hollywood billionaire

Chapter 340 Heart Disease

In his last life, Han Yi couldn't forget an English quote he happened to see.

It was written by a little-known writer, John O'Callaghan, for his youth novels, which most people regard as meaningless moaning.

The “what ifs” and “should haves” will eat your brain.

Those “ifs” and “shoulds” eat away at your brain.

As for Xu Yiru, it was the "ifs" and "shoulds" that made him wake up in the middle of the night, sweating profusely, and sit in bed with his hair hanging until dawn.

Not the only one, but the most crucial, the most worrying, the most... within reach.

Everyone has had fantastic spring and autumn dreams. A chance encounter with a noble person leads him to a meteoric rise, a Powerball ticket nets him more than a billion dollars, and he even suddenly becomes a global superstar. Those showerheads in the bathroom that are used as microphones, those eight- or nine-digit curiosities in the search bar, and those silly smiles of unknown meaning while sleeping, are all raw materials that can make mirages more real and concrete. .

But a mirage is still a mirage after all. In the real desert, you can only appreciate its magnificence by staying where you are. Every step forward taken into action may cause this spectacle to disappear without a trace in an instant.

But Xiaoru is not Han Yi's mirage.

She is the steaming latte in the coffee shop downstairs in the apartment, and the sizzling spicy seafood soup in BCD Tofu House. It's the crisp ringtone that wakes him up every morning, and it's the blinds that block the neon lights outside his window any late at night.

Just reach out and she's his.

This is the most unforgettable difference.

He did not choose to walk into the coffee shop, but took a look at the long queue in front of the counter, turned around and left.

Where can't I buy a latte? Everywhere.

Instead of ordering the spicy seafood soup, he randomly picked a less spicy dish.

Let’s eat something lighter today. Anyway, when you want to challenge your taste buds, spicy seafood soup will always be there.

Anyway, if I can’t get up, I won’t set the ringtone.

I can't sleep anyway, so I won't close the curtains.

Han Yi so easily chose the opposite direction that seemed more comfortable that when he could no longer look back, this man who was no longer so young and no longer had so many possibilities to sacrifice, wasted a lot of money. It took me a long time to realize how many opportunities I had missed.

Then, Xu Yiru became his heartache.

Human beings are a species in which no choice can make them 100% satisfied. This is especially true for twisted humans like Han Yi who have thousands of knots in their intestines.

On the one hand, he was glad that he did not drag his best friend into the quagmire because of his own selfish desires. In the name of love, he cast an inescapable haze on Xiaoru's originally promising and bright future. When he is not busy, he likes Xu Yiru’s official accounts on Facebook and Instagram and watches her interview powerful people from all over the world with a calm expression and a sweet smile.

Whenever this happens, Han Yi will unconsciously smile with relief.

At least one of the two people lives the way he wants, and also lives the way the other person expects.

But on the other hand, being free and easy is not an emotion that can be lightly and casually applied with a thick layer as a disguise. Seeing Xu Yiru's impeccable face under the anchor's make-up, seeing the number of fans on social media increasing every day, and seeing the glowing words of newspapers and magazines about the Queen of Baodao News, Han Yi could not help but understand. Feel sorry.

An extremely philistine but extremely reasonable regret.

This statue of the era, which was worshiped and obsessed with by countless people on the altar, once revolved around him, a girl who may not be ordinary, but was vivid enough and pretty.

When the distance between him and her is the shortest, he only needs to stretch out his hand to reach her.

It will never be like now, separated by the strait and the Milky Way.

If he could really be with her, would all his frustrations become understandable reverse compensation?

If he could really be with her, his life curve, which seemed to be falling all the time with no bottom in sight, might be lifted up high and take him back to his familiar, bright past.

These were all "vulgar" thoughts that Han Yi would pop up from time to time, but would soon be forcibly suppressed by him.

After all, if he could really keep Xu Yiru in his life, this game shouldn't be so difficult.

However, these considerations and assumptions related to reality are just a small part of the heavy regret in his heart that does not require excessive attention.

What really made him toss and turn at night were the thin lines hidden in the dead darkness, but shining brightly in his kaleidoscopic vision.

Those fates that never see the light of day, those possibilities that cannot be realized.

At that time, if they were not so entangled, so reckless, so stupid, and bravely responded to the voice that echoed in the wind and dreams, what would they have become?

They have never gone to the theater to watch a movie alone. After being together, they will suddenly have a whim at the end of a certain dinner and buy a movie ticket for AMC in Century City to experience the Duan movie they have discussed many times. What about theater?

Maybe they tacitly choose a romantic movie with a cheesy plot, just to have more opportunities to peek at the face next to them that is looming in the dim light reflected by the big screen. Perhaps these two clumsy lovebirds will soon meet each other's eyes, slowly but surely find each other's hands amidst the melodious and moving soundtrack of the film, and then spend the next two hours never seeing each other again. Don't let go.

They had never been to the beach alone, and it was bound to be one of the themes of their first dates together. In terms of life, the two people, whose habits and hobbies are very similar, would never choose the messy and rough Venice Beach. Santa Monica, which has more developed supporting facilities, will be their only choice to see the sea.

Park the car on Third Street and choose a restaurant on Ocean Avenue to dine - most likely it will be their favorite Water Grill. After a dinner that is neither luxurious nor shabby, with no cell phone interruptions and only sweet whispers, the two of them will walk across the sidewalk under the purple glow, strolling on the pier full of tourists to the sound of the guitar of a wandering singer, listening to the sound of their feet. The wooden boards creaked and the distant waves crashed against the rocks on the shore.

Although he wanted to see it, Han Yi knew that it was impossible for the conservative Xu Yiru to put on a bikini and enjoy sunbathing with him. The stares from passers-by will undoubtedly make her so shy that she wants to dig a hole in the beach, and the harsh ultraviolet rays will also make her plan to keep her skin fair in the bright Los Angeles fail.

A cute vest and a pair of just the right shorts are Xiaoru's limit. In the evening, when the cool breeze blows, you may have to wear a coat for this limit. Courtesy of a caring boyfriend who will always keep her in his heart.

The considerate Xiaoru, after repeatedly declining to no avail, would definitely sniff, take Han Yi's hand, and get closer to the latter, sharing the warmth she felt in this way.

They would walk to the end of the pier and to the bottom deck surrounded by seagulls, squinting their eyes slightly in comfort, enjoying the gifts of nature, thanking fate for favoring them, and chatting with their closest friends about life, homework and the future. .

At some point - although they are not sure how long this moment will take them, because both of them are masters of solving riddles, it will come eventually - their topic will return to its core essence: admiration for each other, Attachment and dependence.

Then, the words of love will turn into gazes, and the gazes will turn into first kisses.

This is Han Yi's most vivid imagination of the future he once had.

Every time this image came to mind, he could feel something melting inside him, hurting him in a subtle way. All his longings, all his dreams and sweet pains, every secret that slumbered deep within him, were awakened.

Everything in life seems to be sublimated, fascinating and meaningful.

This fate line floating in the wind was the most common placebo used by Han Yi in the previous life.

Even as time goes by, the traces become shallower and the light becomes weaker and weaker, it is still the alternative reality that Han Yi immediately fled to after experiencing setbacks.

There were too many regrets in his life that he couldn't grasp, but this was the only one he let go of with his own hands.

Only those who have experienced it can understand the true meaning of this sentence.

Only those who have experienced it can see the emptiness that no amount of money and honor can fill.

Therefore, when Han Yi returned to the early morning of February 2016, 2, and opened his eyes again to see the world seven years ago, he quickly realized that the sentence in the memo "Do what you should do, and do what you want." life”, what does it mean to him.

Han Yi's heart is for Xu Yiru.

Therefore, he who was not interested in luxury cars bought a million-dollar retro sports car, and who did not have high living requirements bought a half-a-billion-dollar peak villa. He left the Ford Escape in the parking lot of BCD Tofu House and drove a bright red Ferrari to school to pick up Xiao Ru and go to Sushi Gen. On the one hand, he reminded himself that he should maintain the same style of doing things seven years ago and not let Xu Yiru see the clues, but on the other hand, he couldn't wait to show off everything he had. Invite her to have lunch at 864 Stradella Road, take her to attend a star-studded charity dinner, and make a donation pledge of tens of millions of dollars in front of her...

In the final analysis, everything Han Yi has done can be summed up in four words: "overcompensation".

Not only for himself, but also for Xiaoru in that time and space.

As early as on the way down the mountain, Han Yi had already made up his mind. He must make a breakthrough, make Xiaoru proud, and let her hold his hand without any worries.

But unfortunately, Han Yi underestimated the ripples that would be caused by gently flapping the wings of wealth, and also overestimated his ideological realm and moral character.

To be more precise, he forgot that he was a normal man, not a third-person player trying to master the game of life.

So, when Zhao Youzhen, Madison Beer and Barbara Pavin appeared one after another, Han Yi inevitably fell into chaos and confusion.

Who wouldn't want to have a confidante who has the same interests as them? Not only is he a powerful assistant in his career, he is also an arm that can be seen every time he looks up when he is sleepy. Yes, at the beginning, Zhao Youzhen was indeed an uninhabited port covered by ice and snow all year round, but this feeling of breaking the ice bit by bit and slowly watching it bloom with spring and all things competing for it is beyond compare. Is it the most addictive enjoyment?

This was the first time she opened her arms to welcome a cruise ship coming from afar.

How could he bear to leave?

Who wouldn’t want to pick a beautiful flower that they cultivated themselves? The setbacks and traumas of the previous life were all healed by his careful care. You see her branches and leaves becoming luxuriant day by day, and you see her colors becoming richer day by day. Han Yi built Madison Beale's world into a Disney fairy tale castle, and in return, she wanted to welcome him in and become the master of this park.

In a sense, because he, Madison Beal, also lived a new life.

How could he refuse?

Who wouldn’t want to encounter a passionate and exotic love? The Victoria's Secret Angel, who can only be seen on the screen, fell in love with him at first sight when they first met. No matter how short the shelf life of this affection was, at least it brought Han Yi some of the most unforgettable nights in his two lives. What's even more surprising is that after the passion faded, he discovered that Barbara, who took off her mask, could be said to be his soul mate who was incomparably compatible with him. They can not see each other for several months and only chat through text to let each other feel the warmth of companionship.

Even though the two of them took several steps back, they drew clear boundaries between them to prevent the situation from becoming more complicated. But Han Yi was never ready to completely cut off this red line.

He knew very well that Barbara was not ready for this either.

Even though she had said such decisive words just ten minutes ago.

Only a bluffing person can look so heartless.

But Han Yi had to admit that Barbara's approach was very wise. She saw Han Yi's indecision and was well aware of the fact that with Han Yi's character and conduct, there was absolutely no way to properly sort out this increasingly complicated mess. He will just wait for it to accumulate too much and collapse on its own.

At that time, whoever is entangled deeper in the net will suffer greater harm.

So, after being gently reminded twice as an “outsider,” Barbara decided to jump ship first.

The pain of taking the initiative is like cutting off the strength of a strong man. The pain of leaving the choice to others is self-inflicted.

Although there are all kinds of regrets, reluctance and even frustration in his heart, Han Yi respects and understands Barbara's decision. In fact, it was not that he had not listened to the advice of the Hungarian supermodel. After that date in Manhattan that was not a date, Han Yi had been silently reviewing every decision he had made since his rebirth.

While his wealth has brought countless hopeful changes, it has also owed him many love debts that he doesn't know how long it will take to repay them all.

And Xu Yiru was the one who owed him the most.

This is true of both worlds.

(End of this chapter)