Shepherd Tantra

Chapter 1143: Something More Than Life, the Meaning of Inscription

Hawkeye in the future might be destroyed, Iris might be reborn, and everything would be better... except without Sirius.

No, perhaps in the future when Iris is redeemed and humanity is saved, people will remember this extinct family in this way - the Siliaix family, which almost assassinated Aiwass, who saved the world, and became the sinner of all mankind.

——What did they do wrong?

From the perspective of humans, he asked Chloe to distribute the novel "Dracula" in Avalon to remind the people of Avalon of the dangers of the Moon Child; from the perspective of the royal party, he had long ago planned to let the speaker of the royal family live alone and to bury those scum who acted recklessly under the banner of Hawkeye; from the perspective of a patriot, he also participated in the curse of the Avalon royal family and the counter-espionage work against the Star Antimony; from the perspective of a grandfather, he asked his granddaughter to be gilded so that she could inherit the political influence of the Siliaix family after his death...

What's wrong with him?

He alone killed hundreds of Moon Children, including some of the fourth and fifth energy level strongmen. He was the one who killed the most Moon Children in the entire Hawkeye, and all those who killed him were strongmen who believed in the Blood Sky Division; his position in Hawkeye was firmly in the top three, and even the leader could not force him to participate in the mission. He assassinated those traitors, spies, wealthy people and officials who tried to defect... He indirectly saved countless people.

This is what he vowed to do and has done since he was a teenager when he took over the "Eagle Feather" dagger from his grandfather - protecting this country in secret in the name of Siliaix.

Why should the Siliaix family lose all their glory just because Aiwass became the savior? Chloe, as the heir of the Siliaix family and the strongest genius in the family, should become the great sinner who "almost destroyed the world" just because he offended Aiwass?
“——Why?” the old man murmured.

Their family had already paid too much, and they would never allow themselves to become sinners in the future. He would not allow the family to be cut off in his hands, and he would not allow everything to be ruined in his hands.

That being the case...

——It would be better to prevent Aiwass from having the chance to save the world.

Dark hatred, jealousy, and despair spread in my heart.

Thomas's selfless dedication led him to his own twilight. Everything he did was just to make the "name of Siliaix" etched in history. The little bit of "hatred" mixed in confused his real goal... and he finally chose to push everything into the abyss.

Or, the iris, cleansed by Siliaix, becomes flourishing again;
Otherwise, let Hawkeye without Siliaix perish along with the iris.

He tends to favor the latter.

The dim yellow color in Thomas' pupils became brighter and more turbid.

His back gradually became hunched, his skin aged at a speed visible to the naked eye, and his sense of existence continued to decline. That was the price he paid for using the White Rainbow Tantra, and his remaining life would be plundered because of it.

But in contrast——his aura and his head became more and more proud.

"So-called assassins...are definitely not just killers who are paid to do things."

He murmured in a low voice, these were the first words his grandfather said when he taught him the art of assassination when he was a child.

Scenes from the past appeared before my eyes like yellowed photos.

He even thought he had forgotten all these things.

“——Only those who hold the selfless determination can be called an assassin——Once the sword is out, it will come. Even if the price is one’s own life.” This is what my grandfather said at the time.

His voice was always hollow and echoing, like he was talking into a cave.

The long black hair that was as wet and curly as kelp, and the dark eyes that were full of oppression... were like the blackest night, making the child feel scared.

Every word was so clear, so clear that it seemed like it was something my memory could not remember.

"life?"

Young Thomas was a little confused at the time: "But if I die... then what's the point of killing him? The money I get is useless. And... in that case, I might be framed. Because the dead can't talk."

The grandfather just stared at him in disappointment, looking at this child whose eye and hair color were different from his own: "Killing him is the meaning in itself. If you don't have the awareness of death, you will never be able to reach the highest realm... and if you already have the awareness of death, then what use is money and power to you?

"The path of adaptation is the path of the insignificant. Only those who are most afraid of death and want to survive the most will awaken the power of this path. In order to survive, they can bend their knees and crawl on the ground. Even if there is no dignity, as long as they can survive, it's fine.

“At the same time, it is the strong will to survive that makes mortals dare to fight against those tigers, monsters, demons... or those villains who are more cunning than demons and more vicious than tigers.

"If you die, others can live. That's the meaning. The Siliaix have lived for this reason for generations - the purpose of living is to die. Maybe you are not a pure Siliaix... so you don't understand."

——Only things that are higher than their inestimably precious lives are worthy of these fearful and cowardly adaptors sacrificing their lives for.

That is exactly for the purpose of "engraving".

The Siliaix family is a family that has inherited the dual paths of dedication and adaptation.

For fame. For a place in history. For changing the future with my humble body. For creating the world with my own power.

It doesn't matter if I succeed or not, but I must be part of the success - even if future generations cannot remember their existence, or even know their names... but what they did will surely change the entire future.

The reason why only he and Chloe are left in the Siliaix family is very simple...

Because everyone else is dead.

They used their own lives to successfully assassinate people who were impossible to assassinate.

There is no doubt that the power of the Moon Child far exceeds that of humans.

Even the fourth-level Moon Child, who has no training and cannot manipulate blood, can easily smash the wall with one punch, resist shells with his body, be immune to illusions of the same level, see through fog and darkness, and his hearing, sense of smell and reaction speed are several times that of humans. At the same time, he can recover from serious injuries by just sucking blood, not to mention that he can turn into bats and fly away, and any bat can turn into his original body... That is simply powerful. It is already difficult to deal with without any fancy extraordinary abilities. If you have the professional level of Blood Lord, or if you have devout faith in the Blood Heavenly Master, you can also have powerful spells and divine abilities... You can also learn curses and rituals on your own, or use potions to further improve your combat effectiveness. Although their abilities may not be comprehensive, it is very difficult to kill them.

Only the White Rainbow Tantra can accomplish this miracle by defeating the strong with the weak and defeating many with one.

The reason why he didn't teach this secret to Chloe was very simple... With Chloe's proud character, if she got this secret, she would definitely try to assassinate an enemy with a higher power level than herself. The so-called drowning is all about water, and if she keeps trying like this, she will fail sooner or later.

He originally planned to leave the White Rainbow Tantra with his old friend after his death, and then pass it on to Chloe after she gave birth to a child.

In this way, with the child as a bond, Chloe would not be so reckless. She would more or less consider the question of "if I die"... just like him, not daring to die.

In this way, one can use the White Rainbow Tantra cautiously and avoid burning oneself completely.

“Grandfather…”

The old man murmured softly, his skin gradually turned yellow and withered, his teeth fell out, and two tears as turbid as muddy water slowly rolled down.

"Have I disappointed you yet..."

He sobbed and gradually knelt down on the ground amid the surprised gazes of passers-by.

Then the vague sobbing turned into wailing, and the old man who always had to be decent now looked like a lost child.

His hair color, eye color...are all different from the grandfather he idolized.

That was all because of the bloodline his father brought, which distorted Sirius's fearless blood.

Because of this, he was eager to get his grandfather's approval. He wanted to be the best Siliaix... the strongest assassin.

——He failed, but he also succeeded.

It's not that he became the strongest, but that all the Siliaix who were stronger than him died.

Obscurity. Anonymous after death.

Even death without a burial place.

He was afraid of such a future... He didn't want to die like that.

The most terrifying assassin is the nameless assassin. But if no one can remember you, then what is the point of being an assassin?
——In that case, I will become a tombstone.

Although they will die in the mission, I will remember them. The Siliaix family is destined to inherit the assassin spirit of the Hawkeye organization at the beginning of its establishment and become the last assassin family...

Remember. Engraved. Never forget.

And to never forget also means... one must first reach eternity.

Thus, the desire to survive outweighs the mission to remember... The will to live ultimately surpasses the heart of dedication.

Since then, he no longer carried out assassination missions, but only focused on training new people. Outsiders thought he retired due to injury... but in fact, it was because he could no longer use the White Rainbow Secret Sutra.

——Until now, he can do it again.

Siliaix has determined that there is no possibility of inheritance. The assassin family established when Iris was first established will be completely cut off here.

Now when old Thomas looks back, he realizes… he had given up on Siliaix's will at some point.

Only when he is completely free can he come out again with the determination to die.

However, this time it was not the pure and flawless "engraving" will——

Under the pollution of "love and hate", the selfless determination becomes blind. He would rather bury everything in his own hands. The so-called soft fears the hard, the hard fears the strong, the strong fears the stupid, the stupid fears the desperate - if a person can give up even his own life, he can do anything.

If he uses this determination to kill evil spirits, he will become a sharp blade that the evil spirits fear; and if he uses this determination to destroy himself, even a small person will have the opportunity to detonate the world.

"Let everything become nothingness..."

Thomas' pupils had completely melted, and his skin was dripping like melted candy.

He knelt on the ground, his whole body becoming a blur.

What is...

Since when did things start to go wrong?

Such confusion emerged in his heart.

Obviously every step is correct.

Obviously every step is taken for granted.

——Where did I start to stray from the path?
(End of this chapter)