The proud daughter of the reborn space

Chapter 392 Choice
Dong Chang didn't know what Hua Shu was thinking, and she couldn't figure out what was going on. Regarding Feng Ming, from an objective point of view, she had no prejudice against him, and even thought he was an amazing talent. Stunning character.

However, for some reason, she couldn't think deeply about Feng Ming, nor could she face him face to face, otherwise she would feel an inexplicable feeling of displeasure.

If there was any malice, it didn't exist. She couldn't tell the reason why she hated Feng Ming. Anyway, every time she saw him, she would unconsciously feel a little unhappy in her heart. As if his body and thoughts were out of his control, a simple emotion that he didn't like came out from deep in his heart.

She couldn't figure out why, but she guessed that since she saw Hua Shu in the memory fragments, which implicated her previous life as having some kind of relationship with Hua Shu, then maybe Feng Ming, as Hua Shu's lover, had a relationship with Hua Shu in his previous life. There is some connection with her, right?
Maybe that unpleasant emotion comes from the soul, a feeling carried over from past lives?

She did not think deeply about these issues, because she knew that with her current state of mind and cultivation, if she forced herself to think deeply, she might get into a dead end and fall into a daze from which she could not extricate herself.

Although she was not very smart, she knew how to act according to her ability. Since she had realized that sooner or later the secret of the memory fragments would be unlocked, she simply waited patiently, believing that after the memory fragments were connected into memories, all the doubts in her heart would be solved. answer.

"Well. Since you believe in Feng Ming and are not worried about the Requiem Pill, what were you worried about just now?" Dong Chang got back to the topic, and by diverting his attention, he forced himself to put down the questions and confusion in his heart.

When she asked, Hua Shu thought of her dilemma and couldn't help but sigh.

"Alas" she hesitated for a moment, but after all she didn't hide anything and said: "The Chinese New Year is about to come. My mother and others hope that I will return to the Hua family to recognize my ancestors and celebrate the New Year in the family. However, if I leave, the orphanage will I’m a little worried here.”

"What are you worried about? Although you are capable, during the Chinese New Year, everyone gathers together to celebrate the festival, and you don't have to do anything. Could it be that if you leave for a few days, everyone in the orphanage will have a hard time?" Dong Chang was puzzled. Now that we are not short of money and can celebrate the New Year happily, what else is there to worry about?
Hua Shu shook her head, looking a little sad, "No, I'm worried about my younger brothers and sisters. They are all orphans, and their hearts are more fragile than ordinary children. A reunion festival like the Chinese New Year is not a happy one for them. day."

Seeing that Dong Chang still looked puzzled, Hua Shu sighed sadly.

"Children who have never had parents or relatives and have been abandoned since childhood are slightly better off, but for children who have enjoyed the love of their parents and the warmth of their families, the loneliness and sadness they feel during the festive season are common to ordinary people. It’s incomprehensible.”

She used to be one of them, so she can especially understand the children's mood, and she can't help but feel sad and bitter every time she thinks about it.

"You don't know, in previous years, when the Chinese New Year comes, their mood will become very low, and they will even hide in the corner and cry secretly. But in front of others, they are very sensible and smile happily, fearing that the people around them will worry about them. It will affect everyone's mood during the festival." Speaking of those children, Hua Shu's heart was filled with pity.

"They are all sensible children, but they are also fragile children. Now that I know my relatives and gather together for the holidays, they will inevitably feel sad when they see it. I really don't want to see them sad." Because of myself Like them, she used to feel sad that she was an orphan during the holidays, so she pityed them even more, fearing that because of her own reasons, they would be even more sad because of the situation.

"But, it's impossible for you not to reunite with your parents and relatives for them!" Dong Chang frowned and looked distressed.

Naturally, she pities the children in the orphanage, but from Hua Shu's point of view, everyone in the orphanage is her family, but the people in the Hua family are her blood relatives. They have been separated for so many years, and it is not easy to find them. If you admit it, how could you not go back and acknowledge your ancestors?Moreover, the Spring Festival is supposed to be spent with family members. There is no reason to leave parents and family alone and instead stay in an orphanage to celebrate the festival. This cannot be justified at all!

"I know that since we have recognized each other, it is impossible to leave them alone. I also know that even if it is difficult to make a choice, I will definitely return to the Hua family in the end, but in my heart... Well, when I think about my brothers and sisters being sad, my heart It’s just not a good taste in any way.” Hua Shu sighed helplessly.

"It's really difficult for you to handle this matter." Dong Chang understood her mood and felt embarrassed for her, "However, you have decided to stay in L city to go to school. You will have plenty of time to spend time with the orphanage in the future. It doesn’t matter if we don’t celebrate the New Year together. Instead, it’s your parents. You have been separated for 13 years, and they have never given up looking for you. Now they have finally found you, and we have successfully recognized each other. We are in love and reasonable. You should all go back to the Hua family with them."

Maybe it was because she didn't have a deep relationship with everyone in the orphanage. She was not as embarrassed as Xiao Shu. It was one thing to pity those children. What she cared about most was whether Xiao Shu was happy or not, so the first thing she thought of was how to make Xiao Shu happy. Everyone at the orphanage understood Xiao Shu and allowed Xiao Shu to return to the Hua family without any psychological pressure.

"Aunt He is a sensible person. She must understand how you feel. Although your brothers and sisters are still young, they are all good and sensible children. Explain to them carefully and they will definitely be able to understand you."

Hua Shu nodded noncommittally. She knew what Dong Chang said made sense, but
She understood the truth. She had already made a decision in her heart on how to choose, but she still couldn't help but feel uncomfortable, especially since she was once one of those children and had experienced the same emotions as them, so she couldn't help but feel uncomfortable. Even more unbearable.

However, nothing is perfect in the world, and I don't have the ability to clone myself. I can't take care of both sides. In the end, I can only feel sorry for everyone in the orphanage.

"Don't worry about me, I'm just worrying about myself. In fact, I know better than anyone else what choice I should make." Hua Shu smiled slightly and reassured.

From the beginning, she never thought about staying in an orphanage for the New Year. From the moment she met her parents, she had already decided that she would choose her parents without hesitation when faced with such a dilemma.

The reason why I am troubled and embarrassed is just out of pity for my younger brothers and sisters, and I can't bear it.

(End of this chapter)