death of hope

Chapter 932: Low Mood, Depression

Chapter 932: Feeling Low and Depressed (some words from the author)

It takes half a lifetime of effort for the whole family to run a happy family, but it only takes one day to break up a family.

Hello, dear readers and friends, I am the author of this article, Tianmo Jiehuo:
On the 14th of this month, I encountered the biggest setback in my life.
My father was hit by a food delivery electric bike and suffered multiple fractures and brain hemorrhage. He is in a vegetative state...

The mother couldn't bear the sudden disaster and fell ill...

I am an only child and have very few relatives in my family. I have to rely on myself, my cousin, and the caregiver I hired to take care of me.

At such a desperate moment... my body also gave out warnings... I could only take painkillers to hold on...

I asked for a long vacation from my company to take care of my parents and contact a rehabilitation hospital...

There are too many bills waiting for me to pay, too many life and death decisions waiting for me to sign, I need to hire a lawyer to sue Meituan, I need to pay off the loan, I need to maintain my car and house...

As for returning to work and life, it is a long way off...

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Just one day before my father's accident, our family was still looking forward to the dinner party next week, looking forward to Christmas, looking forward to the Spring Festival, and looking forward to a beautiful new year...

And now...

In the winter in the north, on a cold night with a bleak wind, I was alone, squatting on the steps eating instant noodles, waiting to change shifts with the caregiver.
Looking at my hair falling out...

Looking at the family photo on the phone...

Tired, hopeless, depressed...

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It's ironic that the name of this collection of novels is about to become a reflection of my real life.

Although my writing style is rather depressing and depressing, I am usually a very sunny and happy person.
I like fitness, playing rugby, playing games, watching movies, eating delicious food, and helping people install computers...

Oh...but now...

Seeing all the beautiful hopes disappear bit by bit...how can I find the feeling of happiness...

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After reading this, you must think that I am going to say goodbye to you all.
Yes and no…

The strange thing is... despite this misery, in my heart... I still plan to finish this book, but I plan to update it more slowly...

I even plan to continue writing new books after I get through this wave...

Is this... rational?

I have no idea…

Now I am haggard, my body aches, and my hair has turned grey due to worry…

I feel like I am... maybe a little depressed and crazy...

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I tried to find a reason for myself...

Find a reason to continue writing this work... If my father fails to wake up and my mother leaves me... I will also fall down, and my family will be broken up...

This may be... my last work (bitter smile)

I don't want to give everyone the impression that I'm a dead eunuch.

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My life has been mediocre...

I am just a small employee working in the IT technology industry...

I always pretend to be a community leader, with many friends and wild ways...

But the truth is, I have nothing except my family...

And now, I'm about to lose everything...

I write these mediocre articles...

Not for fame, not for profit,
Just to leave my mark in this world...

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An ordinary citizen of Tianjin,
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