I'm afraid I'm not interested in love

Chapter 649 If you like it, you just like it
Lin Tong shrank his neck in the cold wind of the winter night, and suddenly realized that another year had passed.

The past two years seemed to have passed particularly quickly, perhaps because his life had changed so drastically. Looking back on his previous gloomy and gloomy life, it seemed like a lifetime ago.

His academic career went smoothly, and his professional grades have always been the best in the grade. This is not easy in a major like clinical medicine, which has countless paper-taking kings.

If someone is naturally smart like Su Chengyi or Chu Qingmian, it would not be difficult to do this.

But for Lin Tong, maintaining such results does take a lot of energy and kills a lot of brain cells, which is why he spends all day and night in the library.

He wasn't pretending to be busy. He really felt that he was not very knowledgeable and the more he saw, the more he felt that he knew nothing.

Because of his good grades and the fact that he was honest with his counselor about his family situation, the national scholarship naturally belonged to him.

In addition, he took advantage of his free time on weekends to apply for a part-time tutoring job, so he hadn't asked his sister for living expenses for a long time, and he had even almost saved enough for next year's tuition.

This has always been the reason why Lin Tong studied so hard, because he wanted to reduce the burden on his sister so that she could live her own life and not be trapped in the responsibility of taking care of him.

But the current situation has obviously changed.

Lin Zhiwan’s “Zero Bowls” account has become a leader in the food section, and was named one of the top 100 up-masters of the year at the end of this year.

This certainly brought her considerable profits. Han Bing, a millionaire blogger, was shocked when he took a look at the backstage flow of Ling Zhiwan's account.

"Mu Tou, to be honest, Sister Lin's income from one video is equivalent to your hard work in a year of part-time job. You should stop bothering and focus on helping her and increase the update frequency."

Han Bing is a blogger who understands the rules of making money on the Internet. He is also a serious insider, so of course the suggestions he gives are objective and effective.

But after thinking it over again and again, Lin Tong still felt a little embarrassed.

"The kid I'm teaching now has finally made some progress in math. I think I should finish teaching him this semester first."

The child's parents are very enthusiastic. Every time he goes to work part-time, they will prepare a large plate of fruit snacks for him. Sometimes when he is busy with exams and wants to ask for leave, they are also very understanding.

Lin Tong is the person who knows how to repay kindness and has a sense of responsibility, so of course he won't get off the bus halfway at this time.

Although the few dollars he earned with great efforts were certainly not as much as the reward from a video of Ling Ziwan.

Mr. Yi is right. We are now at the forefront of a huge change in the Internet era. If we can seize the opportunity and get a piece of the pie, it will be worth the lifetime of ordinary people like them.

But obviously for Su Chengyi himself, "getting a piece of the pie" is obviously not what he wants. What he wants is to stand firmly at the forefront.

Thinking of this, Lin Tong couldn't help but turn his head to look at Su Chengyi.

He came out wearing only a tweed coat and stood there with his hands in his pockets. He looked even thinner and seemed like he would melt into the foggy night at any time.

For some reason, Lin Tong suddenly felt a little flustered, so he subconsciously called out:
"Boss Yi."

Su Chengyi said "hmm" but didn't turn around to look at him. He just nodded and asked:

"If you feel cold, go back first."

"No, I have something to tell you."

Lin Tong felt that as the New Year was approaching, he had to say something to persuade him to move on from the Shura Field incident.

If I continue to live this irregular life with my day and night reversed, not only will I not be able to change the current situation, but I will also get sick and be hospitalized like Sister Mian, which is simply not worth it.

The new year is coming, everything will be fine, this is a brand new starting point!

After thinking of what to say, Lin Tong took a deep breath and prepared to start his long speech.

Unexpectedly, Su Chengyi turned his head and looked at him with some surprise.

Then he lowered his eyes and said:
"You don't have to say it, I know."

"what?"

Lin Tong was stunned.

Know? Know what? He hasn't said anything yet. Does he not want to listen to chicken soup?

However, before Lin Tong could react, Su Chengyi continued to speak:
"I know about Sister Lin's affairs."

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Lin Tong was silent for a while. After realizing what he was saying, his eyes widened in shock.

"!!!"

Su Chengyi indeed thought that Lin Tong was hesitant and wanted to talk about this matter. After all, this was an unspoken secret between the two of them.

Lin Tong thought he didn't know, but he had known it for a long time.

Lin Zhiwan wrote the words "Exquisite dice and red beans" so many times on the paper, stroke by stroke. If he still didn't realize it by then, it wouldn't be that he was slow, but just really stupid.

It's really a bit unexpected, but if you think about it carefully, it's not without trace.

In other words, Lin Zhiwan's performance was actually very obvious.

This was not her intention, but because she could not speak, every look she gave me quietly clearly expressed the word "like".

Therefore, as brothers who depend on each other and are connected by blood, Lin Tong must have seen this matter a long time ago.

But he didn't know how to tell Su Chengyi, the person involved, and Su Chengyi didn't know how to tell his good friend about this, for fear that he would think that I treat you as a friend and you want to be my brother-in-law.

So, they kept delaying and concealing the truth until today.

Lin Tong rubbed his face vigorously and asked with difficulty:
"Did your sister tell you herself?"

His question made Su Chengyi even more certain of his judgment.

"No."

Su Chengyi shook his head.

"Boss Yi, how did you know?"

Lin Tong's eyes were filled with confusion. If even someone as skilled as Su Chengyi could notice it, how obvious was her sister's?

If it’s at this level, the two main people must have noticed it too!
"That day when I was having dinner at Brother Dafei's house, I drank a little bit of wine, and then I took a nap on the sofa in your house."

Su Chengyi recalled the scene at that time and began to recount it.

Lin Tong remembered what happened that day and nodded nervously.

"She was practicing calligraphy, and I accidentally picked up a piece of flying paper and found a poem written on it: The exquisite dice are filled with red beans, and I miss you deeply. Do you know?"

At this point, Su Chengyi coughed because of the cool wind.

But it’s not actually cold. As if to create an atmosphere for New Year’s Eve, today is probably the warmest day in Beijing since the beginning of winter.

"Is that it? What if she just happened to learn that line of poetry while practicing calligraphy?"

Lin Tong asked back cautiously. He felt that this reason alone was not sufficient.

"Before college started, Sister Lin gave me a gift bag with red beans embroidered on it."

Su Chengyi still hasn't taken the magic bag off his schoolbag, but he rarely needs to carry the schoolbag now.

The brocade bag with the word "peace" embroidered on it was hung next to the bed in the dormitory, swaying gently in the wind when someone walked by. Lin Tong also knew about this brocade bag.

He had one too, but it was embroidered with bamboo.

At first, Lin Tong comforted himself by thinking that his sister might not really understand the meaning of these flowers and grasses, but after receiving the bamboo, this idea was shattered.

The bamboo is given as a gift because "it remains strong even after thousands of blows, no matter which direction the wind blows."

So what other reasons could there be for sending red beans?

It's just like this: Red beans grow in the south, and they sprout in spring. I hope you can pick more of them, as they are the most nostalgic.

Lin Tong closed his eyes and sighed helplessly.

"If even you can see it, it seems that my sister is not good at hiding her feelings, although she doesn't have any intention of letting you know."

"I know."

Su Chengyi nodded. There was no need to discuss this point.

If Lin Zhiwan knew that her thoughts were obvious and that her brother and he knew everything, she would probably run away like a frightened rabbit and would not be willing to appear in front of the two of them for a year or two.

Of course she wanted to hide it, hoping that she was the only one who knew about her feelings.

She can't hear any sound without her hearing aid, and she can't speak, which may give her a sense of security similar to the self-deception.

But how could she know? Love is something that cannot be hidden. Even if you cover your mouth, it will still come out of your eyes.

"My sister doesn't mean to trouble you, Mr. Yi, you must not feel any burden."

Lin Tong's voice was very low. He lowered his head and stared at the gap between the tiles under his feet.

In fact, he hadn't asked the second half of the question yet.

That is, can you please not feel that you should avoid suspicion and distance yourself from her?

It’s hard to imagine how sad my sister would be because of this incident. She can’t talk to begin with, so even if she’s sad, she can only digest it silently.

For her, having someone she likes is probably a rare blessing and luxury in life. She will never desire too much and just hopes to see him from afar.

If he is happy, she will be happy too.

My sister is such a person. We are related by blood, and Lin Tong knows her better than anyone else in the world.

Su Chengyi exhaled, and the hot air he exhaled quickly rose in the cold night air and condensed into white mist in front of his eyes.

“I don’t feel any burden about it.”

To make this statement more persuasive, he continued:

"If it were someone else, there might be a little bit, but Lin Zhiwan, not like that."

Hearing him say this, Lin Tong's heart finally settled down and he breathed a sigh of relief.

Su Chengyi didn't say this to comfort Lin Tong, this was the truth.

In addition to Chen Jinzhi and Chu Qingmian, there are indeed other people who have publicly expressed their love for him, such as Liang Nina and even Jian Xiao.

Liang Nina's love for something is a lot like a child's love for a favorite toy. At first, she wanted to get it regardless of the consequences, but later she developed a state where she was satisfied just by looking at it from outside the glass window.

Jian Xiao's words were more like boasting. Su Chengyi guessed that she had probably said those words to 180 male college students. It was a frivolous and casual liking.

All of these are different from Lin Zhiwan.

Her preference is too quiet.

From the very beginning, I do not ask for anything in return, I do not have any extravagant expectations, and I will truly feel happy because of his happiness.

Compared with others, Su Chengyi felt it more from Lin Zhiwan that he could not afford such selfless feelings.

"Mu Tou, do you think Sister Lin might have mistaken her gratitude towards me as love?"

he asked.

In fact, it makes sense, because he appeared at the darkest time in their lives, and personally pulled them out of the quagmire and brought them back to the sunshine.

Lin Zhiwan had been struggling to make a living in the first half of her life and had never had any emotional experience. When she suddenly saw someone like him, her heart beat faster and it was possible that she mistakenly took her gratitude as love.

"Will not."

Unexpectedly, Lin Tong shook his head with great certainty, denying his speculation.

"Boss Yi, liking someone is liking them. Just like you know very clearly that Chen Jinzhi and Chu Qingmian's liking for you is liking them.

My sister's love is no different from theirs, the only difference is that she didn't ask for a happy ending from the beginning."

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Having said this, Su Chengyi looked up and sighed softly.

"If I said I couldn't give any response, would you think I was a bit cruel?"

"will not."

Lin Tong smiled and looked up at the sky with him.

The night sky of the capital is filled with flashing neon lights, but not a single star can be seen.

He suddenly thought of the stars he had watched in the yard with his sister when he was a child. They were so close that they seemed as if he could touch them with his hand, just like the poems he had learned in class.

The stars hang down and the plains are wide, and the moon springs from the river.

"Boss Yi, I want to say thank you to you."

"why?"

Su Chengyi lowered his eyes and asked subconsciously.

"In fact, since I was a child, I have always felt that my sister was not happy. Of course, it is difficult to live happily like we did before.

But my sister is different from me. She always pretends to be strong in front of me, as if nothing can defeat her, whether it is the poor life or her inherent defects. "

Speaking of this, Lin Tong's eyes hidden behind the lenses instantly became moist.

“But I know that she is not that strong, it is just the responsibility of taking care of me that pulls her forward.

So I studied very hard, I wanted to grow up quickly so that I could take care of her. But the harder I tried, the more uneasy I felt.

Because I found that she was not looking forward to an easier life in the future. Instead, she felt more relieved. She didn't seem to have many attachments to this world, only the fatigue and exhaustion accumulated over the years.

If even this last responsibility of taking care of me can be removed, then what else in the world can keep her?"

“Fortunately, you showed up at this time, Mr. Yi.

You may think that what I said is a bit exaggerated, but it is true that through my love for you, my sister realized that her life is alive and her life still has meaning. "

(End of this chapter)