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Chapter 618 Hesitation
Under the candlelight, the couple snuggled up to each other, intimate and close. Jiang Shaohua finally spoke out the hesitation that had been suppressed in his heart for these days.

She had been a mother, she had remained a widow for more than ten years for her son, she treated her son with all her heart, but in the end she ended up with a miserable ending of being stabbed in the back.

This is the pain that she cannot let go of in her heart, and it is a thorn in her heart.

Now she was going to be a mother again. She should have been filled with endless joy and expectation for the baby in her belly, but she really couldn't do it.

"I know this is unfair to the baby in my belly," Jiang Shaohua said bitterly, "Everything that happened in the previous life has nothing to do with him (her). However, as a mother, I already have some grudges and alienation towards him (her)."

Therefore, she did not reveal any flaws during these days, not only because she was good at concealing it, but also because she had some rejection and resistance in her heart, and did not have much hope or genuine joy for the upcoming child.

Once Jiang Shaohua spoke out this dark thought, he even lost the courage to look Cui Du in the eye.

Cui Du thought about it seriously and whispered in her ear: "You are going to do great things and achieve great things. You will be busy with government affairs in the future and will not have much time to accompany and raise children. When the child is born, the responsibility of raising the child will be handed over to me."

Jiang Shaohua: "..."

Jiang Shaohua was startled when he heard this, and looked up at Cui Du: "You raise a child?"

Cui Du nodded as a matter of course: "Yes, a couple should have one person to take care of the children. You are too busy to have time, so I, as a father, should raise the children!"

Cui Du always has the ability to simplify things. With just a few words, "I will raise the child," he solved the worries that had been accumulating in Jiang Shaohua's heart for days.

Jiang Shaohua thought for a moment and said, "Okay, let's make it a temporary deal. When I have some free time, I will try to spend more time with the children."

After a pause, he said, "I also try my best to like him (her)."

This statement is a bit absurd. A woman's maternal love should be natural. How can she not like and love her own child?

But for a mother who had suffered bone-eroding pain, such an attitude was already very brave.

Cui Du kissed her forehead lovingly and whispered, "Shaohua, you don't have to feel guilty. You haven't let anyone down."

Jiang Shaohua exhaled slowly, leaned in Cui Du's arms, and sleepiness came over him again.

She closed her eyes and fell into a deep sleep.

In her dream, a tiny baby with a blurry face staggered towards her, calling "Mom" in a tender voice.

She smiled and leaned over to hold the baby, whose body was small and soft, and smelled of milk. Unfortunately, the baby's face was always covered by a layer of mist, and her facial features could not be seen clearly.

Mother! Mother!
The baby kept calling her. Her heart softened and she responded.

She relaxed her brows in her sleep. Staring at her sleeping face, Cui Du finally breathed a sigh of relief.

……

After talking it out, Jiang Shaohua felt much relieved, and when she was with Cui Du in private, she would often talk about the baby in her belly.

"I have secretly thought that it would be best if this baby is a daughter." Jiang Shaohua said frankly, "It's not because I had a son in my previous life and I have a shadow on him, but because I became the Princess of Nanyang as a woman. If I have a greater future in the future, I hope that my heir will also be a woman."

"In this way, more women can be appointed as officials, and women can study and hold certain rights, thus opening a new era. To achieve this, it will not take three to five years, but perhaps dozens or even hundreds of years. Changing customs always takes a long time." "I am still young now. When I am old, my daughter can take over my position and carry forward this cause unswervingly."

Cui Du agreed with this very much: "You are right. Let's have a daughter!"

Jiang Shaohua asked him with a smile: "If you really give birth to a daughter, will you be disappointed?"

After all, people in the world value offspring. It cannot be said that they favor sons over daughters. It is a fact.

Cui Du smiled and said, "In our place, women, like men, study from a young age. They all go to college based on their abilities, and after graduating from school, women can also hold high positions. I told you that my teacher is a top agricultural expert, my mother is doing well in politics, and most of my cousins ​​in my family are in politics, and they all perform well."

"If we have a daughter, we must train her well from a young age. Let her study and practice martial arts, and become the most outstanding girl in Daliang!"

Jiang Shaohua chuckled when he heard this, and his mood suddenly brightened.

There was also good news. She was about three months pregnant, and the churning and discomfort in her stomach had disappeared. Her appetite suddenly improved.

At this time, Emperor Taihe's funeral was finally coming to an end.

……

No matter how much sadness there is, it will slowly disappear with the passage of time.

The Empress Dowager Zheng was inspired by the fighting spirit of the Prince of Huaiyang and the Prince of Wu'an. She was much more energetic these days. She specially asked someone to call Jiang Shaohua into the Jingyang Palace and said, "Shaohua, the coffin will be transported to the imperial mausoleum tomorrow. Prince Ping will carry the coffin, and you should go with him. Please take good care of Prince Ping on the way."

The rule that women cannot enter the imperial mausoleum without supporting the coffin was broken by Jiang Shaohua during the funeral of Emperor Taikang three years ago. Now Jiang Shaohua is in charge of the overall situation with the full support of Empress Dowager Zheng, so she must go to the imperial mausoleum.

Jiang Shaohua nodded in agreement.

Queen Mother Zheng looked at Jiang Shaohua deeply and reminded him again: "Remember, no matter what happens, don't worry about it, just stay with Prince Ping."

Jiang Shaohua seemed not to have heard the hint from the Grand Empress Dowager Zheng, and replied sternly, "Don't worry, great-aunt, I will definitely take good care of Prince Ping."

Eunuch Zhao came to report: "Your Highness, the Empress Dowager, Concubine Fan is here to ask for an audience."

Prince Ping was the only one left in the palace. For Empress Dowager Zheng, the only option was to push Prince Ping to the throne.

Under such circumstances, Empress Dowager Zheng had to give Concubine Fan some respect. She had to meet her whether she wanted to or not: "Let her in."

After a while, Concubine Fan came in, bowed respectfully, and then greeted Jiang Shaohua warmly.

Jiang Shaohua was also polite to Concubine Fan Gui: "Just tell me if you have anything to say."

Concubine Fan Gui did have something to ask for: "Hao'er is young, so please take care of him for the next few days."

In the eyes of the ladies in the palace, Jiang Shaohua is the best choice to assist Prince Ping. Since Jiang Shaohua can gain great benefits from it, he must pay a corresponding price. For example, he must do his best to protect Prince Ping, not allow anyone to bully Prince Ping, and resist the ambitious Prince Wu'an and Prince Huaiyang for Prince Ping, as well as the doubts of the officials, etc.

Therefore, Concubine Fan Gui's plea was full of confidence.

Jiang Shaohua glanced at Concubine Fan Gui and responded indifferently.