Lingzi is not too cold today

Chapter 227 Don't Talk About Missing Me, I Will Be Unbearable Like This

There is also a special story behind the song of practicing love.

The story originated when Lin Junjie was 16 years old, a girlfriend who was very close to him confessed to him. At that time, his girlfriend came to his door every day to bring him breakfast and cared for him very much.

It's a pity that Lin Junjie didn't have feelings for her beyond friendship, so Lin Junjie declined her.

Later, although the two did not become lovers, they became very good friends, and she even got Lin Junjie to know his first love girlfriend back then.

However, in 1997, the girl boarded the death flight. The plane disintegrated in mid-air, and the crew and passengers died.

After the flight, newspapers published the names of those killed and any remains found.

Lin Junjie said, "I read the newspaper the next day and saw her name on the list of victims, and I clearly saw my own picture from the photos of the relics."

And this photo was given to her by Lin Junjie back then, and she always carried it with her.

No matter where she goes, she always thinks of him.

A few months later, JJ Lin received an envelope at his graduation ceremony. The teacher said: "This is the aunt of your friend Xu Chen Fern's family member who asked me to give it to you."

As soon as the envelope was opened, there was the photo. There were scratches on the photo, and the photo still smelled of oil and the bottom of the sea.

Of course, Gongsun Jin's previous life did not have such a profound story.

But the song also has an extraordinary meaning for him.

It's not right to say that, it should be the people I met while listening to this song, and the time I went through, which is extraordinary.

Listening to songs is not listening to other people's stories, but listening to your own thoughts.

"Admiration at a distance, confusion at a close distance, who said the sun will find the moon."

Every time Gongsun Jin sings this passage, she always thinks of the classroom where she sat in the sunset many years ago.

The books on the table were piled up into a thick fortress, and he hid behind the fortress to sleep, while the wall clock in the classroom was ticking.

The 100-day countdown to the college entrance examination is placed in a prominent position that can be seen as soon as you look up.

The proof process of solid geometry is written all over the blackboard.

After school, the song "Practice Love" by JJ Lin rang out in the studio.

There was a girl with freckles in her school uniform, standing at the door of the classroom, smiling with her hands behind her back.

When he woke up from his sleep, he caught a glimpse and happened to collide with her gaze.

The light that came in through the panes shone on her side face.

In the faint beam of light, there are countless dancing dust.

The girl's hair was a dark red in the light.

He doesn't like to talk, she always has a lot to say.

He is unsmiling, and uses a sense of alienation to cover up the inferiority complex deep in his bones.

She is innocent and lively, rocking two braids and always has a nice smile on her face.

After class, the two carried thick English exercise books together and went down from the sixth floor to the teacher's office on the first floor.

While walking, chatting about things that are rarely mentioned to others.

The window pane at the corner of the corridor can always reflect his dazed and pale face at that time, as well as the girl's eyes when she secretly looked at him.

Because I especially like the sentence "Long-distance appreciation, close-up confusion, who said the sun will find the moon."

He even used it as a personalized signature in QQ.

Once, the buddy on the upper bunk asked him if he had any good songs.

He shared this song of practicing love with him.

I haven't heard it, but I don't like it when I hear the title of the song.

Because he said that when he saw the word "cultivation", he would think of a song called "Youth Practice Manual" by a certain three-member boy group.

My buddies think this song is very stupid, so I hate it even with "Cultivation of Love", which is a disaster for no reason.

But after a long, long time, I don't remember exactly how long.

Gongsun Jin remembered that long after graduating from high school, he accidentally saw his buddies share this song in the feed, and incidentally added a line of lyrics in it.

"Fantasy a few years ago, forgiveness a few years later, to heal a wound for a face."

"Don't say you miss me, I can't stand it."

The song that was once dismissed became the favorite song of the buddy on the upper bunk at some point after many years.

Gongsun Jin was thinking, maybe his mood of listening to the song has changed, and there should be many stories.

Until later, an old classmate told Gongsun Jin that the girl who confessed to Gongsun Jin and was rejected was a girl whom the buddies in the upper bunk had liked for several years.

From the first day of junior high school to the graduation of high school, we have liked each other for six full years.

But that girl just likes Gongsun Jin.

Gongsun Jin couldn't remember the girl's name, but only remembered that she confessed to him on New Year's Day.

She carefully took a box of yogurt to his seat, handed it to him, and then asked him the solution to a solid geometry proof problem.

The buddy was sitting at his back table at that time, and a group of boys around him were laughing.

Gongsun Jin didn't understand why they laughed at that time.

After a long time, I suddenly realized that a certain sentence said by someone many years ago meant that.

It doesn't matter whether it's the infatuated buddy who sleeps on his upper bunk, or Lin Hui, a beast in clothes.

Or maybe he himself, there is a shadow of someone hidden in his heart.

That person has never disappeared, it has become a part of their body.

Everyone who comes to this world has to go through the calamity of love.

Even gods who go down to the earth to survive the catastrophe cannot escape the catastrophe of love, let alone a mortal with seven emotions and six desires?
The process of practicing love is destined to be sad.

"Fantasy a few years ago, forgiveness a few years later, to heal a wound for a face."

"Don't say you miss me, I can't stand it."

After recording the last sentence in the recording studio, Gongsun Jin put down the guitar.

"Your state of singing this song today is very different."

Zhuang Xiaomeng listened silently, her beautiful eyes slightly fixed.

I have been with Gongsun Jin for a long time, and her music appreciation level is also very good.

"What's different?"

Gongsun Jin asked.

"Like a person who has lost love."

"Well... that's not accurate, it should be someone who has lost."

Zhuang Xiaomeng thought about it.

There is a line in the lyrics that touched her deeply, "Surrender if you can't forget that person."

When she first learned that Gongsun Jin and Zhong Lingzi were dating, she also wanted to try to make herself forget Gongsun Jin.

But she found that she couldn't do it at all, and she had better throw up her hands and surrender.

"In fact, I don't have so many stories. These songs are all other people's stories."

"It's getting late, let's go eat first."

Gongsun Jin looked at the time and walked out holding Zhuang Xiaomeng's arm.

As he walked, he told her about the reunion with himself and Lin Hui.

"Are you still in touch with Katie?"

"What? Why are you asking her?"

"Lin Hui asked me to inquire about her recent situation. I don't know her very well."

Gongsun Jin said truthfully.

"Tch~ Doesn't he have that foreign girl? Why are you still thinking about Yi Katie? Don't make trouble for others."

Zhuang Xiaomeng was very angry when he heard it, and felt worthless for Yi Katie.

"He said he hoped she was doing well."

"Whether Katie is doing well or not has nothing to do with him."

"Since you have a new love, why are you still thinking about your old love?"

Zhuang Xiaomeng sighed faintly.

Immediately, he frowned, looked at Gongsun Jin angrily, and pinched hard on his arm.

"what?"

Gongsun Jin was a little helpless, and she didn't know what made her unhappy again.

"Compared with Lin Hui, you are not much better."

She pouted and said angrily.

"Isn't this your fault? You made me fall."

Gongsun Jin sighed.

"I won't give up on you."

"You and Lingzi are both my wings."

He said with a serious face.

"Why are you so thick-skinned now?"

Zhuang Xiaomeng gave him a slightly disgusted look.

"Those who are close to the vermillion are red, those who are close to the ink are black."

"I was influenced by you."

Gongsun Jin said calmly.

"What's none of my business? How can I be as shameless as you?"

Zhuang Xiaomeng said coquettishly.

"On the desk and on the sofa, I don't see you being shy, and you are not shy at all."

As soon as Gongsun Jin finished speaking, she became furious, and like a cat whose tail was stepped on, she waved her pink fist and beat him hard on the head.

Gongsun Jin held his head in both hands, and was beaten by her so that he didn't know how to fight back, so he ran around the company with his head in his arms.

Artists and trainees along the way watched this scene and laughed.

It's no secret in the company that Gongsun Jin is very afraid of his manager.

It can't be said that he has become what he hates the most.

Still the same sentence, we will become what we least expected.

Just like him who hated being a teacher the most in his previous life, he still did not escape the arrangement of fate in the end.

He refused to have sex before marriage, but he broke the precept after meeting Lingzi.

Adhering to the belief that once I kiss someone, I want to marry her, and finally said "You are all my wings".

……

In the dormitory, the lights were turned off, the screen of the laptop was on, and there was a small lamp next to it.

Yi Katie yawned, took off her glasses, and rubbed her eyes.

He filled the cup with hot water and made a cup of instant coffee.

The roommates were all asleep, and she moved very lightly, for fear of disturbing their rest by making noise.

Holding the coffee in his hand, he took a sip, forced his drooping eyelids to open, and then continued to tap the keyboard of the electrostatic capacitor with his fingers to revise the academic report.

The coffee in the cup was steaming, and the smell that lingered in the night was very weak.

She looked sideways, looking at the rising aura, she was slightly dazed.

There is a scene in my memory, she and Lin Hui went out to play, missed the closing time of the dormitory when they came back, and finally got a room in the hotel outside.

Lin Hui didn't touch her, but sang softly, coaxing her to sleep.

When she woke up in the middle of the night, she saw Lin Hui reclining by the window sill.

In the twilight, there was only one orange-red light spot, flickering on and off.

The smog of cigarettes lingering in the night is a very light and lonely color.

"When will we do it?"

She used to ask Lin Hui so ignorantly.

Because other girls would have sex with their boyfriends, she, who was ignorant at the time, always thought it was a proof of love between two people.

"When you become an adult."

Hearing what she said, Lin Hui just smiled and rubbed her hair.

"But I'm full."

Whenever she pouted a little dissatisfied, Lin Hui just looked at her and smiled.

"Huihui, why did you agree to be my boyfriend?"

"There are many girls chasing you."

"Because you are a clean person, as clean as a child, I can't bear to get dirty."

"I can't bear the thought of someone as clean as you being polluted by this horrible world."

"So I want to walk with you for a while, and keep your cleanliness until you become a mature woman."

"Don't you want to keep walking with me?"

"I want to keep going with you."

"But I am also dirty."

"You are like a mirror. In front of you, all my meanness, ugliness, and wretchedness are fully exposed."

"You make me feel ashamed, and make me always feel that I am not worthy of your clean love."

It turned out that what he said a few years ago meant exactly that.

Yi Katie smiled lightly, feeling that she understood a bit late, but not too late.

She looked at the cup of coffee again.

Lin Hui never drank this kind of instant coffee. He only drank hand-ground coffee, black coffee beans, without sugar and milk, which was very bitter.

Yi Katie doesn't like to drink it like this, she likes to add milk and sugar cubes, and also likes the cute bear flower.

Perhaps from the beginning, the two of them were not suitable.

However, she is still grateful for the journey together.

Picking up the phone to check the time, I found that there was a push of Gongsun Jin's new song in the news.

"Is there a new song? That's great."

Seeing this, Yi Katie was very happy.

She likes Gongsun Jin's songs very much.

A while ago, Zhong Lingzi's new song "Rare Guest" was also written by him, and she really liked it.

"The tourist is you, the scenery is me, I cannot avoid letting you pass by."

"The roses bloom as scheduled, the tourists pass by as scheduled, and the lovers fall in love as scheduled until they leave."

It's like a true portrayal of the love between her and Lin Hui.

What about the new song tonight?

Yi Katie put on the earphones and couldn't wait to turn them on.

There is 10w+ on the listening sign, and there are so many people who suffer from insomnia with her in the middle of the night.

"Why is the name of this song called Cultivating Love? It may be because everyone in this world has to suffer from love, and even immortals have to go through the calamity of love."

"True love is as difficult and bitter as spiritual practice."

This is a message from Gongsun Jin's account in the comment area.

Less than an hour after it was released, there were tens of thousands of replies below, and it is still growing at an alarming rate.

"Laughing and saying love makes people crazy, crying and saying love makes people nervous, and if you can't forget that person, you surrender. It went to my heart (crying)"

"Admiration from a distance, confusion from a short distance, who said that the sun will find the moon. I really like this sentence."

"It's been a few years since we broke up, but I still can't forget her."

Yi Katie listened to the song while flipping through other people's stories.

She thought the song sounded sad.

But it made her want to listen to it over and over again.Taste this sadness over and over again.

After listening to the song, Yi Katie took another sip of coffee, then cheered up and continued to code and revise the academic report.

She would still think of Lin Hui in the fresh moments when she was completely sleepless, but she would not contact him again.

She hoped that he had a good life in another corner of the world, but it must have nothing to do with her.

(End of this chapter)