After retiring from the circle, I became famous by live broadcast farming

Chapter 173 I Can't Find My Mom

So, she gave the money she had saved before marriage to the neighbor's grandmother. She trusted the neighbor's grandmother and hoped that when Shen Xuan grew up and encountered difficulties and needed money, the money could help Shen Xuan.

In fact, the money did help.

When Shen Xuan was admitted to a key high school, the man thought that the family did not have enough money to pay tuition fees, and could not provide for Shen Xuan to study, so he wanted Shen Xuan to drop out of school and go to work.

It was also at that time that the neighbor's grandma appeared and told about Shen's mother's arrangement and the money.

It is precisely because of this that Shen Xuan was able to continue to study in high school and later university.

When the man learned about the money, he tried his best to get it back, but unfortunately, the money was mother Shen's pre-marital property, and she could give it to whoever she wanted, and the man had no way to get it back.

When Shen Xuan was 18 years old, the neighbor's grandmother handed over the rest of the money to him.

After learning about the man's plan that the house was going to be demolished, she immediately called Shen Xuan back.

Shen Xuan didn't want to believe it, so she went home and asked her father.

result……

In the dark street, Shen Xuan raised his head and took a sip of beer, and accidentally choked on it. He bent over and coughed continuously, but tears fell down while he coughed.

Shen Xuan wiped away tears.

He didn't want to cry, it was just physiological tears stimulated by coughing.

This is Shen Xuan's first time drinking alcohol in so many years. To be honest, the taste of wine is really bad, but at this moment he wants to drink it.

No matter how difficult it is to drink, pour it down the throat.

"Shen Xuan, are you Shen Xuan?" Suddenly, Shen Xuan heard someone calling him.

He turned around and found that he had unknowingly walked to the courier point in his hometown.

At this moment, the boss of the delivery point stopped him.

"It just so happens that you are here, here is your courier." Soon, the boss found a small box and handed it to him.

Shen Xuan took the palm-sized box, and after thinking about it with his not very fresh mind at the moment, he realized what the delivery was about.

That was two days ago, he accidentally clicked into the Penguin live broadcast platform, a live broadcast room called "Tianyuan Jiawei".

Shen Xuan was very busy at that time and had no interest in watching the live broadcast.

Unexpectedly, he just clicked in accidentally, and the live broadcast room happened to be doing a lottery giveaway.

And somehow, he just happened to win the lottery.

The thing that wins the lottery is still a person's prime circle.

The silver-white plain circle seems to have a halo under the sun, which is very dazzling.

To be honest, Shen Xuan is not interested in plain circles, rings, necklaces and other accessories, but looking at the plain circles through the Internet, he inexplicably likes them.

I thought that since I won the lottery, I would take it and give it to my girlfriend at that time.

It's just that he didn't expect that before the prime circle arrived, he would find out about his girlfriend's betrayal.

"Did I choose my hometown when I chose the address?" Shen Xuan was slightly puzzled. He turned on his phone and checked, and found that the delivery address he chose was indeed his hometown.

"Could it be that I was too busy and didn't pay attention to it at the time, so I chose the wrong one?"

But that's okay, it just so happens that he is in his hometown at this time.

Shen Xuan had no intention of opening the express delivery at this time, so she continued to walk forward while drinking beer.

He didn't choose a particular direction when he walked. At this time, his mind was confused by alcohol, and he couldn't tell the way, so he just walked according to his feeling.

As I walked, I found that the light in front of me was getting darker and darker, and there were fewer and fewer people, and it gradually became silent.

Shen Xuan, who was drunk at this time, didn't notice it.

Until the surrounding area was full of old trees, no light could be seen anymore, the surrounding area became silent, and even the temperature dropped a bit.

At this time, Shen Xuan finally came back to his senses, he shook his head, and identified the surrounding area.

But when she realized where this was, Shen Xuan was stunned for a moment, her eyes that had recovered a little were red again.

He covered his face and smiled wryly.

Throwing away the empty wine bottle in his hand, Shen Xuan continued to walk forward by the light of his mobile phone. He didn't know how long he walked until he came to a tombstone.

There was silence around, and the faint light of the mobile phone reflected a tomb in front of him, and there was no photo on the tombstone, only the name and the date of birth and death of the person.

White Sujuan.

I don't know how long no one has come here, it is covered with grass, and the tombstone is also covered with moss, almost covering the words.

Seeing this scene at first glance, Shen Xuan's heart ached.

Eyes trembled, and tears fell silently.

Shen Xuan put the phone aside, squatted down, and pulled the grass with both hands.

He climbed the grass silently, tears fell from his cheeks little by little, and finally fell silently into the grass, and disappeared in the grass in the darkness.

After a long while, he finally spoke.

"Mom, I'm sorry, it's been so long since I came to see you..." After saying a word, Shen Xuan, who was just choked up, couldn't help it, tears poured down his face, and he sobbed aloud.

The movement of his hands didn't stop, but his back was slightly bent.

"Mom, I should have come to see you earlier, I, I didn't mean not to come to see you."

"Mom, can you forgive me?"

"Mom, it would be great if you were here. I used to think that what I got from my aunt belonged to my mother's love, but now I realize that it's not. So, what is my mother's love like?"

"Mom, it would be great if you were still here now. When I was a child, I always envied those children who were playing outside and were called home by their mothers for dinner, or were chased and beaten by their mothers because they were mischievous, because they had mothers. , because their mother loves them, so they take care of them."

"I also envy those children who can go home and sue their mother after being bullied by others, because they can find their mother if they have a grievance."

"Mom, I want to say, I want to say, these years, I have not had a good life. I am very sad and wronged. I want to complain to my mother, I want to complain to my mother, but I can't find it."

"I can't find my mother..."

At the end, Shen Xuan almost collapsed and cried bitterly.

That sadness, sadness, and confusion, like a wounded, abandoned cub, can only cry alone, lick the wound, and taste the blood dripping from the wound alone.

In the silent mountain forest, apart from the sound of Shen Xuan crying bitterly, the only sound was the rustling of the leaves as the wind blows through the trees.

I don't know how long we cried before Shen Xuan gradually stopped.

He didn't care whether the ground was dirty or not, he just sat next to the tombstone, resting his head on it, like a child leaning on his mother's warm embrace.

His fingertips lightly touched the words on the tombstone, whispering about the past of these years.

Talking about father, stepmother and younger brother's family, talking about his study life, work situation, talking about his past with his girlfriend, no, the past of his ex-girlfriend...

(End of this chapter)