Hi persimmon

Chapter 1 Wedges
On New Year's Eve 30 years ago, there was heavy snowfall.The sky is covered with snow, and the persimmon tree in the yard of Lao Pan’s family bears fruit for the first time.

The persimmons are hung on the tree like strings of red lanterns, looking very festive.

It's the Chinese New Year, and all blessings come to the door. This should be a happy event.Mrs. Pan was sitting on the kang, sucking a hookah, and her heart had already flown to the county hospital.

She was thinking that the eldest daughter-in-law had already given birth to two granddaughters, so this baby should be a grandson!

In the county hospital, the doctor informed Pan Guanlin that his mother and daughter were safe, and that his little heart, which was throbbing in his chest and bumping countless times back and forth, was considered safe.

The danger of Song Jia Huisheng's birth this time was that the elderly mother broke her water early, the fetus was too large, and even a critical illness notice was issued halfway through. His cold sweat never broke, and he seemed to accompany his wife through the gate of hell.

Now that adults and children are safe, he won't trade anything for him. This is the best result.What kind of son is not a son, the old girl Jinpiada is very good!
Grandma Pan didn't see the mother and daughter, so the news spread back home.She felt her chest creak several times, and then she passed out when her eyes went dark.

Another girl?The old lady has two sons, and the eldest has given birth to two granddaughters. Now this is another granddaughter?How will you live after this day?

The child had not been a week old yet, and the old lady had already cried to her elder son countless times with snot and tears, begging him to send this to a good family.Pan Guanlin and Song Jiahui firmly disagree!
Biting any of the three fingers hurts my heart, how can I let go of this girl who was born after a narrow escape?
Mrs. Pan earnestly begged her son and daughter-in-law, saying that although they are teachers in the village, their salary is not much.It is not easy to support three daughters, not to mention there are two unmarried younger brothers who need help.

Song Jiahui knew what her mother-in-law was thinking, and everything else was fake. It was true that she wanted them to spare money and energy to have a son.

The old lady snotted her nose and said with tears: "Isn't this for your own good? In our entire township, if any family has no son, if there is a happy event and asks a woman to help make a quilt at home, no one will call you. They think you are not perfect." Almost everyone thinks that there is no son in your family, and thinks that you and your wife are dead, so you can't hold your head up when you go out."

Pan Guanlin said to his mother: "We are doing well, and we are not afraid of anyone pointing fingers. Now the country advocates equality between men and women. As teachers, we can set an example.

In the past, according to your words, Jiahui is still a substitute teacher because she has been having children all the time. Now that we have three precious daughters, the next thing we think about is how to train them to be talented.If you want a grandson, go to the second brother to ask for it. We will never think about it again in this life. "

The couple will not give away their daughter even if others tell the truth.The old lady was still crying and wiping away her tears, not giving anyone peace for a moment.During Song Jiahui's confinement, she was always on guard, fearing that when she woke up, her third daughter would be snatched away and given away.

Men don't have maternity leave, Pan Guanlin can't be at home all the time, and there are three grades of children waiting for him to attend classes at school?

There is nothing to be afraid of, Song Jiahui's nightmare is still coming!
Mrs. Pan took the third daughter away while the eldest daughter-in-law was in the latrine.It was the first time for the old man to see the teacher's daughter-in-law Huo Cheng like that. She had no doubt that if the other party had a knife in hand, she would swing it at her directly.

From that day on, Pan Guanlin and his wife began to look for their little girl all over the world. No matter it was windy or rainy, even if they were stabbed, they couldn't stop them from looking for a child.

Before confinement, Song Jiahui had a fever several times, and couldn't eat and fell asleep, but the milk didn't come back.At night, thinking of the baby who might be starving and freezing, she cried herself into tears.

In one month, Pan Guanlin lost a full [-] catties. It is said that men do not shed tears lightly, but looking at his dying daughter-in-law, there are times when he can't help crying.

It's not that Mrs. Pan doesn't feel sorry for her son. Seeing her eldest daughter-in-law go door to door looking for her before she was confinement, she regretted it a long time ago.

But at that time the child was sent away through an intermediary, she confiscated a penny, and made several small quilts to send out together, just to make sure that the child could be treated well, but now the intermediary cannot be contacted, where the child went, she do not know either!
The old lady gave birth to two sons in her life, but the old sisters around her have no sons, and she can see how unsatisfactory their lives are.After all, isn't she doing it for her son's family?

Poor parents!
Pan Guanlin's eldest daughter is named Pan Shengnan, and her second daughter is named Pan Zhengnan. The eldest girl is in the fifth grade, and the second girl is just over two years old.The eldest girl was not idle either, she joined her classmates to find her younger sister.Although the second girl is still young, she is also clamoring to find her younger sister.

As long as the family hears the cry of the baby, they are all moved to the heartstrings.Pan Zhengnan told his mother that when she went to the county to go to high school, she would search the county, and when she went to the province or the capital, she would also search there. As long as she was alive, she must find her sister.

God bless, the Pan family didn't have to wait so long.The eldest classmate's relatives belong to the County Public Security Bureau. Pan Ruonan is a good student and has always been the class monitor. In addition, he has a very high prestige in the eyes of his classmate's parents.

And this classmate likes to take Pan Guanlin's mathematics class the most. At that time, there were many teachers who taught seriously in the school. It may not be easy to meet a teacher who is dedicated to teaching students and can teach mathematics very interestingly.

There were also quite a few mischievous students in the class, and the teacher was not so good-tempered and tried to reason with each other. Those who couldn't solve the problems in class were all left after school. Pan Guanlin didn't let them go home until Quanzheng understood.

There were two who took the lead in making troubles and had poor grades. They said that they were prone to starvation and fainted, so the teacher shared the meals he brought with them. Anyway, if he wanted to fool them back home, there was no way.

Don't you do your homework at home?Stay with the teacher to watch and write, and leave after writing!Disbelief can't cure the bad habits of these dolls.

This classmate's relative just gave the boss the information they recently learned about the parents' registration of the child's household registration, and the little girl took her father to identify each family.But the Pan family turned from disappointment to despair again and again.

On this day, the eldest brother took his mother to meet the police uncle again, but before he went out, it started to rain heavily.The second son, Pan Zhengnan, had a fever, his cheeks were flushed, and he looked at his mother eagerly, as well-behaved as a doll.

Pan Guanlin said: "I searched so many houses, but none of them were the third child. I couldn't find my daughter, and there were several houses that were extorted money. It rained so much, it was useless to go, and the third child burned even worse."

Song Jiahui looked at the rain that was getting heavier and heavier outside, and murmured in her heart, "Why don't we talk about it tomorrow, it's not too late."

Unexpectedly, when the second child heard what his mother said, he burst into tears and shouted to find his sister.

The couple discussed letting the eldest take care of the younger sister at home, and they went to find the third child by themselves, but Pan Zhengnan insisted on going with him, and couldn't stop no matter how much he coaxed him, and finally cried so hard that he couldn't breathe.

The two couples had no choice but to brave the heavy rain and hold the sick child to find their sister together.Later, when the family thought about this incident, they were still afraid. First, they were afraid that the second daughter would become more seriously ill. Second, no one thought that the time difference of this day would change the life of the third eldest, Pan Xishi.

When I went there that day, the door of the family was closed, and comrades in the police had to rush back to the institute for urgent matters.

Pan Guanlin's family of four came here for nothing, and I am extremely sorry to the police comrades.But at this moment, the little second child said childishly: "Mom, my sister is crying, let's find her quickly!"

Everyone listened for a while, except for the sound of rain, no one heard the cry of a baby. Song Jiahui walked around several times, but couldn't find the cry of the baby.

"What nonsense are you talking about!" Song Jiahui came back to pick up the child, touched Pan Zhengnan's forehead, and hugged the child a little more worriedly, "I can't find the old lump, and if I mess up my second treasure again, let's not look for it." Come on, go home now."

Pan Zhengnan kept saying that he heard his sister crying, and pointed to a direction not far away, insisting that his parents and the police uncle look for it.Song Jiahui was embarrassed to let the police comrades accompany them to coax the children, so she had no choice but to say something fierce to the second child.Seeing that her parents didn't believe her, Pan Zhengnan burst into tears.

Seeing that the police comrade was really anxious, Song Jiahui got angry and slapped the second child twice on the buttocks, "Don't cry, the police uncle is here. Look, the police uncle's clothes are all wet."

But at this moment, the eldest daughter suddenly pulled her father's sleeve and said, "Dad, I also heard a baby crying, listen carefully!"

Song Jiahui felt something in his heart, and ran towards the path in front of him involuntarily.The rain blurred her vision, but her heart became clearer and clearer. When she heard the cry of a child, she could almost be sure that it was her third child who had been sent away.

The hard work paid off, after they were disappointed so many times, when they thought it was a waste of time, they found Xiaolao San in a daze.

The child's adoptive parents were not locals. After they adopted the child, they wanted to take the train back to other places immediately, and it was impossible for them to register in the local village. However, some mistakes delayed the time, and the information was found by the police. .

Yesterday, I heard rumors that the child's biological parents had repented. They already had feelings for the child, so they wanted to go to the train station in the rain and run away.

But not long after I came out, the relative’s bicycle broke down. The relative went home and asked someone to borrow one. They were waiting halfway, but the rain was getting heavier and they carried the child back. Parents came back.

The instigator of this big oolong, the old lady Pan, was scolded bloody by the supporter. They said that she was the one who begged to find a good family for the youngest son, but in the end, her kindness was not rewarded, causing her to be in a state of embarrassment.

Old Madam Pan was also very popular. There were relatives everywhere in the small place. This girl was the opposite of her when she was born. That is to say, from this moment on, this little girl was destined to never be loved by her grandma again in this life.

The family finally got together, but the second child got pneumonia.The medical conditions in the small place are limited, and the parents thought it was just a simple cold and fever and ignored it. Now it is so serious that it is life-threatening.The whole family has just been reunited, and what they are facing is another possible life and death.

Song Jiahui hugged her second child and wept so hard that Pan Guanlin knelt down to the doctor and begged them not to give up, and to try to save the child again.The doctor advised them to transfer overnight to a big hospital in the city instead of wasting time in a small hospital.

Hearing this, Pan Guanlin and Song Jiahui transferred the second child to a big hospital in the city overnight. At that time, the transportation was inconvenient and the distance was not too far. After two days and one night, they still hadn't arrived.

Song Jiahui cried and said to her husband: "Why is this road so long? I want to go back to Xingang. I don't want to live in this small place for the rest of my life. I can endure any hardships and grievances. I don't want my children to even see me." This disease is so laborious, I don't want them to die because of a small pneumonia."

Pan Guanlin comforted his wife: "I'll be there soon, I'll be there soon. The second child will be fine. How can it be so easy to go back to the big city? You came to our small place in the countryside and married me, a local, you have to leave It's harder than others."

Song Jiahui remained silent, but her heart felt even more sour and uncomfortable, she just said over and over again: "I can't go, my child must leave here, must leave here."

When we got to the hospital, the second child was already dying.Song Jiahui rolled around in the hospital without sleep for a month with the child in his arms, and finally snatched the second child back from the closed door of hell, but after all, the root cause of the disease still fell and needed long-term recuperation.

When I got home again, the third child was officially hugged by my mother, but even though it was a baby, because the second sister was always sick, my mother was even worse when she held the second sister than when she held the third child. Many, little babies don't know anything, and gradually get used to it, and can fall asleep peacefully when they are full, without pestering adults at all.

On this day, Song Jiahui looked at the third child who was sleeping soundly, and told her husband about the child's name.When the child was first born, he was named Pan Shengnan following the names of his sisters in the back row.But after going through these things, Pan Guanlin and Song Jiahui no longer have the idea of ​​obeying their parents and fighting for a son.

Looking at the persimmon tree in his yard, Pan Guanlin patted his thigh vigorously, and solemnly announced that the third child is called Xishi, Pan Xishi.The eldest is now in school, so the name change has a big impact, and the second also changed her name to Pan Xihong.

How do the girls in their family compare with boys, who cares less?Every girl who is born into her own family is a great event, all are persimmons, a bunch of fiery persimmons.

Ever since Xishi was given away by her mother-in-law once, Song Jiahui has had a shadow in her heart.At that time, except for the farmers, the couples in every household were basically dual-career. Pan Guanlin and Song Jiahui both became teachers in the school in the town.

In a small place, the primary and junior high schools are all in the same school. There are few teachers and many students. The couple each lead several classes.

The eldest daughter grew up in the nursery of the only big factory in town.The aunts who watch the children every day put the children in a big cradle and hit the wall from one end to the other, wishing that the children would fall asleep every day.

The second child fell ill as soon as he went to the nursery school, and most of the time he went to work with them in school.But now that the third child is here, this life is really out of control.

Sending children to live in a big city and returning to the place where she grew up has once again become Song Jiahui's most urgent wish.

Sending my daughter back to live in a big city, the child can not only enjoy better medical and educational resources, but also enrich their daily food and drink by more than 01:30. Let’s take fruit as an example. Many fruits in big cities, Their children have never even been seen here.

She can think of the best life for her children, which is to send them back to the big city.She had written to her parents many times before to discuss this matter, but they were all rejected by the elders.She knew that her parents' feelings for her were normal since she was a child, but the more they were like this, the more unbalanced she became.

When I took the initiative to go to the countryside to jump in the queue, I also wanted to leave home as soon as possible, so as not to be angry at home. Later, I became a good deed and got a fixed salary. I would send money home to let my parents know that my second daughter is promising, and I hope they will remember me well.

The less love she received from her natal family before, the more unbalanced she is now, and the stronger her desire to send the child back.

The quadrennial informed family leave is here.Pan Guanlin and Song Jiahui took their three daughters back to Tianjin to visit relatives.Then Song Jiahui discussed with her parents to put the second child down, and took the eldest and youngest back to Inner Mongolia.

Song Jiahui has a total of four brothers and sisters.The eldest brother went to the countryside early, and the place he went was close to Tianjin. The children grew up with the elders of the Pan family.My younger sister and younger brother are already working, and my parents also have pensions. It is not difficult to help a child.

The elders of the Song family dared to keep the children of the eldest son's family by their side, but they did not dare to keep the daughter of the second girl's family.The place where the boss went to the countryside was in HEB province. If something happened, his parents would come back soon.

But the family of the second child is so far away in Inner Mongolia, if the child suffers from illness or disaster, the old couple can’t bear the responsibility!
Song Jiahui felt extremely uncomfortable. Hearing these words from her own mother, she burst into tears from time to time.Why can the children of the elder brother's family be in the big city, but my own children have to follow me back to the backcountry?They are also biological, why do parents' hearts go to the Pacific Ocean?
"Mom, if I had no choice but to come back from thousands of miles away by train for several days and nights to beg you. Ever since I was a child, I knew that I was the most unpopular person in my family. It can be said that I have never Didn't let you bother a little bit.

A child from the city, went to Inner Mongolia to farm and open up wasteland, completed high school by self-study, went to teach in the town, sent home when he got a salary before marriage, and gave you a living subsidy. Married and had children all by myself.Don't forget, if I hadn't gone to the countryside, my younger sister and younger brother wouldn't have stayed in the big city. It was I who exchanged my bitterness for their sweetness. "

Grandma Song has the most trouble with this daughter. She has studied well since she was a child, but she admits death and speaks unforgivingly. If mother and daughter are enemies, it is probably her and the second daughter.Seeing that the second sister was sad, the third child, Song Jiawei, was also afraid that his parents would make things difficult for him, and even more pitiful for the children. He patted his chest and promised to help his parents raise his niece in the future.

But the girl disagreed with her parents keeping Pan Xihong, who was frail and more than sick, by her side. She said that this girl stayed here in Tianjin, thousands of miles away, and no one could take responsibility for what happened.At that time, according to the temperament of the second sister, I still have to resent my mother's family.

In this way, three-year-old Pan Xihong was returned by her grandmother, and Pan Xishi left her parents and stayed alone in Xingang when she was just over one year old.

The earliest impressions of her parents in her mind can no longer be remembered, she just vaguely remembers that she was sitting alone on the steps downstairs, and a neighbor's aunt came over to her and said, "Happy, your mother brought The young lady has gone home, she doesn't want you anymore."

Pan Xishi didn't remember what her mother looked like, she didn't remember what her aunt looked like, and even the appearance of her grandma's house was vague. She only remembered crying when she heard these words, And the same voice and scene often appeared in the dream repeatedly, which made her wake up crying.

In kindergarten, all the children have fathers and mothers, and only Pan Xishi is picked up by grandparents and participates in activities on weekdays.She remembers that once in class, the teacher asked the children to tell the most memorable things in their memory when they were with their parents.

Some of the children said that their parents took them to the amusement park, some said that they made a big meal for them, some said that they bought them toys, and some said that they were sick and their mother took care of them all night without sleep.

Some people say that their parents took them to the restaurant and left the delicious food for her, but they were reluctant to eat it.Pan Xishi had never experienced this before, so she made up a story, saying that her mother made a very delicious food for herself. The cake stacked with white rice was delicious.

The children laughed so hard that they couldn't straighten their backs. Pan Xishi was at a loss for everyone's laughter, and then laughed too, but after a long time, she still remembered the way the teacher looked at her, which seemed complicated.

At that time, Grandma Song always liked to watch the Japanese TV series "Volleyball Girl". come out.

Everyone asked her if she missed her mother. She tilted her head and thought about it, but she couldn't think of her mother's appearance. Born, the life that comes to my heart wants to shed tears.

As time went by day by day, little Pan Xishi, the granddaughter of the Song family, grew older and cuter, and the title of mother and father became less and less important in her mind.

At that time, the uncle's family had returned to Tianjin from the countryside in Hebei. The uncle took over the job of the grandfather, and the second aunt took over the job of the grandmother.The elder brother and sister of the uncle's family moved away.

Pan Xishi was the only doll left in the family, and that was the highlight moment of her life.The grandparents who love her, the third aunt and the little uncle who are working but not married, everyone often buys her delicious food, and buys her new clothes and toys during the holidays.

On Children's Day, she can always wear the most beautiful dresses in the mall, and grandma and aunt will even design clothes for her with sewing machines on a whim.

In the summer of the year I was five years old, the dog days seemed to come earlier than in previous years.Children are always asked by adults to go to bed early, and she heard someone knocking on the door in a daze.Then grandma and grandpa smiled and woke her up and asked: Xi Shi, guess who is here? "

Pan Xishi was very unhappy to be woken up, and said in a muffled voice, "Did you check the meter?"

Everyone around laughed loudly. She didn't know what happened, but she heard her grandma say, "Look quickly, your parents and second sister are back!"

Dad, mom and second sister?Pan Xishi felt very disturbed by these three familiar yet unfamiliar titles.The man named Dad came over and kissed her on the face. She shrank instinctively and hid behind her grandpa. She felt extremely repulsed and even unhappy at the feeling of this kiss on the cheek.

The woman named mother looked stricter than her father. She frowned and said to her, "You are so old and shy. It doesn't look like growing up in a big city. It's not as good as your second sister.!"

Pan Xihong is very beautiful and has a sweet mouth. Although she is only two years older than her sister and grew up in a small place, she may have memorized the entire "San Zi Jing" and "Disciples Regulations" by heart. , Seeing grandparents is also very close, and I will be in the first grade in September, but I have already known 3000 characters by this time.

Looking at Pan Xishi again, he grew up happily in normal times, but basically he didn't even know the words.Everyone asked Pan Xihong what she wanted to do in the future, and she said loudly that she wanted to be a teacher just like her parents.Pan Xishi was ignorant, and told his second sister that he wanted to be a teacher when he grew up.

At that time, Pan Xishi saw the proud look in the eyes of the second sister. For the first time in her life, she felt that the profession of a teacher was very great. When she became a teacher, she would be as airy as the second sister, and she would be as unfamiliar as the second sister. Mom and Dad love it.

Pan Xihong grew up in school, watched by her parents and elder sister.When she grew up, she still remembered endlessly watching her parents give tutoring to children who stayed in school after class, meeting naughty parents, and sometimes going home with her parents...

At that time, she thought home visits were the most interesting. Sometimes parents went to the students’ homes to complain, sometimes they went home to catch bear children to continue making up lessons, and sometimes they persuaded parents from poor families to support their children to continue their studies, especially girl dolls.

When it comes to emotions, Song Jiahui always tells about the persimmon being given away. She told the girls' parents earnestly that knowledge is the only way to change fate if they want equality between men and women.At that time, many parents would say: "Mr. Song, there are three girls in your family, I just stare at you and your baby's fate in the end!"

Whenever Song Jiahui was at this time, he immediately put away the smile on his face, and said in the most serious tone: "Whether it is the three girls of mine, or every student I have ever taught, I can guarantee that as long as the child If I want to learn, I will try my best to teach them. I don’t have any big ambitions in my life, but I just hope that my students can study for as many years as possible with my efforts.”

Many years later, the eldest daughter and the second daughter lived up to expectations, and the youngest daughter, Pan Xishi, became the biggest problem in Song Jiahui's heart.This child, who the whole family worked together and worked so hard to find, has also become a non-staff member who can no longer integrate into the family.

(End of this chapter)