Chitose words

Chapter 109 Not worth a penny

As the sun set, when Yu Anan returned to the outer courtyard of the Admiral's Mansion, exhausted, she saw at a glance a sleeping figure lying on the branch of the huge peach tree in the courtyard.

She took a closer look and saw that it was Xie Zhao.

Don't blame her for her good eyesight, it's just too obvious here.

There is only one solitary tree in the courtyard of the guest house. Moreover, it is autumn, and all the leaves on the tree have fallen off in the past few days.

Therefore, even if it is getting late and the view is not as good as during the day, you can still see such a living person lying on it.

She laughed and shouted happily:

"A Zhao? Why are you sleeping here?"

Xie Zhao was awakened in the tree, but she did not get up immediately, as if she was waking up.

She first lazily raised an arm and stretched one side of her cervical vertebra that was sore from the branches. Then she lifted up half of her body weakly, as if from cramps and broken bones, and then gently landed next to Yu An'an.

Although Xie Zhao's martial arts realm is not very good, her light kung fu is truly outstanding.

It was almost silent when it landed, so much so that even the dust on the ground was not disturbed.

She yawned slightly, with some nasal sounds in her voice, and said casually:
"I was sleeping in the house earlier, but then I felt short of breath and chest tightness, so I ran up here to get some air. Unexpectedly, I fell asleep again."

She was lazy and rather listless.

"No wonder people say that spring is sleepy and autumn is lackluster. I really can't cheer up recently."

Yu Anan lightly touched the back of Xie Zhaoqingbai's hand, and frowned the next moment.

"Why is it so cold? Haven't you always been afraid of the cold?
Although autumn is sultry at noon, the wind is strong in the morning and evening and the weather is cool. If you sleep outside casually like this, you will get sick. "

When Xie Zhao was touched by her, he almost immediately became more awake.

She couldn't help laughing, shook her head and said:
"That's not true. After all, I am also a martial arts practitioner. I am in very good health. I am strong enough to kill ten Han Changsheng."

Yu Anan chuckled and looked around, but didn't hear Han Changsheng's voice, so he asked again:
"Huh? By the way, where is Changsheng? Did you go out to play again today?"

Xie Zhao nodded and said helplessly: "He is going to hit the south wall."

"Ok?"

Yu Anan was slightly startled, "Aren't you going to come back at night?"

"I guess so, don't pay attention to him. I will lock the door of this small courtyard later, and you can sleep in your own room."

Xie Zhao looked at her with a smile and asked casually: "Are you still used to it today? Did you have fun going out with the little girl from the Li family?"

Unexpectedly, Yu Anan sighed.

"It's not fun to talk about. It's simply thrilling. I was watching from the sidelines today and I was almost scared to death by them."

Xie Zhao looked at her funny.

"Huh? A group of noble ladies who stay at home are just holding a poetry party to chat about Beijing gossip. Could it be that they are going to break the news?"

Yu Anan smiled bitterly.

"Don't believe it... the ladies of Zhaoge City really dare to say and do things, and they actually dare to arrange the affairs of the nobles in the inner palace."

She briefly explained the whole story, and then said:
"That's pretty much it. Suixin is smart and knows that she shouldn't be involved in the discord between Wanfu and the Cui family, so she didn't say much from beginning to end.

Later, Miss Wan's wet nurse coaxed and dragged her away.We also found it boring, so we left Wanfu early.

Yueru was unhappy today and refused to go back home so early, so she took Suixin and I to attend a play, and then came back a little late. "

Xie Zhao listened to her with a smile.

Xie Zhao has an extremely outstanding advantage, that is, when others speak to her, she always looks at the other person extra seriously, making people feel that she is listening very carefully.

Therefore, Yu Anan couldn't hold back for a moment, and actually explained everything that happened today in detail.

After saying that, she frowned again and said:

"Azhao, how can Wan Bing'er be so domineering? Even the Queen dares to speak out against her."

After hearing this, Xie Zhao shook his head slightly with unclear emotions, smiled faintly, and said noncommittally:
"The little girl is young, and she is still unmarried in the boudoir. It is estimated that it is rare to have a relative with a high status in the family, so she is a little complacent.

——Hey, but this is not a big deal, it is human nature.Even if the queen found out later, she would probably not care about anything with the daughter of the Wan family. "

If Empress Bai really cares about her, she will be degrading herself and losing her dignity as the mother of a country.

Yu Anan seemed to disagree, but her tone of voice was still gentle.

“A girl who has not left the court does not have the right to do whatever she wants.

Ah Zhao, you are only two years older than her, why don't you see you being so arrogant?

It can be seen that the adults in her family did not teach her enough. "

Xie Zhao was slightly stunned and then stopped laughing.

"What, am I not domineering enough? Haven't you heard how Han Changsheng attacks me on weekdays?"

Yu Anan also laughed, but shook his head vigorously.

"You're not being domineering, you're just joking with him.

Ah Zhao, you are the most hard-spoken and soft-hearted person, and you will never embarrass others.It is completely different from those nobles who come from a distinguished family and look at people through their nostrils. "

Xie Zhao said calmly: "I am a reckless person, so naturally I don't have the confidence to look at people with my nostrils." She smiled half-seriously.

"Otherwise, I might be even more outrageous than that Miss Wan's family."

Yu An'an, however, was convinced and said extremely seriously: "This is absolutely impossible."

Xie Zhao smiled.

"Silly girl, how long have you known me?"

She tilted her head and thought for a moment, and for some reason the smile on her face suddenly faded a bit.

"That's because you haven't seen me when I was fourteen or fifteen years old. If you had seen me, you wouldn't feel this way."

"Ok?"

Yu Anan looked at her curiously and asked:
"When you were fourteen or fifteen, it was only three years ago. It can't be very different from now, right?"

Xie Zhao bent down, she quietly lowered her hands and rubbed her aching knees.

——The injuries on both knees were broken a year ago due to a fall from a high place. Even though the bones have grown back, I still feel a dull pain like when the weather turns cold or on humid rainy days. There are steel needles going into the bones.

Yu Anan saw that she looked wrong and quickly asked: "Azhao, what's wrong with you?"

Xie Zhao took back his hand, raised his head and smiled as if nothing had happened.

"It's nothing, it's just that I lay in the tree for too long and my legs and feet are a little numb."

Seeing that she was fine, Yu Anan remembered the unfinished topic again. She said "oh" and continued to ask:
"By the way, Azhao, you haven't said it yet. How was it different when you were fourteen or fifteen years old than now?"

Sometimes when Xie Zhao was messing around or arguing with Han Changsheng, he was lively and energetic, as if he had endless strength and energy.

But whenever she quieted down and was alone, she felt an indescribable loneliness and desolation.

It seemed that there were so many living beings in this world, but she was always alone.

Alone and alone, with nothing to depend on.

I don't know where this feeling came from, but it was a feeling that even Yu An'an, who had read thousands of books, couldn't describe it at the moment.

If she was forced to speak, it would be as if Xie Zhao was like a wandering soul between heaven and earth.

She has traveled to many places, but in the end not a single leaf will touch her body.

At this time, Xie Zhao gave her exactly this feeling.

It's like the whole person is outside the world and has nothing to do with the world. His soul is out of the body and he has no roots.

Xie Zhao turned his head to look in her direction, chuckled, and then said quietly to himself:

"When I was fourteen or fifteen? I was naturally very annoying back then, even a bit more annoying than I am now.

At that time, I was like a fire burning hard and unable to extinguish itself - I felt that my existence was to provide warmth to others, but I didn't know that the hot flow flowing around others would only make people feel hot. It’s hard to bear.

Moreover, he is particularly arrogant and thinks highly of himself, thinking that he is the number one genius in the world. "

Her expression was indistinguishable from light to dark under the setting sun.

“When I was young, I was unruly and unruly, and I even felt that my existence might be unusual.

He is so arrogant that he thinks he is needed by everyone around him, but in fact, this is not the case.
The people I cared about when I was young didn’t need me, and all the things I did in the past were just me thinking too highly of myself, asking for trouble, and trapping myself.”

Xie Zhao's tone was extremely calm, as if he was talking about something that had nothing to do with him.

In the end, she squinted her eyes and smiled, summing up in a non-trivial manner: "——In short, when I was young, I was an idiot who only hurt others and myself."

Yu Anan looked at her in shock.

Xie Zhao's eyes, which were always lowered, were warm and moist, like gems that had all their edges and sharp edges cut off.

There is also a vague compassion and relief in her eyes that breaks through the world of mortals.

At that moment, Yu Anan even felt that the girl in front of him was like a lifeless Buddha statue in a temple, without any sadness or joy.

She didn't know how to comfort Xie Zhao, and even regretted asking that question.

"Azhao, don't be sad."

At last she said so.

Yu Anan really regretted it.

Although she still couldn't fully understand the meaning of Xie Zhao's words, she could still feel the inexplicable desolation in her body.

But Xie Zhao only remained quiet for a moment, and then raised his head again after a while, with a pair of fox eyes bright and peaceful.

She looked at her with a smile, as if all the inexplicable and subtle feelings she had before were just illusions.

"Don't worry, I'm fine. My life is neither good nor bad now. That's good, isn't it? I just... have grown up and can accept the truth calmly."

——The truth that she herself is not worth mentioning at all.

Xie Zhao gently turned his head and looked through the sparse leaves on the branches at the bright, moving, almost full moon in the sky.

It’s almost the Mid-Autumn Festival of the year when the moon is full and family and friends gather together.

It's a pity that her home is at the end of the world. Wherever she goes with the wind and dust, her home will fall wherever she goes.

(End of this chapter)