lady she comes from 1938

Chapter 190 Suicide
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Shen Jiayin had never seen Tiao Tiao, but she heard Tang Tang mention it that day.

"What happened?"

"She committed suicide by jumping off the building!"

After saying these words, Tang Tang seemed to lose control all of a sudden, and his whining turned into howling.

Shen Jiayin was shocked, she didn't expect it to be so serious. "How are you now?"

"I don't know, my mother didn't let me see it. But she jumped from the seventh floor..."

Seventh floor!

I'm afraid it's more bad than good.

That scene must have been terrifying, not to mention being Tang Tang's good friend, so Mao Xiaolan naturally didn't want her to witness it with her own eyes, lest it leave a lifelong shadow.

Tang Tang was out of control now, and Shen Jiayin couldn't ask for the specific reason, so she had to say: "Tang Tang, do you want me to come over?"

"I don't know. Sister, I don't know, I just want to call you... Wuwu..."

"Just wait, I'll go over now."

Shen Jiayin hung up the phone, turned on the navigation, started the car, and drove straight in the direction of Chenjiacun.

Because the distance was relatively far, it was already close to ten o'clock when Shen Jiayin got there.

In her time, at this time, everyone would be in a dream.

But modern people have the habit of staying up late, so the lights are still brightly lit everywhere.

Shen Jiayin walked in from the entrance of the village, and almost everyone was discussing today's suicide incident.

"Tangtang."

Tang Tang was sitting blankly, but when he heard Shen Jiayin's voice, he bounced up reflexively.

"elder sister!"

Shen Jiayin opened his arms, caught the little girl whose eyes were swollen from crying, and patted her back gently.

When Mao Xiaolan saw it, she said very apologetically: "I'm really sorry that I asked you to come all the way this late at night."

Shen Jiayin waved her hands, saying it didn't matter.

Tang Tang had already cried a lot, but now he calmed down quickly and felt a little embarrassed.

Shen Jiayin patted her shoulder again, turned to ask Mao Xiaolan, "What's going on now?"

Mao Xiaolan poured a glass of water for Shen Jiayin and sighed heavily before opening her mouth.

"The ambulance and the police came. They confirmed that he was hopeless and that it was suicide, so he was taken away by the funeral home."

Shen Jiayin had expected that the probability of surviving after jumping from the seventh floor was low. Now that it was confirmed, she felt quite uncomfortable.

The teenage girl was gone before she could officially bloom.

Before Shen Jiayin could continue to ask, Mao Xiaolan said everything like pouring beans through a bamboo tube.

"Didn't you ask Tang Tang to form a lion team? Tang Tang went to find Tiao Tiao, but her family didn't agree, so she didn't participate."

"Isn't today the weekend? Tang Tang and the others were going to practice. Tiao Tiao couldn't help but watch. When her mother found out, she scolded and beat her. She didn't know what nasty things she said. The child couldn't stand it, so she just jumped off. ”

"I didn't let Tang Tang go to see it because I was afraid that she would have nightmares after seeing that scene. I was also afraid that they would blame Tang Tang for the fault, saying that she was the one who instigated Tiao Tiao to go against the family and instigated Tiao Tiao to jump off the building. Threatening parents."

"It's not that I'm overthinking it, it's true. I once overheard Tiao Tiao's mother chatting with someone, saying that Tiao Tiao was disobedient and it was all because of my Tangtang's teachings..."

Shen Jiayin believes this.

Human nature is like this. When something goes wrong, you usually blame others and try to blame yourself.

"Sister, can you treat me to milk tea?"

"of course."

"Mom, my sister and I will go out to buy milk tea, can we?"

Mao Xiaolan was not stupid. He knew that she had something to say, but she didn't want to hear it herself. "Go ahead."

If it were before, she might still refuse. But when Tiaotiao happened, she was really scared.

Whether it’s a university or not, whether it’s good or not, the children must live well first, otherwise it’s all in vain.

Tang Tang took Shen Jiayin out. What I heard along the way were all topics related to Tiaotiao.

"Children today are just too fragile. If anything goes wrong, they will die."

"Yes, today's children are selfish. They only think about themselves all day long. They don't know how to care about their parents and have no sense of gratitude."

"This kind of child is a white-eyed wolf, and raising it is in vain!"

"At that time, it was common for our parents not to curse, but to hit them with sticks. We didn't see anyone wanting to die. They were good, they couldn't say anything, they were all ancestors!"

"If you ask me, my life is too happy and I don't know how to cherish it. Let them suffer a little, and they will naturally obey."

Tang Tang clenched his hands into fists when he heard this, and wanted to rush up and yell at them: You don't understand anything at all!

But in the end, she suppressed the impulse because she knew it was useless and these self-righteous adults wouldn't listen.

Besides, Tiaotiao is no longer here, so even if we compete with them to win or lose, what's the point?
"Sister, do you think so too? It's all because we are selfish, fragile and ungrateful?"

The little girl's words and tone were not very friendly, but Shen Jiayin could understand her and would not argue with her.

"I don't know the full story about Tiaotiao, so it's hard to comment."

Tang Tang was stunned for a moment and knew that his attitude was wrong, so he said sorry in a low voice.

Next, without saying anything else, the two of them bought two cups of milk tea at a milk tea shop in the alley, and then went to the forest park outside the village.

There were no people in the park anymore, and the street lights were very bright, but it was easy to hide someone in the grass on the roadside. It was not safe for a girl to come here at this time.

Tang Tang just wanted to find a quiet place to talk, but now he realized the danger belatedly.

"Sister, let's not go in, just stay here."

The park entrance is not far from the road, so it's relatively safe if you don't go inside.

"it is good."

The two of them sat down on the big rock next to them, drinking milk tea and looking at the food stall across the road in silence.

At this time, the late-night snacking has just begun, the food stalls are particularly lively, and the voices of the men drinking beer are particularly loud, giving people a sense of laughter.

"Sure enough, human beings' joys and sorrows are not the same." Tang Tang said to himself absentmindedly.

Shen Jiayin didn't answer, and she couldn't answer the question. After sipping half a cup of milk tea, Tang Tang finally calmed down a lot and finally couldn't help but start talking.

About the first time I met Tiao Tiao, about every detail of getting along with Tiao Tiao, about the concerns of adolescent girls, as well as the worries and pressure from their parents...

She talked a lot, and her logic was a bit confusing, just like her mood.

Shen Jiayin listened quietly and did not express opinions casually.

"...She said she always had insomnia and couldn't sleep all night long. Sometimes when she heard her father snoring, she felt like she was going crazy..."

"It's not that we don't want to study. We have worked very hard, but the results are not good. We are also very anxious, more anxious than anyone else."

"They want us to learn painting and calligraphy, but why can't we learn lion dancing? Aren't they all just hobbies?"

"No, it's really different. Drawing and calligraphy are hobbies they want us to have, so we can show them off. Lion dancing is something we only like, and it will only delay our studies..."

"Besides studying, can't we have something we like? Even if this thing doesn't have a big effect, it can make us happy. We also promise that it will not affect our study. Why can't we? Why are they just unwilling to understand? What about us?"

At this time, Shen Jiayin spoke. "It's not that they don't want to, it's that they can't."

Tang Tang was stunned.

"Just like when you grow up and have ideas, it is difficult to fully understand the wild and childish ideas of three- and four-year-old children. The age of their parents, coupled with the pressure of life, makes it difficult for them to fully understand Think about the problem in your own way.”

"To give a simple example, do you think that apart from studying every day, studying is a very painful thing, right?"

Tang Tang didn't answer.

"But you don't know that in the hearts of parents who have been severely beaten by society, learning is the simplest thing in the world. They dream of turning back time and returning to the simplest and happiest age. Then they work hard, Never make the same mistake again.”

"But that's impossible. So what should we do? So, they want you to study hard. It's better to suffer some hardships in study now than to suffer the hardships of life like them in the future. In the end, they have good intentions and are right wrong?"

Shen Jiayin has never been a mother, but after all, she has been born in two generations and is much more mature mentally than her peers, so she can still understand the difficulties of her parents.

Tang Tang still didn't answer, but she showed a thoughtful expression, indicating that she still listened.

"Of course, their intentions are good, but many times, they really don't have the correct way of talking. This is their problem."

"As for why the method is wrong, some parents do have a parental mentality. They think that we are your parents and it is for your own good to give birth to and raise you, so you have to listen to us, otherwise you have no conscience."

"More parents are too busy. It's too difficult to make a living outside every day. When they get home, they are exhausted. Even if they realize that they need to learn how to communicate better with their children, they are powerless and sometimes even unable to control it. Have a good temper."

"You are already feeling a lot of pressure just by studying. In addition to working, they have to take care of you, and they also have to bear the boss's anger, difficulties from strangers, especially the financial constraints. Are they under a lot of pressure? Will they also be under a lot of pressure? Feeling out of breath? Will they also want to die?"

"So, you also think that we should understand them, be more sensible and obedient?"

As Tang Tang said this, he picked up a leaf and lowered his head to tear it into pieces.

"You are thinking people, not kittens or puppies. Of course you cannot be as obedient as robots. But you just said that human beings' joys and sorrows are not the same. This sentence is also applicable to parents and children. . Therefore, we can only try to communicate with each other and think about the problem from the other side’s perspective as much as possible.”

"What if we just can't communicate?" Tang Tang turned his head and looked at her with big eyes, as if he wanted an answer stubbornly.

"If you can't communicate and you feel you can't bear it, then escape. But there are many ways to escape, and death is the least desirable one."

"Where to escape? We are willing to do hard work in exchange for food, but others don't dare to take us. How can we escape?"

Shen Jiayin nodded and had to admit: "This is indeed a problem."

"So you see, this is a dead end."

Shen Jiayin thought for a while and suddenly said: "No, there must be a way. And I always feel that compared with how to survive after escaping, how to give them the courage to escape instead of internal friction to death is obviously more important."

This time, Tang Tang also nodded in agreement.

If you don't even have the courage to escape, there's nothing else to do.

"Sister, I'm sorry." On the way back, Tang Tang suddenly apologized.

"Ok?"

"I asked you to come here late at night, and I was rude to you for no reason."

"I accept your apology. Also, I hope I helped you."

"Yes. It's a pity that I met you too late. Otherwise, if I had introduced you to Tiaotiao earlier, maybe she wouldn't have committed suicide."

The little girl choked up again when she mentioned her good friends.

Shen Jiayin had no way to comfort her and could only accompany her silently.

It was already past twelve o'clock when I sent the little girl home.

Mao Xiaolan apologized repeatedly and asked Shen Jiayin to stay.

Shen Jiayin refused, patted the little girl's shoulder again, turned around and went home.

That night, Shen Jiayin didn't sleep very well. She vaguely thought of Tangtang, Tiaotiao whom she had never met before, and An Zhen...

When I returned to the set the next day, everyone was also discussing the suicide. Some people stood up for the parents and some stood up for the children. They all had their own opinions and no one could convince the other.

"The sun is shining brightly, what do you think?" someone suddenly asked.

Shen Jiayin shook his head: "We don't know the whole picture, so we won't comment."

"Jiao Yangda is indeed a rigorous person."

"The sun is shining brightly. If you have a child, will you be a chicken baby?"

"Most likely not, but the rules will still stand, and you have to work harder when you have to. I can accept him being ordinary, but I can't tolerate him muddle along or even mess up."

"What about interest? Will you support it?"

Shen Jiayin nodded decisively. "Of course. As long as it does not break the law or violate ethics, I will unconditionally support whatever he wants to learn."

Just like her father, everyone said that when a girl learns martial arts, she will fight and kill inappropriately, but her father still supports her unconditionally.

"It must be very happy to be a child under the bright sun."

"I feel so too."

After returning home from filming in the evening, Shen Jiayin dove into the room, took out a pen and notebook and began to draw.

She wants to open a youth rescue center, and she also wants to open a school...

It wasn't until the phone rang that she woke up from her thoughts.

The call was from Xing Yuchuan.

Shen Jiayin quickly put down her pen, stood up while answering the phone, and moved her shoulders and neck casually.

"Hello, Xing Yuchuan?"

"Jiaoyang, the investigation results of the car accident are out."