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Chapter 219 Chapter 219: Memories

In fact, he has never particularly liked his country, and it can even be said that he hates it very much.

After all, some of his memories here were not very friendly, or his memory as a child was actually very poor, and he couldn't remember things from his childhood.

But he knew that his life as a child was not very good. After all, in the palace, others knew how an unpopular prince must suffer, without him having to say much.

However, maybe because he had such a hard time as a child, his brain blurred those memories.

Although his brain had blurred the memories of this place, he still vaguely remembered some very hard days, such as being bullied on a very daily basis, not being able to eat, or all kinds of miserable things.

As soon as he stepped into this place and saw him, he felt a very disgusting feeling in his heart. It felt like he might have suffered too much here when he was a child, so that he came here. This place makes me want to vomit reflexively.

Life here is not even as good as that of the Yan Kingdom where he was a hostage, because there, although he became a weight in the interests in exchange for being the prince of a weak country, at least he It is protected by this identity.

Although he was a proton, a prince of another country, they didn't dare to be too blatant with him. At most, they only poked and disgusted him secretly.

It may also be because he has grown up and has the ability to solve these things, so his life here is actually much better than when he was in Jinjin.

It's just that he can't say that he let those people off because he didn't remember those things when he was a child.

This is impossible. In his mind, he would rather destroy this country and kill all those people. He will never allow these people and these scum to live safely until the end of their lives.

Things like scum should stay where scum goes, instead of coming to harm the world and these innocent people.

He had been reincarnated so many times, and he never knew why he did what he did.

In every life he is reborn, he always seems to die at that point in time. No matter how many things he does, no matter how hard he tries, he will always die.

As time passed and reincarnation passed, he no longer had any attachment to this world, so that every time he was about to die, he would do something to make the country fall apart.

However, this rebirth was different from his previous ones. It was as if he was the only one awakened in a book, and his consciousness was taking the trouble to break the constraints and chains on himself again and again.

But this time, he met the same person as himself, the same person who seemed to want to break free.

He didn't know if the other party was reborn, but he couldn't think of any other way besides rebirth.

However, he will not choose to let some people go so easily just because they are reborn. After all, the plot is just like the plot in the picture books. Each of them has to follow their own destiny.

But the thing he didn't believe in the most was fate. He didn't believe in fate. It is said that destiny is determined by heaven, but he wanted to say that man's destiny is determined by nature.

He doesn't believe in fate, and he will never accept it. He will definitely succeed. Even if he dies again this time, he will never make it easy for these people, nor will he make it easy for the world.

——If he wants to die, everyone in this world will have to die for him!

The once gentle, somewhat immature, taciturn young man, after being reborn again and again, gradually turned into this closed feeling that created the world and created everyone.

After all, no one is reborn. After knowing his fate many times, no matter how he decides to change, he can't change the feeling of being close to the truth.

No one will not be driven crazy by this kind of thing. He gradually becomes crazy as he dies again and again, and he becomes less and less concerned about his own life. After all, he is an abandoned person, an abandoned person. A kind of garbage, for this purpose, may be a kind of waste, even a poisonous thing.

But he doesn't care, he even wants to say, if no one in this world loves me, if this world is malicious to me, then I will choose to destroy this world.

After all, if most people are born surrounded by a kind of love, then he must be born surrounded by malice.

His mother's death, his countless deaths, and his inability to remember reincarnations over and over again. These were all the sufferings he suffered. He knew that although he suffered a lot, many people in this world suffered. There are many, but what does it have to do with him? Why should he reincarnate again and again, and be reborn again and again.

He has never been able to understand these things. Since he was reborn, why did he watch helplessly every time because of the plot and the so-called things? Why did he get reborn? And let him follow the same path of his previous life.

He doesn't want to follow the old path of his previous life, so he has to be forced to follow the old path of his past life, and he has to watch himself die again and again because of the insults of those people. Why?

Since you let him die, don't let him be reborn. Don't let him come back to life.

Why let him come back to life, why let him go through this again and again...

Every time he watched it happen, but he couldn't solve it no matter what. Why was the rebirth node here every time? Why couldn't rebirth go forward? Before going forward, he wanted to save his Mother.

He even wanted to say don't give birth to him, don't give birth to him, don't fall in love with that man, don't fall in love with that man, don't give birth to him.

He didn't want to be born. If possible, he would rather he had never been reborn. He would rather die in that summer, dead a hundred times, with nothing left.

But this rebirth again and again is undoubtedly telling him that he is in so much pain again and again, that he has experienced this kind of pain almost hundreds, thousands, or tens of thousands of times.

He couldn't count how many times he had experienced it, and he felt like he was going crazy.

But this time he had hope again, because he met someone like him, and he felt that he was not as desperate as before...

(End of this chapter)