Watching the sea from the shore

Chapter 85 There is no commemoration on the anniversary
While lying on the hospital bed, Ni Manhua felt that he was the most miserable person in this time and space.

Zhan Ping was called by Lu Guanhai, and she sat on the edge of Ni Manhua's hospital bed and said, "You two did it on purpose, right? I've already bought the ticket, so why bother me? I don't want to go back and just say it." .”

"I want to go back." Ni Manhua turned his neck with difficulty: "It will be fine if you go back, but I don't know if there will be scars."

Lu Guanhai comforted Ni Manhua: "The doctor said there will be no scars, don't worry."

Ni Manhua suddenly thought that not long after he came to this time and space, he ended up breaking his leg because he was sending a message to the aunt who sold braised tofu. His leg was injured when he came here, and his hand was injured when he was leaving. He didn't know what kind of luck it was. .

The ticket Zhan Ping bought was for tomorrow, and she wanted to go back early. After all, Lai Hongtu was still waiting for her, but Ni Manhua felt that she was not suitable for flying in her current state. Ni Manhua wanted to rest for a few days, but she was afraid that she had just finished sewing. What happened to the needle wound? After all, none of them had experienced what it was like to go back.

Ni Manhua suggested that Zhan Ping take Lu Guanhai back first, leaving her alone, and that she would go back to find them after her injuries healed.

But Lu Guanhai disagreed. Lu Guanhai said that he would stay and take care of her. He was worried that Ni Manhua would stay here by himself.

Zhan Ping was annoyed and didn't want to care about their mess anymore: "It's up to you, you two can decide for yourself, then I'll go back first, but within an hour after I go back, I want to see you two appear in front of me , otherwise when you two go back, you will find that your bodies in that time and space have been mistreated by me."

Zhan Ping likes to say harsh words, but the execution rate is not high. Ni Manhua knows that she will not come for real. She is just afraid that they will stay here.

Ni Manhua roughly estimated how fast time passed between the two dimensions, and she said, "I will definitely go back within an hour."

Ni Manhua's affirmation gave Zhan Ping confidence. Zhan Ping spread her hands and looked helpless: "I'll buy you some food and come back later."

Ni Manhua is not in the mood to eat right now. In fact, when she opens her mouth to speak, it hurts.

After the potion was finished, Lu Guanhai called the nurse to come over and remove the needle. Ni Manhua asked that there was no more potion and said he wanted to go downstairs for a walk.

It was summer vacation, and even at dusk, it was as uncomfortable as a steamer outside. But Ni Manhua was really bored lying there without finding anything to do. Her focus was entirely on the pain caused by the wound.

Lu Guanhai helped Ni Manhua get out of bed, and when he went downstairs, there were also many patients in hospital gowns resting, most of them were elderly people, sitting in wheelchairs and being pushed by nurses.

Ni Manhua walked slowly, with only a few thin rays of sunlight remaining in the sky. Everything in front of him was as hazy as if it were covered with a filter. Ni Manhua said, "After you go back, you will spend most of your time here again."

Lu Guanhai turned his head and looked at Ni Manhua: "I'm sorry, I gave you a bad impression of this place. But actually, I also want to go home. I don't want you to always be waiting for me at home alone."

"Everything you didn't think about has actually happened." Ni Manhua found that after she and Lu Guanhai completely talked about it, she even recalled the past events with a smile. Ni Manhua asked Lu Guanhai: "You Do you still remember how we spent our fifth wedding anniversary?"

Ni Manhua has always regretted the words he just said recently. He had obviously decided to let go of the past, but why did he open up old scores again.

Lu Guanhai was silent for a long time, but still had nothing else to say: "I'm sorry."

When Ni Manhua and Lu Guanhai celebrated their fifth wedding anniversary, Ni Manhua still had her last hope for Lu Guanhai.The day before, Lu Guanhai took the initiative to tell Ni Manhua that he would come back early from get off work the next day. They had dinner together at home. Lu Guanhai hadn't cooked for Ni Manhua in a long time.

On the bed, Lu Guanhai hugged Ni Manhua from behind, rested his chin on her shoulder, and gently asked Ni Manhua what food he wanted to eat. At that time, Ni Manhua's gradually silent heart finally started to stir a little bit again. She turned around, hugged Lu Guanhai, and huddled in his arms as before, feeling his body temperature.

Ni Manhua whispered his wishes to Lu Guanhai, and they fell asleep while hugging each other.

Lu Guanhai did come back the next afternoon. He prepared the ingredients in advance and even picked up Ni Manhua from get off work.

That day Lu Guanhai brought a bouquet of roses to Ni Manhua. When Ni Manhua came out of the opera house, his colleagues were joking. Ni Manhua blushed and whispered: "We are an old couple, and they are still doing this." What to do?"

Ni Manhua remembers that Lu Guanhai said that romance, like love, should end from beginning to end.

Later, when he returned home, Lu Guanhai cooked a table of dishes, all of which were Ni Manhua's favorites. Ni Manhua put the flowers in a vase and placed them in the middle of the dining table. The warm red color seemed to tell the world that she was at this moment. Ni Manhua had not felt this kind of joy when he was with Lu Guanhai for a long time.

For Ni Manhua, this kind of date, which has become rare, is not to warm up their relationship, but to stimulate the beauty in her memories and let her reminisce about the road to the sea.

This was a repair to the broken area in Ni Manhua's heart. Lu Guanhai held the tools and was sincere, but only half of the work was completed.

When Lu Guanhai was called away by the director, Ni Manhua couldn't even express her temper. She leaned in the entrance and watched him get dressed and change shoes. The candlelight in the room reflected their shadows on the white wall, just like when Ni Manhua was a child. Watching a shadow puppet show, Ni Manhua was facing the light and shadow, as if he was watching someone else's love performance.

Before leaving, Lu Guanhai said guiltily: "I will come back early, and I will go to work for two hours."

Ni Manhua looked at him coldly: "What does it matter to me whether you come back or not? I will lock the door behind you. Find another place for yourself."

The dishes are cold, the candles are extinguished, the water in the roses evaporates little by little, and the memorable day has passed.

What's the point of him coming back.

Ni Manhua no longer wanted to think about her state of mind that day. She didn't want to think about how long she had been in a daze or how many tears she had shed. But at this time, she could talk about that day calmly.Ni Manhua said, "You didn't even apologize in time."

"Yes," Lu Guanhai smiled bitterly: "I never seem to get it right when dealing with the relationship between the two of us, and I always take it slow. I have to figure out why you are angry after the fact. When I was a child, I thought I could read. He is a great person, but the things taught in textbooks are not enough for me to cope with life."

"It's really good to be able to read. Otherwise, why would I like you back then? In fact, I shouldn't blame you. If your house hadn't been sold, you wouldn't have become like this." Ni Manhua knew that he had a knot in his heart. It's not just him who is worried about him. The house that carries all the memories of Lu Guanhai's childhood and youth is also a hurdle that they can't get over.

After losing the small house, Lu Guanhai's mother actually only lived in Ni Manhua's house for a year. After that, she transferred the supermarket and returned to her hometown to live with Lu Guanhai's overseas grandmother.

Ni Manhua couldn't understand at first that his house was so good, so why Lu Guanhai's mother would rather go back to farming than stay.

Later Ni Manhua figured out that the reason why she had to move away from Lu Guanhai's house was not because the house was small and dilapidated. There was no difference between a big house and a small house. The days when Lu Guanhai's mother lived in the villa were not the same as when she was in the villa. Life in that little house was just as difficult.

Not having a sense of belonging is a terrible thing.

Lu Guanhai still tried to explain, but the incoherent narrative had already betrayed him: "Actually... I blame myself more, because I am not good enough, if I can... If I can make you live a better life through my own efforts... To live a good life and live in a better house, my mother doesn’t have to sell her house, it’s for me.”

"You're blaming me," Ni Manhua smiled, Lu Guanhai didn't want to blame her, not only this matter, Ni Manhua made mistakes in many small things in the past, Lu Guanhai would take the initiative to take the responsibility on himself.This was Lu Guanhai's way of expressing his love for Ni Manhua, but it was precisely because of this that he spoiled Ni Manhua. Ni Manhua thought that whatever he did was right.He also paralyzed himself and did not even dare to speak out his truest thoughts.So Ni Manhua said for him: "You blame me. We agreed at the beginning that we had a plan, but I went back on my word and forced you. You should blame me. Don't dare to say it."

Lu Guanhai squeezed his hands tightly by his side, and Ni Manhua said again: "Actually, I also blame myself, it was the two of us who made this marriage come to this point together, after we go back, say sorry for my mother and me. "

"My mother likes you very much. She did all this without any complaints."

"That's what we should be sorry for."

Parents give selfless love, but they are different. They always consider problems selfishly from their own perspective.

The sky became darker unknowingly, and he couldn't see anyone ten meters away. Lu Guanhai subconsciously held Ni Manhua's hand, fearing that she would be hit by someone. The moment their fingers intertwined, they were both stunned, but Ni Manhua Manhua didn't refuse, and Lu Guanhai didn't let go either.

Walking through a green corridor, they almost circled the hospital and were about to transfer to the inpatient department. Suddenly a voice came to their ears: "Hey, why are you here?"

Ni Manhua was startled, she almost pulled her hand out of Lu Guanhai's, but Lu Guanhai grasped her hand even tighter after realizing that she was frightened.

On the bench, a girl curled up in a ball slowly raised her head.She had already disappeared into the night, and this sudden greeting seemed particularly scary at this moment.

(End of this chapter)