Taoyao Order

Tao Yao said quickly: "How can there be a mother in this world who doesn't want her daughter? It's just that in life, there are many things that you can't help yourself. Maybe your mother also has her own things that she can't help herself with."

Zheng Qiaoyan smiled bitterly and said: "Yes, I can't help myself. Everyone can't help themselves. If I can't help myself, I should agree to my father at this moment, whatever my aunt can find for me. I just got married hastily, said yes to everyone, and spent the rest of my life."

Tao Yao nodded helplessly and said: "Yes, the world forces women to be like this. Isn't that what 'parents order matchmakers say' means? How many people can really break through this shackles?
However, for you, what makes you so sad may not necessarily be the words of your parents ordering a matchmaker, but the nightmare memories your aunt gave you when you were a child. "

Zheng Qiaoyan turned around and looked at Tao Yao with her eyebrows furrowed, seemingly confused: "What do you mean?"

Taoyao said slowly and patiently: "The same thing, whether it's me or Wanrong who is already married, is actually okay for us, because we know that this means that the people we say we are married to have good intentions. He must also consider it over and over again to choose a good marriage for us.

Because everyone in the world is like this, and so are we, we won’t feel as heartbroken as you and want to break up with your family.

I heard what you said. For you, it is not the marriage that makes you sad and angry, but your aunt.

If you think about it carefully, not only your marriage, but also any other matters related to your aunt will make you feel unhappy, but not as big as this matter. "

Zheng Qiaoyan thought about it carefully and found that it was indeed the case. Even in previous years, every time she went to her aunt's house to pay New Year's greetings, she felt as if she was going to be executed. Every year, she tried to find excuses to avoid it.

I don’t want to be tainted in the slightest with their family members or their family affairs.

But now, this time, her marriage was handed over to them, which directly touched Zheng Qiaoyan's nerves.

Seeing Zheng Qiaoyan frowning in thought, Tao Yao slowly continued: "So, if your aunt's matter can be properly resolved, your marriage may also be happy."

Zheng Qiaoyan heard this but said disdainfully: "With or without my aunt, it is impossible for my father to agree to my marriage to Mr. Wei."

Taoyao nodded, but hesitated a little before saying: "Qiaoyan, let me tell you something that you may not like to hear. In fact, I was quite surprised at first as to why you liked Mr. Wei.

But later, when I heard about your family affairs, I understood. "

Zheng Qiaoyan looked at Taoyao curiously after hearing this: "Do you understand? What do you understand?"

Taoyao said patiently: "I understand, why do you like Mr. Wei?"

Zheng Qiaoyan became interested after hearing this. In fact, even she herself didn't know why she liked Mr. Wei.

"He was widowed at a young age and was left alone with a little daughter. His official career was not going well and his life was miserable. He was full of poems and books, but he was forced to live in the world as a storyteller.

But you will be attracted to him, admire him, and like him. If it is because of talent and learning, you must have seen many talented people. It may not be that there is no talent that can surpass him.

However, his situation is very similar to your father when you were young.

So, you fall in love with him, want to marry him, and want to be a stepmother to his poor young daughter. In fact, it is not necessarily because you love him so much, but because you want to help him by marrying him, and even Redeem him, come back to your own childhood, give your father a wife, give yourself a mother, and give your young self a complete family.

You pity him just as you pity yourself and your helpless father.

You want to marry him, just like you want your mother to return to your father, so that you can have a complete family and no longer need to rely on others.

His tragic experience attracts you and makes you fall in love with him.

In fact, maybe, Qiaoyan, you don't love him, you just want to redeem and heal your scarred young self. "

Zheng Qiaoyan looked at Taoyao in front of her in a daze. Her lips were slightly open, but she couldn't say a word.

is that so?Is it really?
Indeed, what do you love about him?

She had never thought about this problem. She was just hopelessly attracted to the feeling on his body, his stories and tragic experiences, which attracted her to want to save him, and she always felt that as long as she could Marrying him will definitely save him.Taoyao gently comforted Zheng Qiaoyan and said: "So, I am not worried about your marriage at all. As long as you can get over what happened when you were a child, you will no longer love him or want to elope with him." .

In fact, to comfort your childhood self, you may not necessarily have to marry him and live a new life. You can also try to comfort yourself in this way. "

"Myself?" Zheng Qiaoyan looked at Taoyao in confusion.

Just listen to Taoyao continue to say slowly: "When I was a child, I remember that my grandfather's ancestral home had a hawthorn garden, and there would be many hawthorns every year. Every time I went back to my grandfather's house, when the hawthorns were ripe, I would My grandmother would always pick hawthorns and make candied haws for me to eat.

Outside the door of my maternal grandfather's house, there was a big river with many fish in it. When I was a child, I often followed my cousins ​​to go fishing in the river. I once accidentally fell into it and almost drowned.

There is a very high mountain outside my grandfather's house. When I was a child, I used to secretly climb the mountain with my cousin. Because I was afraid of being seen by my family, I did not go up the mountain on the right path. Instead, I followed the wild path my cousin took to climb the mountain. , the mountain was so steep that I almost fell off the mountain several times.

However, the mountain is very fun. Every time I have a chance, I will trick my cousin into climbing the mountain with me.It’s as if you’ll never get tired of playing in that mountain. "

Zheng Qiaoyan frowned, wondering what Taoyao was talking about: "Why are you talking to me about this?"

Taoyao only smiled and said: "So, you see, this is my memory of my maternal grandfather's house. Where do you think my maternal grandfather's house lives?"

Zheng Qiaoyan said: "Orchards, big rivers, big mountains. Does your grandfather's family live in the suburbs or in the mountains?"

Tao Yao smiled when he heard this: "Later, my maternal grandfather's family became prosperous and moved to a new house. But as I got older, I could no longer run around like I did when I was a child. I also had to abide by the rules and never leave the house twice. Bumai later came to Ziling Pavilion to learn needlework, but he did not return to his grandfather's house for many years.

Years ago, when I was worshiping my ancestors and sweeping the courtyard, I had the opportunity to go back to my ancestral home with my cousin. Suddenly I discovered that there were actually only two hawthorn trees in the yard of my maternal grandfather's house, and there was a small ditch in front of the door. , the water in the ditch is not as deep as my calf, and there is a small hill in the distance. You can walk from the foot of the hill to the top of the hill without taking a cup of tea, but it is just a little higher than ordinary people's rockery. "

Zheng Qiaoyan looked at Taoyao in surprise: "Ah? How could this happen?"

Tao Yao nodded and said: "Yes, that's it, because when we were very small, the small yard with two trees seemed to be very big, and we couldn't run out of it, and the small ditch with a depth of one foot seemed like A big river with small fish in it is also very big in our eyes, bigger than our little hands. A small dirt bag is also the highest mountain that we can't climb no matter what.

However, as we age and stature grow together, those things that were originally big in our eyes become smaller and smaller in our eyes, until now we look ordinary and worthless.But in our young eyes, it was really a river that was difficult to cross and a mountain that was difficult to cross.

When you were a child, your aunt was indeed able to dominate everything about you. Everything you drank, ate, and moved was in her hands.You cannot control or disobey her words. She is like a giant or even a demon in your memory. She is extremely terrifying and cannot be shaken. You can only be afraid and trembling, and you can only yell and argue. Come to vent the fear and dissatisfaction in your heart, but you are helpless and powerless.

But, Qiaoyan, you have grown up now.

In the eyes of you and me today, she is just an older wife from a wealthy family. You have a father who loves you, a good family background, and an older brother. Your aunt does not hold the power of life, death, or seizure over you. You cleverly do many things. Use resourcefulness, there is room for change, and it is within your control. "

Zheng Qiaoyan looked at Taoyao in shock. For so many years, she had been struggling to get out of her aunt's control, even if everything was broken, even if everything was destroyed. She had thought of the most extreme way, but she never thought that in fact, she had grown up. My father had already established a foothold in Hangzhou. Over the years, although my family and my aunt's family still had close contacts, my aunt rarely interfered in my family affairs.

In fact, my father also knew that he had always disliked his aunt. Although his father always taught him that he was ungrateful, ignorant of filial piety, and disrespectful to his aunt, his father had always allowed him to take care of the family affairs in his house over the years.On the one hand, he deliberately taught himself to take care of the family affairs in the back house, so as to prepare himself for marrying into her husband's family and becoming the head mother. Secondly, he also followed his own wishes and did not let his aunt interfere with the affairs of his back house.

Thirdly, it is also because I always miss my mother. My father has lost two wives. Although my aunt encouraged and persecuted me, my father did not like it because I did not want to. For so many years, I have been alone and never married again. This is also a strange news in Hangzhou.

In fact, perhaps as Taoyao said, her father doted on her very much.

What shocked Zheng Qiaoyan even more was that perhaps, as Taoyao said, she had already escaped from her aunt's control.In fact, my marriage and my future have never been in my aunt's hands.

Taoyao said slowly: "I once saw in the village that they tied up the big oxen that plowed the fields with only a very thin wooden wedge inserted in the ground. Because the oxen were weak when they were young, they were tied there. , unable to break free no matter what. After growing up, when the cow is tied there again, the cow will only think that the wedge is unbreakable, and will not think about breaking free anymore. Even with its strength at the time, it can break free with just a slight exertion. .”

Zheng Qiaoyan suddenly realized that her aunt was too scary in her childhood memories, so she frightened herself and made her feel that there was no way to escape. But in fact, just like the log that tied the ox, as long as she used light and force, things would happen. There is room for change.

(End of this chapter)