I'm afraid I'm not interested in love

Chapter 537 The word love is difficult to understand
After the words were spoken, the room fell into an awkward silence.

Unlike the feeling of relief I had imagined, after actually saying something so difficult to talk about, the situation became a little difficult to resolve.

Su Chengyi felt that his ears might be a little red and hot at this moment.

It feels like when I was a kid and got into trouble, I was forced to confess my crime in front of my elders.

I vaguely remember that when I was eight or nine years old, I accidentally broke my grandfather's most beloved antique vase. Its scientific name is "Blue and White Eight Treasures Pattern Double-Handled Baoyue Vase" - from the length of the name, you can get a clue that this thing must be very expensive.

How expensive is it? Probably more expensive than all the New Year's money in this life combined.

As a result, the young Su Chengyi was terrified and paced around the room, struggling with his thoughts.

To say or not to say, that is the question.

Should he honestly admit his mistake and then be criticized by the whole family and lose the right to enter the collection room, or should he hold on to his luck and delay it as long as possible? Anyway, there are so many bottles and jars in the room, and grandpa might have already forgotten about this blue and white eight-treasure pattern double-eared treasure moon vase.

Which of these two options is more noble?

Obviously, Su Chengyi chose the latter.

He first slipped out and found a tube of 502 glue, and then put on gloves to avoid being scratched by the fragments.

Then I learned the techniques of the antique repairmen on TV and started to piece the broken porcelain pieces together one by one.

However, after he had painstakingly glued the base together, Su Chengyi fell into silence.

Although the shape was barely restored, the originally beautiful porcelain was now covered with mottled cracks, which made people feel even more uncomfortable when looking at it.

It seems that some things cannot be repaired, not even by the best repairman on TV.

Su Chengyi stared at the fragments for a while, and finally closed the lid of the 502 glue.

At this point, the last glimmer of hope was shattered.

In the end, Su Chengyi had to carefully clean up the debris on the ground and try his best to restore the scene before the incident.

After finishing the job, he even took a detour and threw the garbage into a large trash can three alleys away.

Of course, in the end, these so-called remedial measures and delaying plans were of no use. The truth was exposed that very evening and did not even last until the next day.

At that time, all he could think about was, it’s over, I might have to kneel in the ancestral temple all night again.

At that time, Su Chengyi came to the study alone and confessed in front of his grandfather that he was feeling almost the same uneasy mood as he is now.

Perhaps it was because the image of Mr. Li and his grandfather as elders was too deeply rooted in his mind, so since he embarked on this road of no return, this was the first time Su Chengyi felt so ashamed.

The quiet and quaint teahouse now seemed like a big iron pot, with the hot oil sizzling, making him want to stand up and walk around the room in circles like he did when he was a child to relieve his anxiety.

Su Chengyi couldn't help but recall what his grandfather's reaction was when he found out that he had broken the vase.

Yes, at that time, he didn't lose his temper.

He just called him over and touched his head with a serious tone.

"If you make a mistake, you should be brave enough to admit it. Maybe there is still room for recovery. If you waver and hesitate, you will not only be bloodless, but will also only make you suffer in vain."

Hearing his grandfather's rare gentle tone, Su Chengyi lowered his head in shame and deeply realized his mistake.

"I'm sorry, Grandpa, that's your favorite vase. I was afraid you would be sad if you knew it."

"It's just a vase. It's more important to have my own grandchild. Wait, my favorite?"

"Yes, that blue and white double-handled treasure moon vase with eight treasures pattern."

".Which one did you break?!"

"Yeah. Grandpa? Grandpa! Mom, go get some emergency heart pills! Grandpa has fainted from anger."

Although I was very angry, I easily forgave him in the end.

However, things are different now. With my grandfather's upright character, if he knew that he was so bold as to do such a two-timing thing, he would probably be so angry that his beard would stand on end.

Then he would slam the table and angrily curse the unfilial descendants for their family's misfortune. At this time, he would often curse Su Zelang and Yang Liu together.

After scolding him, he felt that the child had to be disciplined and must be punished by the family rules - that is, he used a rolling pin to break his legs.

Thinking of this, Su Chengyi couldn't help but raise his eyes cautiously to confirm that there were no ghosts floating around in the house.

I always feel that I can see my grandfather's angry look at this moment.

"Cheng Yi, your grandpa has always been a carefree person who doesn't care about other people's opinions. When he was young, he did some rebellious and willful things. At that time, no matter how others commented, he would just snort and never pay attention."

After a long while, Mr. Li slowly spoke.

"Yes."

Su Chengyi nodded.

"But he also denounced those who were fickle and greedy."

Mr. Li sighed quietly, closed the folding fan in his hand, and tapped his palms.

"You shouldn't do this, you shouldn't do this, kid. I can say anything, but you really shouldn't do such a thing."

His tone was not one of blame, but of regret.

Su Chengyi lowered his head and looked at the swaying shadows of the trees outside the doorway, without any intention of defending himself.

"In so-called love affairs, the most taboo thing is not being loyal or equal.

The girl's heart is all in you, but you can only give her half. Do you think she is so stupid that she can't realize it?"

After he finished speaking, Mr. Li sighed and tapped his head lightly with the folding fan in his hand.

"You are a smart kid, why are you so confused in relationships? You have to make a decisive decision when it comes to things. If you keep clinging to it, you will end up hurting both sides in the end."

"Putting all this aside, if it was an ordinary girl, it would be fine. But how could two girls like them be willing to compromise? Cheng Yi, this was a dead end from the beginning. Don't you really understand?"

Mr. Li has never been a person who likes to teach others. It is only because he truly regards him as his own that he cannot help but give such a long lecture.

"I see."

Su Chengyi spoke slowly, his brows and eyes lowered the whole time, making it difficult to see his expression.

"But Mr. Li, my true heart has been divided from the beginning. No matter what the outcome is, that is all I can give you. The other half is always somewhere else."

Mr. Li originally prepared a series of arguments, hoping to persuade the young man to change his ways. After all, the sooner he made a decision, the easier it would be to handle the matter.

There is no need to say much about the two little girls. The fact that a piece of paper can cover the flame for so long can only mean that they have been deceiving themselves all along in order to leave more time for the center point of Libra.

“Have you ever seen a movie where the plot goes like this?

Two characters are asked to play a game in which they cut off their own flesh and throw it on a scale within a time limit. Whoever cuts the heavier flesh wins, and the rest will die.

As Su Chengyi said this, he felt that Mr. Li's expression was a little complicated.

The old man was already very old and probably had no interest in this kind of restricted and bloody movie, so Su Chengyi had to make up for it quickly.

".Well, it might be a little bloody, it's normal that you haven't seen it."

The clip he listed was from "Saw", but he forgot which movie it was, but there were many similar perverted mini-game plots in it.

Su Chengyi watched it initially out of curiosity, but he didn't really feel much. He has always been able to watch all restricted-level thrillers without any expression. "Well, I can roughly imagine the scene."

Mr. Li nodded and tried his best to keep up with the young man's thinking.

“If I had to describe it, it feels like I’m standing in front of a scale of flesh and blood.

If I have to cut off a part of myself in order to survive, I would rather be the loser who refuses to give up any part of myself. "

Su Chengyi sighed softly, spread out his palm and looked at the lines on the palm, and continued:

"But that's true. If this matter could be solved as easily as cutting off a few pieces of meat, that would be great."

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Mr. Li drank a sip of tea silently to cover up his thoughts.

In such a bloody and horrifying scene, this guy spoke very lightly, and it sounded like he was yelling to the boss in the vegetable market, "Hey, cut that piece of pork chop into small pieces for me."

And he seemed to be serious and not joking.

If doing so could solve the problem, he would probably do it without blinking an eye.

All things aside, this is clearly not a healthy mindset.

Mr. Li frowned and said carefully:

"Cheng Yi, when did you decide to stick to this path?"

Su Chengyi listened to this question and shook his head.

“I can’t really explain it. If I have to say, it started when I realized I had a crush on two people.

I am really slow in this regard, and I always realize things late, so by the time I realize it, it is already too late to make a choice.

Mr. Li, if it were you, what would you do? "

Su Chengyi threw the question back, wanting to know how normal people would deal with it.

"my words"

Mr. Li stroked his beard and pondered for a while.

"When I was young, quite a few girls were interested in me. But it's hard not to realize that you like me, right? As the old saying goes, a girl's blush is better than a long dialogue."

"There's an old saying that there are no wise men in love. If it just so happens that you fall in love with two people at the same time, what will you do?"

Su Chengyi refused to give in and imposed the settings.

"If that's the case, and I can't really tell which one I like more, I'll probably change my selection criteria from 'like' to 'need'."

Unexpectedly, faced with such a demanding and difficult question, Mr. Li still answered it with ease and quickly gave his solution.

"What does it mean?"

Su Chengyi frowned slightly.

"That is, I would think, all else being equal, which of them needs me more."

Old Li shook his wrist and threw away the folding fan.

Written in elegant cursive script on the white fan are "The flowers are so numerous that they are dazzling", which is from Bai Juyi's "Spring Tour on Qiantang Lake".

I don’t know if it was carefully chosen specifically to warn him.

Su Chengyi understood what he meant and thought about it carefully. This seemed to be the approach that most people would adopt.

If you think carefully along this line of thought, the answer is obvious.

Chu Qingmian’s world is huge. Even without Su Chengyi, there are still many other important ties.

But Chen Jinzhi's world is very small. She is like a fluttering kite in this world, with the only silk thread tied to her in his hand.

But is this idea really fair to Chu Qingmian?

At this point, no matter which side is given up, the damage will be the same.

You fell in love with her because of her brightness, her honesty and gentleness towards everyone around her, and her burning love and curiosity for everything in the world.

However, this can also be the reason for you to give up on her.

Su Chengyi was silent for a while and then shook his head.

"I can't convince myself that."

Looking at his expression, Mr. Li guessed that this approach would probably not work, so he could only pat his folding fan lightly and sigh.

"Before talking to you, I asked Xiao Zheng. It's obvious that this guy is on the same page with you. He's so smooth-talking and refuses to tell you anything.

Now that I have talked to you, although the result is not satisfactory, it has at least allowed me to see your intentions."

Su Chengyi was stunned. He didn't expect that Xiao Zheng was so loyal and actually did this.

I have to call you Brother Zheng today, Brother Zheng is a real man!

"Unlike what I thought, you are not wavering and hesitating, but rather very firm. Although this firmness is not a good thing, it is not cowardly after all.

I think even if your grandfather were still alive, he probably wouldn’t be able to do anything to you.”

At this point, Mr. Li couldn't help laughing.

Su Chengyi shook his head and answered seriously:
"If it was my grandfather, he would definitely call both of them over, make an apology as an elder, and then hang me upside down and beat me with a cane while spinning 360 degrees without any blind spots."

Thinking of his old friend's angry look, Mr. Li laughed loudly and nodded approvingly:
"You have come up with a good idea for me. Well, in that case, I will clean up the mess for Zhiyuan!"

Mr. Li rolled up his sleeves and looked like he was going to teach him a lesson.

Su Chengyi certainly knew that Mr. Li would not be so violent, so he nodded and let him do whatever he wanted.

In the end, Mr. Li just tapped him on both shoulders with his fan, and then spoke again:

“Since you have chosen to take this path, you will face many problems. The Chu family is protecting you now, but once the truth is revealed, I’m afraid they will want to hang you at the gate of the city wall for three days as a warning to the public.

Besides, the Hou family has always been eyeing you covetously, so you need to be more careful in your daily actions."

Su Chengyi nodded and was about to answer yes when Mr. Li continued slowly:

"But these are not problems. Although I told you to be careful, I don't mean to be timid.

Whether you are Zhi Jinchen or Su Chengyi, you should treat other people's suspicious eyes as will-o'-the-wisp and walk your own road boldly at night.

Just remember, I will protect you from villains and bullies, and your grandfather will protect you from evil spirits and monsters."

Mr. Li spoke these words as calmly as ever, but there is no need to elaborate on their significance.

Su Chengyi thought of many words, but felt that they were all too light, so in the end he just nodded and said thank you.

Finally, Mr. Li sighed deeply and looked at the setting sun outside the window.

"It's just that everything else in this world is easy to deal with, except for love. You will understand it in the future."

(End of this chapter)