Outsiders also have golden fingers

Xiaojun seemed to be paralyzed, his eyes were dull and his face was pale. He lay on the stone table, buried his head deeply in his arms, and remained silent for a long time.

Qingling sighed softly, the love for parents and the desire for family affection are the nature of every child.

The more missing something is in childhood, the more it becomes a lifetime of regrets and longings, and a knot that cannot be understood, just like in ancient times and today.

No matter how disappointed Xiaojun is with his parents, there is always a child who lacks love living in his heart.

No matter how much he hated them on the surface, he was always looking for excuses to excuse them, especially his father who seemed to treat him well.

The mother may have been hurt too deeply. He really no longer had any hope and had no feelings for her.

For his biological father, Emperor Chengzong, he actually had a very stubborn and secret admiration in his heart. He longed for his father's love, and was eager to be compensated and recognized by his father.

He wanted to go to his father and show his true identity through various efforts. Not only did he want to get back what belonged to him, but he also wanted to fill the gap of father's love in his heart.

But he is doomed to be deeply disappointed, doomed to be even more scarred, and even depressed.

Because his father did not love him and other children that much before, and his more important things occupied his body and mind.

At his current status and age, he pays more attention to the selection, training and recognition of qualified heirs. No amount of fatherly love can match the family, country and world.

This is the mission of an emperor, the most important duty of a wise king, and it is also the luck of the people of Zhou Dynasty, except it is not Xiaojun's luck.

What if his father didn't want to abide by the eldest son's inheritance system at all, and just wanted to follow the law of the jungle or cultivate the heir he thought was the most powerful and satisfactory heir like raising a poisonous worm.

The rest are only worthy of sacrifice.

As a biological father, he may be pleased that his son is still alive, but as an emperor, Xiaojun's appearance will only disrupt all his plans and bring him trouble and future troubles.

He is not satisfied if Xiaojun proves how good and outstanding he is, because he still needs the chosen heir to truly admire him, respect him and respect him, even if it is just pretending, as long as he pretends to be like him.

But he and Xiaojun have lost the father-son relationship they had for nearly ten years during the critical period, so how can they dare to trust him?

Xiaojun is doomed to fail and be completely defeated. The best outcome is

She put her hand on his, hoping to give him some comfort.

"Brother Xiaojun, you and us, maybe we can find another way..."

This comforting statement sounds so pale and feeble, but it is just better than it is.

Xiaojun remained silent and did not raise his head. Qingling knew that he was crying.

Let him cry, cry happily, cry out all the grievances and pains, bid farewell to the child who lacked love since childhood, and become the confident, cheerful, intelligent and capable Xiaojun he is now.

Even if this process is cruel, he must survive it.

What's more, he is just crying now, just in front of her alone. If he doesn't wake up, he will not only cry when he enters the palace, but he will bleed and even die.

Xiaojun finally raised his head, his hair was messy, his eyes were red and full of tears, and his sleeves were soaked.

Qingling handed her the handkerchief, and Xiao Junzai carefully wiped away the tears, carefully folded the handkerchief and stuffed it into his sleeve.

"Sister Ling'er, I'll wash it and return it to you." The voice was hoarse from crying.

Qing Ling nodded, looked at him without saying a word, and stretched out her hand to tidy up his hair, which was getting messier by the mountain wind.Xiaojun exhaled a long breath, was silent for a while and said: "Actually..."

He raised his head, his eyes clearing little by little:

"Actually, I have dreamed about some of these words in my dreams. My father said this to Lu Lanniang. I have always refused to admit it from the bottom of my heart, so I hid it from you just now.

I have been lying to myself, thinking that my father said that on purpose to coax Concubine Lu, in order to prevent her from wanting to harm me.

In fact, Concubine Lu is not stupid. Why can't she tell the truth from a lie?

He couldn't bear the thought of me losing my life at such a young age, so the warning was true, but the words he said were also true..."

"What did he say to Lu Lanniang?"

“He said that we are all his biological children, he has always treated us equally, and the country he built is also ours.

But there is only one position, and the inheritance of the throne of Dazhou does not strictly implement the eldest son inheritance system. He also pursues the idea of ​​​​the most capable, as long as his son has a chance.

He also said that he hopes that when we grow up, we can fight for that position by ourselves, and the final winner will be the most suitable successor.

Instead of being murdered in various ways when we were young and ignorant, let us grow up safely no matter what.

He also said that he would be very heartbroken if he could not protect his young children even if he commanded thousands of troops to conquer the world. "

Qing Ling let out a sigh of relief, but didn't know how to persuade him.

It turns out that Xiaojun's father never intended to follow the eldest son inheritance system.

From the beginning, Xiaojun was destined to be a sword-blocker and a thorn in the flesh of all his younger brothers and the forces behind them. His growth path was destined to be full of thorns.

Perhaps his failure to go to Beijing in the end was actually a blessing, a blessing that ensured that he grew up safely.

"Ling'er, you see, my father wanted to protect the young children from the beginning.

When he grows up a little, he will even let them fight and rob each other, leaving only the strongest one to be his heir, just like what Master Yunyin told me about raising Gu.

As for other people, whether they live or die or have a tragic end, as a father, although he will be sad, he won't really take it to heart.

Those sons who have been growing up by his side have this fate, not to mention me, the eldest son who has been missing for many years?
I will only bring trouble and disaster, and will only disrupt his overall plan. What reason is there for him and me to give up on selecting and cultivating qualified heirs?
Otherwise, since he had guessed that the Lu family might do something before entering Beijing, why did he just give a warning instead of taking any measures?
If he arranged for reliable people to protect me, how could something like that happen to me?

More than 1 elite soldiers surrounded the mansion to guard it, and more than 100 experts patrolled day and night. They were afraid that not even a pigeon could fly out, but they successfully got me, a six-year-old child, out!

In fact, he was just giving a warning to fulfill his responsibilities as a father and let his conscience be at peace.

Not even the culprits who killed me were really punished, not even the Ning family.

Those who become empresses become empresses, those who become concubines become concubines, and those who become emperors become emperors. Everyone is rewarded, and Ning Jiangsong was also successfully named Duke Chengen.

You say how stupid I am, but in fact you know very well in your heart that you just refuse to admit it and you are just lying to yourself.

He just stubbornly clings to a glimmer of hope and refuses to give up, and he insists on treating me as his father! "(End of chapter)