From bar band to entertainment circle

Chapter 250 Yun Qian, I Miss You

I light a cigarette for myself, the road to music is still long, and I don’t know when it will reach the edge. Thinking of these troubles in my career, I am at a loss, and I am very afraid of this feeling.

The light of the bonfire became weaker and weaker, until it was almost burnt out, I poured a ladle of water on it, then hugged Shen Qier who was on the ground, and staggered to her room.

I threw her on the bed, and she started talking in her sleep, holding my arm as a pillow to prevent me from leaving. I was also a drunk person, and I used my only rationality to hold on to the last line of defense.

"It's hot, it's so hot, it's so hot." Shen Qi'er babbled, and kept taking off her clothes. At this moment, I was frightened, and I almost couldn't help committing a heinous crime.

"Hey, go to sleep and calm down."

I stopped her from undoing her clothes, but it didn't work. She still shouted that she was hot and started to take off her clothes again. The pink underwear was exposed in my eyes. Only then did she stop.

I leaned in front of Shen Qi'er and stuck very close, she breathed evenly, I said softly: "Do you know that you were playing with fire just now?"

Naturally, she would not answer me in her sleep, so I turned off the light, and I left this room and walked to the balcony on the third floor.At this time, I was not in the mood to look at the stars, I just wanted to smoke here and blow some air, I dare not sleep, I was afraid that I would throw up as soon as I lay down.

Right now, I am still paralyzed by alcohol, and the images just now flashed in my brain from time to time, and soon my body became hot, and I could only calm myself down through psychological hints.

Recalling the little things I had with Shen Qier, I realized that time has passed so quickly. From last year to now, I have known her for more than half a year.At that time, I didn't have a good impression of her, but after getting in touch with her slowly, I felt like an afterthought. Some people are not what they seem on the outside.

For me, Shen Qier and I are the same kind of people, we are teammates fighting side by side, and dream chasers with common interests.

I did two jobs just after graduation, and I never felt happy, it was equivalent to dawdling.I enjoyed rehearsing with them and playing music with them, so I always felt like I was in college during that time.I'm happiest when I'm playing music, only music is my antidote, I love music, I love rock and roll.

Peace and Love
Sometimes, I think she is a little similar to Xia Qing, but also a little different.Xia Qing likes to keep her cool on the stage and her gentleness in her life; Shen Qier keeps her cool on stage and her life.

When she deliberately teases me, I will bump around like a deer; when she kisses me in a show, my heart will beat faster.So no matter what the reason is, I admit that I have a crush on Shen Qier. Compared with other people, I think she is closer to real life.

With the cold wind blowing, I suddenly looked up at the sky full of stars, the charm of the stars was endless, and I was immediately attracted.

At this time, the state of the stars that can be seen by the naked eye may come from tens of thousands of light-years or even farther away. It took a long time for the light to reach people's eyes. This is the state that I see stars, but they are not stars. The state itself at this time.

They try their best to blend the bits and pieces of light together. Although they are not as brilliant as the sun and not as clear as the moon, their dreamy light also spills into the world, turning the earth into a strange world. , inducing people's desire to explore.

In the vast universe, there are too many unknowns for human beings, and I can't even understand my little life, let alone understand this endless starry sky.

I can't remember which cigarette I have tonight. Suddenly, the screen of my phone lights up, and someone sends me a WeChat message. It's past two o'clock in the morning. Who is it?

"Yunqian, I miss you!" I foolishly stared at the phone screen for a long time, this WeChat message came from Xia Qing who I hadn't contacted for a long time.

I didn't reply to her message, because I don't know what to reply to her for the time being, and in what capacity can I reply to her seemingly ambiguous message.In short, my mind is very confused now, with mixed feelings, and my brain replays the past between me and Xia Qing like a giant screen movie.

It turns out that hidden in the deepest part of my heart, I still can't let go of her. In the past, I always told myself that I no longer have feelings for her, and wanted to make myself feel better.
Yes, I was indeed hurt by her and disappointed in her, but when I learned that her father was ill and she had unavoidable difficulties, I subconsciously forgave her and understood her.

If I really let it go, how could I mistake Su Mengyuan for Xia Qing after I learned the truth, good fortune tricked others, and unintentionally hurt that girl in Australia.

It doesn't matter if you compromise, Xia Qing and Han Yishen are together. I don't want to be a third party, and I don't have the capital to fight with Han Yishen. Xia Qing is developing so well now, and I don't want to bring trouble to her career; Su Mengyuan's divorce is an established fact , I am not from the same world as her. If a young lady like her was not fascinated by ghosts for a while, how could she fall in love with me, and I will definitely not be able to pass the test of his father. After all, a person like me In the eyes of my father, it was really too ordinary.

I sigh, I'm really conflicted when it comes to relationships.

People are really cheap, duplicity. In the end, they all leave me. It seems that in this life, I have a cloud and a lonely life.

Thinking about it this way, I realized that I don't miss Su Mengyuan that much anymore, this is a very scumbag expression.

But how to say.
Maybe I never really loved her, but during those lonely days, when a lady like her suddenly appeared in my life, it was the first time I came into contact with a beautiful girl of this level. After getting along for a long time, there will be more or less Some unrealistic fantasies.

Originally, I was ready to leave her world, but later I was ambiguous by mistake. I treated her as Xiaqing and completely hurt her, so I felt guilty for her, wanted to make up, keep her, and want to be with her together.

Su Mengyuan is a smart girl. She knows that I still can't let go of Xia Qing. She has her self-esteem and arrogance. She wants to give me a chance, so she plays games with me to test my courage and determination.

In the end, I screwed up. At that time, I even felt that she was making trouble out of no reason. If I really loved her to the extreme, how could I lack that bit of determination and courage?That's why Su Mengyuan is more determined to leave this city and go to a world that doesn't bother her.

Now that I think about it, I don't love her enough. She treats my family very well and is friendly from the bottom of my heart. I'm not good enough for a good girl like her.

In the end, Su Mengyuan still left, accepted it happily, and returned to reality. I found that my life was much easier.

After thinking about this, I replied to Xia Qing: "Congratulations, you are getting more and more popular now, you have a boyfriend, Han Yishen is not a good person, don't send me these ambiguous messages again, if you let him know If you send me these, you will have a hard time, and I will have a harder time."

"But, I don't want to lie to myself, Yun Qian, I still love you!"

"Then are you willing to give up everything you have now and go back to the small county with me to live an ordinary life?"

I don't know what's wrong, but the ghost sent this sentence, as if I could take her away as soon as she said "I do".

For a long time, Xia Qing didn't reply to my message. I didn't know how she was feeling, and then I edited two paragraphs of text in the dialog box and sent them to her.

"Can't answer?"

"Then you wait for me to save the galaxy in this life, and then marry you in the next life."

(End of this chapter)