Tokyo people don't talk about Wude

Chapter 360 357. Today I know I am not myself

"Transaction. Could it be..." Jiuzhou Cheng had already guessed what was going on.

"Yes, they found that I have an extra personality." The boy nodded: "According to them, a normal person will only have one personality and one soul. However, if someone has a dual personality, it is equivalent to having two souls."

"So it was easy for them to detect that I have multiple personalities."

"They found out that I had developed a second personality and why. So they offered me a deal."

The young man was too embarrassed to speak out: "They said that as long as I don't resist and obediently accept the analysis and control of the [Prologue], they will let me experience the feeling of being a [great hero] for once."

"They promised to send me back and let me continue living as 'Jiuzhou Cheng' temporarily until [Prologue] completely analyzes my soul and brings me back."

"I have the memories of that [great hero], and I also have the power of zombie weapons. If I could go back to my old life, I would be able to live the life I wanted."

"And I'm the first zombie weapon in history to have a split personality, so the KJ organization also has other research interests in me. They named me P01, P stands for Persona, which means disguised personality. I'm the first case of this serial number."

"They really want to observe and study the effects and changes of zombie weapons after personality splitting, so this deal is completely in line with their scientific research interests."

"This period is expected to last from half a year to a year, depending on how quickly [Prologue] analyzes my soul. During this period, I am not allowed to eat other people's souls, nor can I use other methods to drastically change the structure of my soul. At the same time, I cannot escape, ask for help, or reveal my secrets, nor can I exert extraordinary power in front of ordinary people."

The boy pointed at his brain and said, "Otherwise not only the [Wedge] but also the bomb implanted in my brain will explode."

"Then, the KJ organization's spies who have been closely monitoring me throughout the process will take the opportunity to completely wipe me out."

"Completely wipe out" Jiuzhou Cheng hesitated and said, "Aren't they reluctant to kill you?"

"If I'm determined to make a desperate situation, then their best option is to kill me. That's what they said at the beginning." The young man sighed.

"Now that I think about it, they were probably just threatening me. They didn't want to kill me, but I believed them. I'm sorry."

The boy kept apologizing, like a child who kept admitting his mistakes in front of adults, begging in his heart that the adults would scold him less.

"Finally, I made a promise with them." The young man looked away and said, "And then... you already know what happened next."

"You want to live a life like a great hero, but even if you have his memories, you can't put yourself in his shoes." Jiuzhou Cheng's pupils trembled violently, and he continued to talk along with the other party's topic:
"So you let this personality of mine show up, and you hide in the dark. In other words, from the May Day holiday until before Christmas, it was my [second personality] that was controlling this body, playing the role of [Jiuzhou Cheng who thinks he is Chen Jiuzhou]."

"That's right. The meaning of your birth is to play Chen Jiuzhou for me, the man known as the Great Hero. That's why you... I'm sorry, I'm such an incompetent waste. I don't even have the courage to experience the life of a Great Hero. I can only enjoy it through the hands of others." The young man said humbly:
"But, even if I can only watch from afar those who have been helped express their gratitude to Jiuzhou Cheng, I will be satisfied enough. This is enough for me. For a humble person like me, this is a beautiful dream that I would never dare to hope for in my whole life."

"You guy." Jiuzhou Cheng was in mixed feelings and didn't know what to say.

"But, after all, you are an imitator of [Chen Jiuzhou], and there are still many differences between you and the real him." The young man shook his head and said:

"Have you discovered that the real [Chen Jiuzhou] is a man of courage and strategy who knows how to judge the situation. He is willing to help anyone who needs help, but only if he knows he will not be in danger."

"So in essence, Chen Jiuzhou is a kind-hearted person, but he is definitely not a superman who will grant whatever you ask for."

"But I was too greedy. At the beginning, I just hinted that you should just play the role of [Chen Jiuzhou]. But as you kept getting into danger, I was no longer satisfied with letting you just play the role of a good guy."

"If Chen Jiuzhou had come to the scene when Mizuhashi jumped off the building, he would have watched her fall and die. It's not the Great Hero's fault, because he knew that even if he jumped in, he couldn't save Mizuhashi's life."

"So at that time, if I hadn't interfered with you, you would have watched Mizuhashi jump down."

Jiuzhou Cheng suddenly took a breath and asked, "Could it be that the master I saw at that time..."

"That master is me." The young man pursed his lips and said, "I'm sorry, I'm really sorry. I did such a thing without permission. I, a lowly person, took on such a glorious role as the master of a great hero without permission."

"At that moment, I originally just wanted you to play the role of [Chen Jiuzhou], but suddenly I had the idea of ​​forcing you to do something beyond your ability and let you be [Superman]."

"You didn't know you were a zombie weapon at the time, and I also gave you a hint that forbade you to use superhuman powers. But that time, I pulled you into the mental dream I created, played the role of Chen Jiuzhou's master, and then induced you to become a [superman] who would do anything to save others. At the same time, I temporarily released the power of the zombies, allowing you to have enough power to jump off the building and save Mizuhashi."

“I just wanted to release some power, so the KJ organization should let me go this time, I thought. Fortunately, the KJ organization didn’t bother me.”

"I was very happy that time. I had never felt so satisfied before. But gradually I realized that it was probably from then on that your behavior logic and thoughts were also rewritten. You gradually deviated from [Chen Jiuzhou] and moved closer to [Superman]'s thinking."

Jiuzhou Cheng took a deep breath and asked, "So, when I went to rescue Officer Qing Gong in Yokohama, it was you who induced me?"

"Yes, that was me at that time." The boy admitted, "And after that, you seemed to have taken another step towards the thinking of a [superman], becoming more and more great. You are less and less like [Chen Jiuzhou], and you are almost transcending humanity."

"There was one last time. It was after the KJ organization came to arrest us. I wanted to trap you in a beautiful dream, so that you would never wake up again, and would never find out the painful truth. I wanted to do something for you in the end. But as expected, I, a useless wretch, failed. Once you developed a strong resistance, I couldn't trap you in an illusion anymore."

"." The young man was silent and didn't say anything else, as if he had said everything he wanted to say.

Jiuzhou Cheng knelt on the ground in pain, gasping for breath.

If I had been able to keep some sanity and listen to the young man explaining the whole story just now,

Now he just felt that he was not far from going completely crazy.

It turns out that I have been fake all along.

What Chen Jiuzhou, what great hero of Yanhuang, he is nothing.

Presumably, even the identity of "time traveler" is a false memory added for self-deception.

He is not even Kyushu Makoto, but a second personality that emerged from Kyushu Makoto.

A rat in the sewer yearns for the people walking on the street, and a second personality is born out of self-deception and distortion.

A second personality of "Jiuzhou Cheng" who identifies himself as "Chen Jiuzhou".

A second personality of a loser who sees himself as a great hero.

A second personality that exists to fulfill the coward's heroic dream.

The second personality of a disgusting monster that is neither human nor ghost.

A pretender, a role model, a faker.

A fictional person who never existed in the first place.

He couldn't believe that all this was true, but his memory perfectly confirmed these events, these shocking tragedies.

After his brain trembled for an unknown amount of time, Jiuzhou Cheng raised his head with great effort and spoke with his remaining rationality, trembling and anxiously asking:
"Hey, tell me. Who am I?"

However, all he got in response was the boy's apologetic look and silence with his lips bitten.

"Hey, fucking stop saying nothing to me at this time. Who am I?! Answer me!"

"." The young man was silent for a moment, and whispered: "I'm sorry, I'm really sorry."

"Fuck you, you coward! What else can you do besides apologize?!" Jiuzhou Cheng's eyes were glaring, and his emotions were close to collapse:
"Tell me the fucking truth! Why did you make such a ridiculous deal with the KJ organization! Why didn't you resist? Why didn't you resist? Now it's all over! You knew that the KJ organization was not a good thing, why didn't you resist?!"

"Because I am different from you. I am neither a hero nor a superman." The boy didn't know whether he was scared or scolded, and he answered aggrievedly:
“Even if I resist, what will happen? Either I die, or I escape and become an exile. No matter who I fall into, I will not have a good ending! Rather than choosing such a bleak path, I might as well experience the feeling of being a [great hero] before I die. I’m sorry, I’m just a humble, selfish, trashy waste who only knows how to escape. Woo woo woo. I’m sorry.”

"Fuck you. What's the point of you just apologizing all the time?" Jiuzhou Cheng's eyes were bulging and ready to burst out at any time. He used his last bit of strength to ask:
"Tell me, who am I? Am I Chen Jiuzhou? Or Jiuzhou Cheng? Who am I? What am I?!"

"." The only response he got was the boy's silence, and:
"sorry."

Boom————! ! !
Jiuzhou Cheng heard a sudden thunder in his ears.

There was thunder in Tokyo Bay today.

Jiuzhou Cheng's eyes were dull, and he finally realized everything.

The young man in front of me is the real "Jiuzhou Cheng".

And his "Jiuzhou Cheng" is just □□□.

In other words, he is nothing.

Not a hero, not a human being, not a self.

"Who am I?"

For him, there is no answer to this question at all.

There was a loud thunder over Tokyo Bay, and today I know that I am no longer myself.

(End of this chapter)