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"I'm telling you this not because I want to see you cry. Susu, I'm not as good as you think. I'm very bad and very scheming. I know you are the softest, but I still tell you."

His eyes were so red that he looked like he was about to cry in the next second.

Xu Su smiled bitterly. Of course she knew what he meant by telling her, but how could she blame him? It was obviously her fault, it was her failure to live up to her sincerity, it was her seamless connection...

The scar on his wrist may never go away for the rest of his life...

Xu Su touched it gently and raised his head carefully: "Does it hurt?"

Xi Zirong was slightly startled and nodded aggrievedly: "...it hurts."

"..." Xu Suzhen couldn't see how pitiful he looked, so he held his wrist and blew it gently. Feeling really guilty, he kissed it carefully.

Finally, I said "I'm sorry" very softly...

She is really guilty...

Xi Zirong was silent for a long time, then smiled slowly: "Since we broke up, the most common thing you have said to me is 'I'm sorry', but you know, what I least want to hear is this 'I'm sorry'."

The last thing I want to hear is this 'I'm sorry'...

Xu Su had a splitting headache. She knew what he wanted to hear, but she couldn't do it at all. If she went out for a walk and broke up with her when she got back, Zhou Mochen would probably eat her alive...

Unless she can split herself in half.

If he really cared about it, even if she was split into two halves, Zhou Mochen would definitely want both halves.

That person is good at everything and can be said to be obedient. Xu Su sometimes thinks that with Zhou Mochen's pampering method, if one day she suddenly says on a whim that she wants to go to the sky and go around the moon, he will probably think so. Find a way to fulfill her wish.

He would satisfy whatever she wanted, except for her breaking up, which was his bottom line.

Xu Su felt so uncomfortable that she didn't know what to do. If she had the right to choose, if she...

"Okay, don't be so embarrassed,"

Xi Zirong bent down and brought his face closer, his eyes were very gentle: "Susu, it's my own problem that I can't let you go. You don't need to bear any psychological burden on this. I just hope you are happy."

I just want you to be happy…

Happy fart!

Xu Su took a deep breath and looked directly at him: "I also want you to be happy, so Xi Zirong, tell me, is there anything I can do to help you?"

Her eyes were frank and sincere.

It's like saying: As long as you say, I will do whatever I can do.

As Xi Zirong watched, she couldn't help but have extravagant hopes in her heart, but she suppressed them fiercely.

He couldn't take advantage of her guilt and make demands that would embarrass her.

After being quiet for a long time, Xi Zirong finally just said: "Can you accompany me on the next journey?"

Xu Su paused for a moment, then nodded quickly before his expression gradually became lonely: "Okay, okay."

This is not an excessive request, it is just that we go all the way to LS. Xu Su thought about it and held his hand: "You must never do such self-harm again in the future. I promise you will never do it again." I won’t reply to your message.”

She had also had the urge to self-mutilate, and she knew the uncontrollable discomfort. She was so fed up with Shen Chen at the time, and didn't know how to face Zhou Mochen. She was dominated by the ostrich escape mentality, so she inexplicably wanted to self-mutilate.And what about Xi Zirong?
Xu Su couldn't even imagine how he had become so desperate that he felt so uncomfortable that he wanted to die during those days when she was so cruel that she didn't reply to her messages.

…………

They stayed in the tent for more than two hours. When they came out, their eyes were redder than the other, like two rabbits.

Both Sika and Jiang Chusheng were sitting at a round table not far outside the tent, each holding a can of beer in their hands. When they saw the two finally coming out, they still looked like this. Their faces were stunned for a moment, and then they showed a bad look. Laughing, with her boyfriend by her side, she didn't say anything explosive.

He just looked at Xu Su with a smile and said, "What have we been talking about? Seeing you crying like that makes me feel bad."

Xu Su pursed her lips and said nothing. She was a little embarrassed, so she simply opened a can of beer and sat down.

After a few sips of beer, Xu Su raised her head and continued to look at the stars. Under the same starry sky, her mood was completely different from two hours ago.

The four of them sat quietly for a while, until Xu Su, who was wearing shorts, felt cold and dispersed.

On the way back, Sika couldn't help but risk gossip.

Xu Su was also worried and had a lot of worries that no one could talk to, so he briefly described the entanglement with Xi Zirong and Zhou Mochen to her.

After hesitating for a while, she still didn't say anything about Xi Zirong cutting her wrists. After all, it was personal privacy and she had no right to tell others.

After saying everything she could, Xu Su condemned herself again. She sighed sadly: "I'm really not a human being!"

Sika didn't interrupt the whole time. After she finished speaking, she was silent for a while and then asked her: "Then who do you like?"

Xu Su: "..."

Seeing her speechless expression, Sika stared: "Don't tell me that you don't know?"

"No, no, of course I know," Xu Su denied hastily. After thinking about it, he hesitated: "If it is the kind of love that 'must be done by him', I don't seem to be there."

Whether it's Zhou Mochen or Xi Zirong, she can adapt well without anyone. She doesn't have much pursuit of material life. Without Zhou Mochen, she can successfully enter University B and become a new member of University B with the scholarship from No. [-] Middle School. A student from University B.

She has lost all the glamor and glamour, but she will still have a bright future.

This was also her life plan when she was just reborn. She didn't expect that she would still be unable to get around the mountain of Zhou Mochen.

It would be fine if there was only one Zhou Mochen, but Xi Zirong was invited again.

Sika had a look on her face: "I didn't expect that you are the scumbag."

"..." Xu Su was speechless and asked her with a sad face: "What do you think I should do?"

"Your indecision will only make things more complicated,"

Sika pondered for a moment and said seriously: "According to my understanding, falling in love with someone must have exclusivity and desire for exclusivity. If you don't have it, either you haven't felt it yet, or you don't love it. These two You don’t love anyone, you haven’t met anyone you truly love yet.”

Xu Su subconsciously wanted to refute, but before he could speak, he was interrupted by Sika again:

"I think it's impossible for you to be unmoved by both of these two best guys. Rather than loving neither of them, it's more likely that you are so lucky that every boy you meet loves you more than the last one and doesn't need you. If you ask for it, they will consciously satisfy your 'desire for exclusivity'."

"In love, you get too much security, and you don't feel the pain of worrying about gains and losses at all, so you don't feel the importance of 'exclusivity'." (End of Chapter)