I'm trapped in a block

Chapter 574 Inferiority and Fear

This is a fear that stems from low self-esteem, the fear that one is not doing well enough and that everything one does will not be satisfactory.

As a doctor, he was afraid of his own abilities, afraid that he would not be able to complete the cure, afraid that he would not be able to fulfill his responsibilities, and afraid that he would not be able to satisfy his patients.

Looking at Poke who was trembling all over, Mo Ling realized that this powerful race with miraculous powers was also full of concerns about itself.

Fear comes from worry, and worry comes from low self-esteem.

Poke has a deep inferiority complex, which also brings him endless fear.

Considering the previous experience, it was hard for Mo Ling not to wonder whether Poke was also infected by those black balls and added personal emotions to the healing process.

This personal emotion made him extremely obsessed with eliminating parasitic plants, and even after going through many cycles, he still stubbornly insisted on doing so.

Thinking of this, Mo Ling immediately asked Xi: "Xi, do you feel any strange emotions here?"

Xi immediately understood what Mo Ling meant, but he denied Mo Ling's guess: "Senior, there are no strange emotions in Poke's healing space, and I didn't see those black things."

"I checked as soon as I entered here, but I didn't find anything. It's possible that they are hiding somewhere I can't find."

Mo Ling was a little surprised to hear Xi's answer.

"No?"

Could it be that Poke was not attacked by those black balls at all?

Seeing Poke's confused look, Mo Ling could only remind him, "Xi, after Poke wakes up, check his body to see what's wrong with his memory. If his memory is restored, there might be some clues."

"I understand, senior."

As the parasitic plants were completely destroyed, everything around them gradually fell apart.

The surrounding tropical rainforest was like shattered glass, falling down one after another, and then disappearing without a trace like smoke and dust.

And behind the glass fragments is a burning sea of ​​fire.

The sea of ​​fire was also collapsing rapidly, and further behind the cracks were the expanding plants.

Layer by layer, the "textures" of the environment appeared one by one, each scene that Poke had experienced.

As these scenes appeared, Poke knelt on the ground in pain, shaking the ball of light on his head.

"Poker, what's wrong with you?" Xi asked hurriedly with concern.

"I remember...I remember..."

At this moment, it seemed that all the memories flooded into Poke's mind. He remembered in an instant what he had done in every scene. The disasters that occurred in each cycle were constantly stimulating his mind.

Sea of ​​fire, swell, glacier, desert...

At this moment, countless repressed emotions rushed into Poke's memory.

The "root" he has been pursuing is nothing more than an impossible cure.

His inferiority and fear accumulated during these failed cures, twisting into a huge shadow in his subconscious. Although he had lost his memory, these experiences continued to affect him in the depths of his consciousness, making him even more inferior and more fearful.

"I understand why I tremble every time I heal."

Poker said in a daze, he finally understood the source of his inferiority complex.

"Are you okay, Poke?" Xi gently stroked Poke's shoulder and said worriedly.

The sudden influx of complex memories can easily cause a person to have a mental breakdown.

However, after receiving all this, Poker calmed down. "I'm fine. I feel relieved."

Relaxed? Xi almost thought that Poker had become mentally ill due to the stimulation.

"Of course, after so many cycles and so many failures, no patient was actually harmed. Isn't that something to be thankful for?"

Poker slowly stood up from the ground.

"These memories are subtly changing me. They make me feel inferior and more fearful through repeated failures, and make me doubt my own recovery without realizing it."

"You know what? Xi, I actually know my formula is correct, but I doubt myself and try to avoid it. I think if I don't do it, I won't fail. My hands are always shaking."

"This fear that comes from nowhere has been affecting me all the time. Every time I muster up the courage, it leads to a greater failure. This makes me resist being brave from the bottom of my heart."

Poke's light ball flickered and shone on Xi's body. At this moment, the lights of the two doctors echoed each other, becoming the only anchor point in the broken picture.

"I doubt myself too much, so I was so happy when you came here, because I needed a companion to verify my formula. That way, even if something went wrong, it wouldn't be entirely my fault. I was trying every way to escape from myself."

"In fact, it was the same when I was on Baihua Island. I didn't dare to make a decision on my own, so I would always find you and ask you to make the decision for me..."

Hearing this, Xi interrupted Poker and said, "You are braver than most doctors for being able to leave the Huasheng Islands."

"This is also the decision you made for me, have you forgotten?" Poke asked back.

Xi was stunned: "It seems to be true..."

"Never mind." Xi patted Poker's shoulder vigorously: "No one has ever stipulated that the responsibility must be borne by oneself, right?"

"Isn't it normal to ask for help when you're scared?"

"I'm always afraid, as is everyone... But we're companions, aren't we? Companions are meant to share fear."

Hearing this, Poker was also stunned: "Is that all?"

"And if something goes wrong, will we take the blame together?" Xi said uncertainly.

"anything else?"

"Also...when you're lazy, can you ask your companions to work hard?"

"Ok?"

"Also, if you meet a strong companion, you can hug their thighs. All you need to do is cheer for them from behind... When escaping, you can separate and go your separate ways... Also, when being attacked, you can hide behind your companions..."

"Why do I feel a little weird?" Poke broke out in a cold sweat.

Xi also realized that his explanation was a bit off track, and immediately changed the subject:

"Are you feeling better now?"

"I've recovered, but my memory is still a little patchy. I may have to wait until I get out to recover."

As he spoke, the scene around him had already collapsed to its final stage.

As the scene of yellow sand all over the sky gradually broke apart, a maze wrapped in black walls appeared. This was the most "bottom-level" scene and also the scene closest to reality.

When he saw the black wall, Poke seemed to suddenly remember something and froze in place.

His light ball flickered, as if it had been hit by some huge impact, and cracks appeared in the sealed memory in an instant...

(End of this chapter)