I am doing meritorious deeds in Liaozhai

Chapter 575 True Spirit Personality
Judging from the psychological state of Hu Xian that Song Yushan read from the light and shadow bubble, she actually did not end her love and love for Yuan Shixiong as soon as she returned to the true spiritual state.

This is her fifth reincarnation, and the deepest relationship between her and her spouse.

At this time, Brother Yuan Shi was still a more important person to her.

However, after recovering her past memories, after several reincarnations, her feelings for men and women were no longer as passionate and persistent as when she was just a Hu Xian in this life.

After all, in her previous lives, she had been a man, married a wife, and lived together for the rest of her life. She had also been a woman, and had more than one lover.

After returning to the true spirit state, she is neither a pure man nor a pure woman. Naturally, her obsession with love when she was Hu Xian cannot affect her.

She also knows that the lover of one life can only be the lover of one life.

She couldn't recognize Brother Yuan Shi from the true spiritual light ball on the road to reincarnation.

If she really met him, she would feel uncomfortable, because she was no longer a simple Hu Xian, and she could not look forward to rekindling the fate of husband and wife in the next life as she did in her lifetime.

Therefore, after Hu Xian returned to the true spirit state in this life, his first feeling was regret and annoyance, and he was worried that he would have too many merits deducted.

In fact, she did have a lot of merit deducted.

She was a demon in this life and has been cultivating.

Although he ended his life prematurely, he still lived for hundreds of years.

The resources of heaven and earth consumed are not small, much more than those of mortals.

Just this, a lot of merit was deducted.

Moreover, in this life, she was obsessed with love and didn't care about anything else. Her only achievement was to run a good family and have a good relationship between husband and wife, as well as parent-child relationship. Other than that, she basically did nothing, let alone any good deeds. .

The only merit comes from her half-demon son.

He received education from the Monster Academy and took over the Yuan family. After the family business prospered, he also became one of the financial backers of Anjisi and did many charitable works.

As his mother, Hu Xian was rewarded with some merit, which was able to offset part of the merit deducted from consuming resources.

But in the end, he only received the blessing of his son, and did not gain much merit.

In the end, she was deducted 218 points of merit.

There are still 102 points of merit left, so Xuan can continue to be reincarnated into a wise creature.

After that, the sixth, seventh, eighth, and fifty-eighth lives followed.

Hu Xian's merits have been increasing and decreasing, and he can't save much, but he has enough to be reincarnated into a wise creature every time.

Song Yushan carefully analyzed her psychological changes after each reincarnation ended and she returned to the true spiritual state.

It was discovered that after she returned to the true spiritual state, the changes in family and friendship in reincarnation were not as big as those in love.

Song Yushan speculated that the uncertainty of gender in reincarnation may have caused this result.

Regardless of whether he is reincarnated as a man or a woman, a mortal, a monk or a monster, after the true spirit returns, the relatives in the reincarnation can still be relatives, and the friends can still be friends, but the lover is almost impossible to be the only lover.

You can have many friends and relatives, but love is exclusive, not unique, and it is not that loving.

Even family affection and friendship, after being diluted through many reincarnations, are not as profound as they were during life, and are far less important than the safety of the true spirit itself.

Each reincarnation of this true spirit is like a completely different person, and after returning to the true spirit state, it is not the same person in any reincarnation. It’s hard to say which part of the emotions and cognitions are left behind in the true spirit after being washed away by the waves in reincarnation.

In such a short period of time from the return of the true spirit to the completion of the meritorious deeds, Song Yushan observed her fifty-eight times, but could not clearly see her inner self. He could only conclude that her personality was different from every previous life.

Although there are not many cases where this true spirit becomes an intelligent being in every life. It is considered an extreme situation, but some problems can be seen.

Song Yushan now finally understood why many world gods were deceived at this juncture because they missed old relationships.

Because I did not equate the true spirit in front of me with the people I met in the past, I continued the trust from the past to the present.

But the other party may have already changed.

Like in Hu Xian's life, she was so obsessed with love that she even died for her love. If she and Yuan Shixiong became gods, they might still be friends when they meet again. They might not even be friends, but it's definitely unlikely. We are no longer a couple.

It's cruel, but it's reality.

She withdrew her gaze and broke away from the state of distinguishing between good and evil.

The real spirit had just finished drinking the ecstasy soup, turned around and walked outside Meng Po Village.

She had just read the reincarnation experience of this true spirit's fifty-eighth life, but it only took a minute.

But for Song Yushan, the amount of information obtained was huge.

Her mood was a little down.

Did the people she missed also change during the reincarnation?
Is there anyone still thinking about her?

Can the original relationship withstand the erosion of reincarnation?

Only now did Song Yushan truly realize how rare it was for the biological relationship between him and his parents to continue after he became a god!

"Yushan!?" Tong Ranran called her: "What's wrong with you? Why are you looking at the door in a daze? Do you know that true spirit? She has already gone away!"

Song Yushan sighed: "It's nothing, I just used the method of distinguishing good and evil and read the reincarnation experience of the true spirit, and I didn't come back to my senses for a while..."

She told Tong Ranran about her insights into her experience of reading about reincarnation.

"Yushan, actually you don't have to be so pessimistic. I have been an intelligent being for several lifetimes. Even if I return to the state of a true spirit, in retrospect, some people are still very unforgettable.

If the relationship between you and your friend was sincere enough at the beginning, even if you have gone through several reincarnations and may be a little rusty, you can still find the feeling of the past when you see each other again.

As long as the other person has not experienced too much evil and is generally good, then the problem is not big and friends can still be done. "

Tong Ranran comforted her.

"I hope!" Song Yushan's mood calmed down a little: "Of course, I have to go back to the City God's Hall to try the method of observing the world. After this success, I will complete the novice mission of the City God, and then I have to start doing daily tasks. I may not be able to stay with you in Meng Po Village anymore.”

"Well! Go ahead! The Samsara Hall and the City God's Hall are so close to each other. I can go find you when I'm free!" Tong Ranran said.

She was really reluctant to let go for a while, but she understood that the work of the City God was very important to Song Yushan.

"Okay!" Song Yushan said goodbye to Tong Ran, then left Meng Po Village, came to the open space behind the City God's Hall, reserved for the City God to build a cave, and placed his portable cave there.

Then he sat cross-legged at the door of the cave and performed the method of observing the world.