yanyan's words. He really wanted to refute, but he couldn't think of the reason for the refute.He really wanted to tell Yanyan that he was not such a person, but he also felt that Yanyan had really touched his pain point, as if he really was like this.

Apart from other things, Ding Huamei would never even be remembered now, just like what Yanyan said, if Ding Huamei was in front of him now, he would never be able to take a liking to her.She is about the same as so many masseurs under him, how could he fall in love with her?Even if it was just to solve his physical needs, he would not harass the masseuses below.

He can look for Yanyan or Sun Hong, and now there is a sister Xu, with so many beauties, he is almost overwhelmed, why would he look for someone like Ding Huamei?

Have you really changed?Sheng Chuncheng asked himself, he didn't want to admit that he had changed, he was no longer the same Sheng Chuncheng who followed his uncle to Hangzhou and worked in a blind massage shop.

He feels that he has not changed. Now every time he goes to "Renjia Tourism", when he has something to report to Mr. Mi or Mr. Liu, he will still stop by the blind massage shop to see the uncle, the boss and the proprietress , Seeing those blind masters, he still feels very kind, how could he have changed.

Doesn't changing mean forgetting one's roots, or turning one's face and ignoring others?How could he change.

But he has indeed changed again, with a higher vision.

Now that he is with Mr. Zhang, with Sun Hong, with Xue'er and Yanyan, and with Baobao, he feels from the bottom of his heart that he is already like them and can be on an equal footing with them.I will no longer cringe when I see it like before, and I will immediately think that I am different from them, and I am a dick with nothing.

Sheng Chuncheng himself didn't believe that he hadn't changed. Didn't you already know yourself often? Haven't you changed yet?So, when did you start changing?Sheng Chuncheng didn't know, and couldn't remember.

Yanyan said: "If you are willing to listen to my advice, cherish the relationship between you and Sun Hong. Although we are together in bed like this, it is ridiculous for me to say such things to you, but what I say is sincere. .Many times, people really don’t know it. What he misses may be what he should cherish the most.”

Sheng Chuncheng said: "To be honest, I don't think I should miss you."

"If we don't have a past, we might still have a future." Yanyan said, "But because of our past, we can't have a future. I'm clearer and clearer than you. It's impossible for us. It's not you Like me, I don't like you, if I don't like you, I won't sleep with you, but liking is useless."

"Can't we start over?" Sheng Chuncheng asked.

"There is no such thing as restarting at all. Time is linear. When you pass this second, this second will pass forever. The same is true for people. The past is past. Only fools who write novels will like to write. Rebirth. It is impossible for people to be reborn, how can they start again? Can you cut your past with scissors, or can I cut it?

"If we can continue, it's not a new start, but tolerance. I can tolerate your past and you can tolerate my past, so we can continue. But that's like holding two mines, the risk It's too big, it will explode at any time, it's a gamble. I'm not a gambler, I don't want to gamble, and it's not worth it, understand?"

Sheng Chuncheng asked, "Why isn't it a good deal?"

"If I want, it's easy to find someone who likes me but doesn't know my past. Why do I have to find you and take this risk?" Yanyan asked.

Sheng Chuncheng was stunned, and Yanyan giggled: "Are you speechless?"

Sheng Chuncheng was right, he was speechless, and hurt his self-esteem.

Yanyan laughed loudly: "So, there is no need to say such things in the future, the two of us are like this at most. However, it is already very good to be able to do this, and it is far beyond friendship, right?"

"I don't care about you, you are the one talking." Sheng Chuncheng said.

Yanyan still laughed: "I didn't let you speak, if you have anything to say, you can say it too."

Sheng Chuncheng sighed: "I can't say no to you, you are sober in the world, and I am confused in the world."

"You are not stupid in the world, you are forgetful, you are so forgetful, that's why you get dazzled." Yanyan said.

The two kept talking, and while they were talking, the moon in the sky moved by itself, and the moon in front of them, which was still in their line of sight, had already climbed out of the window and out of their line of sight, but The moonlight still shone on their bodies and faces.

Yanyan sighed: "Actually, we shouldn't talk about this kind of topic."

Sheng Chuncheng asked, "Why?"

"Do you feel that talking about such a topic, talking about talking, talking about our sexual desire?"

Yanyan asked, Sheng Chuncheng laughed out loud, he thought it was true.

Yanyan said: "I'm almost becoming Spinoza."

Sheng Chuncheng didn't know who Spinoza was, so he asked, "Who is this?"

"Dutch philosopher."

"You know philosophy?"

"Of course." Yanyan said, "I don't understand philosophy, how can I mess around? Believe it or not, if you give me money, I can chat with you all night about Heidegger, Schopenhauer, and Leibniz. Ci can too."

"I believe it." Sheng Chuncheng said, "What did you say about this guy?"

"Spinoza's woman left him, and after he got away from sex, he became a philosopher." Yanyan said, "I think I'm almost becoming a philosopher."

Sheng Chuncheng asked with a smile, "Can you stay away from sex?"

Through the moonlight, Yanyan looked at Sheng Chuncheng, and she said: "There is no one before, I can't do without it, I don't know now, maybe it can be done. Sheng Chuncheng, you can try it and see if it can make me excited."

Sheng Chuncheng laughed, and he said yes, let me try.

(End of this chapter)