The weak princess is super fierce

Chapter 966: Determination to Die

Once his demonic power was gone, Meng Shisi was like a small beast without claws, completely at the mercy of others.

"...Later, Miss was poisoned by the First Emperor's favorite concubine." Whenever Ma Ji recalled this incident, he regretted it deeply. "At that time, I shouldn't have listened to Miss and come here to collect the Dew for her."

"Hua Lu... is it the dew of dawn?" Meng Shisan asked somewhat absentmindedly. At this moment, she was somewhat certain that Meng Shisi really had a relationship with her that she did not know about.

Because she also enjoyed eating the morning dew, she called it Hua Lu (华露).

As far as she knew, she was the only one who had this habit.

"How did you know, Miss?" Ma Ji looked up from his grief, his eyes filled with surprise. "There are many people who drink morning dew, but as far as I know, there is no one who can call morning dew 'Hua Lu'... Apart from now, only you, Miss, also call morning dew 'Hua Lu'."

"The world is vast and full of wonders, and it's purely coincidental that I also call Chenlu (Morning Dew) this." Meng Shisan's mind was indeed somewhat chaotic at the moment. Although it wasn't a complete tangled mess, she didn't want to reveal too much of her true self until she had sorted it out herself. "Miss Meng Ying's actions are clearly meant to get you out of the way, perhaps..."

Perhaps Meng Shisi sensed something and lost the will to live, which is why he sent away Ma Ji, who was capable of protecting him.

Meng Shisan understood immediately upon hearing this, while Ma Jiyu, back then, only slowly grasped Meng Shisi's intention after Meng Shisi was poisoned: "At that time, Miss... had already resolved to die."

"Nothing is more sorrowful than a broken heart."

"It was only later... that I gradually learned of the despair Miss felt at that time."

Meng Shisan patted Ma Ji on the shoulder: "It's all in the past."

Ma Ji's self-blame and sorrow were so intense that she couldn't bear it and couldn't help but offer a word of comfort.

However, Ma Ji was not comforted. This matter remained a knot in his heart, and it would likely only be untied when he completed the task that Meng Shisi had given him before his death.

Meng Shisan casually sat down on the ground and gestured for Ma Ji to sit down as well.

Ma Ji lifted the hem of his long robe and sat down in front of Meng Shisi's tombstone.

The two sat facing the tombstone.

“Miss Meng Ying didn’t want to live anymore. Even if you could sense her will to die back then, you could run away from it one day, but you couldn’t escape it the next.” Meng Shisan said sincerely, “In this respect, whether it is a demon or a human, it is actually the same. Living is not easy, but dying is not difficult.”

How could Ma Ji not understand this principle? Even if he couldn't understand it back then, after more than a hundred years of wandering in the world and experiencing so much right and wrong, he had long since come to understand it.

Just like he said about Meng Shisi, understanding is one thing, doing it is another.

He understood, he comprehended, but he couldn't control the inner torment he felt.

“When Miss agreed to stay by the First Emperor’s side, I didn’t think it was a good idea and tried to persuade her indirectly. Unfortunately, Miss was already immersed in the First Emperor’s sweet words and ignored all my reminders.” Ma Ji never agreed with the First Emperor from beginning to end. He always felt that Li Shize’s approach was for some purpose. “Back then, the First Emperor was just the Crown Prince.”

Speaking of the Crown Prince, he glanced meaningfully at Meng Shisan.

Meng Shisan chuckled at the glance: "Don't worry, I'm not Miss Meng Ying, and you don't call me Miss, you call me Eldest Miss."

There is a difference.

There is a huge difference. Putting aside the fact that Ma Ji is Meng Shisi's demon servant, and not her demon servant, just considering Meng Shisi's loss of reason when encountering mortal men, she is fundamentally different from Meng Shisi.

She, Meng Shisan, would never risk her life for anyone.

There was none in the past thousand years, there is none now, and there will never be one in the future.

“I have no romantic feelings for Li Shou,” she said.

Ma Ji asked, "Why would the young lady risk her life to shield His Highness the Crown Prince from that poisoned arrow?"

"My surname is Meng, and I am a daughter of the Meng family. Although I have demonic energy in my blood, I am still a mortal." Meng Shisan explained the reason why she protected Li Shou's life. "There are more than a hundred people in the Meng family, and the Meng clan has hundreds of people. These are all ordinary people. If the Meng family makes any mistakes, they will all become victims of the blade."

She said solemnly, "I don't want to be the sinner who teaches them to become victims of the knife."

“The eldest young lady wants to protect the entire Meng family and the entire Meng clan.” Just listening to this, Ma Ji felt that Meng Shisan’s shoulders were carrying a heavy burden. “But the Meng family has more than just the eldest young lady as a descendant, and the Meng clan is not entirely composed of incompetent people.”

Meng Shisan nodded: "Of course. Not to mention the outstanding members of the Meng clan, just look at my generation in the Meng family. My eldest and second brothers are quite good. When my third and fourth brothers finish their studies and take the imperial examinations to become officials, they will also become a part of the Meng family's strength. As for Meijing and me, although we are young ladies, we are also capable. We will naturally not shirk our responsibilities or back down in any way we can."

Everyone should do their part.

Ma Ji has never considered the big picture, thought about the big picture, made plans for the big picture, or even risked his life for the big picture. He cannot truly understand these things.

Just like back then, he couldn't understand why his young lady would go through fire and water for love, only to end up with no hope of survival and insist on ending it all with death.

He couldn't help but sigh, "This world is far too complicated."

"It's not that the human world is too complicated, but that people's hearts are too complicated," Meng Shisan corrected. "Sometimes, demons are really much simpler than humans."

Ma Ji agreed: "Miss is absolutely right."

After sitting for a while, Meng Shisan got back to the main topic: "Since you have already given birth to a princess for the First Emperor, how can your young lady bear to abandon her newborn daughter?"

She has no children yet, but she can only imagine the scene. If it were her own flesh and blood, which she carried for ten months and gave birth to, she would not be willing to die.

She fears that her own flesh and blood will not live well after she dies.

As for the child's father, now that he has seen through his true colors, he can simply consider it that he was blind and made a mistake in choosing the wrong person, and that's it.

From here on out, the sky is high and the sea is wide. Find a suitable place to live, and grow up happily with my daughter. That would be a wonderful thing in my life.

As Meng Shisan thought about it, he even felt that it was actually not bad.

At the same time, Li Shou's handsome face appeared in her mind, and she fantasized that if she really had a daughter with him, the daughter would definitely be beautiful, combining the features of both of them.

She had a beautiful daughter who shared her blood, which made her smile unconsciously.

Ma Ji was listening nearby, and just as he was about to recall Meng Shisan's question, he saw Meng Shisan's sudden smile. He asked in confusion, "What are you laughing at, Miss?"

"Huh?" Meng Shisan snapped out of her daze, her beautiful smile instantly turning into an awkward one. "It's nothing, it's nothing."