I am not an artist when I am reborn

Chapter 463 My Sun

Chapter 173 My Sun

"These rootless things! When the country is in trouble, they all run away!"

"That's right, you make money at home, and when something goes wrong, you run out! Now that you can't come back, you cry for your father and mother outside again. That's just mean!"

"Xiao Su, do you think these people are mean? They can only share blessings but not adversities. They are really white-eyed wolves!"

Su's father and brother-in-law were filled with indignation. They discussed family and country affairs and expressed their opinions one after another. They also did not forget to drag Su Jinxing to the theater to express their opinions.

Pei Zhuxuan was stunned for a moment while watching this scene. Su's father and uncle first focused on the things around them, and then expanded their focus bit by bit, even to the world situation and current hot topics.

This made her a little confused.

"In China, after a good meal, men will always discuss current affairs and politics and express their own opinions." Su's mother noticed Pei Zhuxun's confusion and explained from the sidelines.

"They are just worrying and discussing these meaningless things." My aunt said while chewing melon seeds and shaking her head.

"I don't think so." Xiao Zu interjected, "Uncle, my dad and others, discussing these important matters of family and country is a manifestation of their patriotism, and if everything is limited to the three acres around them, If you divide your land, you will fall into the cognitive barrier of the world around you and be unable to improve your own situation and broaden your horizons."

Two different views have emerged in a small family. In the entire country, there will be more collisions of such views.

"Four to one, I won!" Xiaozu looked at his mother (aunt) proudly and said.

"The position determines the point of view. Different starting angles lead to different conclusions."

Xiao Zu's words made Su's father laugh.

Protecting poor people from all over the world and sweeping away the snow in front of everyone are both a way of life. The progress of the times is the progress of quality. These are inevitable situations in the development of the times.

Why do many people like to ride with college students when taking the high-speed rail? Because the data proves that college students are the quietest group in the car among all groups in society.

"You guys are not as knowledgeable as a child!"

Although the gold content of today's college students has almost dropped to the iron content, after receiving compulsory education for so many years, when they come to high school and university, their quality is at the forefront of this era.

"I am a top student in 211, but you are not as good as Xiao Zu." Mother Su said with a smile.

Thinking of this, Su Jinxing suddenly realized that something had changed about him.

"A master is a teacher. Academic qualifications are only a reference standard for reflecting knowledge and learning, and cannot fully reflect a person's academic level." Xiaozu continued.

"I thought you were a master. Then...do you think what I just said is right?" Xiaozu asked.

"Your brother is studying for a Ph.D. now." Mother Su said with a smile.

"Play the piano to the cow." Xiaozu curled his lips and said.

"What about your point of view?" Xiaozu asked again.

"Ah?" Xiaozu looked at Su Jinxing in shock, "Brother, have you studied for a Ph.D.?"

"I am a combined master's and doctoral student. Now I am writing a doctoral thesis. I will get a doctorate after I finish it." Su Jinxing nodded with a smile.

"What?" Xiao Zu heard Su Jinxing's muttering and looked at Su Jinxing in surprise.

Some people say that those born in the 90s are a defeated generation, while others say that today’s college students are not as passionate as the May th youth.

"I'll go there when I get to work. I'll have money by then. Now I don't have money to travel. It's too uncomfortable to travel on a budget." Xiaozu shook his head repeatedly.

"My brother is a real master of law, and I am just a parallel import student." Xiaozu said with a smile.

Su Jinxing watched this scene happily.

Just like Xiao Zu, after receiving higher education, he was able to distinguish between right and wrong, accepted various viewpoints, and loved his motherland even more.

College students are the group that best reflects the difference in quality compared to the previous century. Even if there are a lot of bugs among them, most of them are still outstanding representatives of quality improvement.

"Cherish the time you have now. If you have time, go see more of the great rivers and mountains of the motherland and meet more people you want to see." Su Jinxing patted Xiaozu on the shoulder and said.

Opinion collisions are everywhere in life, ranging from whether tofu is sweet or salty, to the pros and cons of the system. Opinions are not right or wrong, they are something everyone insists on.

"I said, I am more inclined to your point of view. There is nothing wrong with liking to talk about national affairs. It is better to be able to participate in it, which is even better. This shows that he loves his country and cares about his country."

He has also changed...

No one will be passionate forever, but the passion of young people will never cool down.

"The truth is in the hands of a few people." My aunt shook her head and said.

This is all bullshit.

But, after all, he is no longer the same person he was when he was young.

"This is bullshit, can you compare with your brother?"

Su's father was not very educated, and his favorite thing was to discuss family and country affairs, and the recognition of Xiao Zu, a top student at Beijing Foreign Studies University, made him feel very useful.

"There is no right or wrong point of view, only whether it meets everyone's standards. I am more inclined to your point of view, but this does not mean that my aunt's point of view is wrong."

The most indispensable thing in China is passionate young people.

A gentleman may judge his deeds but not his heart. The Qingtian Charity Foundation has objectively and factually done a lot of charity work. For this alone, he has a clear conscience.

Before his rebirth, he was occasionally passionate, but now his mind is full of calculations and interests. Even charity that he thought should be pure in the past is now used by him as a tool to transfer funds.

But he has no regrets.

The same applies to queuing for shopping, queuing for entertainment, etc.

"It's not the same, young man." Su Jinxing murmured.

"The scenery you see when you are young is different from the scenery you see when you grow up."

"The people you meet when you are young are different from the people you meet when you are an adult."

Xiaozu didn't understand the meaning of Su Jin's jargon and didn't take it to heart.

But Pei Zhuxuan on the side could understand the meaning of Su Jin's jargon.

She did not go to college when she was young, but chose to be a trainee. Even though they went to the university campus and experienced what it was like to be a college couple with Su Jinxing, they were not real college students after all and could not experience real college life.

If you miss the people and scenery you encountered when you were young, you will eventually miss them.

Pei Zhuxuan then looked at Su Jinxing and found that his eyes were empty, as if he was in a trance.

Her regret when she was young was college, so what was Su Jinxing's regret?

……

Su Jin is an expert.

After dinner, Su Jinxing and Pei Zhuxuan also left after my uncle's family left.

After returning to her home, Pei Zhuxuan went to wash up first. When she came out of the bathroom, she did not see Su Jinxing in the bedroom, but saw him on the balcony.

Su Jinxing was sitting alone on a chair on the balcony, holding a glass of wine in his hand. With just one glance, Pei Zhuxuan could tell that Su Jinxing had something on his mind.

Su Jinxing rarely drinks by himself at home. He only drinks some wine when he is in a bad mood or has something on his mind.

Pei Zhuxuan did not bother him.

When she was worried, she wanted to completely close herself off, so she chose not to disturb Su Jinxing.

Maybe what he needs now is a space of his own.

Pei Zhuxuan glanced at Su Jinxing's back and sat aside silently.

Su Jinxing could feel Pei Zhuxuan's gaze. After she looked away, Su Jinxing sighed.

He picked up the Rémy Martin wine bottle on the table and poured some more wine into the already cleared wine glass.

This is a bottle of foreign wine that he picked up casually. He doesn't like drinking very much. These were all sent by others, so he picked up a bottle casually.

He put the wine glass to his mouth and took a sip.

The taste is a bit like water soaked in tangerine peel, but it has a very clear wine aroma, and in addition, there is a bit of wood barrel smell.

Frankly speaking, it's not very tasty, but when one sits there and drinks it by himself, it's not bad.

The taste of white wine is too spicy, and even the soft-tasting white wine is still not something Su Jinxing can handle.

Foreign wine has taken the place of white wine very well. Although the taste is not that good, at least it is not that spicy, which is within Su Jinxing's acceptable range.

Su Jin was about to shake the wine glass with ice cubes in his hand.

Throughout the years since his rebirth, he has been working hard not to waste this opportunity for rebirth.

Every day you wake up to perfect your plan, and then execute your plan.

He pursues this goal every day with fullness and passion.

But now that he thought about it carefully, he had indeed made up for many regrets. But it seems that his own regrets have never been made up for.

Su Jinxing's elementary school, junior high school, and high school were all studied in the north. Although he has outstanding appearance and is very popular in school, he has never had a girlfriend.

It's not a girl who has never had a heartbeat, but after all, she lacks some fate.

Mother Su's teachings were deeply rooted in his bones. You can fall in love when you are young, but you must not fall in love for various benefits or physical needs like adults.

Young love is the dream of coming together based on love.

Su's mother was not taboo about sex education. As early as when Su Jinxing was in the first year of junior high school, Su's mother took Su Jinxing to participate in a sex education training class, allowing the relatively ignorant Su Jinxing to understand what sex was.

Sex education in China is extremely lacking. Even in super first-tier cities like the North, sex education has not been popularized in school classrooms. There is a significant gap between us and developed countries in this regard.

(To this day, data shows that the number of middle and high schools in the north that offer sex education is only in the single digits.)

Su's mother is a teacher at Beijing Normal University, so she is more aware of the self-control abilities of these young children in school. Coupled with the lethality of her son's appearance, it is very necessary to teach him early.

Under this kind of education, Su Jinxing went to South Korea, came to SM Entertainment, and met Wen Chuxi, who was also a trainee. That was his first love and his first time.

(Wen Chuxi appears in Chapter 8)

The story after that was very cliché. Su Jinxing and Wen Chuxi, an eighteenth-line singer, were also strangers, and he also embarked on a path of letting himself go.

After his rebirth, his mental age was no longer the same as before. When he returned to Hanlin Art High School, it was more of an adult's calculations.

If there is another question "What would happen to you if you went back to the past?", Su Jinxing will give the answer.

Even if you are lucky enough to be reborn and go back to the past, it is no longer what you want to go back to.

You are no longer the person you were when you were young.

She in your eyes like this is no longer the same person as she was in your eyes in the past.

The girl who was radiant with your love has lost her brilliance.

Just as Liu Guo, a poet of the Southern Song Dynasty, wrote in "Tang Duoling·Lu Ye Man Tingzhou", "If you want to buy sweet-scented osmanthus and drink wine, it turns out that it's not like you are a young man traveling."

You only live once, and even if you do it over again, everything you have experienced cannot be undone. Even if the reality has changed, your heart knows it all clearly.

After his rebirth, Su Jinxing experienced a lot. He gained a lot and lost a lot.

The world is fair and no one can get everything, even if he has a chance to do it again.

Pick up the wine glass on the table and drink the wine in one gulp.

Look at the sparkling stars in the sky.

He realized that he really liked the starry sky now.

Looking at this everlasting dazzling starry sky, his thoughts will continue to rise, and he will come to a world where he does not need to think, but only needs to quietly appreciate the beauty.

Every morning, the sun rises as usual.

No matter how much loneliness brings, the coldness will be dispelled the moment the sun rises.

Su Jinxing stood up, stretched, and shouted: "Zhuxun!"

"Feeling guilty?" Pei Zhuxuan's gentle voice came from behind.

The voice was very close, so close that Su Jinxing couldn't help but be stunned.

Turning around, he saw Pei Zhuhyun sitting on the sofa, looking at her quietly.

"Have you always been here?" Su Jinxing looked at Pei Zhuxuan blankly and said.

He clearly felt Pei Zhuxuan's gaze moving away.

"Indeed." Pei Zhuxuan smiled and nodded.

She looked away from Su Jinxing and looked at her phone, but she was always here, always behind Su Jinxing, and never left.

Suddenly, Su Jinxing felt so hypocritical.

He couldn't tell others about his rebirth, but those around him could feel his emotional changes.

Pei Zhuxuan saw that he had something on his mind, so she did not choose to disturb him. She left the space and time in Su Jinxing's hands. She just stood by silently. Even if he didn't know, she still chose to stay with Su Jinxing. Jinxing's side was silent.

It turns out that the sun does rise, but when it sets, it also quietly guards you where you can't see it. It rises as usual in the morning every day, bringing warm sunshine and dispersing all the worries in you. The loneliness and coldness I felt when I couldn't see her.

"Want some candy?" Pei Zhuxuan pulled out a fructose like a magic trick. "When I'm in a bad mood, I'll eat one. The sweet taste will make me feel better."

Su Jinxing reached out and took the candy, opened the candy wrapper and put it in his mouth, looking at Pei Zhuxuan with a smile.

"Very sweet."

(End of this chapter)