Respawn Entertainment: Days of Glory

Chapter 1002 "I Hate Myself For Loving You"

Just as the intro ended, Guo Sichu strode back to the microphone stand with an air of nonchalance and began to sing:

"Midnight gettin' uptight Where are you, You said you'd meet me now it's quarter to two..."

(I search for you in the restless midnight, as our appointed time is approaching.)

"I know I'm hangin' but I'm still wantin' you, Hey Wave It's a fact they're talkin' in town, I turn my back and you're messin' around"

(I know I want more than just waiting. Hey, Wave, the townspeople are all talking, I've repented, but you're still doing what you want.)

Guo Sichu's voice still has the same timbre as when she sang "I Love Rock 'n Roll". Even if Bian Lang listens with the filter of the original Joan, he feels that Guo Sichu is more at ease than in the previous song.

Moreover, although Bian Lang guided her to approach Joan's timbre, Guo Sichu has actually developed her own metallic voice. Compared to Joan, it lacks some power, but it has more chest voice technique.

As for the performances of the old Rolling Stones members, there's really nothing to say about them; they were still incredibly precise!
If I had to find a flaw, it would be that their makeup and styling for this song are somewhat different from those of the Blackhearts.

Back in the day, in the music video for "I Hate Myself For Loving You," Bian Lang was incredibly envious of the leather jacket with tassels on the sleeves worn by lead guitarist Eric Ambel. It's just a pity that in their past life, their band mainly played pop-rock, and they all felt that kind of outfit was out of place.

I must try this once in my life. After the show, Bian Lang plans to contact Amir's designer and have a complete set of costumes made for the Rolling Stones according to his ideas, which will serve as the performance costumes for the Rolling Stones' US tour.

What surprised Bian Lang the most was that Guo Sichu changed the name Jake in the original lyrics to her own Wave! The difference between thoughtful and careless is obvious...

Of course, Bian Lang wasn't the only one who recognized this; everyone else who did also wore beaming smiles. Guo Sichu's group of girlfriends, in particular, wore expressions of envy and jealousy!

Olaf jokingly said to Liu Ziyang, "Because of this one change, I think Guo's name must be added as a lyricist when the official version is released!"

After listening, Liu Ziyang said with a wicked smile, "I don't think it's necessary. Anyway, Bian Lang isn't afraid of what people will say!"

"That's true... But to be honest, it's quite difficult for us to analyze and rehearse Wave's arrangement independently without his demos."

After all, Bian Lang's arrangement only provided the band with the full score, but the timbre, effects, and other elements could only be analyzed and adjusted by these two producers and other musicians based on the judgment that it shared the same origin as "I Love Rock 'n Roll".

Fortunately, their collaboration did not disappoint Bian Lang. Just look at how he stood up on the isolation zone, clapping his hands and singing along with Guo Sichu, and you can tell how satisfied he is!

"I'm not really jealous don't like lookin' like a clown, I think of you every night and day, You took my heart then you took my pride away...ye..."

(I'm not jealous and I don't want to play the clown. I've been longing for you day and night. You've taken my heart and my pride with you.)
Bian Lang felt that the most powerful ending note in the original song was dragged out, and Guo Sichu also handled it quite well, directly taking a breath and connecting to the chorus, which was incredibly smooth!
"I hate myself for loving you
I hate my love for you.

Can't break free from the the things that you do
I'm watching your every move.

I wanna walk but I run back to you that's why
I wanted to escape, but I kept returning.
I hate myself for loving you
I hate my love for you…

Although she didn't have a guitar in hand, Guo Sichu's performance was just as captivating. The flirtatious glances she gave Bian Lang every now and then, and the way she always pointed to the audience and ended up pointing at Bian Lang, all of this showed that Guo Sichu, the diva, had truly poured her heart into this relationship.

Although those who understand the lyrics might feel that they don't quite fit the relationship between the two!
But only Guo Sichu herself knows that many aspects of this song actually reflect her personal state of mind.

Even before Bian Lang and Dong Youbian separated, the feeling of "I hate myself for loving you" would occasionally appear in her mind.

At the time, she was uncertain, so she attributed her inexplicable low mood and anger to nothing more than the side effects of her period. Looking back now, Guo Sichu finally understands.

Therefore, when she sang this song, her sense of immersion was much stronger than when she sang "I Love Rock 'n Roll".

So much so that during that incredibly tough interlude, she directly engaged in a face-to-face "battle" with Dili using air guitar. Perhaps singing this song for the first time in front of Bian Lang was a way of summarizing and venting about those not-so-comfortable but not unbearable days.

If the two of them hadn't ended up together, she probably wouldn't have even noticed her strange behavior at the time, or even if she had, she would have just laughed at herself for being silly when she was slightly drunk.

But now that I'm with Bian Lang, recalling all the awkwardness I felt during that time is now a very interesting and memorable journey.

Perhaps one day in the future, Bian Lang will ask her, "When did you start to have feelings for me?"

She would tell Bian Lang about her emotional journey, and together they would work backward to find that moment of attraction that she herself wasn't entirely sure about!

"Daylight spent the night without you
You didn't stay with me until dawn.
But I've been dreamin''bout the lovin' you do
But you intruded into the dream I love.

I won't be as angry 'bout the hell you put me through
I also can't get angry about this behavior.

Hey man bet you can treat me right
Hey bro, I'm sure you'll treat me well.

You just don't know what you was missin' last night"

You simply don't understand what a night you missed...

This teasing verse, to music fans who love to show off their relationship, sounds like a jealous little spring romance.

Moreover, the line "Hey man, bet you can treat me right..." perfectly matches the "domineering" persona that Guo Sichu embodies with the word "Empress"!
"You just don't know what you was missin' last night..."

This tone and Guo Sichu's slightly contemptuous and provocative gaze made Bian Lang's friends, who were familiar with him, think that after this incident, Bian Lang should go back and take good care of his family's ancestral graves!

After all, Guo Sichu had never expressed her feelings so directly and sincerely to any man before. Even the man she almost married back then didn't receive this treatment at all; in fact, they were worlds apart.

Bian Lang completely ignored the jeers from those around him and continued to stand and sing with Guo Sichu:

"I wanna see your face and say forget it just from spite, I think of you ev'ry night and day"

(I just want to see your face, pleading to be forgotten because of resentment; I long for you day and night.)
"You took my heart, then you took my pride away...ye..." As she sang this, Guo Sichu, who was getting into the groove, began to reveal the domineering aura of a diva. The feeling she gave was, "I'm just that straightforward, tell me what you're going to do after hearing this?"

This is completely different from the awkward "arrogant sister" persona that Guo Sichu forced herself to act out for the sake of the show. This is the kind of aura that is perfectly integrated with Guo Sichu's entire personality.

Rather than the kind of indifference and disdain that comes from someone who is not famous enough or unfamiliar with the environment and tries to make their presence felt.

"I hate myself for loving you, Can't break free from the the things that you do, I wanna walk but I run back to you, that's why, I hate myself for loving you..."

After another chorus, the song's lead guitarist, Strauss, started to unleash her power. With the help of her team, she walked to the very edge of the stage, knelt down in front of the fans, and then stood her guitar up to begin her solo.

The violent, distorted sound waves are like a cathartic release following an interpretation of the lyric "I hate myself for loving you".

"I hate my love for you... but I will still love you!" If someone else sang these words, they would definitely be considered a simp.

But when Guo Sichu, a renowned singer, sang it, it didn't sound the same at all. It felt more like, "You can be a jerk all you want, I love my own stuff..."

That kind of momentum and cool feeling wasn't so obvious when Guo Sichu first started singing the lyrics, but after this solo performance, the feeling became stronger and stronger.

The female fans in the audience who understood the lyrics immediately went wild.

This scene reminded Bian Lang of the original music video for the song "I Hate Myself For Loving You"!

Some of Joan's hit songs may not be fully appreciated by domestic music fans, but this one is definitely a masterpiece that appeals to both highbrow and lowbrow tastes.

Her purity, wildness, rhythm, sense of rhythm, and aura surpass most male rock singers!

It's no exaggeration to say that you can listen to the music video version of "I Hate Myself For Loving You" on repeat for a long time... The first time you watch it, within 10 seconds you will definitely be in awe: "Damn, this is real rock and roll!"

What makes Joan so unforgettable is its purity, its lack of weirdness, its complete and smooth melodies, its wildness, and its atmosphere created by just a few basic notes and basic triad rock, which is the most hardcore rock feeling!

The reason why Guo Sichu chose this song to give Bian Lang a surprise was probably due to the intuition of a mature musician.

After joining Rolling Stone, she took the time to go through all the unreleased English songs in Bianlang's music library. Although Bianlang itself did not make any annotations or classifications, Guo Sichu simply grouped this song with "I Love Rock 'n Roll".

She was thinking at the time, "These lyrics are clearly from a female perspective. Did Bian Lang write this song for me or someone else to sing?"

So when Bian Lang chose "I Love Rock 'n Roll" as Guo Sichu's first song for her debut performance at the Rolling Stone Music Festival, without mentioning "I Hate Myself For Loving You" at all, Guo Sichu began planning this.

First, I explained my idea to Liu Ziyang and Olaf, asking if they could recreate the arrangement of "I Hate Myself For Loving You" using the sound of "I Love Rock 'n Roll"...

The two core members of the Aoyang duo were naturally happy about this, especially Liu Ziyang. Because the arrangement of "Anhe Bridge" was far inferior to Bian Lang's, his inexplicable competitive spirit had been pent up.

Knowing that it would be difficult for him to surpass Bian Lang's own arrangement, figuring out how to recreate the arrangement with only the band's full score was a very challenging task for him.

As for the Rolling Stones musicians, they were also eager to give it a try. However, to ensure both efficiency and the final result, they voluntarily gave the lead vocal position to Strauss.

He focused on "I Love Rock 'n Roll"...

As it turned out, his choice was undoubtedly correct. In songs with such a clearly feminine voice, the female musicians' outstanding performances were more likely to be recognized by music fans than his!

Not to mention the music fans, even the female singers in the audience were incredibly envious of Strauss! They wished they could turn back time to when they first debuted and hadn't yet established themselves... They definitely wanted to learn guitar instead of becoming a pure vocal singer!
The girls from Compass, upon seeing the scene, all exclaimed, "Holy crap! Why didn't we choose this song back then? It should definitely have been our song!"

Dingding went even further, saying, "Meng'er, can you handle singing this song?"

Yang Meng rolled her eyes at Ding Ding and said irritably, "What do you mean by saying this now? It's already been confirmed by Lang Sao, I don't expect my cover to surpass hers!" Yang Meng's words weren't sarcastic at all; they were exactly what she felt.

It was also a sense of relief amidst extreme admiration: "But we can go talk to Lang Sao, I'll step down and let Lang Sao take the lead singer of Compass, and I'll practice guitar with Teacher Shi properly..."

Upon hearing this, Dingding clapped her hands and exclaimed, "This is definitely the most constructive idea you've had in all these years, Meng'er..."

Yang Meng accepted the flattery without a second thought, then, imitating Bian Lang, she climbed over the barrier and, along with her fellow music fans, joined Guo Sichu in a final frenzy:

"I think of you ev'ry night and day, You took my heart then you took my pride away..."

After the chorus had appeared three times, thanks to the tireless efforts of the lead singers, a decent chorus finally broke out on the fourth time.

Although it wasn't the entire audience, it was clearly dominated by female fans singing along, even those who didn't know the lyrics joining in with "la la la..." to create a lively atmosphere.
"I hate myself for loving you, Can't break free from the the things that you do, I wanna walk but I run back to you that's why, I hate myself for loving you..."

"Another phenomenal hit, and I reckon this song will be even more popular overseas! But the question is, when Rolling Stones go overseas and sing this song, will Bian Lang have to avoid it?" Olaf found this question very interesting.

Although the final chorus wasn't as flashy and eye-catching as the original, the collaboration between Guo Sichu and Strauss was still a masterpiece of the night.

A line from Guo Sichu's lyrics: "I hate myself..."

Strauss responded with a solo that shared the same sentiment... This piece is still talked about by music fans many years later...

"for loving you...I hate myself...for loving you..."

“I hate myself…for loving you…I hate myself…I hate myself for loving you…”

(End of this chapter)