I go north, you go south

So now, Ling Bei wants to pull his "god" down from the altar.He will use the most loyal and craziest love to sink together with his "god".

How can surrender without desire be worthy of loyalty "until death"?

In fact, after the reunion, Ling Bei thought more than once, if Nan Zishu didn't fall in love with him, or if she already had a relationship with her during the two years she missed, what should he do?
As a person who has studied psychology, it's not that Ling Bei doesn't know how lucky it is to make Nan Zishu like him.And what he knew better was that once he got close to Nan Zishu, it would be impossible for him to stand silently behind her.

Because only Ling Bei knows how much he loves this person, and only he knows that after getting close to her, those possessive desires that have been suppressed for so long can instantly tie them together forever.

And it's not that Ling Bei didn't think about it, let Nan Zishu stand with him under these involuntary flashing lights, she would have to work hard to adapt to the pressure she shouldn't have to bear.This was also the main reason why he didn't dare to approach her back then.

He hesitated for a long time back then, and after missing the last chance, he forced himself to bury this "must have her" love in his heart.

In fact, Ling Bei had long planned to be alone for the rest of his life.Because in the next two years, he discovered that the longer the time, the more rampant the memories about Nan Zishu.

She is the only effective reassurance when he dreams back at midnight, and she will also be the only light he looks forward to when he is trapped in the past
There was enough time about her to fill his entire life.

So for Ling Bei, one of the most charming jokes fate played with him was to see Nan Zishu again in Shiyang Hall without warning.He will never forget that moment, when the madness that had accumulated for so long was instantly attracted by "fatalism" from all limbs and bones.

For more than 600 days and nights, when Ling Bei had long been forced to accept the regret of "missing" and planned to stay with the memories for a lifetime, the only figure that would not be erased by time reappeared, and all reasons were directly thrown out of his mind back.

This is the first time Ling Bei believed in fate.

So Ling Bei chose to approach her without hesitation.However, he would always underestimate his love for Nan Zishu. The original plan was to try it lightly and never force it, but in the end it easily became deeper and deeper.

It's like believers are constantly following their own beliefs, and they will only give everything they have without reservation.

More importantly, now his "god" has mercy on him.

If at first Ling Bei was afraid of hurting Nan Zishu because of his irresistible madness, then when he was sure that she also cared about him, Ling Bei would never let Nan Zishu go.

Step by step like this, Ling Bei rubbed Nan Zishu into his own flesh and blood.

If "falling in love with Nan Zishu" is a kind of illness of Ling Bei, then he has long been willing to "be terminally ill".

One person loves the other badly, and before he gets her, he may still be able to maintain his last sanity and protect her from afar.Once you have owned it, you will never allow her to not belong to you anymore.

So now every sentence of Ling Bei carries the "forever" that he is sure of.

He hoped to gradually turn all the things about Nan Zishu that were out of reach and that he had no right to interfere into his life.