After returning from rebirth, the eldest sister of Hou family destroyed her household registration b

Chapter 183 What do you like about Xiao Jinzhi?
"Yes, we are ready to get engaged." Chu Huanyan nodded.

These words were like a layer of ice that suddenly enveloped Yun Chen's whole body. He felt as if his heart, liver, spleen, and lungs were frozen, and it became extremely difficult to open his mouth to speak.

"What..." Yun Chen took a deep breath, "When?"

"It was decided just a few days ago." Chu Huanyan replied.

Yunchen stopped talking and stood there quietly without leaving or taking a step forward.

Chu Huanyan sighed softly in her heart, "Xianyue, you go down first."

"Yes." Xian Yue nodded in agreement. When she left, she passed by Yun Chen and looked at him with a complicated look, then quickly walked out of the yard.

Chu Huanyan walked to the door of the room, "Would you like to take a walk in the back garden?"

Yun Chen still didn't speak, but after Chu Huanyan left the room, he followed her with stiff steps until the two of them walked into the back garden together.

The Wu leaves have all fallen. Compared to the first autumn, the back garden of the Hou Mansion has withered a lot now, giving off a chilling air.

Chu Huanyan stood still on the corridor. After a while, she spoke softly: "Yunchen, do you like me?"

Yun Chen's stiff heart trembled suddenly. These words were so powerful that they seemed to open a crack in the layer of ice wrapped around his heart. Then the ice cracked along the crack and pieces fell. , allowing the heart to beat again.

"It turns out... the lady noticed it."

Chu Huanyan pursed her lips, she could indeed see it.

Yunchen's protection has gone beyond repaying the kindness of saving her life, and what he said before really made her unable to stop thinking about it.

only……

"I have no feelings for you."

The heart that had just broken out of the ice package stopped beating again in an instant. Yun Chen opened his mouth, and then laughed after a long time.

"Although I have already guessed this answer, but hearing the young lady say it in person, it turns out that it is still so hard to accept."

"I'm sorry." Chu Huanyan frowned, "But I don't want to lie to you, nor do I want to pretend to be stupid, pretend not to notice anything, and then... continue to let you do things for me."

If Yunchen himself is willing to stay in the Hou Mansion, then of course it will be fine.But if the other person stayed because he liked her, then she hoped that Yun Chen could put this aside and truly choose where he wanted to go and the path he wanted to take.

"Everything I did was done willingly. Miss, you don't have to feel any guilt. What's more, it was you who saved me." Yun Chen looked sideways at Chu Huanyan, "I'm not just talking about you bringing the injured me home. .”

And later, the words outside Yizhuang, and even the little moments of getting along with each other every day, this was something he had never experienced in so many years.

He has always been hated, despised, and kept in the dark, but the lady is willing to keep him in the Marquis Mansion, is willing to go to great lengths to forge his identity for his sake, and is even willing to bear the risk of his identity being exposed.

Rather than saying that he stayed in Ning'an Hou Mansion to help the young lady, it is better to say that he stayed here because he was greedy for everything he felt.

Chu Huanyan's mood was complicated, and Yun Chen's eyes were so intense that he looked completely different from the way he looked in the past.

It's as if the layers of cover have finally been torn off, no longer restrained and suppressed, and I can clearly express my heart.

And such a scorching gaze made her feel uncomfortable all over, and she could not give any response.

"Yun Chen, I don't know what to say. Everything I said to you before and everything I did did not involve any personal matters..." "I know." Yun Chen interrupted Chu Huanyan.

He knew it very well in his heart, but he still didn't want to hear the young lady say it herself.

Chu Huanyan swallowed what she didn't finish and said, "But everything I said came from the bottom of my heart. Yunchen, no matter what happened in the past, I hope you can believe that you deserve to be treated well. And in In this world, you will eventually meet someone who loves you."

"But the person I love is you, miss." Yun Chen said firmly.

Chu Huanyan took a slow breath, "But I like Xiao Jinzhi."

It may hurt people, but this is the truth. Instead of being secretive and hesitant, it is better to make it clear to Yun Chen, so that... he can stop his thoughts as soon as possible.

"Can I know the reason?" Yun Chen said softly, "Compared to him, what's the difference between me and him?"

"You are no worse than Xiao Jinzhi, and I have never compared you two together."

"Then..." Yun Chen looked at Chu Huanyan, "Why did I lose to him?"

Facing Yun Chen's gaze, Chu Huanyan was silent for a long time. When Yun Chen even thought that she wouldn't answer, Chu Huanyan murmured.

"Because you and I are the same person."

Yun Chen frowned in confusion.

Chu Huanyan smiled, looked away, and once again fell on the sycamore tree that had lost all its leaves.

"We have all been hurt and betrayed by our loved ones, and we all had expectations, but what we gained in the end was abandonment without hesitation. So we are afraid, suspicious, we disguise ourselves, put on layers of armor for ourselves, cold and indifferent . It seems that we don’t care about anything, and we don’t even believe that there will really be people in this world who love us.”

When she was just reborn, she could only wrap herself in layers of armor, including her heart. Only in this way could she live like a normal person every day. Only then can you sleep smoothly every night.

At that time, she didn't even remember the love her parents had for her, the care she received from her master and master. All she remembered was the poison that penetrated her bones, the fear of being left behind, and the cold arrow that penetrated her heart. .

Yun Chen looked at Chu Huanyan's side face, "So, is it because seeing me reminds the lady of those bad memories?"

Did he lose, or was it because of the past?

"Of course not." Chu Huanyan shook her head, "When I saw you, I just felt sympathy for you, and even felt a little bit of despicable relief because of it. I felt that I was not the only one with such a state of mind in the world."

After a pause, Chu Huanyan smiled apologetically at Yun Chen.It was really inappropriate for her to think like this, but fortunately, this thought was only fleeting.

"Then why does the young lady like Xiao Jinzhi?"

"Because he is different from the two of us, I only found out later that his situation may not actually be much better than ours. He is clearly facing injustice, but he is open-minded and calm. Maybe he still has grievances and unwillingness in his heart, but he does not To be consumed by these emotions.”

Chu Huanyan looked up at the sky and gently raised the corners of her lips.

"To put it bluntly, if the three of us are the moon covered by thick clouds, then he will blow up a strong wind on his own and blow away the clouds. The light will be bright and the moonlight will be boundless."

Obviously no one loves him, but he knows how to love people.

And with such a bright moonlight and such bright love, it is really hard not to feel happy.

(End of this chapter)