Yan Cigui.

Is it extreme?
No matter how open-minded people are, there will be obsessions in their hearts.

If not, wouldn't it really be heartless?
And Zhu Zhan is obviously not open-minded. She has walked on this road that no one can tell and understand for eight years, and her thoughts are getting deeper and deeper.

She couldn't find the direction to break the game.

"You want to tear their face off and show your mother's pain in front of everyone," Lin Yunyan said, "What if those 'everyone' can't understand?"

Zhu Zhan couldn't help looking at Lin Yunyan.

"What your grandfather and uncle said, you can afford the expenses, you don't need to do anything to take care of them, and you have done your best." Lin Yunyan smiled wryly and shook her head. "If you were a bystander, who would you understand? Who do you think of?"

Zhu Zhan was silent.

Her vision was blurred by tears, and she couldn't see Lin Yunyan's expression clearly, but the other party's voice was soft and delicate, like a bowl of warm tea, which made her relax a little.

She was able to calm down the sad state of mind and think seriously.

"There are so many sufferings in the world. People in the world have always served a few old people and sick people. They have suffered from hardships and hardships." Lin Yunyan sighed, "But people in the world may not necessarily be unable to move or half-dead."

Even for Xu Jian in her previous life, her two legs were completely useless, and she could only rely on a wheelchair to get in and out. No matter how determined her will is, there are still many things that need to be shared by the people around her...

But what he is like is far better than the fourth wife of the British government who "only takes a breath".

Those who have really reached the level of Zhu Zhan's mother are unconscious, so how can they think and understand Zhu Zhan's heart?

"Your grandfather and the others may not really understand the pain of you and your mother, they just pretend to be confused, but once they are torn apart, their words are completely tenable," Lin Yunyan said, "Even if you sue the charity Ning Gong, report to the imperial court, they are 'not wrong'."

Zhu Zhan pursed her lips tightly.

Why doesn't she know?
It is because you understand too much that you will be powerless and entangled with yourself.

"Yeah, no matter how loud I shout, few people can understand, just like I didn't understand my grandmother back then," Zhu Chan said with a trembling voice, "Only when I really love the person on the sick bed will I think of giving up. .”

Because giving up is much harder than holding on.

Bearing a life, living in longing and remorse for a lifetime, but also facing incomprehension and accusations from others, the heart is bound to be unstable.

"Persistence without effort is the reason why you feel so at ease. After all, you have tried your best." Zhu Zhan curled the corners of his lips, smiling sarcastically, "So, no matter how unwilling I am, there is nothing I can do?"

Lin Yunyan asked: "If something happens to the British government, have you thought about what to do?"

"I thought about it," Zhu Zhan said, "I want to stab my mother with scissors, and I want to stab myself too.

You see, if you have already thought about your dead end, you don't have to be afraid.

If the house was stolen, he would leave cleanly...

Princess, my only wish is that my mother can walk more smoothly, instead of being so dragged along and becoming a tool for them to gain fame.

I also understand that to achieve this goal, there is always a price to pay.

I set out to kill my mother, and the price is me.

If I can tear off their skin, I am a girl from the British government, so I must be one of the prices.

The same is the price, why can't I do the latter? "

Lin Yunyan held Zhu Zhan's hand.

Zhu Zhan understood more thoroughly than she knew.

If you can see and think clearly, you will be able to understand your own weakness and powerlessness better.

If it goes on like this, it's hard not to think crazy.

Most of the emotions in my heart were vented, and Zhu Zhan felt much more relaxed.

Without talking to Lin Yunyan, she asked Xiao Er to bring a basin of water to cleanse the face, and ordered another table of dishes.

After she washed away the tears on her face, Lin Yunyan took out a box of balm from the sachet at her waist.

Now, it was Zhu Zhan's turn to be surprised: "You still carry this with you?"

Lin Yunyan simply replied, "I'm used to it."

She does get used to it.

Don't worry if the seal is not close to your body.

Xu Jian sat in a wheelchair for a long time, so she had to moisten her legs with balm all year round, otherwise it would cause cracks.

Years and months, back to this time, she still hasn't changed.

"Hurry up and eat," Lin Yunyan and Zhu Zhan poured out a bowl of hot soup, "You will have strength after eating, and you can cry as much as you want."

Zhu Zhan took it: "After eating, I'll take you to meet my brother who can't go back home."

Lin Yunyan responded.

When he was full, Zhu Zhan pulled Lin Yunyan into his carriage and talked to the handlebar.

Just looking at her current appearance, she is no different from her usual cheerfulness, how can she see the haze in her heart?

Zhu Cheng's concubine lives in Liuguo Hutong.

The carriage drove straight in and stopped at the place Zhu Zhan said.

Zhu Zhan said softly: "I'll just go down, and you can watch it in the car, so as not to involve you inexplicably."

After speaking, Zhu Zhan jumped out of the car without moving his pedals.

Walking to the door, she raised her hand and patted the door panel.

Not light, but not heavy enough to knock on doors.

Not long after, the door opened from the inside.

It was an old woman who opened the door, and seeing that it was Zhu Zhan who knocked, her face turned pale, and she subconsciously wanted to close the door.

"Try to close it." Zhu Zhan stretched out his hand to block the door, "If you dare to close it, I will smash it."

The old woman swallowed her saliva, but did not dare to close the door.

This is a noble girl in the mansion, no matter what the relationship between father and daughter is, there are also grandparents and uncles on top, it really hurt the girl's hand, the wife and son who live here may not be good, but she, the old woman, must be in trouble Understand.

"You..." The old woman smiled flatteringly, "Why are you here?"

"Passing by, I'm thirsty, come get a bowl of tea," Zhu Zhan said, "Why, I can't drink your tea?"

The old woman: "This..."

During the stalemate, the lady Wang from the outer room asked through the window: "Who's here?"

"I'm here." Zhu Zhan replied directly.

Lady Wang saw Zhu Zhan's appearance clearly, and reluctantly walked into the yard: "Since the girl is here, come in and sit down."

When the master spoke, the old woman opened the door and turned around to prepare tea.

Zhu Zhan didn't intend to close the door at all, but opened the other door as well.

Taking the pedal from the handlebar, she swung it towards the door and sat down like a twig.

Seeing her like this, Mrs. Wang twitched the corners of her mouth: "Girl, this is against the rules..."

"Rules," Zhu Zhan said, "then let your son come over and give me a salute, so that the elders and younger are orderly, right?"

Mrs. Wang turned around and went back to the house. Not long after, she led a little boy out, followed by the nanny.

Zhu Zhan glanced at Mrs. Wang unexpectedly.

She thought that Mrs. Wang would reject her request, but unexpectedly, the little boy called her "sister" in a polite manner.

Zhu Chan asked: "Can you recite poems? You are five years old, can you recite some?"

The child naturally didn't understand the twists and turns between adults. After hearing this sentence, he honestly recited the poem.

Zhu Zhan took the tea bowl and put it at his feet, but didn't take a sip.

Quietly, she listened to the boy recite one after another.