Love in a mental hospital

Chapter 116 We accompany each other
Zhuang Jing smiled and stared at Gu Ran until he touched the tip of his nose awkwardly and looked away.

"You want to be with me?" she asked directly.

"No, no!" Gu Ran said quickly, waving his hands anxiously, "I didn't think so at all, it's just..."

"I know." There was a slight smile in Zhuang Jing's quiet and elegant voice, "This experiment mainly depends on yourself."

After saying that, she looked at Gu Ran with a smile.

"On your own?" Gu Ran was confused.

"I taught you in my letter." Zhuang Jing said.

Gu Ran stopped talking.

Zhuang Jing stood up, took off her white coat and threw it on the chair. The simple white shirt had an extremely elegant design, which seemed loose but highlighted her figure.

"Experimenting the authenticity of the second stage of [Great Magic], if you rely entirely on yourself, it will inevitably make you lose interest. I will provide some help." She said.

It's not like listening to Gu Ran speak, but like listening to his inner voice through his chest and body.

"When I was six years old." Gu Ran said.

"I am alone and very scared. I will talk to the grass and trees on the roadside, and I will talk to myself freely.

Zhuang Jing's voice was like warm water, dispersing and melting Gu Ran's lump of flour.

"Is [Black Dragon Dream] real?" she asked again.

"I devoted myself to my studies, and Teacher Zhuang Jing gave me more and more support. Street lights were installed on the way to school.

"When I was in the fourth grade of elementary school, I read "The Song of Birds" in a Chinese textbook. It said that Gongye, a disciple of Confucius, could understand the song of birds.

"Later, I told Teacher Zhuang Jing about this incident. Teacher Zhuang Jing told me that it was a lucid dream and asked me if I would like to become a psychiatrist. I agreed.

"Are you satisfied with your current life?"

"I often meet them in my dreams, and sometimes I turn into a blackbird myself. It feels very real.

Zhuang Jing gently pressed her hand on Gu Ran's chest and whispered to him: "After coming to Haicheng, when were you happiest?"

"The day I came to Haicheng and reunited with Su Qing."

"What about your current job?"

"When I was six years old, I was in the first grade. I had to walk a long way to school alone every day. It was always dark whether I was going to school or after school.

"Go on, don't be afraid, I will accompany you." She held Gu Ran with her other hand.

"I will hypnotize you later so that you will remain hypnotized after entering [Blooming Heaven]." Zhuang Jing's voice reached his ear at some point, as if his lips were only a millimeter away from his auricle.

"Very satisfied too."

He knew without guessing that it couldn't be that kind of help.

"It's true too."

"hapiness."

"Go and lie down on the bed." Zhuang Jing said.

Gu Ran would not misunderstand.

"Where's [Great Magic]?"

"Later, I started talking to these birds, and they gradually began to respond to me. They would pick me up from the tree in front of my house, accompany me on the road, and protect me on the way to school.

Zhuang Jing's clear and gentle eyes were condensed, like pearls reflecting sunlight, with a captivating brilliance.

It's like putting your ear against the wall, eavesdropping on the whispers next door.

"{'Chief Gongye, Chang Gongye, there is a big fat sheep on the top of Nanshan Mountain. Go and carry it back quickly, you eat the meat, I eat the intestines..." He climbed up Nanshan Mountain, and sure enough he carried back a big fat sheep that had fallen to death. Fat sheep.}
“From that moment on, I expected the blackbirds to speak to me, and several times they looked at me as if they were about to speak.

Gu Ran also took off his white coat and shoes, and lay down on the bed.

In addition, he voluntarily gave up the psychological defense line of psychologists and psychiatrists, and became increasingly wary of psychiatrists over time.

Let the children take care of their children's affairs.

"satisfy."

"I still remember it now.

"Are you happy after coming to Haicheng?" Zhuang Jing asked.

With the loss of vision, the acuity of the remaining senses increases, and the sound of the heartbeat seems to be louder.

After a while, he smelled a faint fragrance.

"real."

Zhuang Jing smiled slightly. She originally wanted to ask him if he liked Su Qing and how his relationship with Su Qing was, but then he gave up the idea.

"Occasionally, black shadows would flash in the sky. I knew they were birds that got up early and came back late, but I was scared at the time and thought they were ghosts. From time to time, these birds landed in the graves not far away.

"This process requires your complete cooperation and relaxation."

"When was the first abnormality about [Black Dragon Dream]?" Zhuang Jing showed a listening expression.

"Close your eyes." He looked at the ceiling and closed his eyes after hearing Zhuang Jing's voice.

"On the way to and from school, I would read; when I wasn't reading, I would think about how to reply to Teacher Zhuang Jing's letter.

"The blackbirds left one after another. When the last one said goodbye to me, it was the second day of junior high school. I couldn't bear to leave it and cried in my dream.

"The blackbird spoke for the first time, and he said, 'I can stay, but I have to become one with you, will you?'

"I already had some wisdom at that time. I remember Teacher Zhuang Jing said in the letter that life is exchange, so even though I was sad at the time, I could still ask it rationally -

"'Being one, what do I have to give?'

"Blackbird said, 'You will always remember us and possibly reunite with us.'

"I told Blackbird, 'Teacher Zhuang Jing said that people cannot grow by forgetting, only by accepting vulnerability can they become strong. I am willing to remember you forever. And, I hope that when we meet again, you will no longer be with us. I, but keep each other company'.

"Blackbird asked back, 'To keep each other company?'

"'Hmm,' I nodded, 'You will also have times when you are afraid. I am not as strong as you, but I am with you. If we are more united, we will be less afraid.'

"The blackbird looked at me for a long moment before saying, 'We keep each other company.'

"Since then, I have never seen blackbirds again, and I have forgotten them. There is only one of them left, and the last one disappeared from my body. I even saw it again in the [psychological shadow] , I didn’t recognize it either.”

"But you trust it?" Zhuang Jing asked softly.

"Because we accompany each other and are best friends." Gu Ran replied.

"Because it is you." Zhuang Jing said.

"Well, we are integrated into one." Gu Ran smiled.

Zhuang Jing fell into deep thought for a long time.

Was it the fear of walking at night as a child and having to walk at night day after day that triggered the self-defense mechanism and dissociated the 'blackbird personality'?
But what happened to [Black Dragon Dream]?

The complexity of the human spiritual world is even greater than that of the human body, and it is full of endless charm.

Zhuang Jing remembered her childhood.

Her first lucid dream was earlier than anyone recorded to date, and she began having lucid dreams at the age of three.

But unlike other children, she never told anyone about her dreams. She regarded her dreams as her favorite fairy tale book that she didn't want to tell others.

She was very lethargic at the time and was completely unwilling to wake up in reality. She just wanted to enter the dream world and explore.

When she couldn't sleep, she collected materials for dreaming. At first, it was children's paintings such as "The Magic Pen of Ma Liang", and later children's literature such as "Alice Through the Looking Glass".

When she started reading children's literature, she had a lifelong ambition -

Like a botanist measuring how many cells there are in a leaf, she would put the spiritual world under a microscope until she could thoroughly study it.

She became a psychologist, a psychiatrist, entered clinical practice, and founded {Jinghai}, all for this ambition.

She is more interested in the spiritual world corresponding to the patient's condition than the patient's condition.

But she was already forty-two years old. Although she still looked young, without even a trace of neck wrinkles, and was so young that people around her suspected that she would never grow old, she was gradually becoming anxious inside.

I will stick to my dream until the moment I die. Is it possible to fulfill my dream before I die?

She really wanted to give up everything and devote herself to research, but whether it was fitness or entertainment, it was all to put her in a better physical and mental state for research.

Zhuang Jing looked at the boy in front of her who was hypnotized by her.

The child she met and nurtured by accident now brings her a glimmer of hope to fulfill her dream.

She couldn't help but have an idea: Su Qing was the child she gave birth to, but Gu Ran was the child God arranged for her. The love for Gu Ran almost filled Zhuang Jing's entire heart.

"Gu Ran," she whispered softly, "you promised me that you would join me and give up everything to explore the spiritual world. Is it true?"

"real."

Zhuang Jing subconsciously smiled.

She gently covered Gu Ran's eyes with her white and warm hands and continued to whisper in her ear, like a new mother whispering to her newborn baby.

"Good boy, go to sleep, we will meet in dreams."

Along with her words, Gu Ran's lying movements did not change at all, which gave people a feeling of relaxation all over.

Zhuang Jing lay down on the other bed.

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Gu Ran woke up and remembered nothing.

In his memory, Zhuang Jing asked him to lie down, and he seemed to be unable to control his sleepiness and fell asleep directly.

"Aunt Jing?" When he walked out of the quiet room, he even suspected that he had really fallen asleep, and couldn't help but confirm with Zhuang Jing.

Zhuang Jing was sitting behind the desk, writing something with a pen.

Hearing Gu Ran's voice, she raised her head and smiled: "Wake up."

"I am, have you fallen asleep?" Gu Ran asked.

"The experiment went very well," Zhuang Jing said.

Gu Ran breathed a sigh of relief, but couldn't help but wonder: "Is the second stage real?"

Zhuang Jing pressed the fingers of her left and right hands against each other in front of her chest. She murmured with a hidden smile: "The time is too short, but it should be true."

What time is short? Gu Ran wanted to ask.

Is it because the experiment time is short, or is his time short?

"About dreams," Zhuang Jing continued, "My hypnosis can make you dream about the person you want to dream about, but I think it's better not to tell you about the person you dream about."

The first thing Gu Ran thought of was Yan Hanxiang.

Will this make Zhuang Jing misunderstand and think that deep down in his heart, he has a special desire for Yan Hanxiang, who is beautiful, slender and graceful?

"Aunt Jing, I..." Gu Ran didn't know what to say.

He wanted to defend himself, but the only explanation was that he had dreamed about Yan Hanxiang, and it was not that he had any thoughts about Yan Hanxiang. But after saying this, didn't it seem that he was more interested in Yan Hanxiang?

And why did he dream about Yan Hanxiang instead of someone else in the first place?
"I understand," Zhuang Jing smiled gently and naturally, "You happen to be at this age and you happen to be in that kind of atmosphere, so it is inevitable that you have some assumptions. This is not a mistake, nor is it a disease. It is a normal thought of a normal person."

Gu Ran was even more certain that what he dreamed about was Yan Hanxiang.

Or. Five people on an uninhabited island?
"Then I'll leave first." Since Zhuang Jing could understand, he didn't want to continue asking.

If you ask too clearly, it will be embarrassing.

"Well, let's go." Zhuang Jing seemed to be looking at a naughty child and watched him walk out of the dean's office.

In front of his secretary, He Qingyan, Chen Ke, Su Qing and others, Gu Ran didn't need to act at all, and his whole person revealed his inner reflection.

He walked in from the door, and three female doctors who had finished their lunch break looked at him, all of them smiling like flowers.

"Gu Ran," she stretched out her hand as she passed by He Qingyan, "Welcome you to truly join our big family."

"Oh." Gu Ran sighed and shook hands with her.

"I'm a little envious," Chen Ke said sincerely, "I really want to be called over by Teacher Zhuang Jing at noon."

Su Qing only told Gu Ran that she and He Qingyan were the only ones who could be called to the office by Zhuang Jing during lunch break, but now from Chen Ke's tone, it was obvious that she also knew about it.

Eighty percent of it was said by He Qingyan.

"There will be a chance." Gu Ran said to Chen Ke.

With the research spirit of Teacher Zhuang Jing, it was impossible to let go of Chen Ke, a female doctor with physical and mental disabilities. In fact, it was nothing, but who gave Gu Ran exactly the [Great Magic].

Gu Ran was ready to give Chen Ke a second massage.

When Gu Ran just sat down, Su Qing stood up and said, "Let's go to the nursing building. We will check the room again before the class starts to ensure the patient's mental state."

Gu Ran: "."

He stood up again.

"Both mother and daughter like to torture people," He Qingyan said.

This sentence opened up a new way of thinking for Gu Ran. Could it be that he not only dreamed about Yan Hanxiang, but also dreamed about He Qingyan on top of dreaming about Yan Hanxiang?

Incredible.

This is not just conjecture, it can be sentenced as a thought crime.

Even in a dream, Gu Ran would subconsciously avoid this situation, but at that time he was hypnotized by Zhuang Jing, so maybe he really dared to think and do it.

The four of them walked out of the office and went to the nursing building.

Looking at the slim backs and jet-black hair of the three female doctors, if Gu Ran had to choose, he would still choose "Five People on an Uninhabited Island ~ The Rampant Gu Ran".

When they arrived at the nursing building, they briefly inquired about the situation and confirmed the patient's mental state.

It’s all normal——

Gege Xu Tian takes the math test paper seriously, but she is not very good at math;

Liu Xiaoting and her puppy watched a dog training video together - in the eyes of the dog, could this be a lesson in taming humans and cheating for food?

The song "I'll send you my thoughts that never set, and send you a postcard that represents love" came from Xie Xiya's room - Gu Ran thought again, could it be "Jinghai Chapter ~ Doctor Gu's Treatment";
"What's wrong with Dr. Gu?" Nurse Wang asked concernedly when she saw that he didn't speak much.

".fine."

It could also be "The Battle in the Sea of ​​Tranquility ~ Gu Ran's Harem". No, we have many enemies and we are outnumbered, it should be "The Battle in the Sea of ​​Tranquility ~ Gu Ran's Disaster".

The old man just came back from the swimming pool. The nurse in charge of 202 wiped his hair. The old man stared at his wrinkled fingertips in a daze;

The real estate aunt came back from the farming area with working tools, humming Cui Ping's "Nanping Evening Bell";
'Get out of hospital soon' and the phantom writer are playing table tennis, and their skills are evenly matched.

After the lunch break, everyone gathered in the lobby.

The princess girl had turned into Xu Butian. When she saw the two playing table tennis, she said, "There is already a table tennis class, but you are still practicing secretly."

In her opinion, as long as it is in class, it is extremely evil.

"I fight three hours a day, and sooner or later I will defeat a Japanese woman and bring honor to my country." The fantasy writer continued to have a bad mouth, and even after losing to Xie Xiya, he said that Xie Xiya was a Japanese woman.

"I heard," Xie Xiya, a girl from a wealthy family and a female high school student, said softly, "Sometimes working very hard is a sign of incompetence."

The fantasy writer put down his racket: "No more playing!"

He stormed over to the sofa area.

"You lose. As agreed, you have to pick up the ball." 'Get out of the hospital soon' stared at him.

The phantom writer turned a deaf ear, sat on the sofa, and picked up "Ultra-High Strength Boron Steel Plate Hot Stamping Technology" to read.

Li Hui, the nurse in charge of 302, smiled apologetically at "Quickly Discharged" who was stubborn in place, and squatted down to pick up the ping pong balls on the floor.

The phantom writer dropped "Ultra-high-strength boron steel plate hot stamping technology" with a snap.

"The bitch is annoyed when she sees it." He stood up and walked over to pick up the table tennis ball.

Li Hui found it funny.

Li Xiaoye said harshly: "I'm here to see your butt under the nurse's uniform, don't fucking think about it!"

The princess girl shook her head as if feeling sick, she couldn't stand this foul-mouthed lunatic.

Li Hui smiled and said, "Yes."

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"Private Diary": August 21, Wednesday, sunny, quiet sea.

Sure enough, it is still "The Harmony of Heaven and Earth ~ Gu Ran's Brave New World".

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"Doctor's Diary":
There seems to be 'transference' and 'counter-transference' between Li Xiaoye in Ward 302 and Li Hui, the nurse in charge of 302.

(Zhuang Jing commented: Li Xiaoye is divorced and has children, Li Hui is divorced and has children, and mentally ill patients also have the right to pursue happiness.)
(End of this chapter)