Shepherd Tantra

Chapter 1261 Want to Become a Human
The moment Mahidevran was petrified, she knew she was wrong.

She regretted why she had to provoke Aiwass, and she also regretted that she had the opportunity to make friends with Aiwass, but she failed to stand firmly by his side...

Mahidefraun actually knew that Aiwas was the previous pope, who had defeated and replaced the powerful good Lord Adil of Paradise City, and had personally witnessed him descend on the Indigo King to Holy Spring City. On the one hand, she hoped that Aiwas was the savior in the prophecy... because even the good Lord didn't really like this desert.

On the other hand, she felt somewhat dissatisfied - how could the savior prophesied by the Parthians not be a noble and pure-blooded Parthian?
They followed their fathers' instructions and guarded the desert from generation to generation... With their strength and wealth, they could have become rulers of a country if they left the desert. But they guarded here before humans were born, and passed it down from generation to generation... Until now, the final savior is an outsider?
Moreover, he was so young, so small...even younger than himself.

This jealousy has overwhelmed her desire for the beautiful boy and turned into a poisonous rage that burns her rationality.

But now, she has calmed down.

She was clearly aware of the horrible state of petrification she had fallen into - it was not like she had never been petrified before.

When she first learned forbidden magic with her father, her brother often used petrifying light to tease her younger brothers and sisters. He tried to attack them and create authority in this way... just like her provocation to Aiwass.

But this special kind of petrification not only instantly penetrated all the armor and equipment she was wearing...it also seemed to make her see the end of the world.

The horrible chill of despair, loneliness, and pain made her feel like she was in the stomach of a giant beast. Endless hostility was staring at her from all sides. The last time she felt this was when she was taken hostage to the camp by the rebellious slaves.

That's how the slaves looked at him.

After that, it became her nightmare. Even though she was rescued later, she still couldn't help shaking when she thought of that day.

Normally... when the petrification was lifted, she should have recovered quickly, just like she had a nightmare. The pain she had felt while petrified would be forgotten in the blink of an eye.

But this time when the petrification was lifted, she felt sore all over.

It was like having a serious illness, and even a lot of the magic power in the body was lost, and the remaining magic power became a little sluggish.

She subconsciously looked at the brave Ismaili and found that he had also become honest.

He was no longer as arrogant as before, nor did he continue to provoke Aiwass. Instead, he used a much more normal voice to call out to those followers who had been petrified for touching the barrier but were now forgiven, and left in disgrace.

When he left, Ismail said nothing and looked at himself deeply.

Mahidefraun originally thought that she understood people's hearts very well, but at this moment she could not understand the meaning of that look.

——Is he blaming himself for not stopping him? Or does he feel that he has harmed him? Or does he regret arguing with her here?
…I couldn’t understand it, I couldn’t understand it at all. She just felt that the fool Ismaili seemed to have become smarter for no apparent reason. It was like a fool who became normal after getting drunk.

Seeing Ismaili choose to leave, Mahidevran hesitated for a while and fled with her people. Before she left, she cleared her throat and apologized respectfully and politely in front of Aiwas's door with a gorgeous and soft voice.

Inside the house, Aiwass ignored them.

When he chose to release the petrification, he no longer cared about these people.

He was now looking at the confused Haena.

Or in other words - he was torturing her.

What Aiwas said before was not only said to Ismail...but also to Haena.

"Hana," Aiwas said gently, "Do you know what I want to say to you?"

Haina shook her head slowly, but then she thought of something and nodded slightly.

"Yes……"

She whispered, "Destiny?"

Aiwass did not answer her, but just said something sharp as a knife: "How much of your soul belongs to you, Ha Yina?"

Hearing this, Haina's eyes widened.

She just knew... that was exactly what Aiwass was talking about.

Since she learned of her identity, she had been in pain for a while - as a swamp person made from a part of Lancelot's soul, she was the wedge of the ritual of the Shadow of Avalon. At the same time, she was also the "bad gear" that prevented the ritual from functioning properly.

Because of this, she was born with the adaptability to the path of authority. That adaptability actually came from the fragment of Lancelot in her body... Although she recovered quickly after that, like a happy and simple college student.

At the same time, she was born in Eagle Point Village. It was a village that was completely immersed in the power of dusk and completely solidified. She lived with the Wild Hunt Legion since she was a child and saw more undead than she knew anyone. This also made her adaptable to the path of dusk.

Haina also has ambitions that go beyond the path. When she learned the secret of the Silver Crown Dragon defeating the Supreme Heaven from Eagle Cape Village, she was also excited. In another world line, as the leader of the Hyena Gang, "Nameless", she is also a wild and uninhibited warrior.

Now, she has returned to the path of adaptation, abandoning her authoritarian career to become a complete warrior.

From these perspectives, Haina has adaptability in four paths.

Haina never tried to figure out the truth in this regard, partly because she always believed in "don't think about things you can't figure out" and "don't talk about things you can't encounter". But in fact, she was just hypnotizing herself. The brave Haina was her, and the cowardly one was also her; the loyal Haina was her, and the rebellious one was also her. She never made a distinction, nor did she want to make a distinction.

Her character kept changing because of the ups and downs of the power of the Tao deep in her soul, and also because of the influence of those things - because she knew the nature of the Silver Crown Dragon, and because she always adhered to a flexible way of survival, she was willing to abandon the adaptability of the authoritarian path and transform into adaptation; she did not choose to transcend, because she had a good relationship with Aiwas and Isabel; she no longer had the idea of ​​staying in the past, because she knew that her remembrance and nostalgia for that village came from the influence of the power of dusk.

The reason why she kept changing was because Haena kept avoiding the answer to that question -

"What exactly is it that makes up the person of 'Haina'?"

Seeing that Haina was slow to respond, Aiwass asked again in a slightly heavier tone, "What is your true path? What kind of person do you want to be? What is your dream?"

"I……"

Haina hesitated to speak.

She was silent for a long time, then she let out a sigh of relief: "I...I can't answer that."

Generally speaking, the higher the level of a transcendent's path, the more extreme and pure it becomes. However, Haina is an exception - she has already reached the fifth energy level, but still hasn't figured out what her path is.

This proves one thing, that not all high energy levels become extreme. As long as the appropriate hedging is done, the complex human nature can still be maintained at a higher energy level.

"Haina."

Aiwass said in a lighter tone: "Lancelot is dead. He completely abandoned his duties as the Shadow of Avalon and chose to become a Knight. Your mission is over too.

“Herchin is by my side now, and Eagle Point Village’s mission has come to an end.

"Isabel has become strong enough and no longer needs your personal protection. Is the career of Royal Guard really your ideal career?

"As for transcendence—Snake Father is about to ascend, and the path to transcendence will soon disappear. It may become transmutation, or it may become something else. But the path to transcendence can only last for two more months at most.

"So...what about you? What path are you going to take?"

Aiwass looked at Haina and said seriously, "You are also... the first extraordinary person who led me to approach this world. I don't want you to be confused until the end.

"Everyone must have his own path, leave some footprints of his own, and make some voices to resist fate. When you reach the end of your life, when you look back, you will be able to see what fate has imposed on you and what you have earned and won yourself.

"——Haina, you will be angry about the killing of civilians and thus hate the 'cake maker'. Then are you willing to speak up for the slaves who were actually enslaved and tortured?"

"I……"

Haina hesitated subconsciously, but soon became firm: "Of course."

She originally wanted to say something like "I am a guardian," "I am a shield," "My power is to protect ordinary people," but when the words came to her lips, she felt that they were so pale and powerless. They were not as powerful as a light "of course."

Aiwass took a deep breath and gave an order: "Go find the Red Hand Gang."

"Yes."

Haina responded instinctively, and after a few seconds she asked doubtfully, "Do you want to secretly coordinate... to help you destroy the Red Hand Party?"

"No," Aiwas denied, "It's to coordinate with the other party and destroy the Holy Spring City.

"Haina... I remember that you were ready to die, right?"

Haina originally came to the Holy Spring City, on the one hand to kill the baker, and on the other hand to sacrifice herself to Aiwas's promotion ceremony.

"I don't need your assistance and sacrifice. You should find what you really want to do. You are a strong man who can destroy a city with a wave of your hand. People's fate can be easily changed under your will, but you are avoiding your responsibilities as a strong man and even wavering about your position. This should not be right."

Aiwass said slowly: "You should not be a puppet of fate, but the master of fate. Otherwise, you will become a machine that creates waves and brings misfortune to more people.

"No matter what, you should go and see for yourself. Go and help them. Go and listen to their voices. Go and see with your own eyes those people who are enslaved by fate, and then awaken the anger in your heart.

"No longer as the incarnation of the founding monarch, no longer as a villager who grew up in the territory of the King of the Wild Hunt, no longer as a student in the capital, a friend of the Pope and the Queen, the youngest knight in the Arbitration Hall - but as a traveler, a knight of justice. Just like what Heleqin did in the past... just for justice.

"You were indeed born into a common family, but your life was never ordinary. The most painful thing for you was that you had no money... But even so, you never went hungry. You lived better than most people, and your natural talents always made you stand out.

"Then - now is the time to see the real suffering with your own eyes, Haena. As a strong man, as an outsider.

“This may give you some inspiration.

“It may be painful, but it’s worth it.”

(End of this chapter)