After I kissed the rough man Khan, I was busy farming in the grassland

Murong Ce was in so much pain, but he didn't hate Li Xianyun at all. Instead, he desired her even more.

He knew that it was all his own fault that Li Xianyun treated him like this.

Murong Ce knew very early on that he was not a normal person, but twisted, extreme and violent.

Anger will be repaid.

But he was very tolerant towards Li Xianyun, as if no matter what she did, he would not be angry or hate her.

Murong Ce didn't understand himself at all.

Why are you so tolerant towards Li Xianyun?
Murong Ce did not love himself, he even hated himself. He had hated himself extremely since he could remember.

All this world presented to him was ugliness, sin and desire.

He liked Li Xianyun. Besides her as a person, he also liked her kindness and beauty - this was something he had never had, so he cherished her even more.

Murong Ce never cherished his own life.

He is willing to risk his life to get everything he wants.

On a whim, Murong Ce even thought that the current situation was pretty good, at least there was someone in this world who cared about him - even if that person hated him to the core.

There was nothing to be afraid of even if he died now, because he knew that Li Xianyun would never forget him in her life.

If she can't let the person she loves give him the same feelings, then let her hate him. Hatred to the bone, even if the years pass, the world changes, it will never be erased.

Murong Ce was sweating profusely from the pain, as if countless long needles were piercing his temples, one needle, one needle, and another needle...

The pain was long and seemed to have no end.

On a quiet night, the stars in the sky and the lanterns hanging on the corridor are connected into one.

The spacious corridor is decorated with carved dragons and painted pillars.

Two palace maids walked along the corridor, holding lanterns in front to illuminate the way.

Bai Mengling, supported by a maid, hurried to the imperial study.

She had already gone to bed when she was woken up by a palace maid sent by Wen Yao, who said that the emperor had a headache and asked her to serve him.

Bai Mengling smiled bitterly.

Why does everyone feel that she is very different in Murong Ce's mind?

When Murong Ce went to the border, he did not take her with him, and they met again two months later.

Even when Murong Ce returned to the capital, he only met her a few times.

Moreover, Murong Ce didn't say anything when he saw her, but just stared at her eyes which were very similar to those of his beloved.

Through these eyes, Bai Mengling saw that this cold-blooded man actually had a warm, infatuated and loving side.

Sometimes, as she watched him, she actually felt a slight envy in her heart, and even hoped that she was the one he loved.

When this thought came to her mind, she almost bit her tongue.

She actually wanted Murong Ce to fall in love with her.

What a terrible thought.

However, she soon felt that this idea was not so outrageous.

There are indeed many benefits to making Murong Ce fall in love with her - he can use it to avenge her family.

A palace maid leading the way said, "Miss Bai, please hurry up, His Majesty really needs you."

"Is it His Majesty who needs me, or is it Chief Steward Wen who needs me?" Bai Mengling asked.

"It's His Majesty and Chief Minister Wen."

Bai Mengling pursed her lips. It seemed that it was Wen Yao's intention to let her go.

Murong Ce seldom asked her to go over on his own initiative, and most of the time it was Wen Yao's suggestion.

Something in Bai Mengling's heart began to collapse slowly.

Seeing Bai Mengling coming over, Wen Yao walked to the door of the imperial study and said carefully and respectfully: "Your Majesty, Miss Bai is here, do you want her to come in and serve you?"

After the words fell, there was deathly silence.

Wen Yao was about to let Bai Mengling go back, but he heard Murong Ce's voice, "Let her in."

Two eunuchs pushed the door open from the outside, Bai Mengling walked in, and the door closed from the outside again.

There were only two of them left in the huge imperial study.

Passing through the two curtains, one could see Murong Ce leaning against the back of the armchair, looking up with his eyes closed. He looked normal, but it was not difficult to tell from his pale cheeks how much pain he was in at the moment.

She should applaud that this evil man could actually suffer so much.

But why couldn't she be happy?

I even felt a little bit of pity for him.

Could it be that after seeing that gentle look for too long, I became addicted to it?

But Murong Ce killed her entire family! !

Bai Mengling walked to a place about three or four meters away from Murong Ce and stood there, bowing and saying, "Your Majesty."

Murong Ce still had his eyes closed, not even lifting his eyelids, "Pinch it for me."

"Yes."

Bai Mengling said this and walked behind Murong Ce, pressing her slender fingers lightly on the top of his head and temples.

Although it was somewhat painful to be pressed like this, it was better than just letting the pain continue.

Murong Ce slowly opened his eyelids and saw a pair of eyes that looked extremely similar to Li Xianyun's.

When Bai Mengling saw him open his eyes, her heart sank and her hand suddenly stopped.

The fear of him seemed to have penetrated deep into my bones.

Murong Ce slowly closed his eyes again.

Although these eyes are very similar to Li Xianyun's, they are different after all if you look closely.

Li Xianyun's eyes were clear and pure, full of stubbornness and pride, and she had never felt such fear.

But Murong Ce knew that he was seriously ill. Since he couldn't see her, he could only seek comfort from her shadow.

It's nothing but self-deception.

How sad.

"Why don't you press it?" Murong Ce asked in a calm voice with his eyes still closed.

Bai Mengling made a "hmm" sound and continued pressing.

The dark night is silent.

Under the dim light, the woman stood behind the man and pressed his head, patiently.

Suddenly the man opened his eyes and saw those shining eyes.

The murderous intent inside couldn't be more obvious.

Bai Mengling quickly restrained her expression.

Murong Ce laughed, "Do you want to kill me? Just like her."

Bai Mengling quickly knelt on the ground and kowtowed, "I dare not."

"Don't dare?" Murong Ce sneered and took out a golden dagger with a cold glow from the drawer and threw it in front of Bai Mengling, "I'll give you a chance to kill me."

Bai Mengling knelt on the ground, trembling, "I dare not."

"Keep your head up."

Bai Mengling had no choice but to raise her head, and the veil covering her face swayed gently.

In front of Murong Ce, she always wore a veil.

Bai Mengling couldn't help but smile bitterly in his heart. He only recognized this pair of eyes and didn't even know what he looked like.

Murong Ce ordered calmly, "Pick up the knife and stab here."

He said, pointing to his heart.

"Folk girls don't dare."

"Don't dare? If it were her, she would have stabbed me with a knife long ago. It doesn't matter if she stabs me. I am willing to die in her hands. I am willing to do as she wishes. Death will put an end to everything. I won't have to watch her making love with another man like now, but I am powerless and in agony."

Murong Ce had a headache and his eyes were red, like a wild beast that was ready to tear someone into pieces the next moment.

"Kill me and avenge your family."

Bai Mengling looked at him, but remained indifferent, as if trying to determine how much truth there was in his words. (End of this chapter)