death of hope

Chapter 170 "Corporate Warrior" (86) Lynch's Military Records
A gentle wind stirred the window screen and brushed the long pale golden hair.

Such an elegant environment is just right for reading paper books.

Beside the sick bed, Sigurd Lifa, a corporate warrior of McMillan Company, was fully engaged, as if he was also in that passionate era.

She was so focused that she didn't notice a precious sapphire macaw dropped on the windowsill.

271 pages,
This afternoon, I attended my graduation ceremony, ending my high school career and becoming an adult.

The valedictorian was the great guy with the first grade, a farmer's son in a ragged rented suit that didn't fit, and was nervously reading his speech.

This kid is very popular and warm-hearted, even those gothic girls and troubled teenagers from gangsters applaud him.

Being able to maintain excellent grades in such a harsh environment in a community high school with backward teaching facilities is by no means something that ordinary people can do. Well, by the way, let me praise myself, I am No.2.

The speech ended and the prom began. The students cheered and chose their favorite dance partners. The female students kept me at a respectful distance like avoiding the plague.

Although I had expected it a long time ago and made enough mental preparations, I was still a little sad.

Little Dodges comforted me, he said that there is no need to lose heart because of those vulgar women,

In the future, when entering the society, there will be as many beautiful women as you want.

This kid speaks vulgarly and is a street gangster covered in tattoos, but in terms of brotherhood, there is really nothing to say.

The brothers were afraid that I would be lonely, but I didn't care. I persuaded them to go to the dance. Watching my friends drag their favorite girls onto the dance floor, I felt a little complicated, happy for them, and a little envious.

I don't know which genius invented the custom of the graduation party. No matter what the person's intentions are, this move has indeed effectively increased the local birth rate.

The dance floor is full of hormones and there is no doubt that there will be quite a few young people doing crazy things tonight.

I comforted myself, it's just a dance, it's not interesting, since the girls don't like to talk to me, then I can just stay where I am cool.

It's not the girls' fault. People judge people by their appearance. An ugly eccentric with scars like me should consciously stay away from the dance floor.

After all, a person who can scare himself when he looks in the mirror should have some self-knowledge.

I curled up at the table in the corner, enjoying the free snacks and drinks. While no one was paying attention, I took some and put them in a plastic pocket. My sister will definitely like it.
After being attacked by a mad dog that year, Bess became very timid and panicked.
It's all my fault that my brother is incompetent and didn't protect her well.

And just like that, the prom was over, the couples were embracing, and at the end of the day, only a few of my best buddies said goodbye to me.

I was alone with my graduation certificate, no choice to go home,

Sitting on the bench at the bus stop, I picked up a cigarette butt and smoked it, watching passers-by pointing at my face.

I got good grades and was admitted to the new Ohio State University, but the high tuition fees kept me out of the ivory tower, and I couldn't hurt my family for my future.

I'm going to tell a white lie that I failed the exam, so they won't be sad.

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277 页

The weather is bad, and so is my mood,
Once a person gets unlucky, drinking cold water will stick to his teeth. Recently, I have almost spent all my savings. Looking at the numbers in my bank account, I began to suffer from insomnia all night long.

My mother is in poor health and needs regular dialysis treatment, and my sister also needs to spend money to go to school.
As the eldest son and the pillar of the family, I lost the right to further studies early on. Now, a stable job is what I most urgently need.

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278 页

Finding a job is hard, especially for a big ugly guy like me,
The supermarket owner is afraid of me, the factory owner hates me,
Every time I submit my resume with full expectation, the reply I get is to let me go home and wait.

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279 页

The papers say the 14th sector barracks are empty,

Conscripts are being recruited in every colony, and mine is no exception,
In order to replenish the troops as soon as possible, the Federal Ministry of Defense offered the best salary in history,
Higher pay, better insurance, and even an opportunity to be promoted to an officer.

Most importantly, they lowered the threshold for enlistment,

As long as you're human, able-bodied, and not too stupid in your head, you can find your place in the military.

I'm excited and want to sign up.
It is difficult to support a family with odd jobs, and the income is low and unstable.

After returning home, I tried my best to convince my family that being a soldier was safe.

I'm getting more and more comfortable with lying.

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280 页

It’s been so lively recently, there are conscription registration points everywhere,

The hot-blooded youths in the cities and towns lined up in long queues. I thought that the sons and daughters of rich families would become military officers directly, but they also started as recruits. It seems that I blamed them wrongly.

Unlike those greedy politicians, the Terran military is not rotten to the bone, which makes me see hope for promotion.

I listened to them while standing in line,
Some of these people want to avenge their family and friends, some are for the right to vote, some are for family honor, some are for experiencing the most advanced weapons, and some are just to avoid wandering the streets and get a bed.

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290 页

It's been a month since boot camp,
Every day, some people couldn't stand it and left with their luggage.

I found that I was born to eat this bowl of rice, and I am sure I have found a place.

In the military camp, I will not be ridiculed by my comrades because of my appearance, nor will I be looked down upon by others because of my family background.
Everyone was so exhausted after five kilometers of cross-country cross-country with heavy loads that they didn't even have the energy to say a word.

At lunch, we lined up for egg soup.

A guy was so tired that he dropped his military hat covered in mud and sweat into the pot while he was serving soup, he picked up the hat embarrassedly and apologized.

The people behind didn't care about it, and ignored the mud and hair stubble in the soup, and sat down to drink the soup after serving it.

It seems that the rumor is true, the army can really cure cleanliness and obsessive-compulsive disorder.

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291 页

Thanks to the genes of my parents for giving me a strong body,

Coupled with the experience of playing rugby in the school team,

Pull-ups, bench press, squats, deadlifts, obstacle course, rock climbing...

Military fitness tests are a piece of cake for me,
I was selected into the elite recruit squad and received intensive training.

My mother and sister will be very happy when they read my letter.

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292 页

The salary was paid today, and only 20 yuan was left, and the rest was sent home.

Unsurprisingly, the difficulty of training has increased, but there is still no pressure.

Despite my excellent performance, I was scolded for not folding the quilt neatly.

The instructor here is a lunatic, he likes to yell loudly against the recruits' faces, spraying my face with saliva.

This guy puts an FxxK or SxxT in every sentence, and spouts it out at incredible speed, like a gangsta rapper.

In the ordinary barracks, as long as you follow the rules and obey the orders, you can live in peace,

But in the elite squad, the instructor will always find fault with you,
Especially in terms of housekeeping, there should be no dust on the sheets, and the quilt should be folded like tofu.

Comrades complain that these are useless, it is better to go to the shooting range for training if you have this skill, but I have a different opinion,
Since ancient times, the degree of obeying orders has been an important criterion for measuring the strength of an army.
The purpose of rectifying housekeeping is not to make us wash sheets and fold quilts, but to make us numb and obedient, so that we can perform tasks instinctively in a chaotic battlefield.

It sounds terrible, but it is necessary to train a group of farmers and sons and daughters of small citizens into ruthless killing machines.

The sergeant major said that a qualified soldier would not hesitate to saw off the head of an alien child with a chainsaw bayonet,
He wants us to be conscious, ready to kill and be killed,

Except for the mad dog that attacked my sister, I haven't even slaughtered a chicken. I'm sure I'm not ready yet... Hey...

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We assembled urgently before dawn this morning,
The company commander told us,

The Tal'darines have raided one of our colonies,

war is coming,

This time I no longer learned about it through newspapers, but was in it.

The comrades-in-arms are very excited, but I am very scared,
I, who never believed in religion, came to pray in the chapel outside the barracks for the first time.

The pastor turned out to be my fellow countryman, he blessed me to return intact,
I hope he's telling the truth, amen.

(End of this chapter)