Watching the sea from the shore

Chapter 72 Her Husband
When Ni Manhua saw Lu Guanhai's face clearly, she felt her hands shaking. The world in front of her was shaking, just like the world in her heart was teetering on the edge of collapse.

After Ni Manhua saw Lu Guanhai's face, his eyes fell on the table in the next second. The waiter had set up two sets of bowls and chopsticks, and the other set had not yet welcomed his owner.

But what impacted Ni Manhua's spiritual world was not Lu Guanhai sitting in a familiar position, nor the two pairs of bowls and chopsticks, but the familiar dishes on the table, and the dishes Lu Guanhai ordered when they were sitting here. Exactly the same.

Although Lu Guanhai always denied that he came from the future, this time, Ni Manhua was soberly sure that the man in front of her was her husband from the future.

Lu Guanhai also saw Ni Manhua. The moment their eyes met, he was at a loss. He pursed his lips tightly and forgot to say hello.

Ni Manhua looked at Lu Guanhai's sudden averted eyes, picked up the teacup on the table and smashed it at him fiercely, the emotions in her heart evolved into a giant beast, manipulating her body to make her behave in disregard of decency. Roar.

Ni Manhua's teeth were chattering. She raised her trembling fingers and pointed at Lu Guanhai: "Is that you, Lu Guanhai? Why did you lie to me? Is it fun? It takes so long to perform a play, it's good, two lives...you If you didn’t choose the right major, you should be an actor. I was really blind to have been a couple with you for so many years!”

Countless grievances mixed with the anger of being deceived and betrayed, Ni Manhua's brain was so chaotic that he could not utter a complete sentence rationally.She once again grabbed the things on the table and threw them at Lu Guanhai, but the weakness of her hands caused the cups and plates to be pushed back and rolled on the table.Lu Guanhai quickly caught the things she threw at him with both hands, but his attitude of keeping silent made Ni Manhua's anger even more intense.

"Speak, Lu Guanhai, why are you lying to me? Why on earth are you lying to me? Lu Guanhai, I asked you twice if you are from the future like me. Why...why did you lie to me? You invited Yan Bei to eat here today Okay, okay, I understand. You are afraid that if I know that you are still my husband, I will restrict you, I will 'kidnap you', and you will not be able to have a girlfriend. Lu Guanhai, let me tell you, even if you are 19 now You have a body that is [-] years old, we are not divorced, you are cheating even if we are not divorced, do you know! Why did you cheat? You ruined more than ten years of my youth, why did you cheat!"

Ni Manhua's hoarse voice and crazy behavior made all eyes focus on them. The waiter rushed over to dissuade them. Looking at the mess on the table, he was even a little timid, fearing that he would also offend Ni Manhua, who seemed not to be trifled with.

"Hello, there are other guests dining now, could you please lower your voice a little bit?"

The young waiter tried to be tactful in his words. Lu Guanhai finally spoke: "Let's go out and talk. I'll settle the bill."

Ni Manhua is not someone who is willing to cause trouble to strangers, she is aware of her gaffe, but she watched Lu Guanhai pass her by her to pay the bill with dim eyes, she still couldn't stop the turbulent tears, so she could only lean on the side Sitting on the chair, he clutched his chest and swallowed tears into his stomach with difficulty.

Ni Manhua couldn't figure out why the story developed like this. The reason why she didn't say anything and chose to escape through time and space was just to have a decent ending with Lu Guanhai. Why did they still have to go to this point.

After taking a few deep breaths, Ni Manhua forced himself off the back of the chair that was supporting him and walked out of the store.The moment she opened the door, a gust of hot air hit her face, and she seemed to smell a unique smell of summer.

The air-conditioning in the restaurant was fully turned on. After being hit by the heat, Ni Manhua felt that his brain was even more chaotic. A few minutes later, Lu Guanhai walked out and stood next to Ni Manhua: "Let's find a place to chat. Let’s chat, by the river?”

Ni Manhua temporarily regained some sense and turned to look at him sarcastically: "Don't you wait for Yan Bei to come?"

"I'm not with her." After Lu Guanhai said this sentence, he walked forward. Ni Manhua was taken aback, as if a basin of cold water had been poured on his restless heart. She didn't have time to think about it, and hurriedly followed Get up to his pace.

The two of them walked to the small river not far from the restaurant. Ni Manhua seemed to see his true 19-year-old self again, squatting alone by the river and crying.It is this small river that keeps flowing eastward. It seems to have returned to its origin with a reversal of time.

Standing by the river, Ni Manhua turned his head and looked at Lu Guanhai. The wind blowing in his face lifted his bangs, revealing his forehead. He looked much more mature and more like the future. Ni Manhua faced In this way, when he says certain words, he won't feel so burdened.

Ni Manhua said coldly: "Actually, you don't have to hide it from me. It's already reached this point. What else can't you say?"

The tears in Ni Manhua's eyes were blown dry by the wind, but the corners of his mouth rose sarcastically. He didn't know whether he was laughing at Lu Guanhai for still hiding it at this moment, or laughing at himself for believing stupidly for such a long time: "I am now I can’t tell which of your words is true and which is false. You’ve been lying to me since we met, right? You bumped into me in the cinema on purpose, but you insisted on saying it was fate, so we My story started with a lie, so you kept lying to me after we got together, how long are you going to lie to me? Tell me."

After Ni Manhua lost his mind, he spoke arbitrarily. Although Lu Guanhai deliberately created the first encounter, he did not make a big mistake. Ni Manhua knew this, but it seemed that the accuser had to have more chips to support himself. point of anger.

Lu Guanhai looked down at Ni Manhua with an incredible expression, as if he had never known Ni Manhua: "You think so? That's right, I have always been useless in your heart, so you are so superior, I started I don’t even dare to take the initiative to ask for your contact information. I can only create opportunities for chance encounters. There is no fate between us at all. How can I have any fate with you."

"Yes, so our fate will not last forever. Once you lied to me in the beginning, you will continue to lie to me. I asked you twice if you are the Lu Guanhai from another time and space. Why don't you admit it? "

"Why?" Lu Guanhai chuckled: "Because I want to meet you again. I know you no longer like that Lu Guanhai, so I pretended that I was another myself. I wanted to pursue you again. You, I want you to fall in love with me again, but I failed. You think that the times we have experienced are unfortunate for you, and you deny this me. No matter what I do, you just want You want to live a new life of your own, but you still want to find me a girlfriend. Are you afraid that I will pester you?"

Lu Guanhai heard the conversation between Ni Manhua and Yan Bei. Even though he saw that Ni Manhua's purpose of returning to the past was to live a life without herself, Lu Guanhai chose to try again to get a position next to her, but Ni Manhua actually took the initiative to help another person chase him, and it was only then that Lu Guanhai felt that everything he had done was ridiculous.

Lu Guanhai looked at Ni Manhua with red eyes: "Since you are willing to help her chase me? Then shouldn't you be happy if I am with her? You should be happy."

"What am I thankful for? Lu Guanhai, you are a family man, don't you know? I helped her chase you because I thought you were teenage Lu Guanhai. You are not my husband! Why don't I want to be with you? Do it again? Because I'm too scared. I'm afraid that it's obviously a home for two people but I'm the only one. When you go home, it's like staying in a hotel. Is that home? That's where you rest. Your home is in the hospital. , your family is in the office, I am a mascot in your eyes, right?"

"I told you, my career is at the beginning stage now, and I have no choice in many things. I am not playing outside every day, I am working hard for our family."

"It's not that you don't have a choice. You didn't choose me. What else are you working on? Trying to make money for others? Trying to take care of other women?"

"I make money so that I can contribute more to my family. I take care of Guan Fei because Su Guzhi asked me to help her. Guan Fei has also helped me. She and I have not done anything to cross the line, but why don't you believe me?"

"Because you treat her better than me, because you are more relaxed in front of her than in front of me. You say you work hard for this family, but do you know what this family really needs? I never wanted you No matter how much money you earn and how high your status is, I just thought about why it is so difficult to live a stable life."

Ni Manhua felt that the consumption of tears had made her lose all her strength. She didn't understand why the accumulated emotions in her heart couldn't come out on their own, but she had to express them word by word, clumsily, and experience the hurt again.

"Maybe I really can't give you what you want. In order to marry you, my mother sold her house and went back to the countryside to live. I think about how I can get a promotion and a raise every day so that your relatives can respect me. I have a little respect for my mother, but I found that the harder I worked, the worse it got. I neither made any money, nor did you misunderstand me. You always said I didn’t love you anymore, but you haven’t spoken to me properly for a long time. Every time I ask you something when I go home, you only reply one or two words. I know you are very disappointed in me, and I am also very disappointed in myself. What I have spent a lot of effort to get, you have got it since you were born. , you lack nothing, but that’s not what I gave you. You don’t think I have self-esteem. When I got married, I asked if I had no money to buy a house, could I pay a down payment first, but you didn’t want to, so you said you could buy a house. , of course I know you are rich, but have you ever thought about where my mother and I will be after you buy the house with full payment? Later, my mother sold the old house, and you asked my mother to live with your parents. Yes, your villa is spacious enough, but my mother has no one to talk to there. Your mother likes to play cards with the ladies, and my mother chats with the nanny at home, but your mother doesn’t even give her this right. She thought it was embarrassing for her to be friends with the nanny, so she had to go back to her hometown. Why can't I relax in front of you? Because you are too condescending and too far away from me. I am deeply afraid that I am already so useless and still do it in front of you. Wrong, that’s why I’m careful even when I ask you for something.”

The last time Ni Manhua saw Lu Guanhai's tears was at their wedding. When Lu Guanhai put a ring on her, he turned his back and secretly wiped his tears.

Ni Manhua might not have heard Lu Guanhai say so many words for a long time. It turned out that they were all the same. They had suppressed themselves for too long in this marriage, and only now did they finally choose to release.

She has scolded those in her family who made bad comments about the Lu family, and tried her best to speak for him. After all, Lu Guanhai was her choice, and those relatives and friends' contempt for the Lu family was also a slap in her face. .She also did a lot of ideological work with her parents, but many times, people's likes and dislikes can be seen on their faces without saying it.Ni Manhua couldn't blame her parents. Her parents were offended by the gossips of her relatives. This was her daughter's debt.

Whether it is Ni Manhua or Lu Guanhai, they are actually in a dilemma.

Ni Manhua closed his eyes: "When did you come back?"

"It should be a little later than you. When I chased you to your uncle's house that day, you were already asleep. I just wanted to come back with you... When I came, we were about to take a motorcycle ride home."

It turned out to be that time. No wonder Lu Guanhai's mood suddenly changed.In fact, everything is traceable, but Ni Manhua is slow to react.

Ni Manhua felt Lu Guanhai's touch on her arm. She opened her eyes and saw that it was Lu Guanhai who handed over a piece of paper. His habit of carrying paper with him has not changed.

Ni Manhua said thank you and wiped the disobedient tears with paper.Then she sniffed and asked him: "You are not happy too, right? You have been suppressing yourself for so many years. It's so painful. Then why do you still want to chase me and experience this kind of life again? You Don’t you feel scared at all?”

"I thought it would be different." Lu Guanhai also wiped the tears hanging on his cheeks. With red eyes, he looked at Ni Manhua sadly and said slowly: "I thought this time I would be more mature and I would be able to do it earlier." Start working hard. You are no longer the same person. I changed my major and I don’t have to study for another year. I won’t be so busy. Maybe I can convince you to get married later and give me more time to prepare. I thought I could get married again. Come once and everything will be better, but I was wrong and I’m still wrong.”

In the past, it would have been difficult for Ni Manhua to believe that the man in front of him was his husband. He finally gave up on the world.They all overestimate themselves, overestimate love, but underestimate the weight of life.

Lu Guanhai gave up, and Ni Manhua had already lost hope in a bright future they couldn't see.Ni Manhua finally said the words that came to her lips several times but were swallowed back: "Lu Guanhai, let's separate."

Don’t accumulate anymore, don’t struggle anymore, don’t take chances anymore, don’t let the accumulated sorrow and resentment wipe out the last remaining bit of love in each other’s hearts.

Lu Guanhai looked at Ni Manhua for a long time, and after confirming that she had really made up her mind and there was no room for maneuver, Lu Guanhai softly agreed: "Okay."

At this moment, the hearts of the two of them seemed to be emptied all of a sudden, from heavy loads to emptiness, just at the moment when the word fell.

Ni Manhua's long-standing worries were finally resolved, but when the weight was small, even her footsteps became light. She took a step back but couldn't stand firmly, and almost fell to the ground. Luckily, Lu Guanhai reached out to support her in time .

Ni Manhua used his strength to stand firm and heard Lu Guanhai ask: "In that time and space today, we were very happy, do you remember?"

"I remember."

"Actually, we have had many happy days. Will you still remember them in the future?"

"I can't forget."

"That's good, I'll never forget it."

(End of this chapter)