I really don't want to be her world

Chapter 79 79. Just say, you are out of your mind and need to find your brain.

We got on the bus across the road. Yuan Shu, who was sitting on the chair, put his arm on the window, gently rested his chin on the back of his hand, and looked at the night outside the window calmly.

I don’t know how long it took, but the young man gradually fell into a daze, recalling his psychological fluctuations today. His eyes quietly flashed a few hints of softness. At the end, Yuan Shu shook his head with a wry smile, saying that he didn’t want to rely on falling in love to make himself happy. He quickly got out of the shadow of broken love, but he didn't completely do it.

Tang Yimeng has always been a special existence for young people. To be honest, Yuan Shu could not treat Tang Yimeng like he did to Pang Xiyuan. They also give each other nicknames and other behaviors that do not care about the feelings of the opposite sex and just laugh wildly.

After all, Pang Xiyuan is the type who is so careless that he doesn't care when playing with boys, so it fits Yuan Shu's carefree character. In addition, both parties are of the opposite sex, which naturally gives each other a curious sense of attraction. Only then can we play together without caring.

But Tang Yimeng and Yuan Shu couldn't get along with each other without the slightest fear or thought like they did with Pang Xiyuan. He didn't seem to have any baggage, but he just couldn't treat them equally.

At first, he thought it was because he and Tang Yimeng were not familiar with each other yet, so he was still a little cautious, but now he really understood that he had already felt like her unknowingly, maybe he had liked her before. This feeling is so faint that it can be ignored, so Yuan Shu would mistakenly think that it is a strange feeling that cannot be explained, right?

Involuntarily helping her out, the young man would feel lost when seeing her get off the car when we were riding together, and I would feel a little distressed when I heard Tang Yimeng's past, maybe since then, I should have been right Tang Yimeng has more than just a feeling of being a friend, right?
But after thinking about it carefully, Yuan Shu didn't know what he liked about Tang Yimeng. Was he attracted to her? She wasn't very attracted to her. She was much worse than Pang Xiyuan in terms of appearance and figure, but the young man just felt strange. Yes, if this feeling is not like, then what is it?

"Do you want to protect..."

Yuan Shu suddenly remembered what he had said to Tang Yimeng before, and when he thought of the desire for protection, the young man suddenly felt that familiar feeling of distress. It seemed that his feelings for her were based on the desire for protection. Well, after all, this girl is always hurt, whether it is Yang Xiaoning or a stranger, but she still looks at others and the world so innocently.

A young man is not a person who dares not face feelings. On the contrary, he dares to love and hate. To put it mildly, he is frank, and to put it worse, he is a straight man. But what is wrong with being a straight man? Do you think he is a crooked man? In that case, you will never find a girlfriend in your life.

At this moment, Yuan Shu gradually understood that he had the so-called love because he wanted to protect this girl from harm. His love was completely based on wanting to protect Tang Yimeng. He didn't want to see her again. Seeing that this simple and innocent girl was hurt by someone, I wanted to protect her as her boyfriend.

But the thoughts are beautiful, and the reality is skinny. Yuan Shu knows that if he confesses, Tang Yimeng will most likely not accept it. With her personality, it is unlikely that she will accept him. As for why, of course The reason is that the two have similar personalities, similar family backgrounds, and similarities in all aspects. Who would want to find a mirror that is similar to themselves?

Yuan Shu completely gave up the idea of ​​​​confessing, and rationally told him that not long after Tang Yimeng fell in love, the shadow of those seven years was no lighter than his own. The young man did not think that a bold confession would make her moved and accepted. You must know that he has also been since seven years later. After traveling back in time, even if he doesn't understand women's hearts, he can still understand that some of his current impulsive thoughts are not suitable for expression.

Recalling the movie "The Year in a Hurry" I watched before, Yuan Shu actually wanted to love someone silently like Qiao Ran, but that was a plot in a TV series. In reality, licking a dog is not allowed in the house.

But if he could always protect Tang Yimeng from harm, Yuan Shu would also think it would be good, regardless of whether she would accept him or not.

At this time, Tang Yimeng did not have the nymphomaniac mentality of committing herself to a man or having feelings for her just because she was rescued by a man like in novels or TV series. She now devoted everything to herself wholeheartedly. During studies.

Tang Yimeng hopes that she can divert her lovelorn emotions through crazy painting. Just like Yuan Shu told herself before, she cannot escape fate and can only choose to face it, even if she really doesn't want to face the loss of Yang Xiaoning. fact.

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The next day, Yuan Shu woke up early because he had to miss a day of class and go out to play with Tang Yimeng, so he couldn't oversleep. Was it because he was a little scared because he skipped class for the first time, or because he and Tang Yimeng Dreaming about going to the amusement park and being excited actually contains both emotions, but the most important thing is Tang Yimeng's sentence "Can you pretend to be my boyfriend?" Until now, young people are still affected by this sentence.

Yuan Shu knew that this was a joke and a lie, but he really thought about it. He liked Cheng Jiayun. The young man felt that it was entirely because he believed in fate and this hard-won coincidence. But the facts proved that he and Cheng Jiayun were not the same. It's not suitable at all. Even though horoscopes say that Aries and Leo are the most compatible, Yuan Shu never thought about it. He can only say that he is very destined to Leo and is easily attracted to other fire signs.

From elementary school to junior high school, high school, and university, Yuanshu has had subtle interactions with many Leo and Sagittarius members of the opposite sex that can only be understood but cannot be explained.

Although he is an Aries, Yuan Shu feels that sometimes he is more of a Pisces. Sometimes he is quite narcissistic and fond of fantasy, especially after getting to know Tang Yimeng. This kind of narcissism and fantasy, sometimes It will be amplified in certain situations. Of course, he will definitely not show these emotions. It is fine that only he knows.

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After coming out of his grandparents' house, Yuan Shu went to a convenience store to buy breakfast. After eating it in a few seconds, he ran directly towards the school. While walking on the road, Yuan Shu received a voice message from Tang Yimeng.

"I've already set off, and I'll be there in about four or ten minutes."

"Don't worry. If we leave at eight o'clock, we can reach Happy Canyon by ten o'clock at the latest. We can spend the whole day there. We have plenty of time."

Yuanshu replied.

"Can you play all day?"

Tang Yimeng asked with some surprise.

"Yes, let's go play. Of course we have to play happily. I can only take a day off..."

After Yuan Shu finished speaking, he made a hand-spreading expression.

"Momosa! Thank you, Brother Shu, for accompanying me!"

Tang Yimeng sent a heart-warming emoticon and typed happily.

"Eh... well, forget it, let's spread it. What does spreading mean?"

Yuan Shu frowned, and then said, "Please say goodbye. It's so disgusting. Don't call me Brother Shu anymore. It's weird. Please change your name."

"What's that called?"

Tang Yimeng asked a question.

"Emm... you can call it whatever you want. Anyway, don't call it this."

Yuan Shu shook his head. Generally, people who call him this way are those who are unfamiliar with him and are relatively crude, but want to appear a little more crude. People who call him this way will even call him Brother Yuan. Anyway, these are The title sounds strange to Yuan Shu, so it is better to call him Shu'er. Just like Chen Han prefers to add characters after the names of friends with whom he is close, so does Yuan Shu.

"Then call it Brother Yuan."

Tang Yimeng sent a lighted up expression.

"You are such a clever little kid. Okay, you can call me whatever you want..."

Yuan Shu smiled helplessly and said, "You can come up with whatever you want, she really knows how to scream."

"Then let's just call Ta'er, how about that?"

As soon as Tang Yimeng said this, the young man couldn't help but chuckle, "Why do you and Pang Xiyuan like to call you that when you were in school?"

"Isn't that because you invented this word? It sounds funny and funny, and it is easy to pronounce. How you came up with this word is really wonderful."

Tang Yimeng made a laughing expression.

"It just comes out as soon as it goes smoothly. Aren't the dialects here all the kind that are easy to speak but difficult to express in words? I can be considered a product of those talk."

Yuan Shu smiled and shook his head.

"I actually thought of a better title. If that's the case, then I'll call you Da'er, and you'll call me Little Ta'er. How about it?"

Yuan Shu typed half-jokingly.

"Okay, okay, it sounds pretty good, haha, but the big and small towers still sound cute!"

Tang Yimeng agreed and then changed his words.

"hhh."

Yuan Shu didn't say anything and sent out three letters.

"Yes, can you really take a day off?"

Tang Yimeng suddenly changed the topic and asked.

"Of course, I can still lie to you, but just asking for a day off is too expensive."

Yuan Shu said matter-of-factly, and then sighed.

"Well... I thought of a reason. I think as long as you tell the teacher this reason, they won't hold you accountable for taking this day off."

Tang Yimeng said seriously.

"What reason?"

Yuanshu asked.

"Just say that your brain is running wild and you need to find your brain."

After saying this, Tang Yimeng posted several different versions of laughter in succession, and then refreshed Yuan Shu's screen.

"Good guy, I'm direct good guy."

After a while, Yuan Shu was also amused by Tang Yimeng's imagination. This girl is really able to let herself go. I'm afraid she wouldn't be able to think of such a cute reason after having a cerebral thrombosis in two years. If she told the teachers , I'm afraid they will just roll their eyes at me and say, "You're crazy!"

(End of this chapter)