White Fence Dream

Chapter 264 Understand
Zhou Jingyun slowly opened his eyes.

When I am not feeling well, I always feel a sense of unreality when I fall asleep and wake up, as if I have never slept and yet have never woken up.

A pair of eyes looked at him flickeringly.

Zhou Jingyun woke up instantly, and his confused consciousness was brought back to focus. He finally understood what happened before.

"When did you come back?" He smiled and looked out the window. "It's midnight, why aren't you going to bed yet?"

Bai Li smiled and said, "I came back after the lights were turned on. I slept a lot during the day, so I'm not sleepy." After that, he propped himself up and called Doctor Sun, "The prince is awake."

Doctor Sun came in with his disciples, examined the wound, changed the medicine, turned the patient over, and cleaned the patient, etc. After everything was done, Bai Li came in again.

"The prince is recovering very well." Doctor Sun said, "After taking the medicine, you can have some ginseng porridge."

Bai Li thanked him and said, "Doctor Sun, go and have a rest. I will take care of this."

Behind her, Mrs. Zhuang was holding the child, and Chunyue also came in with medicine, and the small room became crowded.

"Doctor Sun," Chunyue said, "I have prepared a midnight snack for you."

Doctor Sun thanked him with a smile, then retreated with his disciples. Through the landscape curtain, he could see the young lady sitting beside the bed. She took the child and showed it to Zhou Jingyun. The child babbled and reached out to touch Zhou Jingyun's face.

No one outside knows it yet, but Prince Zhou, who has been having an affair outside and having an ambiguous relationship with the King of Chu recently, has not been idle at home either. He has found a new love and has a child.

"Why aren't you asleep yet?"

"She's sleeping."

The interior is noisy and cozy.

Logically speaking, with Prince Zhou in such a mess both inside and outside the family, and with him getting injured for no apparent reason, his family should be in a gloomy mood.

But it seems very warm now, which is really weird.

When he looked away and saw his disciple also looking towards the bedroom, Doctor Sun raised his hand and hit him.

"What are you looking at! Go cut some medicine!"

"He's sick and can't hold you."

Bai Li picked up Nannan from in front of Zhou Jingyun and handed her to Mrs. Zhuang.

The child pouted and was about to cry, so Madam Zhuang hurriedly coaxed him, "I'll hold you when the prince is better."

Bai Li curled her lips and said, "I hug her too much every day. She's spoiled."

Zhou Jingyun laughed: "Are you going to let the child run away by herself if you don't hold her?"

Chunyue laid out the towel and brought the medicine bowl. Baili took it and said, "Here, take the medicine." Then he put the medicine bowl down again, picked up the box from the bedside and opened it, "I brought you some snacks."

Zhou Jingyun looked at a box of colorful thousand-layer cakes and listened to Bai Li's voice.

"I bought it when I passed by the East Market after I came out of the Chu Palace. You've been taking medicine lately and your mouth is bitter. Eat something sweet."

Nannan opened her hands to grab the brightly colored snacks, but Bai Li quickly took them away: "They are not for you."

Mrs. Zhuang smiled and took the child away: "You can't eat this yet, come on, let's go and have some milk."

She took the child out and the room became quiet.

Bai Li fed the medicine to Zhou Jingyun: "Tell me if you are suffering."

Zhou Jingyun smiled and said ok, then swallowed the medicine: "It's not that bitter."

Bai Li smiled and continued while feeding the medicine: "Guess who I met when I was buying snacks."

Zhou Jingyun said: "Zhang Ze?"

Bai Li smiled: "Your Highness is really smart. He can even guess this."

Zhou Jingyun laughed, then asked worriedly, "He didn't say anything, did he? Did he notice that you are different?"

Bai Li raised an eyebrow: "I am also very smart."

Zhou Jingyun laughed again and then hissed.

Bai Li quickly put down the medicine bowl and subconsciously wanted to touch his chest, but did not dare to touch it.

"Did it involve the wound? Don't laugh, don't laugh." She said, and then scolded, "What's so funny about what I said!"

Zhou Jingyun held back his laughter and indicated that he would not laugh anymore.

Bai Li continued feeding the medicine, and then said: "Zhang Ze is very smart and already knows what kind of existence I am, so he is very respectful to me and completely treats me as the Queen of Jiang."

Zhou Jingyun understood what she meant. Bai Li’s peculiarity was that he could change according to the other party’s wishes. So Zhang Ze knew that Bai Li was Bai Li, but he wanted to treat Bai Li as Queen Jiang, and then get a Queen Jiang.

"Are you okay? You haven't been affected by him, have you?" he asked softly.

Bai Li smiled at him, "No, don't worry." She gently tapped his chest with her finger, "Your injury cannot be in vain. I am sober now."

Zhou Jingyun smiled. As expected, even through the thin blanket and cloth wrapped around the wound, he could still feel the numbness where his fingers had touched.

"What did he say to you?" he asked hurriedly.

"He came to ask you how you got hurt. I told him that you wanted to stop me from marrying the King of Chu, so I stabbed you to teach you a lesson. He was very happy."

Zhou Jingyun smiled again.

As he was talking, he finished a bowl of medicine.

"You finished it so quickly?" Bai Li looked at the medicine bowl, then at the snack box beside it, "I forgot to feed you snacks."

Zhou Jingyun smiled and said, "It's not bitter."

Bai Li put down the bowl and wiped the corners of his mouth with a handkerchief: "Rest for a while before eating the ginseng porridge."

Zhou Jingyun hummed and asked her, "Have you eaten yet?"

Bai Li nodded, smiling: "Chun Yue prepared some steamed chicken in lotus leaves for me. It's really delicious. I'll let you try some when you're done eating meat."

Zhou Jingyun smiled and said hello.

The room seemed quiet for a moment.

Zhou Jingyun looked at Bai Li, who was lowering her head to adjust the candle flame, as if she was dissatisfied with why the candle flame was not bright enough. He sighed in his heart. After saying so much, she didn't say the most important thing. So he should speak first.

"How is the King of Chu doing?" he asked.

Bai Li hummed and looked away from the candlelight.

"Him." She smiled, as if she had just thought of something. "There is something I have never told you. His physique is also somewhat special."

Zhou Jingyun said "oh" and waited for her to speak with a smile.

"He never dreams." Bai Li knelt beside the bed so that he could look at him at eye level. "You know everyone dreams. Many people say they don't dream, but in fact they have forgotten what they have dreamed. But he is not like that. He really has a dreamless state."

He told her about the first time he entered the palace through a dream, alarmed the imperial bell, and broke into Li Yu's dream while fleeing.

"Later, when I faked my own death, I asked him to help me because he could stay awake in the illusion and see things that others couldn't."

Hearing this, Zhou Jingyun suddenly realized: "So, he has already discovered that something is wrong with you?"

Bai Li looked at him and nodded with a smile: "Yes, you were deceived by him."

Zhou Jingyun laughed: "I thought he didn't notice it, he really is..."

He was always worried about what would happen when Li Yu found out that Bai Li had turned into Jiang.

It turns out that it's not that great after all.
Maybe he has been enduring since he was a child, always pretending, pretending that he is not the eldest grandson of the emperor, pretending that he is the concubine of Shangguan Fu Ma, pretending that he is a dandy.

You can also pretend that you didn't notice that Bai Li in front of you has turned into Queen Jiang.

"Then he proposed marriage." Zhou Jingyun thought of something and asked, "was that intentional?"

Bai Li hummed, "He wants to be like before, thinking that keeping me by his side will help me come back."

Zhou Jingyun nodded: "That's great, not only is he not afraid, he even dares to get close to me." The room seemed to be quiet again for a moment.

"so."

The two said in unison again.

After the words came out, the two looked at each other in surprise, and then they both laughed.

"So, what do you want to do next?" Zhou Jingyun asked with a smile.

Bai Li looked at him and said, "I want to continue the fake marriage with him." Without waiting for Zhou Jingyun to speak, he continued, "Although I am awake, the previous situation will not be the last time. My mental instability is getting worse and worse."

Zhou Jingyun was silent. He had guessed it from the moment Bai Li asked him to prepare the dagger.

"I am awake now, but I can't guarantee that I will always be awake." Bai Li whispered, "Because I have too many thoughts."

Zhou Jingyun looked at her and said softly: "Mrs. Zhuang said that you have a natural constitution and need to be pure and free from desires, but since you came to Beijing..."

In other words, since the Bai family's disaster, although she left the Bai family, she could not leave their ties.

Zhou Jingyun raised his hand. Since Bai Li was kneeling beside the bed, he didn't have to exert too much effort. He gently touched her smooth, white forehead with his fingers.

Her sister's thoughts, the thoughts of her family's tragic death, Zhuang Feizi's thoughts, Shen Qing's thoughts
The people she met and the thoughts she had left marks on her, corroding and entangled her.

Bai Li looked at him and said, "I won't hide it from you. I don't know when I will lose myself and who I am."

She held Zhou Jingyun's fingers, pulled his hand, and gently placed it on her cheek.

"If I don't put these thoughts to rest and make myself clean, even if you have nine lives and can save me nine times, what will I do the tenth time?"

Perhaps it was because he was holding her hand and felt her soft and delicate skin, Zhou Jingyun did not feel restrained and smiled: "When the nine lives are used up, I will think of other ways?"

Bai Li gave him a reproachful look and said, "Once is enough."

Her eyes dropped to his chest.

Once is enough.

She didn't want to see him lying like this, broken and with the desperate look in the eyes of Lady Dongyang.

She lowered her gaze.

"I will marry him and send my daughter back to the royal family."

"I want to make sure my sister's dream never comes true."

"I want to comfort the abandoned lives."

"Besides that, there are her thoughts and those people's thoughts."

Zhou Jingyun understood who she was talking about.

"Bai Li," he said word by word, "You are the victim. You don't owe anyone anything, and you don't have to be responsible for anyone's thoughts."

Bai Li smiled and looked up at him: "I know, I'm not doing this for others, I'm doing this for myself."

Whether it was passive or active, those thoughts were her own, they existed, and she benefited from them. She couldn't pretend that they had nothing to do with her.

If she ignores it and keeps pushing it onto others, she will become someone else sooner or later.

Zhou Jingyun looked at her. Her face was calm under the candlelight and there seemed to be a smile in her eyes. In a trance, he seemed to see that person.

"Zhou Jingyun, my existence is her will. How do you know that what I am going to do is not her will?"

"Zhou Jingyun, don't forget that the first time you saw her, she was related to me."

She was drawn into a cage from the very beginning.

She was also entangled with the thought of his life.

Zhou Jingyun thought, how good it would have been if he had not gone to the academy.

But if he hadn't gone, he and she would never have met.

She was taken away by Shen Qing. When she was in danger, he was just a stranger, unaware and indifferent. In the end, Bai Li no longer existed in this world...

That's not okay.

Let him think about it and meet her.

Zhou Jingyun sighed in his heart.

"Zhou Jingyun, don't worry, I know what I am doing. This is my own choice and my own thought."

Zhou Jingyun said: "I understand what you mean. God will save those who save themselves."

He smiled again when he said this.

"Don't worry, if God doesn't save you, I'm still here for you."

Bai Li looked at him.

Although maybe it was an idea given to him by others, from the moment he said he would marry her and protect her, he has always been protecting her, the one called Bai Li.

She nodded: "I know."

A moment of silence inside.

"I'll tell my mother about this," said Zhou Jingyun.

Bai Li shook his head: "I'll do it. This is my business."

Zhou Jingyun looked at her and said hello.

"Well, have some porridge." Bai Li said, releasing his hand, "You're still hungry."

In fact, she was not hungry. Zhou Jingyun's hand stayed on her cheek for a moment and then fell back to her side.

Bai Li stood up and called Chunyue.

Chunyue came in with the porridge. Bai Li was about to take it, but Zhou Jingyun didn't let her feed her.

"Mother must not be asleep yet. Go tell her now," Zhou Jingyun said, "otherwise she will get angry again if she hears about it from others tomorrow."

Then he signaled to Chunyue with his eyes.

"She just needs to feed me porridge."

Bai Li said ok and smiled at him: "Then I'll go."

Zhou Jingyun smiled and nodded: "Go ahead." He then reminded, "Remember to tell her that this is what we discussed."

To prevent the wife of Dongyang Hou from scolding only her? Bai Li looked at him and nodded again: "Okay, I know."

Zhou Jingyun stopped talking and looked at her with a smile.

Bai Li looked at him again, turned and walked out.

Chunyue was a little nervous. Wasn't she going to meet the lady in the next room? Why were the young master and the young lady so reluctant to leave?
"Prince," she said softly, "I will feed you porridge."

Zhou Jingyun lowered his eyes: "Wait a moment."

Wait a minute? Wait for what? Chunyue was puzzled, and then saw Zhou Jingyun turn his head to look at the bedside.

"Give me a snack," he said.

Chunyue looked at the thousand-layer cake bought by Baili placed beside the bed and quickly answered yes. She felt a little confused. She was going to eat porridge, so why did she want to have snacks?
The prince actually doesn't have the habit of eating snacks.

"too bitter."

Zhou Jingyun's voice came softly.

Bitter? Is the medicine bitter? But it takes a while after taking the medicine, Chunyue thought, the prince didn't want to take it just now, was he afraid that Miss Bai would laugh at him?
She pinched the snack in one hand and held it with the other, then handed it to Zhou Jingyun's mouth.

Zhou Jingyun took a light bite, and the sweetness of the pastry spread in his mouth.