In the crisis survival game, relying on space to win numbness

Into the fourth day of the game.

According to the 3.0 time flow rate, it is the 12th day.

When Bai Yu woke up, Bai's mother had just woken up.

She came back late last night, as usual, went into the room and kissed Bai Yu.

And all this happened under the sneak watch of Bai Siyu floating outside the window.

From Bai Siyu's mouth, Bai Yu learned that because she was restricted by a certain type of contract, she couldn't meet Bai's mother face to face.

Because that would make Mama Bai's already weak body even weaker, and she might even face death.

Bai Yu can understand this point, after all, he's gone to hell, who can run around alive...

In addition, the sacrifice of guardians and wards only exists between relatives who are related by blood.

Therefore, when Bai's father died in a car accident, Bai's mother could only watch him die and there was nothing she could do.

As for Bai's father's parents, it is said that because he fell in love with Bai's mother, they never got in touch with each other.

Mother Bai went to Bai's house to beg the second elder, but they seemed to have given up on the elder son who had been swept away.

Mother Bai spent a period of time in endless self-blame and guilt.

If it wasn't for her, Papa Bai wouldn't sever ties with his parents, and he would naturally accept the spiritual sacrifice of his parents, so he wouldn't die in vain
This has also become another knot in Bai Mama's heart that is difficult to untie.

She thought about suicide at the time, but when she thought of the six-month-old fetus in her womb, she gritted her teeth and held back.

It was not only a life about to take shape, but also the crystallization of her love with Papa Bai.

All in all, the story of Mama Bai and Papa Bai is a very old-fashioned tragedy.

The same is true of her and her daughter's story.

And Bai Yu also found some clues from Bai Siyu's words.

That is, every time Mother Bai sacrifices her soul, she will be involved in choosing her own life path.

However, once the trajectory starts to change, then, if you move your whole body, your life after that will be completely changed.

In other words, Bai Siyu will be resurrected, but whether he will meet Mother Bai is unknown.

In order to meet her daughter as scheduled, Mother Bai chose the exact same life path nine times in a row.

And this trajectory is obviously tragic, tragic, and makes people feel so painful that they don't want to face it.

Bai Yu doesn't know what is the meaning of Bai Mama's obsession, which is why Bai Siyu died nine times:
"She" didn't want Mama Bai to choose such a miserable life for "her".

Under Bai Mama's "perseverance" choice, "she" repeatedly lived a life of poverty and homelessness.

When other people's children are accompanied by their parents to play in the playground zoo, "her" mother is working overtime crazily, while "her" stepfather, who is not as good as a beast, is drunk every day, venting his anger on "her", taking Mother Bai, who came home late, vented her anger.

When someone else's child was wearing newly bought clothes and a beautiful necklace, "she" was wearing scars and bruises from being beaten by her stepfather.
"She" did not embody the fatherly love that a child should have for a day.

As for maternal love.

Mama Bai is very good, but the kind of love that Mama Bai gives to "her" is too heavy.

It was too heavy for "she" to bear.

Mama Bai's words are always:

"Mom, you are the only one left in this world."

"Mom did this for your own good."

"Mom is also afraid of you in the future"

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Over time, Bai Siyu found himself ill.

And he was terminally ill and hopelessly ill.

Finally on her 11th birthday, she chose to end everything.

But Mother Bai was stunned, and then she crazily sacrificed her heart to Wu Xinyan, over and over again, "awakening" the dead daughter again.

Then the tragedy of life repeats itself because of the obsession with wanting to "encounter again".

From Bai Yu's point of view, Mama Bai never realized:

What she needs to wake up more is the self who has been deceiving herself, pretending to be asleep and unwilling to wake up.

It is difficult for her to understand that some losses in life require her to face and accept.

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