I am reborn and refuse to be a sickly rich woman

Chapter 408: Live with my heart. (7k must-read chapter!)

"He left this for you..."

An Nuannuan stretched out her hand and gently touched Yao Mingyue's chest, where her heart was.

Yao Mingyue's weak eyes were full of surprise and confusion. According to her memory, it should be that she gave him her organs.

Because if she survived, then why can't she recall any of her memories afterwards...

"It seems that your subconscious mind still doesn't dare to face the memories that follow."

An Nuannuan looked at her: "Actually, I shouldn't tell you this now, because the truth is definitely not what you want, but I respect your choice."

Yao Mingyue's mind was in a mess, and she understood what An Nuannuan meant.

The truth of the matter might be extremely difficult to accept, and her current physical condition could not withstand too much stimulation.

If she didn't ask, An Nuannuan wouldn't tell her.

However, Yao Mingyue also knew that if she did not ask now, she might never have the chance to know the truth.

She covered her chest, feeling the weak beating of her heart, causing a dull pain in her entire chest, but she still longed for the truth.

Not for herself, but because she wanted to know what had happened.

Xu Musen clearly said that he would never see her again, so why did he choose to give her the last hope of life...

She trembled and grabbed An Nuannuan's arm: "Nuannuan, please tell me...what happened back then..."

An Nuannuan stared at her for a moment, she took a deep breath and opened her red lips: "That day..."

.........

That day.

The hospital is a ward with a pale and silent state, where only the sound of the dripping detector can be heard.

Xu Musen's body was full of test tubes, and he seemed to have lost all life. Only the surrounding instruments showed weak signs of life.

In this car accident, almost all of his bones were shattered, his lungs were ruptured, and his liver and gallbladder were damaged. Among his major organs, only his heart, which was made entirely of muscle, was temporarily safe.

Yao Mingyue squatted beside the bed, holding Xu Musen's cold hand. His noble phoenix eyes were now red, swollen and bloodshot.

She had cried until her tears ran out and her throat became hoarse. She no longer had her usual domineering attitude. She held Xu Musen's hand and only prayed that he would wake up...

The ward door was opened.

An Nuannuan walked in with the examination report.

"how's it going…"

Yao Mingyue turned around and looked at the information in her hand. A last glimmer of hope appeared in her desperate eyes.

An Nuannuan looked at her bloodshot eyes and was stunned for a moment, but then she saw Xu Musen lying on the hospital bed, looking increasingly weak.

She still walked up to her and handed her the information.

Yao Mingyue took it immediately, opened it and looked at it.

"Blood type matches, organ matching is 99%, theoretically perfect..."

Yao Mingyue's hands were shaking, and a glimmer of hope finally appeared on her desperate and numb face. She turned around and held Xu Musen's hand again: "I will definitely save you, definitely..."

"If you save him, you will be gone. Can you bear it?"

An Nuannuan stood behind her, her tone still a little annoyed.

Yao Mingyue silently looked at Xu Musen, who was now pale. She bit her lips tightly and said, "I did something too much for him, but I never thought of losing him, and I can't lose him..."

Yao Mingyue stretched out her hand and slowly stroked Xu Musen's pale cheek. Tears appeared in the corners of his swollen eyes, and his eyes were full of bloodshot, as if he was crying tears of blood.

Yao Mingyue stroked his cheek, but she could no longer wait for his response, so she gritted her teeth.

She seemed to be losing everything in her life. The two most important men in her life both left because of her. It seemed as if she would never be able to get complete companionship.

She knew that she was sick and that her previous behavior was excessive, but she was just afraid that he would leave her again.

But when Xu Musen left to protect her, she realized how ridiculous her thoughts were.

Obviously, he had wanted to leave a long time ago, didn't he? But when it really came to the moment of life and death, he subconsciously pulled her into his arms and gave her the last hope of life.

"Sister Mingyue, I will always protect you, forever..."

On that rainy night when he was twelve years old, Xu Musen held Yao Mingyue in his arms and made a promise that he would fulfill throughout his life.

Now, he has fulfilled his promise.

But the price was too high. If she had known that this would be the outcome, she would rather not have been saved by him. In this way, she could still feel a little at ease...

No, there is still a chance.

Yao Mingyue looked at the test report in her hand. The blood type matched, the organs matched...

They are truly childhood sweethearts. It seems their fate is to be like this, to be entangled together forever.

Yao Mingyue held her heavy chest, and Xu Musen’s last words to her kept coming to her mind.

If there is a next life, I don't want to be with her anymore...

There is no next life. At this moment, Yao Mingyue finally realized the harm she had done to him. This was the only way to make up for it.

She held the test report in her hand: "Wait for me, I will save you..."

An Nuannuan silently watched the change in her expression: "You have to think carefully, you saved him, but you will never see him again."

An Nuannuan envied her, was jealous of her, and hated him, but she also knew that all this was Xu Musen's choice.

In his heart, she will always be the first.

If he woke up and knew all this...

An Nuannuan knew that she might never have another chance in this life, because Xu Musen who survived like this would probably be just a walking corpse with a dead heart.

"That's better than no hope at all."

Yao Mingyue stroked his cheek.

"I used to be afraid that he would leave me, but now... he has used his life to tell me his love for me. Now, it's my turn to respond to my love for him..."

Finally, she looked deeply at Xu Musen's cheek, as if saying her final farewell. Seeing that he was so weak that he was on the verge of death on the instrument, Yao Mingyue stood up clutching the test report in her hand.

"Yao Mingyue."

An Nuannuan stood in front of her, her beautiful face showing some gnashing of teeth at the moment. Seeing Yao Mingyue's resolute action, she sneered: "You know very well that if you save him like this, he will never be able to get over it. For the rest of his life, he will only have you in his heart. Are you trying to save him, or do you still want to occupy him forever?!"

An Nuannuan's words were like a sharp knife, tearing open every most sensitive corner of Yao Mingyue's heart.

Yao Mingyue looked at An Nuannuan in front of her. That stubborn and even somewhat ferocious expression made her feel very familiar, because this was herself when she wanted to do whatever it took.

"Whatever you say, I want to save him, and only I can save him!"

Yao Mingyue held the test report in her hand. She had no intention of speculating on anything. She only knew that this was her only chance in her life to compensate Xu Musen.

An Nuannuan didn't say anything, but took out another test report and spread it in front of her.

"An Nuannuan, blood type matches, organ matching is 99%..."

Yao Mingyue was stunned, looking at the two people with almost identical conditions. In fact, An Nuannuan's physical fitness was better than hers.

An Nuannuan laughed, her beautiful face showing a bit of smile at the moment: "Yao Mingyue, how about this, I come to save him, then you can continue to be with him forever, right? Continue to be with him, continue to have him by your side forever, isn't this what you want..."

An Nuannuan's voice was sincere and even a little bewitching.

Yao Mingyue was distracted for a moment, but it was only for a moment. She looked at An Nuannuan, who was smiling and seemed ready to sacrifice herself for justice. She turned her head and glanced at Xu Musen: "I know what you are thinking. If you save him, he will no longer owe me anything. Instead, your heartbeat and your name will truly leave my life from now on, and he will no longer belong to me..."

As the saying goes, heroes appreciate each other, so there is definitely telepathy between patients.

"Drip..."

They stared at each other without saying a word, but their gazes did not avert each other's gazes. The only sound was the beeping of the instrument.

At this moment, the door of the ward was pushed open, and the nurse walked in and was about to speak, but she felt a little suffocated by the atmosphere of confrontation in the ward.

"what's up?"

An Nuannuan first looked away and looked at the nurse at the door who didn't dare to speak.

"Well... the patient's medical records are out, and the patient's family members need to sign them."

After the nurse finished speaking, Yao Mingyue clutched the test report in her hand and raised her eyes. Her bloodshot eyes finally brightened up. She turned around and looked at the nurse.

"I'm a family member. I'll be there in a moment."

Upon hearing this, the nurse nodded and left immediately.

Yao Mingyue turned around and looked at Xu Musen, then at An Nuannuan: "Please keep an eye on him first."

After that, she turned around and left.

"Yao Mingyue!"

An Nuannuan spoke in a low voice, gritting her teeth: "You know, compared to you, he must be more willing to accept my heart, and my body is better. He can be healthier if he accepts me. Only I can truly give him a new life, a new life!"

Yao Mingyue paused.

"I know."

She turned around and said, "I know everything you said. You are more suitable, more receptive, and healthier than me, but..."

Yao Mingyue shook the test report in her hand and pointed at the relationship column. Her haggard face showed a sickly and smug smile: "Unfortunately, I am his wife. Legally, only I can sign this!"

An Nuannuan's hands were trembling.

Yao Mingyue passed her by and came to Xu Musen's bedside. She bent down and stroked Xu Musen's cheek: "Hubby, I'm sorry... I know it's too late to apologize now, and I'm going to be willful again, and this is the last time. Forgive me, I was wrong, but I love you, and it's never wrong."

Yao Mingyue slowly lowered her head and kissed him lightly on the forehead, but a tear slipped down and flowed down Xu Musen's cheek.

"Husband...Brother Musen...

We will still be together forever.

forever. "

Yao Mingyue left.

An Nuannuan stood alone in the ward, looking at the perfectly fitting test report in her hand, but it was in the column about patient relationship.

But it can only be a blank.

She smiled bitterly, her eyes blurred by tears. After all, identity was such a weighty thing.

"Drip drip..."

At this moment, the instrument suddenly emitted a different vibration.

Xu Musen, who had been unconscious, quietly moved his fingers.

An Nuannuan was shaking with excitement. She came in front of him and watched his fingers moving slightly.

She wanted to speak, but found that facing the person she had been thinking about for half her life, she was so excited that she couldn't say a word.

Perhaps she had already gotten used to hiding in the dark and spying silently, and she lacked the courage.

But at this moment.

Seeing Xu Musen's hand groping subconsciously, she slowly reached out and held his slightly trembling hand.

Slowly, Xu Musen slowly opened his eyes, his weak body seemed to have the last bit of strength left after a last burst of life.

"Xu Musen..."

An Nuannuan held his hand, her voice trembling with excitement, and called softly in front of him.

It took a long time for Xu Musen's eyes to focus again. Everything in front of him was gray, and it took him a long time to see clearly the woman in front of him who looked caring yet unfamiliar.

An Nuannuan saw the strangeness in his eyes. She already knew the outcome of today and she no longer cared. At this moment, she just wanted him to live well.

Xu Musen moved his dry lips, and after a long time he finally uttered a hoarse voice: "An Nuannuan..."

These three words made An Nuannuan lose consciousness for a moment. This was the first time in so many years that she heard him call her name.

It was as if, after all these years of silently guarding in the darkness, she finally got a glimmer of light. "Xu Musen, I'm sorry, I'm late..."

An Nuannuan really regretted it. She should have shown up earlier and should have mustered up the courage to snatch him back from Yao Mingyue.

Xu Musen looked at her cheek for a long time, as if he was recalling the blurred past.

"It is you…"

Xu Musen's eyes were a little brighter. He had heard their conversation just now and remembered the name An Nuannuan.

It was the year when she was twelve years old, the little girl was lying in the ward crying.

They will never forget that special day.

"Your operation was successful... That's great..."

Xu Musen's voice was hoarse, and as he looked at An Nuannuan, who was strange yet familiar to him, there was a hint of relief in his voice.

"Xu Musen, don't worry, you will be fine. I will definitely save you!"

An Nuannuan's eyes were moist. It was so good that he actually still remembered her. He was always like this, always so gentle at all times.

He was obviously the one in the most pain right now, but his first words were still "I'm glad you're okay..."

But it is because of him that An Nuannuan has been so foolishly in love with him for so long.

An Nuannuan was even more determined. No matter what the cost, she would save him...

"An Nuan Nuan..."

Xu Musen shouted hoarsely, and tried his best to move his fingers that were held by her: "Can I... ask you... for one thing..."

An Nuannuan felt the trembling of his fingers, held them tightly and nodded vigorously: "Yes! Tell me, no matter what it is, I will do it for you!"

A pale smile appeared on Xu Musen's weak face: "I want to ask you... to leave my heart... for her..."

An Nuannuan seemed to be frozen.

Xu Musen continued: "I heard your conversation... Now, my heart is the only good place on my body. I think... this must be God's will..."

As Xu Musen spoke, a weak smile appeared on his pale face.

It just so happened that he only had a complete heart for that moment, and Yao Mingyue needed exactly such a heart.

An Nuannuan burst into tears: "No, Xu Musen, you still have a chance, I...I will save you!"

An Nuannuan gritted her teeth, tightly grasping the test report in her hand, and had made up her mind!

But Xu Musen used all his strength to hook her hand.

"No... I finally don't owe anyone anything in this life. Don't make me owe you any more favors. If I do, I won't be able to live in peace for the rest of my life."

Xu Musen's words were weak, but as a dying man, every word he said came from his heart.

Although he only heard their conversation just now, Xu Musen could guess that the woman in front of him named An Nuannuan must have been following him silently for a long time.

If she were to sacrifice her own life in exchange for his, Xu Musen would never live in peace for the rest of his life.

An Nuannuan knew, of course, that a gentle man like him would definitely not accept it, but... even if it was hard to accept, it was better than having no hope of survival, right?

But looking at Xu Musen's eyes at this moment, she couldn't say a word against her will...

An Nuannuan gritted her teeth, her eyes blurred with tears: "Why...why do you still want to save her even after it has come to this?"

An Nuannuan was really unwilling to accept this. Hadn't he been thinking about escaping from this kind of life for a long time? Hadn't he been thinking about leaving Yao Mingyue's control for a long time?

Xu Musen looked up at the ceiling of the hospital. He raised his hand and touched the wet mark on his cheek.

These are the tear marks left by Yao Mingyue just now.

"Because I'm her husband."

As Xu Musen spoke, he had heard everything Yao Mingyue had said just now. Similarly, he had resentment and dissatisfaction towards Yao Mingyue, and had also planned to separate.

But he never said he didn't love her.

Xu Musen pulled the corner of his mouth, revealing a bleak and gentle smile: "After all... we haven't divorced yet, she is my wife, even if we are divorced, she is still my sister Mingyue...

There is no husband in this world who doesn’t love his wife, and no brother who doesn’t protect his sister…”

Xu Musen spoke each word with difficulty but clearly.

That gentle smile made An Nuannuan feel heartbroken. It was not jealousy, but heartache and helplessness.

I love Xu Musen so much, but I also hate his gentleness...

"I know... I can't really give her the sense of security she wants, because her heart is sick... and I am her only worry right now. With me around, she has lost herself.

If my heart can continue to accompany her, she will finally have the confidence no matter when and where she is in the future.

Maybe...she can really find her own life, a life without burdens, worries, or weaknesses...

Xu Musen coughed, and there was even some blood at the corner of his mouth.

"Don't talk anymore. You will be fine. I will find someone to match your organs and the best doctor. You..."

An Nuannuan's tears were streaming down her face as she wiped the blood from the corner of Xu Musen's mouth.

"It's no use..."

Xu Musen shook his head. He could feel that his body had reached its limit. Even if he received an organ transplant, he might not survive. It would be better to let her survive.

However, when the moment of death really came, Xu Musen was not afraid of anything.

He even smiled and comforted An Nuannuan in front of him.

"An Nuannuan...I ask you to promise me that this is my choice...Okay?"

Xu Musen held her hand. An Nuannuan's whole body was shaking. She bit her lips so hard that they almost bled.

She looked at Xu Musen's smile and tears dropped from her eyes.

Finally, she looked into Xu Musen's eyes and said unwillingly: "You... are such a fool. You are just like her, just as stubborn, self-righteous, and sick!"

But, that's just who he is.

It was that kind of paranoid, morbid, yet firm love that made An Nuannuan fall in love with him little by little.

"He is my husband, I must save him..."

"She is my wife. There is no husband in the world who doesn't love his wife..."

They are exactly the same.

Like all couples in the world, they quarreled, disagreed, tortured each other, and even broke down and divorced. But the only difference is that they never said a word that they didn't love each other.

An Nuannuan knew that she had lost and would never win in this life.

But she didn't feel much resentment in her heart, because it was him who made her love him so willingly.

"I'm sorry... for taking up so much of your time..."

Xu Musen knew that she had already promised him. He finally felt relieved at this moment and looked carefully at An Nuannuan in front of him.

I remember that night when I was twelve years old, the girl lying on the hospital bed also had tears on her face.

Her former self brought her hope in the hospital.

Now, she can personally accompany herself on the final journey.

It can be considered a kind of perfection.

"There are many things you have to say, but I may not have the chance to hear you continue talking... If possible, I think we should be good friends..."

Xu Musen spoke with a smile, but his body was getting weaker and weaker, and he felt regretful that he had never realized that there was such a girl in his life.

An Nuannuan held his hand tightly, feeling his gradually weakening strength, but she couldn't help her tears falling: "Yes, we will, not only friends, but also lifelong friends!"

"A good friend for life..."

Xu Musen smiled, with blood at the corners of his mouth. It was great. If there was an afterlife, it would be nice to meet such a lovely girl and be her lifelong friend.

"Thank you... It's a pity that I can't continue to accompany my good friend... Let's eat and go shopping in the future. If there is an afterlife, please tell me...

I will make it up to you... We will definitely become best friends... for life..."

Xu Musen used up the last of his strength, reached out his hand, and wiped the tears from the corners of her eyes.

An Nuannuan couldn't stop sobbing. She held Xu Musen's hand and placed it on her cheek: "Yes... I will, I will find you this time. I will be bolder and more proactive. I will..."

After nearly twenty years of waiting, An Nuannuan finally got close to the person she wanted to be close to the most, but this closeness... would become the farthest distance in the blink of an eye.

She was crying and her emotions were out of control.

Xu Musen felt that the light in front of his eyes was slowly fading, and his body had reached its limit.

Just looking at her crying in front of me.

Xu Musen gently pinched her cheeks and forced a last smile: "Don't cry... Didn't we agree before? Don't cry. Life is hard, so eat something sweet... There will always be people who make you unhappy, so just ignore them. Sometimes people who are a little dull... are actually cuter and stronger in their hearts..."

Xu Musen saw that she was showing off. In fact, she was the same as Yao Mingyue. The more a woman looked strong and smart, the more fragile and sensitive she was inside.

If possible, Xu Musen still prefers to see a silly girl who can be happy and heartless every day.

"Yeah... I understand, I will do it..."

An Nuannuan nodded, forcing herself to smile foolishly, and took his hand to stroke the corners of her upturned mouth.

"cough…"

Xu Musen was coughing but had a smile on his face. He really thought that this girl in front of him, who had tears on her face but was forcing a smile, was so cute.

Meeting her at the last moment of his life might be a comfort from God to him.

If there really is an afterlife, perhaps if I had met her earlier, my life would really be completely different.

"I take back what I said..."

Xu Musen suddenly spoke.

An Nuannuan was stunned for a moment, tears welled up in her eyes: "Is my smile not good? I can continue to improve it, please don't dislike me..."

As she spoke, she forced a few smiles onto her tearful face.

Xu Musen shook his head and gently stroked her cheek.

"No... I mean, if there is really an afterlife, you must not tell me these things, because..."

The light in Xu Musen's eyes gradually faded, and in the end, all he could see was An Nuannuan crying in front of him, and her eyes that were still bright and clear despite the traces of tears.

"Because...if there is an afterlife, even if I don't have these memories of you, I will still..."

"I like you..."

After saying the last four words, Xu Musen’s hands slowly dropped.

……

This moment is far away...

Shanghai, ward.

An Nuannuan, her clear eyes were also sparkling with tears at this moment.

Looking at Yao Mingyue, who was also crying and in a trance for a long time.

The sunlight shines down, like the warm light of dawn finally breaking through the long-suppressed darkness.

Gently and slowly, word by word.

“This is…

Our story. ”

Here it comes. All the holes from the previous life have been filled. It is expected to end in about ten chapters. They are all long chapters, so feel free to watch them.

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