This fox fairy is too inhuman

Essentially, they are some trivial jottings, which are random thoughts after not posting on Moments. If you want to peek into the author's life, you can read it. If you don't like it, you can skip it.

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【2024.01.22 02:30 AM】

Suddenly I couldn't remember what my father looked like.

It has been twenty years since he left.

I went from an ignorant child of four years old to a young man who is now twenty-four years old and will soon be twenty-five.

I can't even remember a word he said to me.

I only remember vague fragments.

Finally, I learned about it on the Internet, and even learned how to get along with others from online articles.

Weird, right?

There is no other way, after all, no one will teach me.

But I also remember him once taking me downstairs and walking a few hundred meters on crutches to buy ice cream.

Not to mention.

On the hospital bed, there was a skinny adult man suffering from blood cancer.

Speaking of which, I only realized some time ago that the first corpse I saw in my life would be my biological father.

I couldn’t even understand the meaning of death, why the adults took me to the hospital, why he lay motionless on the bed, and why my mother was so sad and crying.

I actually learned a lot from online articles.

I’m also lucky that the articles I read on the internet had relatively normal views and didn’t lead me down a wrong path.

I just feel scared.

Miss it?

At that time, I was too young to remember what it felt like.

only.

I still remember the last time I saw him.

In the days that followed, no one who could truly be called my father came to teach me how to become a real man.

He is so weak that sometimes he cannot hold me.

But fortunately, there is still the Internet.

The figure is straight and emaciated, and it is so haggard that it does not look like a human being.

There is a very shallow scar on my face. It was caused by a bump when he couldn't hold me and accidentally dropped me on a nail.

This is the only memory I can recall related to my father's love.

I have never been very interested in the genre of extreme egoists, so I have basically never dabbled in it, which is fortunate.

However, at certain special moments, such as when I watch some videos, I can't help but imagine it.

If he was still here, what would have happened?
Who knows?

Also, I saw a quote recently.

"My mood is stable, probably because I have been used to misfortune before."

To be honest, I was a little bit defensive.

Sure enough, lies won't hurt, the truth is the sharpest knife.

I've always prided myself on being emotionally stable, but it seems that's really the case.

When something happens, my first thought is:
"Ah, it's this kind of thing again, ugh."

"It's useless to panic anyway. Let me see how miserable I can get today?"

In twenty years, I have really come a long way to get to where I am today.

It sounds a bit sad to say it, but actually everything is fine.

Unhappy things in life are often eighty-nine.

Everything needs to be looked forward to.

Let's set off.

Take big strides forward.

No matter which way you go, you always go forward. Can't stop here yet.

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【2024.01.23 00:30 AM】

There is only one kind of heroism in the world, which is to still love life after recognizing the truth of life.

I also walked some places and saw some different scenery.

I only think so much when I'm typing late at night.

As long as you don't code, you can do anything with energy.

It’s the same as doing homework in school.

Well, pretty much the same.

It can also be regarded as a kind of late night emo.

I won’t post it in Moments now, so I’ll just post it here. ()

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【2024.04.08 12:17 PM】

Qingming Festival has passed, and I just remembered that I still haven’t posted these.

If you haven’t posted it, then you haven’t posted it. It’s not something to gain popularity, it’s just some fragmentary ideas.

After some efforts last month, the situation has improved slightly, but the situation is still serious.

Maybe I shouldn’t hesitate any longer and open a new book to get more income.

Okay, let’s start saving manuscripts today.

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【2024.04.09 17:42 PM】

Yesterday I only wrote 300 words in my new book.

Bachron, what the hell are you doing! ?

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【2024.04.10 13:55 PM】

I didn’t write a word yesterday.

Even the update only had four thousand written.

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【2024.04.14 19:20 PM】

I haven't been in good health these past few days, and my updates haven't been stable, but I have a lot of ideas in my mind.

I wrote a lot of them at the beginning, but they made little progress. Together with the previous essays, it totaled 30,000 to 40,000 words.

I always want to write weird things.

There are probably a few chaotic and unformed ideas at present:

1. Western fantasy, reborn natives, or Amber Reincarnation, lawful evil paladin, the kind that is white and black in nature and black to the end, the paladin on the surface, the evil god behind the scenes, the kind that feels very happy .

Second, the game is in another world, the amber stream with a western fantasy background, the old silver coin that backstabs the god with gold coins, the fourth natural disaster, and the start of the evil god believer.

The reason why I chose the Western fantasy background among the above two is because I like to write about monster girls, demi-human girls...

Yes, I just love it!

See if you can return to your comfort zone.

Third, urban superpowers, the concept of hypnotic ability, the feeling of God, this is the beginning of two thousand words that I smoothly touched on one day, and I didn’t think about the rest at all, happy.

Fourth, one day I suddenly wanted to write about farming. The specific idea is "Whoever doesn't let me dig up the land, I will plant into the ground." I feel very happy, but this idea is even more fragmentary...

Before I knew it, I had written 1,500 words on this thing, so I’ll post it first. ()

If there are still more in the future, save a few and send them again, the frequency will not be too high. (End of chapter)