Rebirth begins with rejecting Qingmei

Chapter 254 Take the initiative to confess
  Xiao Youran didn't know when he lay down on his bed.

She seemed to be asleep and her eyes were closed.

Xu Xiuwen did not wake her up immediately.

He stood up from his seat, walked slowly to the bed, and looked down at Xiao Youran.

Xiao Youran has a face that I never tire of seeing.

Xu Xiuwen has been looking at her face for more than ten years, and he still finds it beautiful every time he sees it.

At this moment, she was sleeping soundly, with no expression on her face, calm and peaceful, like a sleeping fairy.

It had been half a year since his rebirth, and Xu Xiuwen no longer cared about Xiao Youran's behavior of drawing cakes in his previous life.

Now in his eyes, Xiao Youran is like a lovely sister.

Xu Xiuwen actually didn't mind taking care of her in school, helping her deal with problems and solve difficulties.

But going further is impossible.

He could only hope that Xiao Youran would understand his thoughts and give up unnecessary fantasies.

Xu Xiuwen stood by the bed and stared at it for several minutes.

Perhaps because he couldn't hear the sound of the keyboard, Xiao Youran's long eyelashes fluttered a few times, and then he opened his eyes.

After opening his eyes, the first person he saw was Xu Xiuwen.

Xiao Youran immediately smiled.

Seeing that she was awake, Xu Xiuwen looked away in time and said calmly: "Are you awake?"

Xiao Youran sat up with his hands on the bed.

She tidied her hair and said softly: "I'm sorry, I accidentally fell asleep."

"It's okay. If you're still sleepy, just sleep more."

Xiao Youran smiled lightly, "I'm not sleepy anymore."

After a pause, he asked, "Why don't you continue coding?"

"If you're tired, get up and move around."

Xu Xiuwen said and walked towards the living room.

Xiao Youran immediately followed after seeing this.

After arriving in the living room, Xiao Youran was embarrassed to sit next to him, so he chose to sit next to him.

She was sitting on the sofa, leaning against the base of the sofa with her legs together, her hands on her legs, sitting elegantly.

Xu Xiuwen's sitting posture was much more casual.

He spread his legs, lay down on the sofa, picked up the remote control, turned on the TV, and started watching.

There were no good TV programs at this time, and Xu Xiuwen lost interest after watching them for a few times.

He turned to look at Xiao Youran and asked casually: "Do you want to go home?"

Xiao Youran was very nervous when he heard this, and immediately said: "Don't drive me away, okay?"

Xu Xiuwen laughed, "When will I drive you away?"

Xiao Youran breathed a sigh of relief when he heard this, and then smiled sheepishly, "I thought you were going to drive me away. It's okay if you don't, Xiao Xu, I like being with you, even if I don't say anything, I'm still happy. "

Xiao Youran's words came to this point, almost as much as a confession, and her feelings had been revealed.

Xu Xiuwen knew that if he asked her if she wanted to be his girlfriend, Xiao Youran would never refuse.

But he didn't do that.

Xu Xiuwen seemed not to have heard it, and said with a smile: "Really? I didn't expect that I still have this ability. I didn't even know it. If you like it, just stay."

Xiao Youran finally plucked up the courage to say such straightforward words.

I originally wanted to see if Xiao Xu would express his position, but it turned out that he didn't seem to understand what I meant.

She was very disappointed.

But he breathed a sigh of relief.

She was also afraid that if Xu Xiuwen heard about it, he would reject her.

That's not what she wants to see.

Then there was silence.

Xu Xiuwen was silent, and so was Xiao Youran.

The only sound coming from the TV in the living room.

After a few minutes, Xu Xiuwen suddenly suggested: "It's too boring to stay at home, why don't you go for a walk and buy some food on the way."

"Okay." Xiao Youran adjusted his mood.

When I heard that he wanted to go out for a walk, I agreed without any hesitation.

"Then wait for me while I change my clothes."

"Okay, you change slowly, I'm not in a hurry."

Xu Xiuwen turned around and went back to the room, then changed into a set of clothes suitable for going out. ,

Coming out of the room, he looked at Xiao Youran, who was still sitting quietly on the sofa, and reminded him with a smile, "Let's go, Youran."

"Uh-huh."

In the cold winter, there are not many people on the streets.

Xu Xiuwen and Xiao Youran walked silently on the street.

Xu Xiuwen looked around aimlessly.

Xiao Youran's head was lowered slightly, his eyes always looking at the ground, and occasionally he would raise his head to glance at Xu Xiuwen.

Take a turn.

Unknowingly, the two of them arrived at the gate of the junior high school.

Xu Xiuwen and Xiao Youran both went to junior high school here, so standing at the door and looking at the familiar door, they stopped in tacit agreement.

Xiao Youran looked at the familiar door, and scenes from the past appeared in his mind.

Their relationship was so good at that time. Xu Xiuwen followed her every day, shouting "Youran" and "Youran".

She also followed her parents' example and called him "Xiao Xu".

At that time, Xu Xiuwen hadn't figured it out yet, so he probably didn't understand what liking meant.

But girls mature early.

Xiao Youran knew that she liked him from that time on.

So he touched his thighs in class, often pretended to be his brother and touched his head in front of others, and held her hand after school in the afternoon on the pretext of sending him home.

If it wasn't because she liked him, how could she have agreed to a boy doing these things to her.

Xiao Youran has liked Xu Xiuwen since junior high school.

It was also from that time that she began to like to discipline Xiao Xu, telling him what he was not allowed to do and what he was required to do, just like a little wife.

Xiao Youran was once addicted to that little thought.

Every time Xu Xiuwen listened to her words, she would be secretly happy.

If he disobeys, she will secretly be sad.

In the blink of an eye, three years have passed.

They have grown up, but their relationship has become more and more distant.

We are no longer as close as we were in junior high school.

Standing in front of the school gate, she suddenly remembered the past. Thinking about it, she couldn't help but laugh softly.

Xu Xiuwen didn't want to think about what happened in junior high school. He was not as sentimental as Xiao Youran.

He was about to leave, but after taking a few steps, he found Xiao Youran standing there and not following.

He had no choice but to return to the girl and remind her, "Let's go, Youran."

Xiao Youran glanced at him, his clear eyes sparkling.

She bit her lip and suddenly asked, "Xiao Xu, I want to go back to school. Can you come with me?"

She didn't know if Xiao Xu would agree, so she was a little nervous.

Xu Xiuwen was quiet for a second after hearing her request, and then asked again: "Do you really want to go back and take a look?"

Xiao Youran said "hmm" with a serious expression.

After looking at each other, Xu Xiuwen said, "It's a holiday now, so you shouldn't be able to get in from the main entrance."

"What should I do?"

"I remembered, come with me."

After Xu Xiuwen finished speaking, he walked towards the side of the school.

Coming to a corner, Xu Xiuwen pointed to an osmanthus tree outside the wall and said, "Come over the wall from here."

"I can not do it!"

Xiao Youran said with an embarrassed look.

Xu Xiuwen said patiently: "Climb to the branch first, then step on the branch above, then put your hands on the wall and climb up."

"Then I'll try."

Xiao Youran did as Xu Xiuwen said and started climbing the tree.

Xu Xiuwen stood below to protect her and prevent her from falling.

Fortunately, the wall was not high, and the height of the branches and branches was just right, so Xiao Youran climbed up without much effort.

She stood on the wall, holding a branch in her hand, and said nervously: "Xiao Xu, what should we do now?"

"Wait for me." Xu Xiuwen climbed up the wall in the same way.

Walk a few steps along the fence. Inside the fence, there is also a tree, but there are no branches or branches to step on.

Xu Xiuwen has climbed many times in junior high school and already knows how to do it.

He hugged the tree trunk with both hands, then hung his legs on the tree and slid directly down the trunk.

The surface of the tree trunk, which had been hugged by countless people, was very smooth and would not rattle at all. Xu Xiuwen stood on the ground, raised his head and said to Xiao Youran, "Come down like I did just now, don't worry, it'll be fine."

Xiao Youran followed Xu Xiuwen's example and slid down holding the tree trunk.

After landing, he shouted very excitedly: "Xiao Xu, I'm coming down."

Xu Xiuwen smiled and said, "Yeah, you're down. Do you want to give you a little red flower?"

Xiao Youran smiled sheepishly.

The two of them wandered around the deserted campus.

Xu Xiuwen felt nostalgic for a while when he revisited his old place.

Xiao Youran next to him was even more excited.

When he came to the back of the school, Xiao Youran happily pulled him into the woods.

Xiao Youran searched carefully for a long time and couldn't help but said: "Xiao Xu, why can't I find that tree?"

Xu Xiuwen guessed which tree she was looking for.

He looked around, discerned the terrain, and then walked in a certain direction.

Soon he found the location of the tree, "Is it this tree?"

Xiao Youran looked in the direction he pointed, not sure whether it was this tree.

She walked to the tree, stood on tiptoes, raised her head and searched carefully.

soon.

Xiao Youran shouted in surprise: "I found it, I found it, Xiao Xu, look it's still there."

Xiao Youran pointed to the pattern on the tree trunk above his head, jumping up and down, his eyes full of smiles.

Xu Xiuwen knew what Xiao Youran was looking for. He looked over and suddenly froze on the spot.

Xiao Youran also reacted, and his face suddenly turned red.

On the tree trunk, the names of Xu Xiuwen and Xiao Youran are engraved.

Xu Xiuwen remembered that it was the last day of junior high school graduation. Xiao Youran dragged him here, wanting to leave their names on the tree.

She learned this from her best friend in junior high school.

Xiao Youran was worried that her name would be erased by others in the future.

So she deliberately carved it in a relatively high position.

Because he couldn't reach high places, Xu Xiuwen even acted as a human ladder.

Xiao Youran sat on his shoulder and carved the name on the tree trunk with a knife.

He still remembered that it was summer, and Xiao Youran wore a green skirt that day.

When she was carving words on it, Xu Xiuwen's sight was blocked by the tail of her skirt and he couldn't see what words she had carved.

And at that time, his attention was attracted by the girl's two long and slender legs.

So much so that after the girl finished carving the words, he didn't even think of taking a look.

But now Xu Xiuwen saw clearly.

Outside their names, there is also a heart pattern.

Xu Xiuwen saw it, and Xiao Youran naturally saw it too.

Xiao Youran was dumbfounded. Her cheeks were hot and she didn't know how to explain it.

Xu Xiuwen noticed Xiao Youran's reaction and smiled, "Hey, I didn't realize it at the time, so you had a crush on me at that time?"

With Xiao Youran's character, she would definitely not admit it at this time.

She should have said: "I don't have a crush on you, someone else added it to me."

Otherwise Xu Xiuwen would not dare to tease her.

The result was something he didn't expect.

After Xiao Youran was quiet for a few seconds, he suddenly nodded and said: "Well, I liked you then, and I like you now too. I like you so much, Xu Xiuwen."

Xiao Youran had no scruples this time and said it directly to his face.

Xu Xiuwen was a little panicked by her sudden confession.

Is this still the Xiao Youran he knows?
  The Xiao Youran he knew was obviously a thin-skinned girl who liked to talk duplicity.

Even if she likes it, she is always unwilling to admit it.

Face this situation.

For a moment, he was silent.

From Xiao Youran's shyness when she first discovered her little secret, to her excited confession, to now, Xu Xiuwen's silent reaction, her heart suddenly became cold.

She thought about confessing to her many times, but she could never let go.

But today she took this opportunity to confess her love.

What she hoped to see was Xu Xiuwen's expression of joy and his unhesitating agreement.

But she didn't see any of it.

Xu Xiuwen was silent and calm.

There was no trace of joy on his face.

Xiao Youran's mood instantly hit rock bottom.

Ever since she was forcefully kissed last time, Xiao Youran had always thought that Xu Xiuwen also liked her.

Why did he kiss her if he didn't like her?

But since entering college, Xu Xiuwen has changed.

She always contacted him first, and he always ended the topic first.

Except for a period of time when school first started, he almost never went to Jiaotong University to look for her.

What he did and what he was busy with recently, he never took the initiative to tell her unless she asked.

Including this vacation, Xu Xiuwen didn't come back with her, and he didn't even tell her when he would come back.

Xiao Youran is not a fool.

She also noticed changes in Xu Xiuwen.

She gave him many excuses, such as he was busy and had his own things to do.

But at this moment, facing her confession, Xu Xiuwen chose to remain silent.

The excuses she had made for him were like sharp knives piercing through her heart.

It hurts!

But Xiao Youran hasn't given up yet.

She still clung to the last vestiges of fantasy.

She bit her lip and looked at Xu Xiuwen stubbornly, waiting for an answer.

Even if Xu Xiuwen didn't like her, she had to hear him say it himself before she was willing to believe it.

Xu Xiuwen really didn't want to have a showdown with Xiao Youran at this time.

But there is no way, everything has come to this point, it must be said.

Everyone's youth is precious.

He already has Cheng Lu, Tang Weiwei, and even his lover An Shishi.

He knew Xiao Youran, she was both generous and stingy.

Her generosity is reflected in her frequent sharing of food and supplies with others. Starting from kindergarten, she would share the snacks, beautiful stationery, etc. prepared by Aunt Zhang for her with her classmates.

But emotionally, she is very stingy and cannot tolerate other girls in her eyes.

In high school and junior high school, whenever Xu Xiuwen got close to a girl, she would get sulky for several days.

Even in college, Xu Xiuwen still remembered the first time he met Song Siyu. At that time, Xiao Youran bumped into him and left his number. He was angry and sad at the same time.

There is absolutely no way she would share her boyfriend with another girl!
  So there is absolutely no possibility between Xu Xiuwen and her.

Since it was impossible, he didn't want to delay it any longer.

I originally planned to have a showdown during the Chinese New Year, but it’s a pity that we didn’t wait until the Chinese New Year.

Xu Xiuwen was silent for a long time, and finally said, "Youran, it's impossible for us!"

Although Xiao Youran had already guessed the answer, she really thought she heard these words.

She had an emotional breakdown!

Xu Xiuwen lowered his head, thinking about how to continue.

A low sob reached his ears.

Only then did Xu Xiuwen realize something and looked up.

Xiao Youran was already crying, her tears were falling down, and she was crying with her mouth flat and the pear blossoms were wet with rain.

She sobbed and asked unwillingly: "Why is it impossible?"

Xu Xiuwen couldn't bear to look at her appearance at this moment, it was so heartbreaking.

He forced himself to harden his heart and said, "I'm sorry, I like someone else."

"Xu Xiuwen, you obviously like me...why don't you like me anymore...?"

"I'm sorry, it's really impossible for us. You will find someone who likes you."

After a few seconds of silence.

Xiao Youran suddenly begged, "What did I do wrong...I will definitely change...Xiao Xu, can you continue to like me?"

Xu Xiuwen said cruelly: "You are right, I am in love with another girl."

"Wow~~"

Xiao Youran burst into tears.

(End of this chapter)