conan but winery

Chapter 887 Looking back at the past
For Bai Heqing, living alone in the United States for ten years was a long process of looking back on his past.

In these ten years, he went from being optimistic and confident at the beginning, from believing that he would be able to complete the final stage of the "Silver Bullet" in a short time, to later gradually realizing that this last small step seemed to be his way. An insurmountable chasm.

From confident to almost desperate, the blow of this change is very heavy for any normal person, especially when you are very clearly aware that your life is entering the final countdown, and this is your only life. When looking for life-saving straw, this feeling of despair can almost completely crush people.

Of course Bai Heqing was no exception. He had even vented his anger on the scientific researchers more than once in order to appease his inner frustration.

Of course, if there was anything that made him better than the average person in this process, it would probably be that he was not completely defeated by this setback.

On the contrary, after Bai Heqing changed personnel countless times, made countless attempts and failed, and deeply experienced the emotional loss of control due to this powerlessness, he quickly changed from the initial state of blind confidence and optimism. Come out and accept the fact instead of continuing to rage incompetently.

At that time, he had clearly realized that the last "very simple" step of the "silver bullet" in Elena Miyano's mouth was most likely the last hurdle that he could not overcome in his life.

There is a very high possibility that his life will collapse when his physical age regresses to twenty years old, leading to his death.

This is the data predicted by Elena Miyano. It may be biased, but it will never be too far off.

So what else can he do now?
Bai Heqing is not a person who can be taken lightly. Throughout his past life, he has always taken the initiative when facing real crises, and this time will be no exception.

Therefore, after he clearly realized that his final ending was most likely not a happy one, he only had two options left.

One is to continue to be blindly optimistic, continue to promote the research of "silver bullets" at any cost, and fight until the last minute in his last time.

The second is to accept the facts, relax your mind, and enjoy the last time of your life, or try to commit suicide.

Bai Heqing, on the other hand, chose to combine these two options.

He will still advance the research on "silver bullets", but he will not be as crazy as before regardless of the cost, nor will he drag out researchers and shoot them at every turn.

Just build a few more research institutes and push forward normally. Don’t feel any psychological pressure if you fail. Just try harder next time.

Anyway, just don’t give up completely, but don’t use too much force. Just keep everything going normally. Maybe one day you will suddenly succeed?

Of course, it doesn't matter if he doesn't succeed. Anyway, he has already mentally expected the worst outcome. Failure is normal, and success is earned.

After basically letting go of this obsession, Bai Heqing suddenly felt like he was free.

In terms of research, he no longer pays too much attention, that is, he will take a look at the reports sent from various research institutes every once in a while, and then approve their research funds.

Organizationally, he reorganized and integrated the organization's branches in Europe and the United States in a very short period of time, and established a relatively complete management system.

On weekdays, except for the activity funds and the promotion, rewards and punishments of organization members, which must be reviewed by him, the other chores can be handled by the people below without him having to worry about them.

Of course, the reason why all this happened so quickly was that his eldest daughter Bai Hejing also contributed a lot. To be fair, in Bai Heqing's opinion, his daughter has a passive personality most of the time.

Perhaps she was influenced by her twisted but powerful grandfather when she was young, which made her more accustomed to letting others make decisions most of the time instead of making decisions herself.

But her character is not absolute. When she thinks it is really important, Bai Hejing will only follow her own choices.

Just like becoming a member of the organization, just like not staying with Sharon but choosing to leave with him...

Although in Bai Heqing's view, these two choices are actually not so correct...

And it gave him a headache.

Regarding the whole story of Elena Miyano's suicide, Shirazawa Shizu is one of the very few insiders.

This incident deeply stimulated her. She was afraid that similar things would happen to her family, and then she had the idea of ​​"we must be bad together, and we must die together", and she wanted to join the organization regardless of any obstacles.

However, as one of the core members of the organization, Bai Heqing knows better than anyone else that the organization has no future and will one day be liquidated.

This is not because of some "good must defeat evil" drama, but because this is what Renya Karasuma decided from the beginning.

The existence of the organization itself is a tool used by Karasuma Renye to make money for research. Once Karasuma Renye's purpose is achieved, it will completely lose all its role.

At that time, the former evil leaders will once again become top figures respected by everyone, and all remaining members of the organization will become scapegoats for the crimes committed by the organization in the past few decades.

Even if Karasuma Renye fails in the end, this result will not change. With the death of Karasuma Renye, appropriate strategic adjustments must be made within the Karasuma family.

The organization is such a target that has long been noticed by countries all over the world. If it is left in the hands, it will only become a time bomb that kills the Karasuma family. Therefore, it is also a good idea for the Karasuma family to throw out this bomb that will explode in time. The only choice.

To sum up, the organization's destruction is inevitable, because both the organization's enemies and its own leaders have this plan.

And before it is destroyed, the deeper people go into it, the harder it will be to escape in the end.

Regarding this, Renye Karasuma, Shirakawa Kiyoshi, Sharon and Rum, the core staff, took corresponding precautions early in the morning.

Their existence in the organization can be described as completely mysterious. Apart from their own people, the rest of the organization members don't even know their identities, and few have even seen their faces.

Among them, the one that worried Bai Heqing the most was his daughter. She was too deeply involved in the organization. If she continued like this, she might not be able to escape unscathed in the end.

However, what pleased him was that since Bai Hejing acted with the monkey and the dangerous woman for a period of time, her behavior in the organization has changed a lot compared to the past.

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