lady she comes from 1938

Chapter 208 Bad News

The night of the seventh day of the Lunar New Year.

After Shen Jiayin took a shower and was about to go to bed, she suddenly received a call from An Zhen.

In order to reunite the family, An Zhen returned to Jincheng from the countryside to celebrate the Spring Festival. Shen Jiayin knew about this.

Shen Jiayin was worried about this, but she couldn't interfere too much. She just emphasized a few words to An Zhen.

"If something makes you particularly uncomfortable during this period and you don't want to stay for one more second, then leave here decisively. An Zhen, you must always remember that people should take care of themselves first, and then consider others. And if you need my help, give me a call.”

For this reason, Shen Jiayin didn't turn off her phone at night, fearing that An Zhen would call her at night and not receive it.

An Zhen agreed seriously and asked: "Sister, are you so kind to everyone?"

"How is that possible? It's a good thing that I didn't rush to make amends when I saw those ruthless things."

She hated the Japanese even if they slept with him or ate their flesh.

An Zhen laughed softly and said, "I can do that too!"

"That's right. Kindness must be given to the right people, otherwise it is just helping others to do evil."

On New Year's Eve, Shen Jiayin also received a blessing from An Zhen. It was a self-portrait she drew herself. In the painting, she was holding a big "福" in her hand, which was cute and festive.

Shen Jiayin also praised her painting skills and said that she might consider becoming a cartoonist in the future.

An Zhen said that she must create the warmest fairy tale in the world so that children can grow up happily in her stories.

"Hello, An Zhen?"

"Sister, it's me."

"You're still up so late. Do you want me to treat you to milk tea?"

"Yes, I am happiest eating and drinking tea with you."

"That's okay. How about I drive to pick you up now?"

An Zhen chuckled twice.

"Sister, I'm kidding you. I just read a novel and thought there was a character in it that looked very much like you, so I called you."

"But I want to drink. I'll leave to pick you up after I change my clothes. Your home is in Lanyuewan Community, did I remember correctly?"

There was no problem from the voice, but Shen Jiayin was still a little worried. Patients with depression themselves have suicidal tendencies, and they are more likely to have trouble if they are stimulated by the outside world.

"I remember correctly. But it's really too late now, let's do it tomorrow. Tomorrow I will sacrifice my life to accompany the gentleman, no, I will sacrifice my life to accompany the woman. Sister, I know what you are worried about, but I am really fine. Whatever you say, I will Remember it.”

"OK then."

"Good night, sister."

"Good night."

Shen Jiayin fell asleep with worries, and it wasn't until the alarm rang the next day that she put her heart back in her stomach.

But when she picked up her phone after exercising, she received a text message from An Zhen.

"Sister, goodbye."

Shen Jiayin was startled and quickly dialed An Zhen's number.

"Beep-beep-"

The phone rang to the end and no one answered.

Shen Jiayin quickly changed the number to Li Siyun. This time the call also rang for a long time, but no one answered.

Shen Jiayin directly dialed 110 and explained the situation clearly in the most concise language.

After hanging up, she immediately dialed An Zhen's number, but still no one answered.

Li Siyun's number is the same.

Shen Jiayin had no choice but to call Xing Yuchuan again. After that, she quickly went back to the room to change clothes and planned to personally visit the community where An Zhen's family was located.

But before he left the house, Xing Yuchuan received a reply confirming that An Zhen had committed suicide last night.

And based on the time, it should have been not long after the phone call with her. Even if she hung up the phone and rushed over immediately, it would be too late.

As for the message just received, An Zhen should have set it up to send it regularly. It was also another white lie left to her by An Zhen.

"Is she in the hospital or the funeral home now?"

"funeral parlor."

"I understand, thank you."

"Jiaoyang, let's just do what we can. Leave the rest to God's will."

Shen Jiayin understood what he meant.

Obviously, Xing Yuchuan was afraid that she would feel sad and blame herself.

"I know. Xing Yuchuan, don't worry. I admit that I feel sad and regretful, but I will not be stupid enough to take the responsibility on myself."

She has never been arrogant enough to put herself in the position of a savior. Naturally, she also knows that there are many things in this world that she cannot change.

In other words, many things in this world cannot be changed by humans.

In the case of An Zhen, she had tried her best to do everything she could, but it still ended in tragedy. Of course she had regrets, but she also had a clear conscience.

"That's good. If you want to see her, can I go with you?"

Most people are reluctant to go to places like funeral parlors, or they are afraid. Although Shen Jiayin was very good at martial arts, she was a girl after all, so Xing Yuchuan felt that she still needed someone to accompany her.

"Do not you need to work today?"

"It's work, but there shouldn't be anything else to do today. It's okay to run with you."

Just as Shen Jiayin was about to answer the call, she heard him say: "Jiaoyang, let me answer the phone first."

A few minutes later, Shen Jiayin received his apology. An impromptu mission came and he had to get to work quickly.

"It doesn't matter. I can do it by myself. You can just concentrate on your mission. Be sure to pay attention to your safety."

"Okay. If you need anything, call me."

After hanging up the phone, Shen Jiayin opened Weibo and saw relevant content online.

In the video, An Zhen's mother is wailing heartbroken.

Shen Jiayin exited the page before finishing the video, and did not read the comments below. After these days of experience, she was sure that it was not what she wanted to see.

Fortunately, no matter how harsh their words were, the little girl couldn't hear them, let alone feel sad.

Breathing out slowly, Shen Jiayin walked slowly to the window again, looking at the grass and trees shivering in the cold wind and the leaves falling from time to time, feeling a chill in her heart.

Shen Jiayin didn't know what the little girl had experienced in these few days that made her so determined to give up her life. But if this world really makes her suffer so much, then leaving it can be considered a blessing.

In the evening, Shen Jiayin called Xiao Changqing. "Do you have any plans tonight?"

"As long as you open your mouth, I won't have any arrangements."

"Then drink with me?"

"Okay. You wait at home, and I'll go find you with the wine."

"it is good."

Yan Zheng was holding a document and was about to knock on the door when the door suddenly opened from the inside.

Mr. Xiao had a coat on his arm, obviously going out. "Mr. Xiao, are you going out?"

"get off work."

Yan Zheng looked at the time. It wasn't even five o'clock yet. So he was off work now?
In the past, Mr. Xiao wished he could live, eat, and sleep in the office and work non-stop 24 hours a day.

Since waking up from a coma a few months ago, he has rarely worked overtime.

It's better now, just arrive late and leave early!
"If it's not urgent, I'll deal with it tomorrow."

"Okay, Mr. Xiao."

Looking at the back of his boss leaving in a hurry, Yan Zheng sighed softly. The boss misses work, so the assistant has to work overtime.

In less than half an hour, Xiao Changqing appeared on the bank of Fenglin River.

Aunt Zhang thoughtfully prepared some snacks for them to go with wine, and then went out for a walk.

Xiao Changqing guessed that Shen Jiayin was in a bad mood, but he didn't know the reason. He didn't ask further questions and just drank with her silently.

"The little girl I saved from jumping off the building last night committed suicide last night."

Xiao Changqing put down the wine glass in his hand and opened his arms towards her. "Would you like a hug?"

Shen Jiayin slapped his hand as an answer.

"Before she jumped, she called me. We also made an appointment to have tea together today. Who knows..."

Xiao Changqing finally ignored her refusal, put an arm slightly forcefully around her shoulders, put his palm against her face, and pressed her head on his shoulder with a little force.

"Jiaojiao, this is not your responsibility. Even if you rushed over immediately, the result would not change."

"I know. I just don't understand what is going on with depression. Why do so many people suffer from it now? Is it really because the living conditions are too good?"

"This thing is very complicated and cannot be explained in a few words. But there is no doubt that it has a lot to do with the improvement of material living standards. Living a prosperous life means having more time and energy to focus on oneself. In an era of difficult conditions, , people's stress is mainly due to physical hardship. When the body is exhausted to a certain extent, it just wants to fall asleep and has no time to think about it. But today, most people can have enough food and clothing, and life is more stressful. It’s a mental tension, a kind of confusion that can’t find a way out.”

"For children, it's more about the conflict between overly heavy and boring learning tasks and cognition. They keep learning every day, but why do they have to learn? Many children don't understand at all. What adults say about reading The meaning, or the benefits, are far away to them, even illusory. They know the truth, but it is difficult to experience it personally. The adults blame them for being unmotivated and weak. In fact, they asked Emperor Hui of Jin, "Why don't you eat?" Mincemeat' is the same."

Shen Jiayin thought of Yi Feng. His life goals were very clear, so he would do his best without the supervision of his parents.

Learning for him is a way to achieve his goals, rather than a burdensome task that has to be completed from the outside world, especially his parents.

"Of course, this is only one of the reasons, there are many other factors."

"So, this is another revolution?"

"You can say that."

Shen Jiayin nodded, drank silently for a while, and suddenly said: "Xiao Changqing, let's have a fight?"

"it is good."

So the two of them changed their clothes, turned around and ran to the door of the villa to fight.

When he got tired, he just lay down on the ground and chatted while looking at the dark night sky while regaining his breath.

Aunt Zhang came back from outside and saw two people lying on the ground. She was so frightened that she almost screamed, thinking something serious had happened.

"Aunt Zhang, even if a bad guy breaks in, we still don't know who will beat whom down."

What's more, the security here is excellent.

Three days later, Shen Jiayin took the little girl's favorite sunflowers to see her off.

In the mourning hall, Shen Jiayin met An Zhen's parents. Their condition seemed to be in bad shape, and An Zhen's departure dealt them a heavy blow, making them seem to have aged ten years overnight.

The next day, Li Siyun called Shen Jiayin.

"I'm at the First People's Hospital now. Can you please come over? An Zhen left something important and said that I must hand it over to you."

She finished speaking choked with sobs, and before she finished speaking, a sob escaped her lips.

Shen Jiayin could feel her sadness and regret, but there was no regret medicine in this world, only inner suffering for the rest of her days and nights.

Shen Jiayin put down what she was doing and went to the hospital immediately. She also wanted to know what the little girl had experienced.

When she arrived, Li Siyun was leaning on the bedside and crying silently. There was no crying, just eyes staring straight at the ceiling, tears flowing silently.

Shen Jiayin put the fruit in her hand on the bedside table, and the sound woke her up.

She quickly wiped away her tears and said in a hoarse voice: "You're here."

"Ah."

"Do you hate me? Do you think I deserve it?" Before Shen Jiayin could answer, she said like she was hurting herself, "I do look disgusting! I do deserve it!"

Shen Jiayin said nothing, and she probably didn't need her own response.

"...Why can't I let go of my face? Why should I force her? But I really don't know that she will... I thought she was already well, at least not that serious..."

After An Zhen went to the countryside, her condition did improve a lot, but it didn't mean she was cured.

"I was wrong. I won't force her anymore. It doesn't matter even if she just drops out of school and goes to farm for the rest of her life. As long as she is good, as long as I can see her every day, I don't ask for anything... …”

Li Siyun said these words over and over again, tears streaming down her face as she spoke, and she almost collapsed emotionally.

When the nurse came, she thought it was Shen Jiayin who had irritated her, and even scolded Shen Jiayin.

"sorry."

"fine."

Because of the nurse's visit, Li Siyun finally calmed down a lot.

She took out a notebook from under the pillow, but did not hand it to Shen Jiayin immediately. Instead, she repeatedly touched its cover with her hand, as if stroking her daughter's face. The tears that had just stopped fell down one drop at a time...

Shen Jiayin guessed that this was probably An Zhen's diary. I just don’t know why the little girl chose to hand over such a private thing to her.

"This is her diary, which records all her emotions after she became ill. She said that you ran a youth rescue center with psychologists in charge. I leave this to you. It may be helpful in studying depression. It may be helpful. other people."

After speaking, Li Siyun opened the book again and took out an envelope from it.

"This is the letter she wrote to you."

Shen Jiayin took it with both hands and lowered his eyes to see that the cover of the book was a cluster of flowers facing the sun, blooming brightly.

And An Zhen's life ended abruptly before it could bloom.

Li Siyun cried and complained for a long time, until she finally fell asleep from exhaustion.

Shen Jiayin then stood up and left. Outside the door, she met An Zhen's father An Ruichen again.

The two people stopped at the same time and looked at each other, not knowing what to say for a moment.

The only topic, or connection, between them is An Zhen. But now, this connection has been severed.

In the end, An Ruichen spoke first. "We should listen to you. What if..."

He couldn't speak for himself.

If everyone is gone, what if?

"The deceased is gone, please take more care of him."

Shen Jiayin nodded, took steps forward, and passed by him.

After getting into the car, Shen Jiayin did not start the car immediately, but opened the letter written by An Zhen to her.

Recently I met the son of a good friend (who suffers from depression). He has long hair, is very thin, and even his temperament is different from before.