Beauty and Marriage

Chapter 148 Make Yourself a Dress

I almost never thought about what my mother likes and what kind of person I want to be. I always call my mother when I want to eat; I call my mother when I want to wear clothes; …
No wonder people call those who take care of children old mothers, aren't they old mothers?

I remembered that every time when I came home from vacation, my mother would always throw Haohao to me, and then go to do other things. After finishing the chores, it's another day, and she would say to me every day, "Look at the kid, I'll do it..."

I've always wondered how moms keep babies when I'm not home!Sometimes when I take my child out to play, I get annoyed when she's chatting with someone who "doesn't matter".I came back from vacation to rest, but she ran to chat with others and threw a child to me, so that I couldn't rest all day and couldn't do my own things.

When drawing, the child will grab the paintbrush and make a mess of my room; when reading a book, the child will twitter next to him, insisting you look at him; when playing with the mobile phone, the child will grab the mobile phone and then hide it...

If you don't circle around the child all day long, the child will circle around you.There is no time and space of their own at all.

Originally, the child was cute, and I spent all day on him, so I could adjust my mentality.On the level of helping my mother share, I also feel that I am a good person.However, she said that she was busy, she said that she would come back to take care of the children after doing something, but she was just chatting with others, and she didn't know the time. She didn't even know that we were here.

At that time, I felt that my mother disrespected me very much!In front of outsiders, I suppressed my anger and didn't say anything.When I got home, I told my mother, "I'm at home, and you haven't brought up the children all day. You always find this reason, that reason, and leave the children to me! You don't want to take care of the children, why did you agree to help them?" Bring it? You don’t take it with them directly!”

"When did I say that I don't want to take children anymore! Isn't this where you are at home?"

"Should I bring it for you at home? I told you not to bring it from the beginning. They are born and raised by themselves, and they are people who will be grateful. You left Fang Yuting's mess to me since you were a child! I've had enough!"

"The child likes you!"

"Come on! When did you wake up and cry for grandma!"

"I bring a lot, I just want to feel safe when I wake up!"

"Then you don't stay with him, every time he sleeps, you run out to play, when he wakes up, crying and calling for you to come back, you're sleepy again! I won't be sleepy!"

"All right! You don't take it! Don't take it! I take it!"

When my mother talks like this, I will be even more angry, as if I am unreasonable, as if I am selfish.However, this in itself is not my job. My father went to work, and my mother went here and there. Let me spend my vacation time on my children day after day.When I went home, I thought the environment was relatively quiet, but I learned something. At that time, I was interested in the ukulele. I learned a little basic fingering, and I wanted to practice it at home. Maybe I could perform a show at the annual meeting.Now there are so many talented girls, so attractive, I also want to have some attractive talents, and I also want to be a bystander when I go out on a trip, when everyone is resting, I also want to get everyone's attention .

However, as long as I hold the piano, the child will play it, and he will fiddle with it, not afraid that the strings will cut his hands!But I am afraid!If the strings cut his hand, he will be the one who will be hurt, and I will be the one who will be scolded!
And now, I also want to be like Xiaojia. When I talk about sand painting, I buy a sand painting table to practice at home.It is impossible for me!When Shi Yun likes to play with sand, she will snatch my sand, and she will get it everywhere!Helping her clean up the graffiti is exhausting now, so there is no energy left to learn.

In many cases, it's really not that we don't have perseverance and perseverance, but that we really don't have the conditions to do something well.Everyone's time and energy are limited. At the same time, you can only spend time on one thing. If you spend it, the time will not come again. If you do a lot of things, you will see obvious results and the result.For example, ukulele, I also know two or three pieces now.This way you can see the result.But taking care of children is just spending time and energy, and we can hardly see any effects and results.Anyway, if you don't care about him, he will grow up day by day, change day by day, and master more things day by day...

We didn't notice that he spent the time and energy of the person who took care of him every day, so we didn't think that the result of the child's growth had anything to do with the person who took care of him!
Once again, I deeply understand that the hardest thing about raising children is not being able to be myself!At that time, you were just the guardian of a certain child, and you couldn’t do anything other than perform all your responsibilities, including some trivial matters, including chatting with good friends, including making yourself a dress... all dereliction of duty!
I gradually understood the reason why my mother said some self-defeating words inexplicably.She lost herself, from raising us to raising my sister's children, everyone did not regard her as her, but as the guardian of one child after another!Including me, I just felt that she should take good care of Haohao, instead of chatting with others and throwing the responsibility of taking care of Haohao to me.I accused her of not fulfilling her due responsibilities, but doing something unrelated to the business, wasting time, and causing me to not be able to accomplish the business.

When Haohao said he didn't want his sister, that person also blamed his mother for not guiding Haohao well.When Haohao was injured, everyone would point the finger at his mother and ask her how she brought up the child.

How did you bring the child?Is mother's life all about studying this question?Can't she like to chat with friends, can't she chat with friends?Can't she rest when she wants to rest?Can't she make herself a dress?Can't she hand over the child to someone else?
She thought she was able to do the things we blamed!However, she was blamed. She did not resist or refute, but accepted everyone's accusations against her and accepted everyone's orders to her.Give up on yourself, give up everything you want to do, and do what everyone thinks she should do well!
Such a life must be depressing!Mom should be almost out of breath, or in other words, already out of breath, so she always puts those decisive words on her lips!

(End of this chapter)