I go north, you go south

Ling Bei once thought that it would be the biggest, most painful and unforgettable regret in his life.

He also fell into the bottom of the valley again because of this miss, trying to numb his pain with countless bottles of wine.

Even, it's not that he didn't think about ending his life just like that.

But later, when he looked at the photos of the girls secretly left over the past two years and the diaries he wrote down daily to sort out his own diary, Ling Bei gradually chose to reconcile with himself, life and destiny.

He just gradually figured out one thing.Originally, Nan Zishu was just a beautiful period that he couldn't touch. She had already illuminated him in this way and gave him a new life.

Ling Bei felt that he should put himself in the right place, and he had to be clear that Nan Zishu didn't belong to him from the very beginning.Even if he really saw her before leaving Jiangcheng, there was a high probability that she would not accept the love of a boy whom she had only met once.

Ling Bei naturally knew that Nan Zishu had never been a casual person.In a sense, she may be a bit reserved.After all, he knew in his heart that Nan Zishu had never had a "boyfriend" at least during the two years he was still at Jiang University.Not even the opposite sex with a better relationship.

That's why he gradually developed some delusions.

But at the same time, because of this reason, Ling Bei has never felt the pressure of "competition".Of course, I will not act impulsively and cross the line.But if Nan Zishu really had a good boyfriend at that time, Ling Bei might really do everything possible to keep her firmly locked by his side.

Because now his behavior has clearly confirmed this point.After all, he would always overestimate his ability to endure with Nan Zishu.

At that time, Ling Bei always comforted himself like this: Nan Zishu had already sent him an extremely beautiful gift, and he absolutely had to cherish this "new life".He should put her in the most important position in his heart.It's that unique "as long as he's alive, she'll be there" kind of position.

Anyway, he never thought he was alone.To have such a beautiful existence in his heart is already a miraculous existence.He knew that she could only be by his side, but she should embrace someone more suitable.

He can do it, maybe only praying for her silently where she can't see or know.

So, he quietly put the softest secrets in his heart into the file bag, wrote "I love her 1021" on it, and finally locked it in the safe.

But even if he didn't take it out to look at it often, those photos and words are still fresh in Ling Bei's heart forever.And 1021 is the date when they first met.This string of dates is also the door lock code that Ling Bei has been using for the past two years since he returned to Ancheng.Until the day they meet again.

Afterwards, Ling Bei chose to continue to study psychology as a graduate student, just because he wanted to let this person he loves the most, even if it was just her unintentionally reshaped soul, walk in the world better. .

Ling Bei has always thought that the probability of their reunion is very low, and it can even be said directly that there is no.Because he never deliberately inquired about Nan Zishu's personal information.He didn't want to be like a so-called "illegitimate fan", he always thought it was a tarnish to Nan Zishu.

But more, in fact, Ling Bei didn't dare to inquire about her too much.